so scared until my heartbeat was sooo fast and i almost cried.
after sch, nth to do. went to have a talk with ms liu. very long nv talk to her liao.... learn quite some stuffs from her. "barrier between the child n the parents is just a thin line. parents need assurance from their child. commnunication between the child and parents is very impt."
my mum say i ate sth wrong. dont tell me its china food!
pain till cant stand up n almost fell down in the toilet.
dinner also nv eat.
sian la.............
the worst thing.... i took hours to do one ionic eqm qns. n die la. still cant solve. tml still need let mr ang check................................. die la.
sick of holding onto my pens over the weekend. i dun think i write that much during the weekdays la.
frustrated.
each time i hold my pen, i feel like throwing it away.
and my hand-writing is so ugly. i think this happens when i got major exams (e.g o levels. i still rmb wat ms tay said about my hand writing when O's were nearing. haha. and my letter 'A' got wings de lor. )
i didnt expect to have such grades even though they were moderated.
effort put in for prelims? i would say ok la. not as much as what the rest of the class is putting in. (i am always lidat)
attitude for prelims? try to do what i can do. study what i can study. study what i am supposed to study. (again... i am always lidat)
always running to the track or gallery to find the j1 odac-ians on almost every wed n fri. even if i got extra lessons on wed n fri. got toilet break or lesson end liao, will automatically go there n talk de. nt only talk ar... still play frisbee, volleyball, soccer, netball, captain's ball etc. and other peeps are like... studying in library, mugging etc etc.
after prelims. getting back results? more nervous than the past major exams that i have taken. i dunno y. disappointed in certain subjects esp all my H2 subj. H1 abit of improvement. but nt very good. just that little bit of improvement.
was quite glad when i knew my results. but afterall. they have been moderated. so.... be practical. work hard ba.
now.... life has been so bland. j1 having promos. means they dun have cca. so cant go find them or go play awhile.
mayb thats the way for me to relax. n thats how i survived my j1 life last year.
weather super duper hot these few days. headache la. esp in the afternoon. my body will then be super warm n i cant stand it. it becomes worse when you are in a classroom. it gets so stuffy. and its like an oven la.
long time never blog liao. actually wanted to blog for the past few days de. but very busy. have been sleeping around 2-3am every night. (nt studying hor) at least need to sleep for a few hours b4 i go sch otherwise i will be super dead in sch.
anyway, first week of term 4. i spent like crazy alrd la. from the first day of sch lor. pocket got hole liao. hais. i also nt rich. nt cannot claim but feel bad lor.
tues. after sch go buy some stuffs at night 11 or 12am lidat den do some stuffs.
wed lessons lessons till very late. after that go buy donuts... at night did some stuffs again.
thurs... GP till quite late in the afternoon. den after that chiong home to complete my stuffs. chiong till 3am den sleep.
super tiring. so decided to reward myself by having my favourite mac breakfast... haha. make me happy n lighten up my day.. haha.
after sch, celebrated mr ang bdae. haha. so funny. sianed. nv take any photos. cuz my hands were full of chocolate cream even b4 we sing the bdae song. cuz the flame keep dying off la. one candle fell down on the cake got to put the candle back den my hand kenna the cream den so suay. wind so strong. need to walk slowly. luckily got inn zheng to help to carry the cake.
haha. after that i see my hand full of cream. lazy take tissue. so i told sarah to help me do sth funny/stupid. she 'accidently' pushed my hand and touched mr ang's face. den his face kenna cream. haha.
after cutting the cake , went to ka jiao other ppl den went to walk walk. help mr lim (pe teacher) do some stuffs n went back concourse disturb ppl again.
walk here n there waiting for maths consultation. haha. settled down, stoned and watch stephan having chem consultation.
wait wait wait. den maths consultation. quite productive.
after tat brain dead liao. (i noe i cant tahan very long today de. lack of sleep for 3 days leh.)
didnt wan to go for GP cuz mdm tang went thru b4 alrd and i was so tired. still wan me to sit there for 2hours? i will die lor.
after that talk to xiao hong. den she said mdm tang told them that if we dun wan to go for gp, can dun go. cuz she went thru b4 alrd.
see... i told you so...
but i think class everyone who were supposed to go, went for it. except me lor. hais.
went home. had my lunch at 4plus.
den K.Oed slept....................................
yeaps. i can be smiling. yes. i will be :) :) :) all the way.
but....
it cant be this way.
do you noe the pain , the heartaches that i have gone thru? it happens soooo many times. its nt the first time anymore. but i still haven got used to it yet.
agree-ing initially and secretly rejecting...
i dun blame anyone.
but at least let me noe.... so that i can make certain arrangements with the actual organiser.
even though i am not the actual organiser, i still feel that i got to hold responsibility for everything. cuz i am the one informing you ppl. telling you all the details. etc etc.
you only make me so excited initially and make me fall so deeply in the end.
haha. i am eating mooncake in the most disgusting way. (cut away the skin, n avoid cutting the yolk... so i am left with the LOTUS PASTE!!! haha. )
but let me think of what happened on sat about what me, mabel n cw said?
haha. cuz we were on our way to some mooncake fair at raffles city.
den i said: i only eat the lotus paste inside the mooncake leh. ( i thought i was the super weirdest person on earth so only 'dig' out the lotus paste n eat it la. ) den mabel said she eat the skin of the mooncake. den chunwei said... he eat the egg yolk only de.
haha. thats perfect sia... lidat we can finish one whole mooncake alrd lor. :)
thursday (after prelims) : sakae sushi friday (teachers day celebration) : xin wang hong kong kitchen saturday (out with mabel, chunwei, branson) : aijjisen ramen, pastamania sunday : actualli got nice food to eat de. monday: nth to eat. makan at home today: HAHA. my $2 macdonald breakfast!!!! and later on.... dinner: xin wang hong kong cafe.
HAHA... see la. almost everyday got nice food. of course fat la.
but when got nice food ar... its worth it de lor....
