Tuesday, September 29, 2009
is it possible to get close to many groups of friend? calculating the time and energy spent, i personally find that it is not really possible. well...at the most 2. if you spend everything you have got on one group of friends, you'll naturally neglect the others. hmmm so do you admit that our importance in your heart is still the same as before? no, right? sometimes, your closest group of friends you used to have might become "outdated". you are simply moving in different phase of life. you live a different life from us. it is only logical for the rest of us to draw back. its not the case of forgetting an old friend when you have met a new one. it is simply...some friends are just a fletting moment in life. only some who are regarded as family...do they stay throughout. understood?!
luvangel2003 believed today at 6:03 PM
havent been blogging much recently. have been busy meeting friends. and recently, school had also started. confused with anatomical terms =.= but cencen is working hard to make up!!!
reminded once again to love your neighbour as youself. loving others should be something natural. sometimes, it might be hard to love others different from you. sometimes, it might be hard to love someone who is just so persistent in making life difficult for you. yeah, i have someone in mind...but i am learning to love, even forgiving my guardian. trying really hard to. ignoring her weird comments and her looks. its not easy...numerous times, i have broken down, reminded of the fact that i am not living with my parents. thanks to god, i managed to forgive her and forget about the incidents. thanks to my friends, i managed to smile again despite all the stuff that has happened. life just seems more beautiful that way. and i am glad...cos i know after all these, i will come out stronger than ever before. my heart healing mechanism may be slower than the others. but yeah, it is working perfectly fine!!! :D
hmmm thinking about my friends right now. andrew, who would be busy studying in school...fall season, is it that busy? (whoops just nice he came online!) fen, my beloved cell group leader who has been really busy but really sacrificing. jo, my century food court friend. hmm it has been long since we went to eat there. samuel, my dear kor who will be going into army soon. hexing, who is 'enjoying' life in ns haha! hoon, the jc friend who accompanied me virtually throughout, bear with all my nonsensical rants. mx n xy, the one who braved the weird maths teacher with me!!! haha. the usual gang of faithsters, whom i have neglected badly, i guess...and also thinking about my family...missing my family, but not as badly. friends keep me preoccupied i gues... :D which is a good thing!
luvangel2003 believed today at 4:11 AM
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
so my father did go to church on sunday aft all. no commitment yet. by well...its a step forward. really really wanna c him in church...
rotted at home today. not extremely boring day. in fact, quite fruitful. listened to pst kong sermon on choosing the right partner for life tt fen lent me. gained...enlightment hmm? dunno, bt i feel tt i hav gained alot of wisdom n became very mature recently. really!!! hohoho...
luvangel2003 believed today at 7:43 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
watched online service cos was late for service. just finished, nw i am hving mixed emotions. happy cos got to hear e world thru live webcast...disappointed at myself cos i woke up late. like e msg on jonah tt pst kong preached. yeaps sometimes i feel tt i am like jonah too. until some circumstances overwhelm me, i almost forgotten to give thanks to god.
hmmm but super happy today. jz nw my father messaged me tt he is in church wif my mother??? :D:D:D not clear yet. gonna call later!!!:D:D
luvangel2003 believed today at 12:27 PM
Friday, September 18, 2009
cos human has a heart. whenever we hear of people falling seriously sick, we get sad. even tho we have never met him/ her, we still want tt person to hav a chance to continue living. a chance to love, a chance to b daring, a chance of...simply, living. so here i am praying for my christian's friend. never met him before, bt aft all, strangers r simply frens whom we hav yet to meet. i jz hope tt he can regain his health jz like he was...healthy, playing soccer. healing is a miracle. bt it is nt hard to get if u believe in e miracle itself.
understanding god's concept to let ppl sick is difficult. sometimes we blame god for sickness, and pain. bt i realised sth...sickness make ppl realise how short life can be. life can be over before any of u know it. so e point is...treasure each day of ur life.
gtg nw, meeting fren. shopping awaits :D
luvangel2003 believed today at 5:46 PM
Thursday, September 17, 2009
teppan-ed wif jayne at wisma atria. followed by shopping...haha realised tt thr is so many sales this year. maybe cos of recession? idk. bt i dont really feel it tho. ppl r still buying stuffs...haha talk abt being a shopaholic? :D i dont think spore experience a recession
argh sian-ed nw. hope tt u r here...
luvangel2003 believed today at 9:25 PM
the difficult thing is not to get back up on my feet again. wif my frens who are arnd, it is relatively easy...compared to learning hw to trust ppl again.
hmmm tired, bt cant get to slp again. quite sick, bt nt v sick today. so...here i am waiting for breakfast. den maybe get a little nap n off to find niunai at nite :D miss her so much. last time, we had gotten v close cos of CO, bt nw...i hardly see her. something seems odd.
School will b starting pretty soon...we will b hving an orientation on e 24th of sep. followed by a sat lesson on e 26th, an intro lecture. UGH ITS SATURDAY CLASS!!! bt sch timetable is relatively slack...hving need to go to sch once or twice a wk? n lectures r on dvd? weird... seriously
detachment period doesnt make me miss u...cos i got friends, family n a kor n a di n a jie :D:D
luvangel2003 believed today at 2:56 AM
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
sooo...went out in e morn to go wif abby to go to psb. did e enrolment thingy...shopped at tiong bahru plaza, realised tt most shops thr r food shops. den mrt-ed down to city hall for sakae buffet wif hoon. totally dead aft eating so little...no appetite ba. den walked arnd n shopped, but dint fnd anythg nice. hoho so we jz walked arnd aimlessly. den met sam kor for dinner...since jehan was slping at hm, fen at ldr's meeting, jo going hm, cheryl n ron has sch tml. den headed down to gv for the proposal. late night movie, last movie of e day at 9.45pm. totally love it <3>
am thinking abt my mama n papa. miss them loads n loads. since young, have lived away frm my parents. hwever, hvnt got used to e feeling of having my parents away frm me. say that nt living wif parents will make u stronger? got tt one totally wrong. it makes me weaker, more likely. nt hving anyone definite to fall back on. i miss e feeling of being dependent on someone. hmmm... gaah i am ranting. kkz gonna slp, had a long day...nites :D:D
luvangel2003 believed today at 1:18 AM
Monday, September 14, 2009
life is getting boring these few days. did a lot of reflecting, and thinking too. yeaps and i decided something. that you dont mean anything, not at all...after all these ordeals. if you have not proven yourself to be trustworthy, why do you keep telling me to trust you? i wont. :)
so went to service yesterday. love pst kong msg on loyalty. was reading ruth the other day at nite, but just realised the secrifice that ruth made in order to be faithful. the sacrifice cost her friends and family, security. but in exchange, she has gained a future. hmmm i wanna be as loyal as ruth...faithful to god and to his promises :D
luvangel2003 believed today at 9:03 PM
Friday, September 11, 2009
cencen realises tat she almost forgotten how to smile...if not for her kor...thanks kor... =)
luvangel2003 believed today at 6:37 AM
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
back from city hall for dinner wif jehan, jan, n harris. ate new york new york. cozy restaurant, wif pool table n candy floss yumm!!! dont know whats up with my aiming today. haha totally horrible! normally nt this bad haha
ytd i was suddenly rmb to count my blessings...old song but has deep meaning behind it. taught me to be grateful for the things that i have. began to list down the people i am thankful for, n it fills up 2 pages. not including all the stuff i am thankful for. juz realised that i hav so many things to be thankful for :)
gahh gotta bathe nw!!
luvangel2003 believed today at 9:28 PM
wat de...hav been on e phone for more than 1 hour (free incoming thankfully!)...hearing to e person's ranting. n e call wasnt even meant for my ears!!! discovered some surprising truth. but i do love hearing it from your own mouth, though. now i finally saw e real u...n guess what? i despise u :)
luvangel2003 believed today at 4:00 AM
cencen misses you more than she can imagine...see u often, but somehw e feelings r v different nowadays. so cencen keeps thinking n wondering how it'll work out in e end...
hmmm jz back from chamber session wif the usual peeps. today there was only cheryl, jo, sam and me. watched mirrors...some scary ghost movie? thriller? not v excited for it tho. i was like...closing my eyes wif my jacket for almost the whole movie. we totally went insane when watching the movie! until when the rest was away to borrow the next dvd, a guy frm e chamber beside told us not to bang e walls too much hahha! then next we watched...is it wild girls? i dont know...the girl was sent off to a boarding school. reminds me of myself...the time when i'd been so lonely cos my parents arent around. but thankfully there r always friends :) hmmm friendship is beautiful...if there is trust. if there is no trust, then always keep getting angry, how beautiful e friendship can be? yeaps thinking hw shallow some friendships r...n hw deep some others r...
today i did something la! secret though...not supposed to do it acty bt i totally screwed it! ughhh!!! =.=
off to my journal now :D:D happy moods n sad moods= journalling time :)
luvangel2003 believed today at 12:39 AM
Monday, September 07, 2009
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owww this pic was taken in indo during x'mas. cant rmb now when this pic was taken...but rmb it was at mall taman anggrek.
dont even know if i can go back to indo this yr for xmas. miss xmas...e only time my father goes to church. well...or also new yrs eve. sigh is this gonna b my 1st xmas away frm home?!luvangel2003 believed today at 2:55 AM
thank god for friends who care...been through much these few days. thanks for those who held me when i cried, not even asking me why i was crying...den walked me home. thanks! and others who listened, tho i know it is not even an interesting story to begin with. i did not want to share actually cos i was scared of breaking down but touched by your rentless concern. hmmm and those others who simply asked me. thanks arh to 'the person'...i found out how nice my friends are.
hmm yea u had thrown me to a roller coaster ride. i am given the choice now. i chose not to depend on u any further...who knows when your mood swings back. but i still care alot...i still do. glad over e news of ur E&M :) n e thing u said ytd abt guys...i am wondering if it is true. keep thinking...maybe it is maybe it is not!
hmmm n nw i am wondering y i am not slping yet. maybe cos i was scared of slping...like wat e...happened ytd when i was slping. mayb lata i am going to slp when i am really really tired...n nw my intestines r jz twisting inside of me. v painful...bt heart more pain >,<
n back to thinking again...
luvangel2003 believed today at 2:43 AM
Saturday, September 05, 2009
so...cencen had a homecoming back to geylang meth sec. met all the wonderful teachers there, wif some of the faithfourones. how nostalgic...back in mdm sng's class. wonderful form teacher, she really is. so...we just basically hang around the school compound. me walking around wif li xuan mostly...cos she was dying to spend all her coupons. hmmm a well spent saturday shortly...just that someone decided to throw a temper.
come on...time does not make me miss u less...it just worsen my longing to see u. really...
hmmm aft that basically i hang out in the library cos i decided to borrow a book. life at home is really boring...and i need entertainment beside my psp and lappie!!! had been journalling quite regularly nowadays and drawing too. should i start on the project now or when?! i cant wait to see the result!!!:D okay then for now cencen has decided to continue drawing to kill the thoughts...
wondered why i dint manage to see that there is a god in the past... maybe cos i decided not to see...but when i decided to believe, i can see...
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:47 PM
ARGH pick up my call!! =@
luvangel2003 believed today at 9:55 PM
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
went out for dinner wif the cell grp ppl ytd at some weird bar/restaurant at millenia walk. haha jeremy ordered a weird plate of pork?? ewww some of them looks so disgusting. but it doesnt taste as disgusting as it looks tho. aft dinner, we wandered aimlessly arnd suntec that area...but in the end, jehan said he was tired, and me and him ended up cabbing home. tired, but fun :D those moment of togetherness...i wouldnt want to trade it with anythg else
luvangel2003 believed today at 2:41 PM
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owww this pic was taken in indo during x'mas. cant rmb now when this pic was taken...but rmb it was at mall taman anggrek.