haha just feel like being "emo". i dont know...i had been having pretty serious mood swings lately. maybe cos of weird sleeping time, maybe cos feeling quite weird, or maybe brain steamed cos i had been thinking too much lately. but i really dont know why...
school is starting in about a month's time. havent really done anything i want to do in the holidays really, except sleeping. i think i still want to:
-swim!
-draw
-shop for clothes, sandals, bags
-spend one whole day doing what we had always done
cant think of anything else right now...hahaha
the thing i really want right now is actually to see my parents. i dont know when i will be seeing them next time, cos i am still unsure of my uni timetable and stuff. but hope they will give me a long long christmas break. christmas is the best season of the year :) the only time my father goes to the church...other than new years eves.
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:15 PM
oookkkk so we went to ryan's bdae party ytd. jehan, jo, fen, eric, sam, jeremy and i. cheryl was having dinner wif her parents so she cant come. then ronald was busy mugging at home. so we celebrated ryan's bdae, and they ate, and sang bdae song. in all times, laughed a lot. yeaps my laughter medicine :)
sometimes i am happy. sometimes i am stressed. but no matter how stressed i am, i realised it only takes at most three days for me to bounce back again to my usual mode. fast recovery, eh?
maybe i am growing numb cos of hurt. when i walked away, i dint even cry. cos you told me to be a big gal.
luvangel2003 believed today at 4:14 PM
hehe...totally shagged. dont even know what i was really doing yesterday night. just remember watching drama, while typing out my story (which i dont know if it will ever finish!) so at 4 am, i was still msging my fren and wondering if i can wake up the next day for service. but here i am, waking up too early for service, but being too late for prayer meeting. so i am waiting for jehan and jansen now :)
life might get hard. but i still find the energy to laugh and smile at every little thing that people did for me. you may think that i may not notice it, but everytime you carry out my "punishment" because you were late, i would be hiding my smile. gaah haha i know that you wont be reading this...anyway...except if some people chose to share this blog, which i meant to be a secret! yeaps thanks for the effort to make me smile. even tho i may not be able to smile on the spot, but when i thought about it at night, i would smile. not at the jokes you cracked, or trying hard to please me, but merely your effort is able to bring the smile back to my face. thanks <3!
i know these few weeks have been very trying for you. i may not be able to stand beside you. but remember that god is always near. even when all the things seem to be going very wrong, god is actually there, giving you strength. so jiayous <3 :) no matter what happens b/w us, you will be able to believe it, right?
you know that the part of me will always die after this. cos you have been a part of me. and now i am learning to let go, and live on without you...my oxygen. so please dont make it even more difficult to step away...pls...
luvangel2003 believed today at 8:15 AM
o.O i dont know why i like him. he is so different from other guys i had liked before. all the guys i had liked before are handsome or cute...romantic...hurtful in the end. but him? i dont know either.
:) i still got 1 month holiday! met up wif hui hoon ytd and we talked about alot of things. about her campus life in ntu, her 'hmmm', and even the aunty on the mrt. the story of the aunty just keep making me laugh! the aunty was like super weird. when hui hoon's fren sat on the seat next to her, she put her arms on hoon's fren. her fren wiggled her arms, but the aunty's arms are FAT and didnt even move a single inch. in the end, hoon took out her phone to take a photo. the aunty withdrew her hand, only to put her arms back to its original position when hoon kept her phone. hoon held the phone in her hands then. and in desperation, hoon's fren stood up. then an uncle (i think) came in and wondered why the seat beside the aunty is empty. he sat down, which is the worst mistake ever. the problematic aunty took out a newspaper and pushed him hard using her elbows. the man stood up too i think. next the one who dared to sit down was a young and handsome guy. sadly, the woman did not do anything to him. if not, he could have made the aunty feel weird i think. hahaha...but the weirdest thing: the aunty looked at my fren and my fren's fren, asking them to sit down beside her cos the seat is empty. hoon and her fren just pretended not to see and ignore her. hahaha lucky they are clever enough. or not the people on the train thought that they recognise the weird aunty. call her a retard, cant...cos she clearly know how to withdraw her hand when my fren snapped out her handphone to take a picture. then it is called inconsiderate?
anyway today planned to meet fen for dinner but she cant make it, cos she have tuition until 8pm at nite. so here i am rotting at home...no one fun to tok to and blogging in my dead blog. siannnnn!!!~~ gonna bathe now then :)
luvangel2003 believed today at 4:27 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
:) cos i dont even care a single bit about you. not anymore :)
luvangel2003 believed today at 3:00 PM
scenery from the storeroom...haha randomness!
hheehe thought not going to go back to great eastern to work anymore. but kelly asked me to come back cos she got some stuff for me to do. so other than typing in datas, i also did some filing, counting stuff e.g. tee shirts...and climbing up boxes haha! e storerm is SUPER DUPER cramped. c e number of rubbish in that small room...but quite comfortable. and got air con blow blow...so quite okay counting tee shirts in the storerm.
then today cencen decided to walk! so i walked from clarke quay to city hall. go in raffles city awhile. continue walking to bugis. from bugis to lavender. from lavender to kallang. but when i was reaching kallang, a guy came over to seek for direction. i regretted talking to him la! he is like a stalker. i was so scared haha!bt of course i pretended to b calm. in e end i took a bus. and he followed! so i alighted at kembangan n walked over to kembangan police station (it was on the way home!) and there, off he goes. PHEW...had been scared to death acty. he kept asking my phone no. and telling me that he is a rich businessman from some country. own shops in mustafa. so what?! see! that was me in my house lift. i was like...chiong ing home, scared to meet stalker again!
luvangel2003 believed today at 9:53 PM
Saturday, August 15, 2009
it seems like a short time ago when yufen graduated from sot. but this year, joanne has already graduated. next year will be hexing i think. when is it my turn? haha!
ever since andrew returned into my life, i started reflecting on the life i had. he might think that i have been having a hard life. but i think that this is life: there is hard moments and easier going moments. there is a time of love an also a time of heartbreak. :( there is a time of feeling lonely and a time together with friends. if my whole life is all easy going, i dont think that it will even be that exciting as now. when you are in the valley, times might seem bleak. but when you have reached the mountaintop, definitely the view will be breathtaking. the higher the mountain, the more beautiful the scenery up there. yeah i definitely think that something great is going to happen in my life :) indeed, all the complexities in life make a beautiful picture. it might seem like an abstract now. but as god sees it from heaven, the picture is a masterpiece.that alone makes me smile :):)
haha in cell grp just now, fen shared that we must focus on god 100%, or at least try to move forward to that 100%. thinking about that, i feel really guilty. i really wanted to go to prayer meeting on monday. but i overslept cos i slept at 4am the day before. and the more guilty thing is...i forgot that there is prayer meeting on the rest of the week haha! so yeaps 0 attendance in the bimonthly prayer meeting (as usual). i definitely fail in waking up early!
ok now i gotta let my creativity flow. flow out!!!! let there be a flood...of creativity! i just hope its not water flood =.=
luvangel2003 believed today at 6:28 PM
hehehe so happy...i found andrew!!! it was totally random la. i juz googled andrea, his sis. and i realised that i have missed out a 'h' in his surname! shared moments wif him to reminicise about the past. talking about everything we had missed for the past 10 years. for 10 years, i had only missed out a 'h'~ how sickening is that??!!!
anyway i am going in to psb academy next month, 28 sep 09. its a private uni located at tiong bahru. weeelllll private uni might not be as good as nus. but at least i got the pharmaceutical science. ronald said that it is not easy. but i havent tried, how would i know? hahahhaa so i will just try and...ah ya, juz try 1st!!! :):) cencen sure can get thru everything one!!
anw i juz came back from town after meeting e cell group peeps to...ah ya to do something la! haha...had a fun time wif them, as usual. despite being very sick early this morning until i cant wake up. but my healing mechanism moved quite fast today. i was sure it was god's healing tho :) but something good came out of this morning of not going to work. i managed to chat with andrew haha. at first i was like...dying. it was even difficult to move my fingers to type. but i dont know why...when healing came, i was just able to type normally. and now, cencen has almost been fully healed, except for sore throat :(
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:38 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
cos mayb i am already sick of you. get out from my life...as if i will believe you and give you my heart once more. i wont b that stupid
luvangel2003 believed today at 1:57 AM
scenery from the storeroom...haha randomness!
