yea i certainly love my mum. but i hated the way she treated me ytd. i called her ytd but she rejected my calls cos she was at my step grandma. normally i dont really go to her when i have any trouble. but ytd i needed her. she knows about if but she hang up on me! cos of my STEP grandma. i dun really like her very much. well...i dun really like alot of ppl from my mum side of the family. there are some people getting puffed up cos they are richer than others. while some are poor. my mum's side of the family is just weird! i thought bros and sis are supposed to share more? i still prefer my dad's side of the family. more unity...more harmony...
my step grandma is...i dunno. i dun really like her. she backstabs! to my guardian, she claimed that my aunt is IRRITATING! DAMN IRRITATING! but in front of my aunt, she gets all nice. a fake, i would call her. though my mum always brought me closer to my step grandma, i have never felt the closeness at all since young. maybe jealousy cos she favours my cousin more, but certainly its cos she has never made the effort. after all, i dun really like her character. about 2 mths back, my kuku and mum came. my kuku told me that my step grandma is like...treating my mum wif hostility cos my mum dun let me move to my uncle hse in spore. pity my mum, the always so forgiving one. tts y i dun like her: she forces her will on others and bullying my mum! i get slightly unhappy when my mum defends her. i dun really like her having contacts with my mum if my mum were to get bullied again.
oh ya...my dad,mum n kuku wun let me move into my uncle hse in spore cos thr are only me, my bro and my cousins. there is no adults to take care of us. yeah, i find them logical. even if i were to be offered to stay there, i will refuse. i dont want to live with my cousins, who even calculate 10 cents with her sister. really pity them to have such a mother and father. maybe its their upbringing to cause them to be so calculative and refusing to share with their siblings.
haha maybe i am being too critical. maybe i have been too unforgiving. but it is just my opinions...
currently in a sad mood.
when i am sick, there is no one to hold my forehead.
when i am sad, there is no one to comfort me.
when i get good marks, there is no one to hug me and tells me well done.
when i fail, there is no one to stop my tears from falling onto my lap.
when i went through a bad day, there is no face who smile at me to tell me to cheer up.
despite the freedom i experience, i would choose not to have it if it would mean having my mum away from me. instead, this freedom brings me bondage. i know my parents are doing it for my future. but what is the meaning of a good salary in the future if it means tens of years of loneliness and feelings of rejection?
"courage is continuing to try despite knowing the large risk of failure"
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:11 PM
