Check out some videos on Psychosis and read below for more context and tips for recovery: https://www.tiktok.com/@mah_butt_itches/video/7337707406291488042?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7293236218211583530 https://www.tiktok.com/@mah_butt_itches/video/7337713781323091243?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7293236218211583530 We're a little over 18 months into recovery from the 2nd psychotic break (I prefer to use the term shattering, but psychosis is the word everyone knows). Psychosis just has so many (mostly negative) connotations as to... Continue Reading →
Who wrote your dictionary? Full post
Y'all haven't watched enough Jurassic Park, and it shows. What did we learn? Can man control life? Can man play god? What happens when man plays god? If we make a quick swap between dinos and viruses, I'm feeling like my weird low-key obsession with Michael Crichton and Jeff Goldblum is coming in pretty damn... Continue Reading →
Is this thing on…?
Heh. "hey guys it's been awhile" as if that's not the start of basically anything anymore. Sorry, been in time out of ... life. Have you ever just lost your fucks so completely that everything is too damn much? Like feeling feelings is too much work let alone the whole conducting your life in any... Continue Reading →
Why count sheep when you can count to do lists? Or something…
Can’t sleep, so I figured I’d write here a bit. I am really tired of the fact that everything has to rush through my head when I decide it’s time for bed. But maybe there is truth in the sentiment that we are amusing ourselves to death. I suspect I’ve been avoiding things too much.... Continue Reading →
Pretty Mountains & Ranting about porno plots. These two do not go together, but alas…
Here’s a couple pretty mountain pics from this morning. The kids do skiing & snowboarding lessons here. The program is awesome. It’s volunteer run and non profit. My older two just started being junior instructors, and my daughter ended up being one of my son’s instructors which was pretty cool. I told myself to remember... Continue Reading →
No! Sleep! Til….?
Was up til after 2 again last night. I really would love to figure out why I can't sleep because it is seriously screwing up my life. Like, fine and fair enough, I generally don't have anywhere I gotta be and anything I gotta do can be tomorrow for a million tomorrows. I finally fell... Continue Reading →
T’wat am I listening to?
As requested by Violet, here's some of what I've been listening to lately. None are necessarily new, just the shit I can't stop listening to b/c they are my faves....I believe if it doesn't embed, you just click the link to get to YouTube. Thanks to the psychosis, I randomly stumbled on Motionless in White... Continue Reading →
When your fingers just won’t…
[insert it's been awhile here] To try and explain where I've been, it would be too long, so to summarize: -Life-threatening allergic reaction to antipsychotic -Led to prolly the worst psychotic break I've ever had -Culminating in incarceration -oops Be all that as it may, I once again became terrified of any and all forms... Continue Reading →
Did You Try Baking Soda & Vinegar?
Original Poetry by MahButtItches. Unusual imagery from mad GoogleFu, and an abundant harvest from the Artists and MemeLords. My eternal gratitude to the MemeLords and My Immortal.
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11:11 1:11 2:22 3:33 4:44 In the prison of my mind and heart, I wonder how many times I can remain open and trusting. I had always believed that the path of love is filled with sacrifice and unselfishness. Time and time again, I've been reminded that I must love myself first, but I cannot... Continue Reading →
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I'm alone now, but I'm not entirely sure that is the case. When you came into my life, you kicked up memories and emotions like pollen on a new spring day. When I looked at you, I saw myself. Broken and confused, just like me. You dejectedly told me how you rise and fall by... Continue Reading →
