When I was struggling to get pregnant, one of the hardest things for me was that each month I wasn’t, Dallen was getting another month older. I always thought I would have kids about 2 years apart. But I have completely come to terms with the fact that my children will be more than 3 years apart and I am so excited for it. In preparation for a new baby, Dallen is growing out of all his baby-ness. He has moved into a big boy bed. At first when we got Dallen's bed all set up, I looked at it and teared up almost immediately. I can't believe how fast my baby is turning into a big boy. Now that he has spent some time in his new bed, I LOVE it! I love that I can lay by him until he falls asleep. I love that I can sneak in and cuddle him in the middle of the night. I just love how close I can be to my sleeping angel.Also in the process of becoming a big boy, Dallen is taking swimming lessons. The first few weeks he cried the whole time. Although through his tears he would turn around and give me a big teary eyed thumbs up! He is doing better now and embracing the swim lessons. We get to practice every day in the backyard and he is becoming a little fishy :)

Also in big boy news, Dallen has been potty trained. He is doing SOOO great and looks so cute in his big boy underoos.

Dallen is going to be such a GREAT big brother and we are so excited for that day!!

For all those who have shared their story of infertility with me, I am so grateful for their courage and for that reason I wish to share mine. Many may not know it took a year for me to get pregnant with this second baby. We had no problem with Dallen, as soon as I wanted to be pregnant, I was. So it came as a huge shock that that was not the case the second time around. Although I have had MANY health problems over the last 2 years, I still really don’t know what caused my infertility. The first few months were not so bad, I didn’t think anything was really wrong, I just wanted a baby. After about 6 months, I started to really worry and wonder. After about 9 months it seemed unreal when the doctor told me "we're gonna have to help you get pregnant". It is hard to convey the feelings that overcome you when faced with such a trial. One night I was watching an episode of one my favorites, Grey’s Anatomy, where one of the main characters, Meredith, who was struggling with infertility finally breaks down and cries about all the girls in the world who get pregnant by accident, and those who don't want their babies and how hard it is on someone who tries and tries and TRIES. I recognized that I knew how she felt. Although I was genuinely happy for those receiving the blessings of Motherhood, it doesn't mean it's not hard to wonder what’s wrong with you. It completely consumes you at some point, you can't help but think about only that. Often times I felt like I was walking a thin line between keeping the faith and fighting depression. It's hard not to feel like you're broken when this is the purpose God created you for. Each month’s negative test was like re-reading a rejection letter over and over. I was so grateful for the sweet reminder that Dallen was every day of how blessed I already was, he definitely helped me through this more than he will ever know. I knew that if I never got anything else in life, I would be ok because I already had the greatest blessing imaginable. That fact helped me through but this was definitely a trial that made me turn to the Lord.Now that this trial is over for me in my life, I can see why the Lord had me go through it. I learned so much about faith, patience, the gospel of Jesus Christ, my Savior and myself. More than anything I am so grateful for the reminder of what a miracle my Dallen is, and this new baby too!! I am already so much more grateful for this little miracle and I am trying not to take a moment for granted. I have so much gratitude for encouraging friends, supportive family, the words of prophets and modern medicine. I am grateful for having had this trial and I know now that this plan for our family was not my own.

We tried the private blog thing for a while and I did not like it one bit, so here it is for everyone to see...the other thing that is no longer being kept private, that we are having another baby!! Baby Bracken #2 is due to arrive December 21st and we couldn't be happier :)

KUNG FU FIGHTING!!Dallen was so excited to go see the new Kung Fu panda movie with his best buddies, Hunter and Hayden. These 3 boys just LOVED it, can't you tell?!?!Just look how big my little kung fu fighter is getting!! Such a cute kid :)

A few weeks ago we made a final trip to my parent's AMAZING home before they moved. It was such a bittersweet weekend saying goodbye to the heaven on earth backyard we've called our own for a decade. So 'Poppy Hills', thank you for the good times and the wonderful memories, you will be missed by all.




And to Mom and Dad, thank you for sending your spare furniture our way. Our once bare and empty home is finally beginning to take shape. I can't wait to show you all the progress we've made!!