ItzaLoveThing: July 2010

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Our wedding day

What can I say...it was AMAZING, all that I ever dreamed of. We are truly blessed to have the people that we do in our lives

The morning of was a little hectic, but with one deep breath before stepping into the grass all worries were gone..

our first dance was all that imagined it to be, actually almost forgot there were close to 200 guests watching LOL..

I had my Godfather walk me down the aisle, but took time to acknowledge the male figures in my life so during the father daughter dance I had a moment with my uncle (from my dad's side) as well.

amazingly somehow we stayed on schedule while still having a blast. The food was amazing and made with love from both his family and mine. We are very thankful for that. I am also thankful to Clarissa, she did an amazing job on the girls hair and we can't forget our makeup Pinyo did a awesome job!

DJ Zita on the 1's and 2's was the best way to end the party..the vibe was beyond great and the love was in the air, non stop dancing for 2 hours and we could have kept on going.

There is not a day that goes by that I do not wish we can do that day all over again because it was a blast. And we could not have captured this wonderful event with out Vijay, He did an amazing job.

Our cake was a gift from my high school teacher, and we absolutely loved how it turned out as well as how it tasted. Thank you again Karen.

Flowers done by Lilia and I could not have had a better flower person. For me not being a flower person I LOVED how they all came out.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Unmotivated

I have had a lot on my mind, but have been too unmotivated to type it out! not sure why, just know that is how I have felt.

Some of the ramblings in my brain with out going into further detail are as follows:

Victimization-must people do it? it is unnecessary to do it and to put words in peoples mouth.
Guilty again-of being so happy, and of having the wedding of my dreams with another man.
Wedding day-wish I can do it all over because it was SOOOO much fun.
Some Friends-just really are not friends, and I am ok with that, once again it is their loss.
Thankful-for those that have stood by our side with out being hypocrites.
Widowhood-I have a love/hate relationship with it. sometimes I love reading others blogs etc and sometimes I am disgusted by them, not because of what they say, but because they say EVERYTHING I am feeling and then some.
3 years-I can not believe it has come so fast.
Pook turning 5-who would have thought it would have been done with out him.

I am sure there is more but that is all that comes to mind at the moment. and to my fellow widow readers please do not take personal (although I am sure you wouldn't), just wish we all weren't a part of the dreaded club!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Til Death Do Us Part (part 2)

Being a widow has taught me forever does not exist. I remember when Josiah and I started dating, the innocence of high school writing in every letter, card "love you, forever." Having no clue what life had in store for either one of us. We made it almost 8 years of being married and dating since a sophomore in high school, that's almost forever right?

Here I am almost 3 years later from his death doin it all over again. This time my cards, letters, cute lil posting for each other always say "til death do us part," that is really all we are ever guaranteed is that one day we will die. I got the wedding of my dreams and I can not wait for part 2 to outlast part 1!