It was around Christmas time last year that we made Zoe. Now, I'm sitting in my relatives' home in Oklahoma with my very own baby girl next to my side. I'm married and a dad. A lot changes in a year. Stacey just went out with one of her old best girlfriends and Zoe and I? We're just chilling next to each other. What better time to blog? Oh wait ... I think Zoe might need a diaper change.
Actually I wanted to change the design of the blog, then I figured I should post too. Why not, right? It's always around this time of the year when I think "Hmmm...I should blog more."
Hold on ... diaper change time.
OK ... man I thought of a lot to write about in that couple of minutes. Like, how lucky I am to have a loving wife who loves me and our little girl more than the world. I couldn't have asked for a better woman to be in my life for the rest of my life. She's perfect. Well, except for her tardiness, but I can overlook that. :) I see couples having problems and divorce rates going through the rough, an unhappiness running rampage between parents - but not with us. We're a team, and a damn good one at that.
Hold on ... time to feed the baby!
OK ... now my brain is getting too full for this post. I should blog professionally. I did back in college. Back in Oklahoma, only a few blocks from here I got $5.15 for every blog post I wrote. I could be a part of the mom and dad blogging community. Diaper companies and toy makers, feel free to send me samples of ANYTHING and I'll write about it. Send me samples and $$ and I'll write positively about it. :)
Next year will be crazy. After our trip to Oklahoma Stacey goes back to work at Advertise.com. I will be a full-time dad. That is my job. Photography is taking a backseat, as hard as that is to type, it's important for me to focus on the most important thing right now, and that's little Zoe. I never thought I would be part of the statistic of growing stay at home dads, but here I am, and happy to do so. Life will be a trip, like it always has been, but it will be fun. I'll still shoot on the weekends or after 5, and with RLP growing and becoming more successful I'll be able to create websites from home while watching Zoe! But I might stay in my sweats for weeks at a time... ;)
Having a child has been crazy. I know people do it all the time, but I've never done it before. My favorite part? When she smiles at me ... like she is now. It makes all the financial hardship, late nights, and difficult situations worth it. I've lost friends over Zoe, missed out on "opportunities" for work, and haven't gone to see a movie in 13 weeks - but I wouldn't change a single moment.
So here's to 2010. I want to show my baby girl that even though the world is way messed up, life is alright if you surround yourself with people who love you and who you love. Love is all you need!
Much love,
-marc
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Zoe is 8 weeks old...What can you do?
It's Saturday night. A year ago on a Saturday night you could find me at a concert, bar, club, friends house, partying and having a crazy good time. Tonight my wife and I are chilling at home, listening to music, having just as good of a time, but with our little 8 week old girl.
Her name's Zoe, I'm sure you know that by now if you're reading my blog, and she's the most amazing thing to happen to me since...oh, I dunno, Stacey? :) They both lighten up my world daily, hourly, even every moment. Stacey's so happy to be a mom, and Zoe is so happy to be alive. She tells me with her smiles, they both do.
I didn't know what it was going to be like to be a dad. I had no clue. I didn't really comprehend that I was GOING to be a dad until the moment she exited Stacey's body and entered the world. Her first cry was my first "oh. uh. i'm - a - dad." And so far it's been a great, exciting, entertaining trip.
We've taken her all over California, although she's never seen the beach...but that will change once it gets a little warmer. Time suddenly goes FASTER. It's harder to get out of the house when we do get out. Not only do I have to get ready, and Stacey, but we have to make sure a baby's ready too. And that means bottles, diapers, burp cloths, blankets, change in outfits (this is hollywood), and much much more. I'm surprised we even eat!
Did I mention that Stacey is an AWESOME mom? She's the best mom I know. Sad to say, but happy to say at the same time.
I wish my mom could've met Zoe. She would love her.
Sometimes we talk about how Zoe is a part of my mom. That my mom probably looked like Zoe when SHE was 8 weeks old. How crazy is that? It's the circle of life I assume, one goes out and another comes in.
Words can't explain, no matter how hard or poetic I get, the feelings of being a dad. When Zoe smiles at me, I feel a joy that is new and exciting. When Stacey (as she always does) does something very motherly, it creates a feeling in my heart that I can't explain really. I'm a family. I have a family. I am in charge of another little human being, who is my daughter, and will ALWAYS be my daughter. That's cool. That's magical. That's the best feeling in the world. My head rests a little higher on my shoulders.
And as messed up as the world is, as sirens blare outside our window right now as I type, I know that Zoe Marcia Blackwell will be fine because she has good parents, a good family, and a good network of friends. She will know love, and peace, and happiness, and she will have everything she needs, always. She will grow up with 2 parents who love her unconditionally and be supported up until our last days.
I ask that YOU create a better world for my daughter as well. Don't do anything that would comprise Zoe. Don't be a jerk in traffic, try to be more environmentally conscience, treat your neighbors better than you have. If everyone does this, maybe ... JUST MAYBE, we can change the world and Zoe won't have to know war, or hate, or discrimination.
That's all.
Her name's Zoe, I'm sure you know that by now if you're reading my blog, and she's the most amazing thing to happen to me since...oh, I dunno, Stacey? :) They both lighten up my world daily, hourly, even every moment. Stacey's so happy to be a mom, and Zoe is so happy to be alive. She tells me with her smiles, they both do.
I didn't know what it was going to be like to be a dad. I had no clue. I didn't really comprehend that I was GOING to be a dad until the moment she exited Stacey's body and entered the world. Her first cry was my first "oh. uh. i'm - a - dad." And so far it's been a great, exciting, entertaining trip.
We've taken her all over California, although she's never seen the beach...but that will change once it gets a little warmer. Time suddenly goes FASTER. It's harder to get out of the house when we do get out. Not only do I have to get ready, and Stacey, but we have to make sure a baby's ready too. And that means bottles, diapers, burp cloths, blankets, change in outfits (this is hollywood), and much much more. I'm surprised we even eat!
Did I mention that Stacey is an AWESOME mom? She's the best mom I know. Sad to say, but happy to say at the same time.
I wish my mom could've met Zoe. She would love her.
Sometimes we talk about how Zoe is a part of my mom. That my mom probably looked like Zoe when SHE was 8 weeks old. How crazy is that? It's the circle of life I assume, one goes out and another comes in.
Words can't explain, no matter how hard or poetic I get, the feelings of being a dad. When Zoe smiles at me, I feel a joy that is new and exciting. When Stacey (as she always does) does something very motherly, it creates a feeling in my heart that I can't explain really. I'm a family. I have a family. I am in charge of another little human being, who is my daughter, and will ALWAYS be my daughter. That's cool. That's magical. That's the best feeling in the world. My head rests a little higher on my shoulders.
And as messed up as the world is, as sirens blare outside our window right now as I type, I know that Zoe Marcia Blackwell will be fine because she has good parents, a good family, and a good network of friends. She will know love, and peace, and happiness, and she will have everything she needs, always. She will grow up with 2 parents who love her unconditionally and be supported up until our last days.
I ask that YOU create a better world for my daughter as well. Don't do anything that would comprise Zoe. Don't be a jerk in traffic, try to be more environmentally conscience, treat your neighbors better than you have. If everyone does this, maybe ... JUST MAYBE, we can change the world and Zoe won't have to know war, or hate, or discrimination.
That's all.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
My mom died 4 years ago today.
When people write they say you should always have a beginning, a middle, and an end. Usually when I write I don't have an end in mind ... much like today. Today marks the 4 year "anniversary" of my mother's death. She died August 25th, 2005 of ovarian cancer and none of us saw it coming.
It's not any easier today than it was 4 years ago.
I thought I could sit down and write a blog post without crying ... but I didn't even make it to the third paragraph. I want to write something...something beautiful about my mom. I want to remember her in a way that would make her proud. I want people to appreciate their moms and love being alive, because some people aren't so lucky.
My mom was a perfect lady. Granted, probably not, but through my eyes, she was. She was a good Christian woman who loved her family more than herself. She walked every day ... she even completed a marathon! She was healthy, happy, and full of life. She worked hard, played hard and lived hard. Everyone loved her, from the ladies at church to the neighbors down the street. She was amazing and taught our entire family how to love one another. There was no reason she should have been taken from this world so early. NO reason. But she was.
I wish she was here to see the birth of our child. I wish she could've met Stacey and Blake's new wife, Kacee. She wanted more than anything for us to find good woman to marry and she'd be tickled pink that all of her sons are now married. And the fact that she'd be a grandma soon would've thrilled her to no end. She would've loved being a Grandma.
But like we all have learned in my family the past 4 years, there are a lot of things that just won't ever happen. She wasn't at our weddings, she won't see the birth of our kids, she won't be at Christmas anymore, and we'll never get to eat her meatloaf ever again.
As one life exits the world, another comes into it. And I'm learning that more and more every day. While the world isn't fair - it is at the same time. People have to go to make room for more people. But who the world chooses to take is completely and totally random.
I keep writing, like if it's going to make sense if I do ... but it won't drag it out anymore than it has to. It never will make sense and my mom will never come back.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Reminder
I'm 100 yards from the beach. Taking calls, scheduling photoshoots, working on websites ... chillin'. This is a reminder that I love my job and my life. :)
Peace,
-marc
Peace,
-marc
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Overwhelmed in a good way
Sometimes I feel overwhelmed. In a good way.
I want to take over the world. I want to take pictures of people on the street. I want to re-do my webpage, re-do Lucas' webpage, Emily's, Amy's, Stacey's, Group III Management's, Diem's and 14341's. I want to create a photo project/campaign to enhance cancer awareness. I want to make a book of just people photos. I want to illustrate another Children's book like Tear Drop Key. I want to Facebook, and Twitter and Blog all at the same time. I want to clean the apartment again, wash the dishes, do more laundry and paint the walls. I want to paint. I want to draw. I want to go see movies, try different resturaunts and drink coffee all over LA. I want to drive ... far. I want to see my baby girl! I want to take Stacey on a proper honeymoon, and show her the world. I want to be a house-hold photography name. I want to create music. I wanna be on stage and sing and dance. I want to play the guitar real loud . I want to write these thank you notes, I wanna finish up Zoe's room. I want to do a clean sweep on my laptop, revamp my myspace page and put new videos on youtube. I want to make a movie. I want to direct a movie. I want to be IN a movie. I want to buy an iMac. I want to work. I want to shower, and float down a river. I want to be closer to my dad. I want to have people over and cook out. I want to swim and run and learn to fly a plane. I want to garden and riot and buy a big american flag. I want to back up, look forward, see straight. I want to sleep, talk, and light fires. I want to go to a state I've never been and see things I've never saw. I want to be afraid, be courages, take risks and shoot guns. I want to be a phsyciatrist, be on a talk show, meet Jay Leno.
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna.
There just aint enough time in the day to do everything I want! :)
Peace,
-marc
I want to take over the world. I want to take pictures of people on the street. I want to re-do my webpage, re-do Lucas' webpage, Emily's, Amy's, Stacey's, Group III Management's, Diem's and 14341's. I want to create a photo project/campaign to enhance cancer awareness. I want to make a book of just people photos. I want to illustrate another Children's book like Tear Drop Key. I want to Facebook, and Twitter and Blog all at the same time. I want to clean the apartment again, wash the dishes, do more laundry and paint the walls. I want to paint. I want to draw. I want to go see movies, try different resturaunts and drink coffee all over LA. I want to drive ... far. I want to see my baby girl! I want to take Stacey on a proper honeymoon, and show her the world. I want to be a house-hold photography name. I want to create music. I wanna be on stage and sing and dance. I want to play the guitar real loud . I want to write these thank you notes, I wanna finish up Zoe's room. I want to do a clean sweep on my laptop, revamp my myspace page and put new videos on youtube. I want to make a movie. I want to direct a movie. I want to be IN a movie. I want to buy an iMac. I want to work. I want to shower, and float down a river. I want to be closer to my dad. I want to have people over and cook out. I want to swim and run and learn to fly a plane. I want to garden and riot and buy a big american flag. I want to back up, look forward, see straight. I want to sleep, talk, and light fires. I want to go to a state I've never been and see things I've never saw. I want to be afraid, be courages, take risks and shoot guns. I want to be a phsyciatrist, be on a talk show, meet Jay Leno.
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna.
There just aint enough time in the day to do everything I want! :)
Peace,
-marc
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Buy an original painting on Etsy!
Marc's Etsy Store!
Check out the link above to buy some of my original artwork!
Thanks, Peace,
-marc
Gay Marriage
Yahoo News Story
As a married man, I have a new view on gay marriage. I've always believed that those who are homosexual should be able to be married. But now that I am married - I REALLY believe that EVERYONE should have the RIGHT to be married! I have gay friends, and when we're chilling and hangin' out, I've started to look at them and wonder "why is anyone prohibiting these guys from getting married?" It's absurd! Who thinks they have the right to tell other people how to live their lives? It's like someone telling Stacey and I "uh, no - you can't get married because you liked the new terminator movie". Dumb.
Just my two cents. As California struggles to regain the equal rights we had for a few months I'll be a supporter of anyone and everyone who wants to get married. And once we get CA straightened out (no pun intended) we'll work on the rest of the United States.
Peace,
-marc
As a married man, I have a new view on gay marriage. I've always believed that those who are homosexual should be able to be married. But now that I am married - I REALLY believe that EVERYONE should have the RIGHT to be married! I have gay friends, and when we're chilling and hangin' out, I've started to look at them and wonder "why is anyone prohibiting these guys from getting married?" It's absurd! Who thinks they have the right to tell other people how to live their lives? It's like someone telling Stacey and I "uh, no - you can't get married because you liked the new terminator movie". Dumb.
Just my two cents. As California struggles to regain the equal rights we had for a few months I'll be a supporter of anyone and everyone who wants to get married. And once we get CA straightened out (no pun intended) we'll work on the rest of the United States.
Peace,
-marc
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
A post from the Clumsy Elephant Crew
Re posting a blog from Clumsyelephant, good friends of mine who are on a cross country adventure. I don't think they'd mind me reposing it...
Week 4 – It’s A Small World After All
Back when cell phones didn’t exist and no one knew what the hell a “Carmel Macchiato” was (and for those of you that still don’t, this is a sweet, fluffy, coffee drink that Starbucks makes) the world seemed a little bigger than it does today. Now, getting in touch with someone 3,000 miles away is as easy as flipping a switch and, Presto!, instant sunlight in the dead of night or turning a faucet that immediately unleashes a seemingly unlimited supply of drinkable water. These are some of the things one begins to reevaluate while traveling across the country in not-so-luxurious accommodations. Not only does personal hygiene become difficult to maintain to keep up with mainstream society but you begin to see things a little different. Roads become life-giving arteries of highways and byways pumping you all over the nation with unlimited access. Things seem closer than they appear and conversations between strangers begin to determine where you should go and what is worth doing once you get there. You also begin to trust people more as well as your own intuition about what you want. And, oddly enough, the faster and farther you go, the slower life seems to happen.
Looking back, you can remember days when you couldn’t even get the simplest errands done. But now, in just one day, it’s possible to travel across two states, take a two-hour hike down and out of the Grand Canyon, find a free spot to set up camp, read for an hour and be asleep before 10 o’clock! And don’t be deceived by quantity because even roaming at such high speeds there remain endless moments in which the smallest happenings don’t slip by unnoticed. You really do begin to appreciate the little things. Like, have you ever noticed how impressive a game of hacky-sac can be, especially when all the players know what they’re doing? Or have you ever watched a dog in the throngs of pure ecstasy running helter-skelter after a frisky he has no hope of catching? Witnessed a herd of elk more than 30 strong weave themselves through a forest shrouded in early morning fog? Beautiful things are happening all around us and they aren’t happening that far away. Just outside of Ouray, CO you can wake up to big horned sheep grazing in your front lawn or wander off I-70 west of Denver into the Holy Cross Wilderness to discover what the “spring thaw” really means. Expect the unexpected and never be too surprised by what you’re going to get because there is no end to the many unusual things that can happen. Sitting beside a bed of hot coals left over from an early morning fire, you might not even notice the tiny creature, wired by some unimaginable energy, as it comes zigzagging up beside you like a loose bottle rocket. Suddenly, you are startled by sounds you cannot comprehend and you turn from the book you were engaged in to locate the disturbance within the force. And then, POP, up shoots what you think is a chipmunk but the royal blue color its head seems to be throws you off and you begin imagining that this might be some bizarre new hybrid. Excited about an opportunity to name your own genus, you watch in earnest as this curious little thing hops to and fro until it turns like a hurricane in your direction and recognition hits you. Yes, it is definitely a chipmunk and one that has secured a treasure beyond its reckoning and partially stuffed into its elastic cheeks – an empty single-serving coffee cream container complete with aluminum lid. Well, there goes your Scientific Discovery Award and any chance you had at a rare species breeding program, but that’s ok, you decide, maybe tomorrow you’ll discover a rare lizard that has three eyes and feathers growing out of its armpits. But fame and fortune do not hinder your kind heart into action as you get up to confront this deceived forager from possibly making the last worst decision of its life. And, as most confrontations go when really big unknown objects approach small, fragile hyper-active objects, all current directives dislodge themselves from conscious thought to be replaced instantaneously by desires of fleeing in terror. The little guy drops his already forgotten cache as his entire body seems to defy gravity as he ricochets into nonexistence. This is just one example from an impossibly long list of memories that we wish all of you could have experienced too but, unfortunately, this is when being there makes all the difference.
So yeah, you could say we have traveled quite a long way within a very short time but that fact has, by no means, affected how much we have experienced. The next time you think about how it’s just too far to get somewhere you’ve never been before or that it would be too confusing and difficult once you got there, remember a few things: 1) This really is a small world and it is getting smaller the more we advance in technology. Traveling in our modern age is peanuts compared to what it used to be like. A Grayhound bus ticket from point A to point B anywhere in the nation is just $99, and 2) Things are never as difficult as they seem. Anxiety and over-analyzation have not only become the leading causes of stress-related health problems in the world but they are causing these things completely unnecessarily. There are guides out there, maps to follow and step-by-step outlines for anything you could want to do. Get into Globalfreeloaders.com or Couchsurfers.com, buy an Atlas road map and reap the unbelievable benefits they have via their website, get online and DO some research, go to the library, contact your local governmental recreation agencies or call up a local travel agent – they are all there to help you. Just start asking questions – you’ll get answers, we promise.
Go to that town that you read about in the whatever and do aaaall the things it talked about. Oh, and if you happen to be in Denver, CO, check out the Buenos Aires Pizzeria on 22nd and Market. Not only will you get, guaranteed, amazing food but you just might have a great conversation too.
Baby Pics ... well, sonogram pics. :)
Good luck trying to deceifer what these are but the last one, you can see her eyes looking at us. ;) Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I'm a married man!
It's May 12th, 12:39 PM. My wife is at work, and I am settling back down at my desk, and thinking about what's just happened. We had a beautiful wedding last Saturday with many friends and family. Everyone worked hard to make it happen and it went off without a hitch. We were surrounded by love and celebration, just like we had planned. Stacey was the most beautiful bride I have ever seen and we're madly excited to be officially married.
Not that much has changed in our relationship, but we a wedding out of the way it's time to focus on the bigger picture. Zoe! Or, that being the potential name of our little baby girl.
Stacey's 22 weeks preggo, and goin' strong! She's a talkative little mama who loves to sleep and sometimes eat. There hasn't been that many weird cravings yet, just your common late night taco bell runs and soy mango ice cream from trader joes. she's a glowing mother already nurturing and being so motherly to our 1.2 lbs baby. :)
So who knows what the future holds for us . . . besides a little girl. We have 124 days until the expected due date. (Michael or Jacob's birthday!) In which time we'll grow and mature as a married couple (now talking about Stacey and I again) and get our home ready for our most precious creation - life. :) Zoe in greek means Life.
Have a good one!
Peace,
-marc
Thursday, April 23, 2009
The Clumsy Elephant comes to visit!
My wonderful friends Keegan and Jess are visiting California and chillin' w/ me and Stacey for a few days. It's always good to sit back and chill with these cats ... they're true artists and intellectuals...(had to look up how to spell intellectuals...) :)
Check out their webpage at www.clumsyelephant.com! Very cool stuff for the eyes.
Another busy day of doing wedding stuff and business stuff! :)
Peace,
-marc
Check out their webpage at www.clumsyelephant.com! Very cool stuff for the eyes.
Another busy day of doing wedding stuff and business stuff! :)
Peace,
-marc
Monday, February 23, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Scour.com Commercial Contest Winner!
My good friend Michael Brown and I submitted a commercial for Scour.com's Ad Contest and we won! Check out the video below!
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Photography Seminar
Stacey and I traveled over the hill to Hollywood tonight to attend a seminar on photography. (We're nerds and we like it) Wayne Scheonfeld, an awesome photographer who's been all around the world and published many beautiful books was one of the guest speakers and it was very inspiring.
What do I want to do with my photography? What is my end goal? What are my strategies to achieve that goal?
Stay tuned as life and photography collide.
Hope you all are well.
peace,
-marc
P.s. Stacey is doing great and handling the pregnancy like a champ. We're falling more and more in love every day (some days are a little harder than others) but we're well and healthy. :)
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Valentine's Day
Inspired by Suzanne Winn's blog, my soon to be siter-in-law, I'm writing tonight. I'm sitting next to her sister and my baby's mama / fiance' Stacey. We've just had a relaxing Saturday Valentine's day. I won't go into many details but we've ended up on the couch surfing the internet. We're watching videos of Suz's son Jaxon (4 in April) browse the internet...he's surfing YouTube already! He's doing the same things we are!
Life is always interesting as a Blackwell. That's never more true than it is right now. I'm in love with the most beautiful girl I've ever met ... the girl of my dreams and we're getting married! We've also created life and are talking and growing together as a couple. Preparing to be parents, I guess you could say. It's crazy! We're talking about invitations and how we're going to "do" Christmas. We're talking about and observing childrens behavior and how we're going to raise OUR child.
...
Yeah, I said "and how we're going to raise OUR child". Sometimes it still doesn't hit. But it's as real as it's ever going to be. Stacey sits right next to me looking up wedding dresses as we're suckin' down smoothies with engagement rings on.
Life is good. I'm growing up more and more every day. I thought maybe I still had a few years to goof off, but not anymore! :) It's cool. I dig the responsibility of being the man of the house (whatever that means) and taking care of Stacey and my baby. I can't wait til the little guy comes out!! You know our kid is going to be the most photographed kid in the world. ;)
So I'll stop rambling for now and send you over to Stacey's blog so you can get to know her a little bit.
Peace,
-marc
Life is always interesting as a Blackwell. That's never more true than it is right now. I'm in love with the most beautiful girl I've ever met ... the girl of my dreams and we're getting married! We've also created life and are talking and growing together as a couple. Preparing to be parents, I guess you could say. It's crazy! We're talking about invitations and how we're going to "do" Christmas. We're talking about and observing childrens behavior and how we're going to raise OUR child.
...
Yeah, I said "and how we're going to raise OUR child". Sometimes it still doesn't hit. But it's as real as it's ever going to be. Stacey sits right next to me looking up wedding dresses as we're suckin' down smoothies with engagement rings on.
Life is good. I'm growing up more and more every day. I thought maybe I still had a few years to goof off, but not anymore! :) It's cool. I dig the responsibility of being the man of the house (whatever that means) and taking care of Stacey and my baby. I can't wait til the little guy comes out!! You know our kid is going to be the most photographed kid in the world. ;)
So I'll stop rambling for now and send you over to Stacey's blog so you can get to know her a little bit.
Peace,
-marc
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Scour Ad : 'Search Everthing'
Check out this video on YouTube:
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Search socially, comment, vote and build community over something we
do every day... Scour!
Peace,
-Marc
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Saturday night...
I think I'll have another cigarette as my battery dies on the phone
I'm blogging from tonight.
As most of you know already I'm going to be a father. I'm engaged to
be a husband. I'm at the perfect place in my life to express how I feel.
My life has been judged by many, and for that I'm grateful but also
weary of what I post publicly. There's a lot to say, a lot to share
with the world. I'm a different man now. Hell, I'm a man now. The head
of a household, the guy who wears the pants in the relationship. I'm
in love and blessed to have a "baby in the oven" with the woman of my
dreams. So many thoughts and ideas and wonders fill my brain as my
lady and baby sleep just feet away.
I'm blogging from tonight.
As most of you know already I'm going to be a father. I'm engaged to
be a husband. I'm at the perfect place in my life to express how I feel.
My life has been judged by many, and for that I'm grateful but also
weary of what I post publicly. There's a lot to say, a lot to share
with the world. I'm a different man now. Hell, I'm a man now. The head
of a household, the guy who wears the pants in the relationship. I'm
in love and blessed to have a "baby in the oven" with the woman of my
dreams. So many thoughts and ideas and wonders fill my brain as my
lady and baby sleep just feet away.
How will I be as a dad?
How can I be as a husband?
How will my life change even more than it already has in the past month?
What will I learn?
What have I already discovered?
Will our baby be a boy or a girl?
I'm confident. More so now than ever. But I know in confidence to look
out for the unkown and be ready for anything that comes my way. I'm
ready to be a dad, I'm ready to be Stacey's life partner. I'm here in
the now, tryig to be better than I was a few hours ago. This is me,
this is real. This is the life I've been handed.
I'm still trying to grasp the idea that this would can end life as
quickly as it can create it.
Life is crazy. I dunno how many times I've written that here, but it
never ceases to be true. My mom told me on her deathbed that life
never slows down until you die. I beleive that 100%. if it's not this
it's that and if it's not nothing it's something.
Life is neither black nor white.
Thanks for reading.
Marc
Peace,
-Marc
Friday, January 09, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
2009
I guess it's that time. To add 2009 to the Archives on the left and put my 2 cents out there about how I feel about the New Year.
Stacey and I came up with the idea that we should just start calling days by their numerical order. So today would be 5, 2009. Not January, just 5. So Valentine's day would be considered 45 and so on.
I'm thinking bigger this year. I want to publish more books with bigger and better publishing company's. I want to take more headshots and get back into the wedding scene. I want to make more money this year than I did last. I want to change the world and make it a more beautiful place with my art. I want to change people through photography and help them see the beauty in themselves, thus making them and the people surrounding them more positive. It's all very simple. :)
I've been charged up from going home to Oklahoma and Missouri with my girlfriend. We got to hang out with our families, experience home together, and we grew a lot. She's encouraging me to push harder than I ever have business wise and without her I'd be a lot more depressed about my current fiscal situation. She's wonderful and positive and becoming one amazing photographer herself.
So with more photos to take, a lot more organization to figure out, and prospective gigs to get to - I'm off. Like every year that I've had a blog, I think it's been some 6 or 7 years now I will try to write more this year than last.
Peace,
-marc
Stacey and I came up with the idea that we should just start calling days by their numerical order. So today would be 5, 2009. Not January, just 5. So Valentine's day would be considered 45 and so on.
I'm thinking bigger this year. I want to publish more books with bigger and better publishing company's. I want to take more headshots and get back into the wedding scene. I want to make more money this year than I did last. I want to change the world and make it a more beautiful place with my art. I want to change people through photography and help them see the beauty in themselves, thus making them and the people surrounding them more positive. It's all very simple. :)
I've been charged up from going home to Oklahoma and Missouri with my girlfriend. We got to hang out with our families, experience home together, and we grew a lot. She's encouraging me to push harder than I ever have business wise and without her I'd be a lot more depressed about my current fiscal situation. She's wonderful and positive and becoming one amazing photographer herself.
So with more photos to take, a lot more organization to figure out, and prospective gigs to get to - I'm off. Like every year that I've had a blog, I think it's been some 6 or 7 years now I will try to write more this year than last.
Peace,
-marc
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