Well here I am a year and month or so later from K finding me.. It is Mothers Day again and I have to say that this year is even better than last year... I got to talk to her today, and it feels so wonderful to hear I love you mama, Happy Mothers Day! Suz wrote in her blog today and said she had told Meg Happy Mothers Day for her mother.. funny I did the same thing.. It is very strange to me at times to think about things like this. Some weird dichotomy in action. I always wondered if she thought about me on Mothers Day or any of those other special days. I always thought of her, and wished for he happiness and our daughters happiness. So now taking another idea from Suz, I am going to write about all of my children today..
My boy Sean, the oldest here, but really the second born. Full of humbug when he was little! Such a fiercely independent young man. Thoughtful, kind, loving and compassionate, smart, he also has a temper and can be a real pill somedays. He went to his first Prom on Saturday (tonight he seemed so grown up) his girlfriend is this tiny, pretty little thing. He wears his heart on his sleeve for the entire world to see. Wether it is the heart that loves his mama or the heart that loves his Brittney boo. He was such a good boy when he was little and he has turned into a wonderful young man. He still kisses me goodbye every time he leaves the house and there is not a day that goes by that he doesn't tell me he loves when he leaves in the morning and also again at night when he goes to bed.
Joshua, what can I tell you about him? He is also loving and kind and so very sweet sometimes. He a challenege all the time. On his best days, he is articulate, very involved and so smart! Then there are the days I cry and wish he were "normal" I know that for him the way he is, is normal. It is just a miswiring in his brain. He is perfect for me tho, no matter how he is wired. He is sweet and funny, he loves Sci Fi and reading. He loves things like Napolean Dynamite and Star Wars. He love having two sisters, and can be so funny especially when he is really firguring things out. It is like a light clicks on in a dark room for him and he can see whatever it is plain. The look on his face at those times if precious to me. His face full of wonder and joy. Always my little Josha bosha.. full of life.
My Missy baby, the one we called Miss Mischief when she was tiny. born with strawberry blonde hair I knew I was going to be in for a wild ride! I was so right, she was the best baby of the three children I have raised, slept all night at five weeks, And I Do mean all night at least 8 hours at a crack. Weaned herself at five months from breast to bottle. When she was barely two she came to me and said "Mommy no more diapes, undies" and that was potty training. It was that simple with her, her brothers on the other hand 3 and half both of them! She was full of fun and yes mischief as a toddler. Always into something, even if it was just the tupperware drawer pulling all my lids out and throwing then around the kitchen. She is the one who convinced her brother and his friend to put the can of Allspice and the huge rubber ant in the toilet to see what would happen. Laughing hysterically when the toilet overflowed and got her brand new shoes soaked. Sean and Missy my daredevils. Together they were unstoppable. Now she is almost a teen ager, completely involved in trying out make up, trying new hair colors and a new haircut too. Boy crazy, anime crazy, and hates homework. Altho she is also very bright and writes so well, in her I can see a budding artist as well. Loves to talk(ahem like her mother perhaps?) and loves to talk about everything under the sun. She is also the drama queen in the house, everything is earthshattering and she does know how to play that the hilt. Funny, smart, loving like her siblings and somedays too grown up already. My Missy baby, who is not a baby anymore..
Then there is my Kristenjean, amazingly smart, an excellent student. Funny, with this child like wonder in her eyes and voice. Huge beautiful green eyes and the only one of my children born with dark hair. She got grandmas toes, my legs and I like to think my mothers smile. This last year getting to know this lovely young woman, this beautiful creature with the huge heart, has been amazing. A loving and open heart, compassion and the ability to make things work and a willingness to learn what she needs to learn to make "us" work. She has taught me much already... I have loved her for 22 plus years and I love her more everyday. Her siblings love her too, and they can be so funny sometimes about things. Mom can we call Kristen and tell her (Fill in the blank here) It was the mots amazing thing to see all four of my children in the same room for the first time. They surrounded me and made my heart hurt as well as swell with pride and love. To have them all together in the same room!!!! Sitting with me, laughing and talking and just being.. What can I tell you about it other than using the word amazing again?
Do I sound overly proud of my children? I know that my genes and their fathers genes make them in large part who they are. But, what really makes them what they are is what they have learned and how they apply it. Each so unique and with so much to give, not just to me but to the world I think. Each of them unique in their make-up, but when it comes to the loving part, they are completely like me. Huge loving hearts and the willingness to open their hearts and explore what love is really all about..
Happy Mothers Day to all of my mommy friends, here is hoping that this next year will be a good one for all of us...
