Wishing & Hoping & Thinking & Praying & Planning & Dreaming

I feel like I've failed my first mom test. Gavin was really crabby Saturday and Sunday night and was running a fever. I called the on call nurse to ask how high of a fever was too hihg (his was 101.8). She told me to bring him in if it reached 104. He wasn't himself but I just thought he was sick with what we've all been passing around. On Wednesday he was back to his smiley self. On Thursday I noticed crust on his right ear but thought it could be formula. On Friday is was oozing. I called and they got me in right away but already suspected he had a rupture ear drum. A RUPTURED EAR DRUM! Apparently when he was fussy he had an ear infection. Poor baby, I feel terrible. He's on antibiotics and doing MUCH better. The doctor said not to feel bad because he didn't show many signs. She said his hearing won't be effected at all but we should watch for more ear infections because kids who get them under one are more prone. DH and I both had bad ears as kids. DH had to have tubes put in his ears and I was pretty close to having them in.

Here's a pic of all three of them I took today...they're getting so big!


Here are their 4 month stats:

Kesleigh:
Weight: 16 lbs 3 oz. (94th percentile)
Height: 2' 0.5" (61st percentile)
Head Circ: 16.73" (87th percentile)

Preston:
Weight: 11 lbs 7 oz. (2nd percentile)
Height: 1' 10.2" (0 percentile)
Head Circ: 15.98" (13th percentile)

Gavin:
Weight: 13 lbs. (15th percentile)
Height: 1'11" (2nd percentile)
Head Circ: 16.5" (41st percentile)

Tomorrow I go back to work! If you remember from previous posts I said I never wanted to be a SAHM. I still don't but I'm thinking that maybe next year I could go part time. I am a teacher and it will be so weird to be back because I haven't even met my students yet this year. I was on work restrictions in the beginning of the year, then had the babies, then had surgeries. I am looking forward to going back to work but these little ones are growing and changing so much I don't want to miss anything. Who knew motherhood could change someone's long standing views so much?

The lady who was referred to us from a friend came over and she is awesome! I feel so relieved to have someone in place for when I go back to work next week.