1.18.2016

cherry blossoms & a baby |march 2015|

With a new backyard I am finding so much beauty in it! I would find myself just going outside to sit and enjoy the backyard... something I know my Dad would have gladly done with me. I could just picture it. Us both sitting in our chairs, and admiring the beauty of the earth. Sitting in silence, and yet enjoying each others company. I miss him so much! I miss those moments with him. I'm sad he never was able to come to Albuquerque and see the beauty of the desert he loved so much. I'm sad my sweet Matilda doesn't have any memories with him here in this earthly life. And yet, I feel so close to him...




However, I know that my sweet Matilda had some great moments with my dad before she came to this earth, fresh from my daddy loving arms. There have been many pictures my mom has sent me of my dad as a small child. They resemble each other so much.

Heidi's Happy Birthday |March 2015|

I have to say, Matt did a great job planning something fun for my birthday here in Albuquerque. we went to dinner at a new place near the Sandia Mountains, and it was pretty good! But the next stop was amazing! We went on the tram that rode up to 10,000 + ft. above sea level. I don't think I realized how high we were going... and it was COLD! It was a beautiful ride up into the clouds (literally). Once they separated and we could see all of Albuquerque, it was breathtaking.





Surprise... We're here! |february, 27 2015|

Well, 
I knew the day was coming... the anniversary of my Dad passing. 
I knew it was going to be a hard day. 
I knew I needed to do something special for my mom as 
I knew it was going to be a hard day for her. 
So I called my husband one day while he was at work and I told him I had a crazy idea. 
He knew exactly what I was talking about before I ever told him.
He knew I needed to be with my mom on this day.
He knew it was important to me.


The kids had a long weekend. So we took off. Matt stayed back to work, and I drove to California (for the first time from New Mexico) with my 3 kids, at the time, and largely pregnant with Matilda who was born about 4 weeks later.

I called my Grandma and Grandpa Holmes to ask if we could come stay with them and surprise my mom. They were kind enough to let us stay for 2 nights.
The morning after we arrived I called my mom to ask her about her day and just get a feel for when would be a good time to come and surprise her at her office. So we did it!! I went and picked up lunch and the surprise was a success.




We had a great visit! We went and visited my dads grave site and took flowers. The kids each put a flower on his grave and we took pictures. My Grandparents joined us with afterwards we went to have some sushi in honor of him and his favorite food. 



I feel so blessed that we were able to make this trip for many reasons. But one that is so close to my heart. Since we were able to stay with my Grandma & Grandpa Holmes I was able to sit and visit with them like I never have before. I don't remember ever staying the night at their house as a kid. But this trip I did! And I got to sit and chat with my Grandma and learn so much more about her and her life. As well as with my Grandpa Holmes. And my children were able to spend some quality time with their great-grandparents. But in May, a few short months after this trip, my Grandma passed away to some health complications in her sleep. I feel like it was such a tender mercy from a loving Heavenly Father that led me to call them to ask if I could come stay with them. I would otherwise, not have had that opportunity to sit and have some one-on-one time with my sweet grandma Hazel Holmes. 
For this I am grateful!

12.14.2015

something new...

New school.
New teachers.
New friends.
New ward/ church
New routine.
With the move the kids of course had to attend a new school. I think thats been the hardest adjustment so far. BUT they get to ride a bus that picks them up from just about 4 or 5 houses down the street, another new thing!
I love watching them walk down the street together, and I just wonder what they talk about. 
Coming from an amazing school in Brighton, Colorado, we had high expectations. It was my first experience sending my child off to school at Foundations Academy. The teachers we WONDERFUL! It also helped that they adored my son Jackson, and his personality. Coming here to Albuquerque I had some inclination that the schools weren't great. However, I really wasn't prepared for this. 
The first day of drop off (I drove them of course) I walked them both to meet their new teachers. So we walked to the front office to find out who their new teachers would be. Jackson was assigned to Ms. T. Garcia. And Daphne was assigned to Mrs. Westphal. We were given their room numbers and we were off! Daphne was so excited, yet nervous, and Jackson was anxious. 
First was Daphne. The kindergarteners had their own playground so we all walked out there since her new teacher had morning duty. 
We walked up to her and I said "Hi, are you Mrs. Westphal? I'm Heidi and this is my daughter Daphne. She's your new student."  
She starred at me and replied "No, I don't have a new student." 
I said, "I just came from the front office and they told me she was in your class."
She says, "They must have told you wrong. Leave her with me and I'm sure we'll figure it out."
Needless to say my first impression of her was NOT good. So I, very pregnant and emotional, had to walk away from Daphne with a new teacher that wasn't prepared for her.
Then onto Jackson's new teacher... The school bell had already rung, and we got to the classroom as she was already getting her day started. We walked into the classroom, and the teacher looks up, sees Jackson and says, "You must be the new student. Your seat it right there, and she'll tell you what to do." Then looks up and me, like she was wondering why I was still standing there in her classroom, and I said, "Yes, this is my son Jackson." Her reply, "okay, thanks." I gave Jackson a hug and was mentally shoved on my way out the door. It was NOT a good day! 
The kids had some new friends they knew from our ward we had already seen at church. So i asked the kids if they made any new friends. "Nope" from Jackson. "not really" from Daphne. Jackson struggled making new friends in New Mexico, and a year later, he still sometimes struggles. Daphne however, is our little social butterfly. She was making new friends and would come home telling me all about her new friends she made that day. 
When we got here in Albuquerque, it was the Balloon Fiesta weekend. We had no clue what that was. But we got into town late saturday night, and went to church that next morning. We found what time our new ward started, and we were on our way. It was not a smooth morning. I wasn't prepared to be heading out the door at 8:30 that morning. The kids were not happy & I was frustrated. But we made it, and the new ward was so welcoming. Once they heard we moved into the "Seville Neighborhood" it was a swarm of happiness and welcoming. We have about 8 families within a half mile radius in our little neighborhood. It's amazing! 
And our new routine took some getting used to, in a good way. In Brighton our kids were out the door no later than 7:40 to get to school on time. And that was with me driving them to school. But with this new school, and new routine, the kids didn't need to be walking to the bus stop until 8:20. Which meant I could sleep a little later, and we wouldn't feel rushed every morning. But in return the kids aren't getting off the bus until 4:00. Which then means life after school is rushed. Homework, then dinner, showers, and it's time for bed. No time for playing with friends until Wednesday. Wednesdays in our new routine are pretty good. Every Wednesday is a half day, truly. The kids are getting off the bus at 12:30.  And last year while Jackson was missing his old class, they got to Skype with Jackson when he was home early on Wednesdays while the kids in Colorado were still in school. It was so perfect! 
All in all, new really isn't that bad. We are still adjusting in some aspects of life. But we love it!


12.09.2015

Happy Birthday Husband!! |2.12.2015|

This Man... he is perfect for me! So many moments in life make me realize he is for ME! He covers those holes I have in my life. He is so great with our growing children (babies aren't his favorite, but they are MINE!). Like I said, he compliments me in the best ways. 

 Homemade carrot cake, his favorite!

We love to celebrate this guy! 
I sure love you Matthew Shirley!

the office

When we bought our new home in Albuquerque, NM this office was a great plus! The previous owners had a LARGE L-shaped desk and they had added it to the listing details, however, it wasn't my style. So we kind of low-balled the offer saying we didn't want any of the existing furniture in the home. SO, I got to start from scratch ... I of course turned to pinterest and found some great ideas with ikea hacks. However, we don't have an ikea here in NM! So, I got online and started looking for bookshelves that would go with the look I was trying to accomplish. I couldn't find anything! So back to ikea online and found these, Shelving units...
 Then I spray painted them gold of course!! 
Then brought them into the office to finish assembling them. 
This really was so much fun! We also found this cute white desk on amazon. It was not the easiest thing to put together, it may or may not be because I had The Husband help... but it got done & I really do like it!

And here are a few pictures with the office & shelves decorated. Most things were purchased at Home Goods, Hobby Lobby or Target. My 3 favorite go-to stores for decorating!
 And believe it or not, nearly everything above the computer was from Walmart! 
Sometimes I can find great buys there.





Rio Grande State Park |1.19.2015|

Since we have lived here for over a year and I feel like life is coming into some sort of order again, I am going to be blogging our life more. I love that The Husband loves to explore. He found a way to get up close to the Rio Grande River that runs through our lovely little town of Albuquerque (still getting used to typing that word). So we went exploring! This was in the winter last year and it was such a beautiful day! The River wasn't so beautiful, brown and cloudy... but the kids sure loved walking around and exploring a new place. We often found Daphne climbing up trees, with no fear. Jackson finding walking sticks (something I love to watch, since that was a memory close to my heart that he had with my Dad), and Porter picking up anything he could throw.

This little "Bosque Loop" reminded The Husband and I a lot of the Barr Lake State Park that was near our Brighton, CO home. Such great memories, as mentioned above, with my parents when they came to visit for Jackson's 2nd birthday. Nature, in and of itself, will forever remind me of my Dad and the love he had for the creations from Him.







Jackson LOST a tooth

I am beginning to see the true nature of each of my children... Jackson loses a tooth, and then he loses the tooth... this one just had The Husband and I laughing so much!!

1.14.2015

taking it back...


Well, as all of you know we are now living in New Mexico... a place I never thought I would live... However, this move has been relatively good... the transition has definitely been easier.  Im not sure if it's because we have moved before, if I was more prepared for this since it was such a long process. The people in New Mexico are nice, the city of Albuquerque is nice. I remember when Matt and I came to look at houses we went to a few furniture stores to check out some new sofas, and they lady helping us said it perfectly... "Albuquerque is about 5 years behind, you have all the necessities, but things just need to be updated in general." It's true, however, I really cannot complain too much.I remember going out with my good friend Darby for lunch and a little shopping. While I was driving I would say a store or restaurant and we would see if it was in NM. There were a few things I knew I was going to have to live without before we got here... 

  • Noodles & Co.
  • SmashBurger
  • cafe rio 
  • IKEA - a killer when you are trying to furnish a home that has 2,000 sq ft. more than your last home.
  • Nordstrom/ Nordstrom Rack -probably a good thing ;)
Leaving Colorado was so hard!! We had to say goodbye to a lot of great people! It was were Matt and I truly began our newlywed life together. We met some incredible, unforgettable people that have touched our lives for good. We are so blessed to have had made so many memories there. So many first for us as a family. 

It was where we bought our first home.
It was where we had 3 of our soon to be 4 kids.
It was where our kids made some amazing friends. 
It was where Jackson found a great love for singing and acting.
It was where our kids started school, with some unforgettable teachers.
It was where I left my comfort zone and opened up and made phenomenal friends.
It was where Matt got his first job out of Grad School, and had some awesome co-workers.

I am adjusting well, especially since we got to have family come to our home for Thanksgiving! And Halloween was a short 12 days after we moved here to NM, so that was something the kids could look forward to. 

Halloween was fun! We had an evil wizard, Elsa (of course), and an adorable Jake. Our neighborhood was fun and TONS of people came to our door, which we aren't used to. We lived on a little dark street in Brighton, CO and I think everyone just skipped the 8-10 houses that were on our little dark street. Porter was my little candy helper. He did go out with Matt and the other 2 kids for a few houses, but came back with plenty! 

Thanksgiving was so so much fun! We had  full house and I LOVED IT! Matt and I both were so glad we had enough space to have visitors come and be comfortable in their own space (for the most part). We had my brother Brendon and his family come from Lubbock (a short 4 1/2 hour drive). The kids loved having cousins come stay with us! Especially since we don't see them very often.  My mom and Brother Skyler flew in from Southern California, and stayed a WHOLE WEEK!! Then my sister Randi flew in for a short couple days, but we loved having her for as long as we got her. Lots of food, lots of laughs, playing games, exploring Old Town Albuquerque, finding new yummy restaurants, mini hike, more food, watching movies together, and learning from my mom how to make a real Thanksgiving feast! 





1.05.2015

for good

A couple years ago I went to Time Out For Women with some great friends. During this conference there are many uplifting speaker and musical numbers that truly touched my heart. However, there was one musical number that was shared "For Good" from the Broadway Musical "Wicked." And this woman was on Broadway many years ago as a young married couple. She shared  a very sweet and touching story of adoption, since they weren't able to conceive alone. They received this sweet baby, and on the last day the birth mother had a chance to change her mind and take the baby girl back, and that is exactly what happened. They were devastated to say the least.  She then shared how much this song meant to her and her husband as they lost their sweet baby girl, back to her birth mother. 

And now that I have heard this point of view on the song, I now have a new point of view...



My Dad is someone that has made me a better person just by knowing him. The  words from this song touch me so deeply every time I hear this song and the lyrics.

He has truly left his hand print on my heart...


[GLINDA:]
I've heard it said,
That people come into our lives
For a reason
Bringing something we must learn.
And we are lead to those
Who help us most to grow if we let them.
And we help them in return.
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun,
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But because I knew you.
I have been changed for good.

[ELPHABA:]
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime.
So, let me say before we part:
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you.
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart.
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you'll have rewritten mine
By being my friend.

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea.
Like a seed dropped by a sky bird
In a distant wood.
Who can say if I've been changed for the better
But because I knew you...

[GLINDA:]
Because I knew you...

[BOTH:]
I have been changed for good.

[ELPHABA:]
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done,
You blamed me for.

[GLINDA:]
But then,
I guess,
We know there's blame to share.

[BOTH:]
And none of it seems to matter anymore.
Like a comet pulled from orbit
(Like a ship blown from its mooring)
As it passes a sun.
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by bird)
Halfway through the wood.
(In the wood)
Who can say if I've been changed for the better.
I do believe I have been changed for the better.

[GLINDA:]
And because I knew you...

[ELPHABA:]
Because I knew you...

[BOTH:]
Because I knew you
I have been changed...
For good.