ItzaLoveThing

Changing yourself is actually pretty easy once you set your mind to it, what makes it hard is the other factors that are part of the equation.  When working on a relationship for instance all you can do is do the best to be the best you possible, I have found it difficult at times when others actions etc affect your attitude or your progress of change even.  Regardless of the other factors around me I will continue to hold myself accountable to being the best me possible on a daily basis.  I am aiming to make myself happy again, aiming to be the best mom, sister, wife, friend etc that I can be in the most positive form.  I am also realistic and aware that I may stumble and make mistakes, at that point I will pick myself up and dust my shoulder off and start over again.  

"The most important elements of any relationship are TRUST and RESPECT. When you trust someone enough to be honest with them, you grow to respect them and yourself. Where there is trust and respect, intimacy resides." ~Iyanla

‎"A true teacher is not one who gives you anything. A true teacher is one who makes you aware of what you already have and encourages you to use it."~Iyanla

"Knowing who you are eliminates the guess work in life. When you know who you are, you are open to every experience. You know there is always room for self-improvement and that where you are is an opportunity." Aint that the truth another great quote from ~Iyanla

It takes two to argue, it takes two to be a team etc....I know I am not perfect, and have a lot of self work and healing to do on my part.  I am aware of some changes I need to make in my daily life, in my relationship with myself, my children, and my spouse.  Starting yesterday I will be holding myself accountable for my actions and reactions.  I will not let others control my mood, my happiness, and I will not deprive those that need love of love because of my attitude.  I can only change me and be accountable for me, and hope that at the end of the day we end up on the same page again.  I will learn to love unconditionally as others have done for me, let go of what happened yesterday and move forward to a brighter day etc.  

Never in a million years would I have thought that I would be a mother to 3 beautiful children.  I had a multitude of anxiety bringing our 3rd child into the world, wondering how I would balance the family, the house, my relationship.  Wondering how each child would know that I love them just as much as the other.  She has only been in our lives for a couple of weeks, but has been beyond a blessing.  It is amazing that when they enter your life you seem to forget what your life was like with out them.  I am sure I will have my days where I will be going crazy, but for now things seem to be going quite well.  she is slowly getting on a schedule and the other children love her to pieces.