September 26, 2010

So, I don't have a main thing that brought me happiness.  I'll just write one thing, even though there are a few.

I am grateful I made it to church today without worrying if I could make it through!!  (If I'd feel good 
enough, because there could be other things, like glad you could make it through because your kids allowed you to sit through all of church, etc :)

Confidence

September 23, 2010

My thought for the day that brings me happiness is on the Lord's confidence in us as women and in rearing children. (This is something I am starting to do on my blog, from my previous post)

Motherhood and influencing children can be hard, to wonder if you're doing it right.  I know the Lord has a lot of confidence in us and the responsibilities he blesses us with.  I have felt this in my own life.  I like the song by Hilary Weeks "Who You Are".  It reminds me that what I'm doing sometimes is worth it.  Here it goes:

I know you wonder if you'll ever have a day where the kids stay calm, the laundry's done, and the dishes are put away.  
And sometimes you feel like your days are spent and gone and the question running through your mind is what have I gotten done?  And when you finally have a moment to slow down at the end of your day I know Father would say
Believe in what you're doing, Believe in who you are and hold tight to the truth that you're a daughter of God.  Believe in who you're becoming, Believe in who you are.

It may seem simple all the little things you do, but the lives you touch matter so much and there's no one else like you and Father needs you to stand tall and faithful to be all you can be if you could see what he sees
You'd believe in what you're doing, and you'd believe in who you are. So hold tight to the truth that you're a daughter of God.  Believe in who you're becoming, Believe in who you are.

When it's hard to believe in yourself and you feel like you're beginning to doubt, remember
He believes in what you're doing, He believes in who you are.  So don't lose sight of the truth that you're a daughter of God.  That he believes in who you're becoming, He believes in who you are.

That reminder was good for me today.

Finding Happiness

September 22, 2010

I like that title because I think that's something we have to work on in our lives.  I am now dedicating this blog to things that make me happy, enrich my life, and inspire me to be a little better.  If I, we as a whole, place our value on what others think, how they treat us, what we possess, or our circumstances, etc. we will not secure our happiness.  I want to be happy.  I am happy, but I think that by writing about this everyday, or so, the messages will help me focus on what is most important.  I am still going to write about our life sometimes, about my kids, about anything that makes me feel truly nourished and whole.  That is my goal anyway.  I have been wanting to do this for a while now, but my life became a little busy for a bit.  These posts are for me, initially, and anyone else is welcome to read them too.

My thought for today:
Getting Nourishment from the Source--God, or Heavenly Father.
He really is the only place we can find true strength--the strength we need to succeed and overcome life's issues while experiencing true happiness.  I think it can sometimes sound like a difficult thing to do, but I know the way is simple.  Perhaps as simple as just looking for it??  That's where I think it starts anyway.  I believe the struggle comes in finding this strength everyday--in our personal lives--in remembering our true source of strength even when we are surrounded by the world. 


And I don't think it's always easy, but I know that if you keep fighting for it, you can succeed!

The first month

September 21, 2010

The first month has gone by with the twins!  I'd thought I'd give a brief update on how it's been.  (In case anyone is wondering, I know that most people don't wonder, but if there's any, here it goes :)

I am tired.  Matthew is tired.  Mary and Nathan are doing great!  In fact, the babies don't wake up the kids at all!

I believe the babies are starting to sleep better.  They've had nights where at least one of them is up and has a stomach ache, etc.  This last Saturday night I got less than two hours of sleep.  It's getting better, but they still wake up a lot.  There are moments when they are both sleeping though, usually.

I am feeling really good.  When I first came home, I was so dizzy that I couldn't walk up the stairs without blacking out.  For real.  It scared me--how was I going to take care of my kids???  But I had help, so I tried not to stress about it.  The blacking out continued for a few weeks, but I got better faster than I thought.  I had my mother and Matthew's mother here for about four weeks after the babies were born with breaks on weekends and that helped me while I was still recovering.

The babies are great.  They are so cute and adorable and don't fuss a lot, but do like to be held and have their moments, like all babies.

Mary and Nathan love them.  They have been such good helpers for me and it's actually quite helpful to me because Mary and Nathan get me stuff, put binkies in the babies mouths, and Nathan has helped me feed once or twice.  I get a little nervous, but when there's no one else, I make sure it's going to work and I still have to help him.  (He's five).  He likes James a lot and kisses him a whole bunch while he's feeding him.  I have to tell him to back off.  Nathan has only helped me feed twice and he usually only helps until I can get things under control and then I can take over for him.  I had Mary try to help with a bottle once, but after that experience, I have never done it again!!  She is a great help though.

We have a lot more dishes, a lot more laundry, and we are more busy than we were.  However, we've been blessed tremendously and it all goes to the Lord.  I couldn't do any of it without Him.  I absolutely know that.  And I am so grateful and humbled.

I am now on my own and was a little nervous the first time!!  It's gone better than I thought and I hope and pray it continues to go well.  We just trust in the Lord and try our best.

We have been truly blessed.  Thank you all for your help, prayers, thoughts, and friendship.  We appreciate our friends and offers of help! 

Now if I can just get the kids to stop peeing through their clothes...(which they are better now than before at least!)
Bye.

Thanks again, Gina!

Thanks again to Gina for updating my blog design and adding the twins' names.  I love it and think it's really cute.  I'm glad she remembered to do that, when I basically forgot about it!  Oh well.  At least there are some people who are on top of stuff and really nice :)

Informal Photo Shoot - Sept 19, 2010


I think the pictures tell the story good enough.  First picture is of James and second one of Johnny.

Fire

September 13, 2010

Nathan came home from school and said the principal came in and talked about fire.
He explained they went outside for a fire drill.
"I was really scared there was a real fire and that it would burn my backpack.  But Mrs. Seely said there wasn't a real fire.  My stomach hurt a little bit, but then it got better when I went on the school bus."
It was too cute, but I could tell he had been really scared, because he emphasized that point a number of times.  Your first fire drill.  What an experience.

Do you know how to drive this?

I drove Nathan to a primary activity this week.  As I got in the driver's seat and Nathan was buckling himself in the back, he asked me a question.
Do you know how to drive this?  He asked.
I tried not to laugh, but reassured him I knew how to drive the car.
Does Daddy?  He asked again.

I haven't driven much in the past few months...and daddy has driven the smaller car with the kids, not the van.

6 Years

September 4

Matthew and I celebrated our sixth anniversary in August and it made me think of all that has happened in the last six years.  Here's a brief list in no particular order:

1.  Matthew graduated from Brigham Young University.
2.  Matthew graduated from the University of Denver with his MBA.
3.  We moved to Denver, CO.
4.  We moved to Idaho Falls, Idaho.
5.  Matthew got his first job.
6.  We changed jobs.
7.  We moved to Utah.
8.  Becky graduated from Brigham Young University.
9.  We had four kids:  Nathan, Mary, James, and Johnny.
10.  We bought a house (thanks Sarah!)
11.  We sold a house.
12.  We bought a new car.
13.  We lived in St. George, Utah for a while.
14.  We moved around in Provo.

Just kind of crazy to think about all that can happen in six years.