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I questioned God regarding the needs that I have in life... oh how I struggle with it daily!

The need...

for security
to have self confidence
to feel significant
to be wanted and needed
to have a stable job that pays well
to improve on my character and attitude
to know I'm not making a mistake by staying in Melbourne
to have someone special to love and be loved
to have friends that are single
to not be alone and feel lonely
for peers that understand this stage of my life
to make someone laugh
to express myself through music and singing
...just to name a few that are on my fingertips now

I asked Him why I have to feel a need for these things...
I think He will answer me soon...

Thanks Spousey for the quick ICQ chat.. that's what I call a life partner =) A partner in prayer and encouragement for life.


WillZ

Did a nerd test thing I saw on Stef's blog...




For those who can't read images too well, here's a nerdy explanation of my results..

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What does this mean? Your nerdiness is:
Definitely not nerdy, you are probably cool.

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Yummy.. I'm full bodied and satisfying.


WillZ

...to know you're Malaysian. You pronounce 'restaurant' as 'res store rurn' when the rest of the world pronounces it as 'res strawn'.


WillZ

I want the courage to look you in the eye and tell you I'm going where you're flowing... to know that one day I'll look back and know that it was no mistake that I went through this with you. To know it's worthwhile. To know you've brought me to where I'm gonna be that day, side by side. I hope I do not shy away from you or make you feel like I didn't acknowledge you.. cos it's so hard on my part to embrace you into my life without feeling insecure. You are indeed overwhelming. I haven't told you how I felt cos you probably already know... and somehow I know you're gonna be with me thru life's journey.

I guess what I can do now is just to take on the unknown... *gulp*


WillZ

Was sitting in my room, pondering upon things I have to accomplish this week... and felt a sudden "oh I don't wanna do this..".

Hafta work this week and cycle there despite having the pain that I described in the earlier post. Told my employers I might not turn in on Thursday just to take a rest and heal my muscles or watever is hurting (but i dun really wanna take a day off.. haha.. it'd cost me a bit of money to not work.. haha).

Gotta come up wif a plan for O-Nite's MCing.. lead worship for church on Sunday and slowly clean up my place. Contrary to popular belief that I can lead worship just like that, leading worship something that I prepare quite a bit for. With things hanging on my mind, I felt like pressing the pause button for a while, or better still - the stop button.

Then I had a go at My Utmost For His Highest, and here is today's reading.

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THE DETERMINATION TO SERVE

Jesus also said, "Yet I am among you as the One who serves" (Luke 22:27). Paul’s idea of service was the same as our Lord’s—". . . ourselves your bondservants for Jesus’ sake" ( 2 Corinthians 4:5 ). We somehow have the idea that a person called to the ministry is called to be different and above other people. But according to Jesus Christ, he is called to be a "doormat" for others— called to be their spiritual leader, but never their superior. Paul said, "I know how to be abased . . ." ( Philippians 4:12 ). Paul’s idea of service was to pour his life out to the last drop for others. And whether he received praise or blame made no difference. As long as there was one human being who did not know Jesus, Paul felt a debt of service to that person until he did come to know Him. But the chief motivation behind Paul’s service was not love for others but love for his Lord. If our devotion is to the cause of humanity, we will be quickly defeated and broken-hearted, since we will often be confronted with a great deal of ingratitude from other people. But if we are motivated by our love for God, no amount of ingratitude will be able to hinder us from serving one another.

Paul’s understanding of how Christ had dealt with him is the secret behind his determination to serve others. "I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man . . ." ( 1 Timothy 1:13 ). In other words, no matter how badly others may have treated Paul, they could never have treated him with the same degree of spite and hatred with which he had treated Jesus Christ. Once we realize that Jesus has served us even to the depths of our meagerness, our selfishness, and our sin, nothing we encounter from others will be able to exhaust our determination to serve others for His sake.

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Lord, grant me the availability to pour out every bit of myself... and the ability to sit at Your feet and fill up in order to give more.

For now, I'm physically exhausted and I WANT A NAP! =)


WillZ

I think I've aged tremendously. I went back to Malaysia on the 21 of December. When I woke up the next day, I started to have severe left shoulder pains. As it slowly went away I developed a neck pain on the right side. After a lil bit of rest I went to KL after the New Year and developed severe ankle pain that has lasted till now.

The sharp pain has since spread to just behind the left knee and is slowly affecting my right ankle (weight support is thrown to the right). So the current status - left ankle and knee hurts like mad. My right foot hurts too, bad not as badly as the left. But it might not be able to hold itself together for too long.

I'm gonna take action to let it heal, like take a few days off work and rest. Haven't been able to fully rest because I can't take paid sick leave from work. No work = no money, in my case. Praying hard that it will go away soon, gonna get an ankle and knee guard.. anyone knows how to MAKE one? haha.. MCing on Friday night and leading worship on Sunday. Not a good thing, really can't stand for too long. Forgive me if I don't seem hlpful with moving stuff and transporting equipment these few weeks... or if I am unable to walk around or even just stand. I can't sit around too long either cos it feels even more painful after dat. Sigh.

No idea wat's causing these aches, but I'm asking God to hlp me pull thru. Is this how life will be like when I grow old (if I do live past 30)? For now, I'll just continue to blame it on my flat feet.


WillZ

Went to Thien An today for lunch. I think it's like loaded with MSG gunpowder to blow every human sense out of you and leave you feeling SUPER thirsty.

Ok, no more Thien An for like... a week.


WillZ

...wishful thinking.
- don't ask me why, hahaha.. something I've wanted to declare for a while now!

...cheap bargains.
- Got this digital tv set top box for 120 bucks. It's a really good bargain. It was all smiles last nite. I've saved HEAPS of money this year by just being thick-skinned and bargaining! And don't call me cheap, because I'll pay for something if it's worth it. According to Russell Peters I'm like a Jew. Muahaha.. *snort*


WillZ

Here's a sample of an Indon worship song... adapted from the english version He Is Lovely.. The indon sounding guy is Franky Sihombing.. hope I don't get into trouble with the whole copyright thingy... but ya... it's a bit slow this song... so might not be the right kind for the rockers... anyhow, sincerity and heart of worship is all I sense when I hear them sing..

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(Verse 1)
I can see that you loved Jesus first
It's plain to see
And that you sit close and listen to His heartbeat

For you in your eyes I see shining love
That speaks so clear
And I can hear you singing so sweetly

(Chorus)
Engkau baik, Engkau suci
Murah hati, menjadi bukti
Engkau lembut, panjang sabar
Penebus-ku, Kau Tuhan

(Verse 2)
Master, Maker, Life Creator
Come and dwell in me
That my heart may know Your sweet tender mercy

Shine through me that all may see Your love
So full and free
And I'll declare Your praise through endless ages


(Chorus in english)
He is lovely, He is holy
Gave supremely, that all might see
He is gentle, tender hearted
Risen Saviour, He is God

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Be blessed.


WillZ

What do you do when it looks you in the eye?
What do you do when you know it's coming by?
What do you do when it calls your name?
What do you do when you've lived your fame?

Guess you just gotta be prepared and leave it to the Lord..
You try to live,
Try to live with no regrets.


WillZ

First and foremost, congratulations to my dear brother for finding THE ONE. My brother proposed and got engaged on February 12, 2005. Oh well, now I know 9 years isn't such a big gap in terms of age after all. I'm really happy for him. Now I'm the only one my parents are praying hard for. HAHA. Is it gonna be one of those prayers that will require them to be resolute for years? HAHA.

Anyway, been corresponding with my closest frens recently, especially when Valentine's Day in season.. Ermm Joel, prayer meet wif other singles n praying for THAT? Ahem.. i'm not at that level yet bro =)

Here's one dedicated to all single frens who at times struggle.. wrote a couple of my own verses, sung to the tune of Jesus Loves Me...

Jesus loves me this I know
For the Bible tells me so
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak but He is strong

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
For the Bible tells me so

Remembered when I was a kid
The love of God was all I need
I thank the Lord He's still the same
He loves my heart and knows my name

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
For the Bible tells me so

Soon the years will past me by
I will know it's time to die
You'll keep me calm and hold me still
I'll sing these words, Your joy I'll feel

Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
For the Bible tells me so


WillZ

Read Joel's blog and reminded me of how privileged I am too to know BM. Heard of the best worship songs from Indon albums. Leading Indonesians into worship was one of the best times I've ever had. They had the sincerest of hearts for God. God moved mightily when the Indons were with us in our youth meets. Tears were such a norm. We touched God in unimaginable ways, if only I knew how special those moments were back then. =)

Was contacted by a few of them recently, did y'all know Vera just got married??? YA! Ros and Dian's sister! They are such sincere frens.. again.. if only I knew how special those moments were back then. =) I still can remember praying with Joel during our prayer meet for Indonesia. Riots were happening and as we prayed, we cried. With tears that were induced only by looking at things thru the eyes of God, we pleaded with Him and asked for His mercy and protection over the ppl in Indonesia. One thing struck me when I was praying for them and with them - I realised it's a great honour to be able to partner with God... at the age where peers were into heavy socialising in theques, clubbing, ecstasy, gangs and what nots... we were on our knees, praying for a nation. In our hearts, we knew we made a difference.

I remember standing in the Sydney Superdome, Hillsong conference 2002 and there was this night where they had ppl from all over the world singing a song or two. There was this man from the Indonesia, his name was Franky Sihombing.. he is like the Don Moen of Indonesia. As soon as he went up I knew something was gonna happen. The anointing of God was so evident. I stood as he sang "He Is Lovely" in Bahasa Indonesia and I cried. There is this thing about Indonesian worship, it's the total adoration of God, and the attitude that says "I'm nothing Lord, You're everything." And that is what worship is. Putting God in the rightful place. It's something that's caught and not taught. I want to take this opportunity to thank the girls and the GUY from Indonesia that impacted my life 5-6 years ago. Sekalian telah sentuh jiwaku dengan kesucian and kesetiaan mu bagi Tuhan.

S'bab Tuhan baik,.. anugerah-nya kekal selama-nya.


WillZ

~ buying stuff to give for valentine's day
~ valentine's day dinner
~ receiving stuff for valentine's day
~ eat eat eat...
~ tok tok tok... me and my longwindedness
~ catching the rain in the morning
~ waiting for first tram in the morning
~ catching the first tram in the morning, listening to its announcement of the new Melbourne Uni Terminus, be on the first tram to stop at the Melbourne Uni Terminus and continue moving up towards the north.. feels like an opening ceremony
~ sleeping and postponing work
~ going to springvale
~ finding the first place in melbourne that sells fresh sugar cane water and buying a cup
~ discovering one of the best place to buy asian stuff
~ kangkung for only 60 cents a bunch!
~ found a place at Springvale to get real traffic lights! I want one for 422 Cardigan!! Green = I'm home. Red = I'm not home. Yellow = If you're XYZ then I'm home.
~ i want one of those round green wastebins found in the city, steal me one for 422 Cardigan!!
~ forgetting to buy herald sun containing the last issue of the free mags
~ cycling in the near dark evenings searching for newspaper
~ watching a man flip from his bicycle and secretly grateful it wasn't me
~ just barely escaping the same fate as the guy dat flipped
~ napping at the most unconventional times

that.. is worth quite a fortune..


WillZ

In the spirit of piracy and illegal downloads, I've decided to plagiarise a lil bit from a fren's blog. Thanks Gracey Meowgal for that. No I'm not asking permission, just informing you of this daylight robbery. ME? Reduced to just another FELLOW SINGLETON? *tsktsk*.. Here goes...

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Last weekend I bumped into an old old friend at mph gurney, whom I've not seen in ages. After the initial greetings and "how are your brothers and family?" talk, the inevitable question was asked.
"So... (sizeble length ending with two-second-pause..), got boyfriend already or not?"

(Digression)
Why do people keep asking that? Why do I ask that too? What is it about love, courtship, romance, sex, marriage and everything from that Department which makes our ears perk up, our eyes brighten, our hearts flutter and giggle with glee whenever we hear breaking news from that circuit. Regardless of age, sex, culture, looks, religion or other variables, everyone has a thing for love, except maybe the Taliban and Osama Bin Laden. It's almost true what they say, that love makes the world go round...

I shyly smiled, almost blushed, and said, "Nola.. boh lang ai.." (hokkien, literally translated means "nobody wants")

Sayeth the man: "HAiya.. of course la.. you so picky ma! Go look for guy also use laundry list.. tick tick tick wan... how to get boyfriend like that?"

For those unfamiliar with Malaysian English, what he meant was that my failure in snagging a boyfriend is due to picky-nes and list of "ideal man traits" as long as a laundry list. No idea why he used laundry instead of shopping list. Don't know anyone who does their laundry with a list.

Me (rather lamely):"No mar.. I really don't wanna marry Jesus. I just want a guy with a sense of humour.."

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HAHAHAHA. Loved this one meow. No idea why your fren chose laundry list too. And I thought I was one of the weirdest of your frens. Maybe he has a list of things he steals from other ppl's laundry. "FILA shirt"... found it! TICK.. "PINK BRA"... found it! TICK.. "WHITE SOCKS STAINED WITH RED DYE"... red dye.. red dye.. found it! TICK..

Good one oldbie, ya, I'm not looking for Jesus with female skin on either.


WillZ

Proverbs 14:20
~ The poor are shunned even by their neighbors, but the rich have many friends.

Matthew 5:44,46-48
~ But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.. ..If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

I love these verses. Everyone loves rich people. They are so easy to love, fun to be with, their blessings overflow.. oh how nice to be splashed by the sprinkles of blessing. I can so picture how low socially rich people will go when they one day lose their wealth and have nothing to offer.

Today I'll draw a simple parallel of this to something closer to heart. Everyone loves problem free people. People who cause you no trouble. "Oh he/she is so nice! So helpful!" In fact they are always jovial, smiling and making others feel warm. "They are such a blessing!", you hear. They always have a good word to share, an encouraging "YOU GO GIRL!". The first to greet you at the door and say "How are you????!!!". Everybody loves Raymond don't they. They are just so 'rich'! You feel so blessed being with them!

One day something happens, and they are hit by something that grips their hearts. It knocks them out of orbit and they are momentarily caught in the rut. The smile fades a lil, they start to question life. You know on the surface what they are going through. But you dare not ask, cause it will cost you something to care. They do not spill out encouraging words anymore, they even forget to hold the door for you to walk in. "Someone will care one la.. he/she got so many friends la.. why should it be me?" They walk around with their heads hung low and a smile downside up. The 'rich' has become 'poor', even the 'neighbours' shun them.

I am thankful to those who stood by me when I became poor. Those who knew without even me telling. Those who don't say cliche things like "Don't think about it too much." "Aiya, it's nothing one la!" "Don't be like that!". Those who agreed with me that what I'm going thru is shitty and sighed with me. Those who they themselves are 'poor' and understood. Those who are 'rich' but gave it up to be my companion. Those who know there are ups and downs in life and gave me a chance to fail. Those who were sweet enough to tell me they loved me cos I'm 'poor'. Those who allowed me to lament, to grunt, to mourn. Those who told me "I did that too when I was poor! I'll be there for you k?" And they REALLY WERE THERE. Those who gave me time to rest and made it clear that I'm not on a pedestal. Those who didn't expect modal answers from me. Those who knew I became poor and still hung out with me in broad daylight.

It will be long long time before I regained my 'wealth' again, but I thank God that doesn't matter to you. You are a special bunch. And there's only a handful of you around. You know who you are... and now I do too. Congratulations,.. you may not have healed a leper but you have loved one. You have shown me His perfect love.


WillZ

I will trust through the darkest night
What I knew to be true when I last saw daylight
I move by faith, and not by sight
Till at last I see what You promised to me
On the distant horizon,
The first sign of sweet morning light

Lord this pathway may not be easy
But it's where I'm meant to be
In Your presence You will keep me
As my mind is stayed on Thee

I will follow through the canyons
Over mountains, across the seas
You will find me in Your footsteps
Till at last I'm home and free

Lord don't let me be dissuaded
From Your holy work in me
Till I reach Your destination
And I'm finally home and free

Lord this pathway may not be easy
But it's where I'm meant to be
In Your presence You will keep me
As my mind is stayed on Thee

Till finally I'm home and free..
Home and free.. till that day Lord..
I want to be home, and to be free


WillZ

...comfort...someone that knows...even if you don't tell them...don't tell me it will only happen in my dreams...cos it didn't...


WillZ

Stealing this from your quote Gracey Meow! Really liked it...

"If you want something that you've never had, you gotta do something that you've never done."

and KewlLy, I'm glad we agreed on the "Enjoy your singlehood.." crap that comes from ppl who are in no position to say that to us. =D HAAH! Will give you a *kringkring* when I get that calling card.


WillZ

This is one topic I'm so gonna write on one day... lemme gather my thoughts and facts and figures and do some survey and research...

Gimme ideas if you have any.

For now, I'm still working out my salvation and God post =) Cool.. work out my salvation.. hahaha.. Oh, while I'm on this.. I never really understood what work out our salvation really meant, until I heard of this illustration.

Replace the word salvation with body. Do you work out your body or do you work to attain a body? You already have a body, so you work it out.. not work to get a body. Ahhhh... so that means salvation.. I've got it... it's not something I work to get.. but something I gotta work out!

Ok.. easypeasy.


WillZ

Realised my recent blogs are all filled with lyrics! It's just a phase man.. haha.. those who bling blongs would know how it feels like..

Anyway.. I do hope one day I'll be inspired again to bring some action back here. And do away with all the lyrical talk. No Action Talk Only makes Jack a dull boy.. but Jack doesn't read my blog so be prepared for more lyrics.. and more angst.

Gonna attempt to get some mango pudding/jelly/jello/dessert thing done today. First time ever! I never made dessert before... it's... EXCITING. With my kitchen asst Eileen Lee preparing the ingredients.. I think it should turn out alrite.. bring it on!

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Well, here's some ACTION. Valentine's Day is coming up and it's another year of meaningless Valentine's to me. ** Everyone say "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW".... Oh COME ON.. I can't hear you... one more time.. 1.. 2.. 3.. "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW".. looks like dead crowd.. hey somebody just left the room **

For 95% of you reading my blog (ya.. I'm talking to you attached blokes and blokettes), here are some stories of how Valentine's day came to life.

1) During the 3rd century, Roman Emperor Claudius II decided that single blokes made better soldiers than married ones with young families. So he outlawed marriage for young blokes. St Valentine found out that it's really hard to tahan being single so he secretly married young lovers. When he was found out, Claudius cut off his head, took out his eyeballs and used the head as a bowling ball.

2) Valentine was in prison when he fell in love with a blokette.. some said it was the jailer's daughter.. let's hope it's not the jailer's wife.. or SON! Apparently she visited him during his imprisonment (SNEAKY!!!).. maybe like bring food or watever la. So before his death he wrote a letter to her, declaring his love for her.. and signed it off as "From your Valentine..." - an expression still used today even by primary school kids.

3) A bunch of blokettes were tired of tightarsed blokefrens, created this whole hoo haa during their underground blokette meeting.. and came up with this cunning idea of how to get flowers and chocs at least once a year..

The true origins of this V-day is debatable, however the good stories do indicate that this Valentine fella displayed heroic and most importantly romantic qualities..(sounds very familiar.. just like someone I know very well..)

So, what are YOU doing for Valentine's Day? I'll probably be at home.. watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire... and later on The Biggest Loser, and hopefully not feel like one. I might gather some singles and do something totally more exciting than roses and chocs... leave me a note or something if you wanna be my Valentinerette.


WillZ

There are things in our hearts that we don't tell people. We choose not to tell people, cos they do not dare to share that burden with you. What you have is scary, it's time consuming, it's emotionally sapping and it's the type that produces the "i thought we have gone over this before, why are you still like that?" responses.

My prayer is that I will come to an understanding and quiet confidence that my best Friend dares to share, dares to care, dares to love.. to love one that is undeniably ugly and unlovable.

1 John 4:18..
drive out the hurt and fear in me Lord.. love me with Your perfect love..

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(Verse 1)
Broken heart, wounded soul
Walking down the dark and lonely street
Seems to you, no one cares
No one dares to share the cries of your heart

But there’s a truth that I know
You’ve got to open up your heart
And let God show you

(Chorus 1)
Perfect love is here
Do not fear
Jesus is with you
It is true


(Verse 2)
Looking back at the time
In my life when there’s no light to shine
You took my hand, helped me stand
Placed my life into Your perfect plan

There’s a truth, now I know
I’ve got to open up my heart
And let You show me

(Chorus 2)
Perfect love is here
There’s no fear
Jesus is with me
I am free

(Bridge)
Lord my emptiness is gone
I see Your light, I’m running to Your open arms

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This Your song Lord...


WillZ

I can open a stall that sells grapes.

I'll call the red grapes Mario.
And the green grapes Luigi.
If you want a mix of both it can be arranged too. I'll call it Mario Brothers.


WillZ

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

But no, you're not supposed to be like that... anyone else yes but not you! You're superman, you're invincible... you are much more than this, I know! Please tell me this is not you?

Oh wait, it could be you.. glimpses of this and that.. oh ya.. now that you mentioned it.. ya.. could be you.. how did I not see it all along? No wonder it didn't feel right la.. what made you like that huh? This is pathetic.. YOU are pathetic.. ya.. just sit there and sulk.

PFFFFFT. Like I care.


WillZ

...there's a moment when I wished I could cry for hours in Your arms to get away from it all... it is NOW. Not of sadness nor of joy... but to be overwhelmed by Your presence and Your closeness to me. To know there's nothing I can hide nor surprise You with. I wanna listen to Your heartbeat, and know that You made me the man to run after it. Grant me the patience, Lord.. cos You make all things beautiful in Your time.


WillZ

Was reading through Krystin's blog when I came across a word in her example of an obscure place. For the record it's Sitiawan with an 'i' and not an 'e'. It should be spelt Setiawan though.. cos it came from the phrase Setia Kawan. Story has it that it was about 2 elephants that were faithful friends, and how they helped each other when one was stuck in the mud. If someone knows the actual story maybe they can validate this.

Sitiawan probably is quite obscure. It had a cinema but closed down. It has a KFC though! The food there isn't as terrific as Penang's but you can sure get some weird stuff there that can't be found elsewhere.

As obscure as it may be, today Sitiawan will be ringing in my heart. For the first time in 25 years I will not be in Sitiawan to celebrate CNY. For the past 25 years I've spent my CNY there eating, sleeping, gambling, shady-ing and collecting angpow. My mom is a pure Sitiawan Foo Chow damsel and for many years Sitiawan was like my 2nd home. There was this year when I actually arrived in Penang from Melb on CNY's eve morning and rushed back straightaway.. full luggage and all. It's a shame to hafta break my record and set it at 25 years. Oh well, at least 25 sounds 'round'. Unlike 26 or 27.

Oh well, at least I know the red wine chicken I'm cooking tonite will remind me of Sitiawan and my CNY reunion meals. At least I know I won't be overeating during CNY this year. =) But AIYO! NO ANG POW!

Do I miss Sitiawan this time round? I'd have to say YES. I hope to be able to make it for CNY again one day in Sitiawan, and meet up with Tze San there. Haha.

To all of you Cina peks reading this, have a massively happy Chinese New Year. Year of the Rooster or Chicken, or whatever. May God bless this coming year and give you golden eggs. Take time to think about your family back home and call them to say you're having loads of fun. =)


WillZ

p.s. Say HI to the jams in Penang for me. KL-ites, GO HOME!

Help, I need somebody
Help, not just anybody
Help, you know I need someone
Help

When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never thought I needed any help in any way
Now that these days are gone, I'm not so self-assured
And now I find I changed my mind, opened up the door

So help me if you can, I'm feelin' down
And I do appreciate you bein' 'round
Help me get my feet back on the ground
Won't you please, please help me, help me
Help me

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Yay, country songs.


WillZ

Why don't they make manly bolster covers? Like with guns and grenades, trucks and sport convertibles, guitars and drums... Why must it always be light blue with whites daisies all over? =)


WillZ

Wahhh... never thought this kinda things still exist... it's like... the movie SHUTTER.

CLICK ME!

Thumbs up! Ichiban...


WillZ

I made another discovery today. Kleenex Cottonelle = No good. Breaks easily. Unless you use like MANY plies. But what's the point of using many plies rite? Very fast run out liau if like dat. And oso, it has fibres that rub off easily. So weird.

Note to self - never get kleenex toilet rolls again.. even if it's cheaper.


WillZ

This is just so apt..

So when the world laughs at me
And says I'm just a fool
I will bow my knee
And worship only You

The fields and lilies echo in reply..

It takes a little time sometimes
To get your feet back on the ground
It takes a little time sometimes
To get the titanic turned back around

I've never found it a difficult decision to make.. to go back home after going my own way - to return to the Father waiting at the doorstep, with His hand over His eyes looking toward the faraway land, willing to search for his one lost son and leaving the 99 behind.

I believe God wants and allows us to run out of resources, to exhaust every human bit we have and to realise we need Him. This point of exhaustion doesn't necessarily mean the point of which we become weak. We could very well be full of strength in our hearts and come to realise we need Him from the very start. The Bible talks about men of God who turned to Him at breakpoint.. and others that sought Him first in everything. All that matters at the end of the day is that we return home. To our Saviour, Daddy, King.

I will bow my knee, and worship only You.

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WWW

Pray as if everything depended on God, and work as if everything depended upon man.

~ ...faith without works is dead... - James 2:26

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I hereby once again declare my admiration for cgp Tommy Emmanuel.


WillZ

All Star United
Saviour Of My Universe

I don't propose that we preserve
All the world inside a fragile ball of glass
'Cause I'm the first to throw the curve
Bringin' all that perfect ball down in a crash

Oh, it's that feelin' comin' back again
Turnin' earth around and pounding sirens in my head
Well there's only one cure that I know for sure
And it goes on and on
It goes on and on

And when it all is said and done
Until the end
Yes, You're the only one
And when the world is in reverse
You're the Saviour of my universe

I don't suppose I'm prone to trouble
Though I always do the very best I can
My universe a leaky bubble
Pinned by a friend
And only then did it expand

Oh, it's that feelin' comin' back again
Turnin' earth around
And pounding sirens in my head
Well there's only one cure
That I know for sure
And it goes on and on
It goes on and on

And when it all is said and done
Until the end
Yes, You're the only one
And when the world is in reverse
You're the Saviour of my universe

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What do you do when you wanna sing and you can't.. because there are lil kids around.. haha..

YOU BLING. or YOU BLONG.

Y'all can expect me to bling and blong quite a bit cos I really love to sing. No better way of stress relief than to bleed ur fingers on the strings and scream using your throat and not your diaphram.

Oh it's that feeling coming back again..
Turning earth around and pounding sirens in my head..
Well there's... only one cure that I know for sure and it goes on and on..
It goes on and on...

Pounding SIRENS!..


WillZ

p.s. Hey you.. I'm sorry I can't be perfect..

This song has been playing on our TV recently (and now playing repetitively on my mind) and I'd be lying if I said I didn't like the song. But too bad.. it would be years n years before I get to sing it (after replacing names). Nice song. You guys can start practising now. Especially Mun Keong.

Stevie Wonder
Isn't she lovely?

Isn't she lovely
Isn't she wonderfull
Isn't she precious
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love we'd be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she pretty
Truly the angel's best
Boy, I'm so happy
We have been heaven blessed
I can't believe what God has done
through us he's given life to one
But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she lovely
Life and love are the same
Life is Aisha <-- replace with name of your choice
The meaning of her name
Londie <-- ermm, replace with name of His choice?, it could have not been done
Without you who conceived the one
That's so very lovely made from love.

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I have this sudden craving for the Pizza Hut buffet. Let's go for lunch there someday. It's called Lunchworks and costs like AUD9? Pasta, Pizza, GARLIC BREAD, frenched fries, dessert... and oh.. salad. Any takers? Maybe I'll wait for MK and SBeng to come back and we'll have our Survivor - Pizza Hut again.


WillZ

sí, Cristo Me Ama...

That is why I live,
That is why I move..
That is why my heart cannot go on,
Without You..

That is why I sing,
That is why I cry..
That is why no other love but You,
Will satisfy..

That is why..


WillZ

Yuan told me it was the coldest February in the history of Melbourne. I think I believe him.

Started pouring from last night.. the guy from the newsagency told me he was walking home last night n it was already raining. Like cannot stop one hor?

I wonder where do all the flies go to when it's this cold? Will they be wiped out totally? Hope they don't come back when it gets warm again.

Was raining cows and bulls when I was out today. Armed with an umbrella I conquered quite a few places... looking for things to enhance the level of entertainment intensity at 422CS. End up buying this 4 dollar speaker connector thing. Hope the home surround sound will be better this year. Bunnings in the city has closed! Aint' dat something? Aint dat SAD???? Where do I do my shopping now?? None of the Bunnings I see are near the city. All gotta use car one.

Ahhh.. anyway... thanks Krys for braving the storm to visit guy stores. Today was worth a million. Donno if I'd do dat for girly stores!

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I later made myself get out of my house again to get the Herald Sun. Wanted to collect the How Things Work free mags.. i think they suck.. but I'll collect them neway since I even bought the binder for it. The indian at the newsagency kept telling me to get the binder.. just wanted me to spend my money rite??? I feel stupid now but hey.. it's something to keep meself occupied!

Expect a smarter guy in your neighbourhood soon.. he knows wat makes birds fly now! In 20 years time or so, I can pass the whole set to my son as a gift.. encyclopedia set WOOOOOOOOOO... awwww.. hahaha.. cheapskate daddy..


WillZ

A: I'm not sure myself. But I hope real chicks end up in Homebrand Chicken Nuggets.

I never know what goes into those breadcrumb coated flour thingies.. but I buy them anyway. Like back in high school, there's this rice stall that sells prawn fritters as one of the dishes. We used to order flour fritters and get scoldings from the guy. But we do it anyway,.. why order prawn fritters when it's really flour fritters... with prawn shells maybe.

Anyway, it's not a secret fact that it's cheaper to buy two 500g Homebrand Chicken Nuggets than one 1kg packet.

3.17 for the 500g ones. 7.xx for the 1 kg one. WHY AR??

I'm gonna do a research. I'm counting the pieces of nuggets I get in the boxed 500g ones. When I've depleted them, I'll go get the 1kg ones n count how many it has.

If any of you have looked into this before, dun feel shy to tell me the results k? So I don't hafta waste like 1 dollar getting the 1kg pack to try.


WillZ

When all is said and done, and everyone is gone...
Lord You're really all I want...

Free to live, freedom from things that stifle our daily lives.. our walk with God.. it's just no fun being caught in a rut.. I wanna run with an adventurous heart!

Sometimes when you know you're not at peace with a certain thing.. you better double check. It's not about going against our fears, or reaching for the impossible. But it's sticking with wisdom, and counting the cost before you start building. Wisdom calls out to the ppl on the streets, but many shun her voice.

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong..

See I'm not copping out,
not copping out,
not copping out..
When You're raising the dead in me..

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I bought this RM10 fan.. brought it to school. It's staring at me now. I have NO regrets buying it. Good on me. HAH. You guys might see it in my house one day.


WillZ