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Just found a song that best describes me now... it's Tommy Emmanuel's Green Thumb.

The style of the song on the outset is kinda bouncy and happy...
but deeply rooted in the song is a melody that is melancholic and is laced with a tinge of hope searching... and somehow the answer is there... somewhere.


WillZ

What do you do when you feel a silent stress? One that's behind your mind and can't get rid off? You know what to do with it, you know it isn't gonna affect you.. but you just feel tired and want some sooting music..

You play some Tommy Emmanuel tracks...


WillZ

...so little words.

"Be brave. Be strong. Be a fighter, a warrior, a hero."


WillZ

This friday I am thinking of screening 'RAY'. A movie that won the Best Actor at the Oscars. What say y'all? Lemme know feedback and I'll get it organized. Sorry didn't post this at 422CS's blog. Lazy to work on that for now. Will get that part of 422CS done soon.


WillZ

The only Macs I'd ever like are those with the word Big preceding them. Why?

~ You don't know if the hard disk is reading. What's wrong with them? Can't they put like an LED dat flashes to show if the disk is being accessed? Or does it cramp their style and takes away the distinguished look? How in the world would techs know if the Macs are on, or are actually still in the process of transferring files or processing them.

~ The mouse that comes with Macs.. they are roundish.. and the shape doesn't point up! With a windows mouse.. you know what is the exact point of your mouse that points north. My goodness, the old iMacs have a ROUND MOUSE. If you hold it slight leftish you won't see your mouse cursor move left and right smoothly. And did I mention the new optical ones won't click properly if the wire is stuck in at a certain angle?

EVERYThing about the Macs are LOOKS.. LOOKS.. and LOOKS. Functionality and convenience for the administrating user ranks like maybe 3rd or 4th in their list of priorities. Gimme an ugly PC anytime man, as long as I can get my work done without feeling that the manufacturers could've done a better job when designing the functionalities of a machine.

That's it. Even with poor security loopholes that appear everyday, bad coding, horrible designs.. I'm still sticking with PCs and Windows.


WillZ

Hey there!

Anyone reading my blog uses Gillette Mach 3? I've got 10 boxes of Mach 3 blades to sell at AUD$6 each. Each box contains 4 blades, and Safeway sells them for AUD$12.50 each. Lemme know if you're interested!

BTW, nobody wanted the Nokia 8310 cover rite? I think it's lost. I brought it to OCF on Friday night and left it on a chair when I went out to play for altar call. It was gone after that. Hopefully someone found it and made use of it. Would be a waste if it's in the bin.


WillZ

I love posting things from My Utmost For His Highest.. the devotionals aren't meant to help you learn theology or everyday tralala happy stuff... it convicts you of something almost everytime. Here's today's... makes me think..

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We are God’s fellow workers . . . —1 Corinthians 3:9


Beware of any work for God that causes or allows you to avoid concentrating on Him. A great number of Christian workers worship their work. The only concern of Christian workers should be their concentration on God. This will mean that all the other boundaries of life, whether they are mental, moral, or spiritual limits, are completely free with the freedom God gives His child; that is, a worshiping child, not a wayward one. A worker who lacks this serious controlling emphasis of concentration on God is apt to become overly burdened by his work. He is a slave to his own limits, having no freedom of his body, mind, or spirit. Consequently, he becomes burned out and defeated. There is no freedom and no delight in life at all. His nerves, mind, and heart are so overwhelmed that God’s blessing cannot rest on him.

But the opposite case is equally true--once our concentration is on God, all the limits of our life are free and under the control and mastery of God alone. There is no longer any responsibility on you for the work. The only responsibility you have is to stay in living constant touch with God, and to see that you allow nothing to hinder your cooperation with Him. The freedom that comes after sanctification is the freedom of a child, and the things that used to hold your life down are gone. But be careful to remember that you have been freed for only one thing--to be absolutely devoted to your co-Worker.

We have no right to decide where we should be placed, or to have preconceived ideas as to what God is preparing us to do. God engineers everything; and wherever He places us, our one supreme goal should be to pour out our lives in wholehearted devotion to Him in that particular work. "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might . . ." ( Ecclesiastes 9:10 ).


WillZ

Is it how it really works? U want something but you can't get it.. and later on you think it sucks and it's probably not that great anyway?

Maybe in reality, it really ISN'T all that great. Maybe it's like you want it so much you put it as the ultimate goal, and practise sheer blindness to everything else. You fail to see the things about it that you don't really like, or doesn't suit you. Maybe sour grapes really are sour, and you're the one telling yourself it's sweet.

NOPEZ, I'm not talking about Boba ;) Boba is really suck one.. really..


WillZ

WOO HOO!

This is good news. I'm thinking now.. even when I get a car, I won't b driving to church man! Save so much more taking the train.. will only drive when I'm playing..
yay yay.. haha..


WillZ

I am very very sad. I misplaced my Planet Waves string winder. =(

If anyone knows where it is, please let me know. I think I will lose a few night's of sleep over this. =(


WillZ

Wanted to listen to something punchy and Papa Roach taught me about the one cause of all relationship problems... selfishness...

Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me
Time and time again
You think about yourself before you think about me

Coupled with music that makes you wanna smash things, I think Papa Roach is really trying to make a point.. haha..

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Oh ya.. the pain is back to haunt me.. back to the blue pills..


WillZ

Anyone of you own a Nokia 8310? Lemme know.. I've got a Nokia 8310 cover to give away.. if you're nice enough and I like you as a person.. you might just be the lucky one.


WillZ

Sometimes we crave for attention, to be known, to be cared for, to be esteemed, to be placed in a position of influence. Yet we do not want the pressures of being put on a pedestal, being afraid of failing others. We want to be able to make a mistake and not bear the consequences of it.

How do we strike the in between?


WillZ

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WillZ

A paraphrase from Friday Night Lights :

Being perfect isn't exactly being flawless. Being perfect is being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didn't let them down. Because you told them the truth, and that truth is you did all that you could. There wasn't one more thing that you could've done. To live that moment with clear eyes, with love in your heart... that is being perfect.


WillZ

The times ahead are gonna be tough. This year has been good so far, but now the battle has begun... the bed of roses are dying.. end of the happy shalalas. The attacks are coming strong. I can see that it's gonna be a long lasting one. Lord, I submit to you. Fight this for me. I'm weak, I'm hopeless. I can't put on a smile anymore. The position I have to get into for this battle is on my knees.

Wann Ee, Yao Hua... if you are reading this, I'm calling on y'all to step up with me in prayer.. I need you both as my accountability and prayer partners more than ever again. Prayer transcends distances. Send your prayers from UK and USA for me will ya. It's funny how the 3 of us end up in 3 of the major angmor countries in the world.

As I close my eyes, there's one Q that is playing on my mind, "Why do I have to go thru this again Lord?"


WillZ

There will always be times in man's life where he has to keep telling himself to keep going and to be a man. It's not about proving to people that he can do it - that he's not a loser. It's not about showing others he can be tough and has what it takes to take on the world.

It's about being who God created him to be, to live out the masculinity that God has placed in him. It's not about whether others think you are a man or not, cos the battle takes place when you're alone by yourself, when no one's watching. The times when you're on your knees, debating whether to get up and face the challenges set before you. It is something women will never be able to understand cos the phrase might be simple - BE A MAN... but they do not have it in them to picture and grasp what it means to be a man validated by God. It is the same the other way round, men will never be able to understand what it means to be a woman, to be able to reach into their hearts and understand the feminity that God has placed in them.

Guys, life will never be easy. Girls will never be able to apprehend the need in us to perform, to protect, to serve, to be strong, to fall 7 times and get up 7, to win by losing, to put down our pride, to provide, to give, to exhaust our energy, to give up our lives for them. And you need to discover this need that God has placed inside of you, and to be the best man you can ever be for God... even if it means that nobody sees the refining work God is currently doing deep inside your heart and spirit. Let the main passion and drive of your life to be the man that God meant you to be, to be like Jesus.

To succeed, we gotta push each other on in life and realise all of us need guys around to encourage each other, to say "Hey.. it's ok.. I have the same struggle too, but let's kick some devil butt, leave him no room, create a space for God in the center of it all and lead lives worthy of our calling as men of God".


WillZ

If you think I'm scary when I'm quiet... you might wanna know that I'm scared too.


WillZ

I posted the exact same post half a year ago. It's time to post it again.
It's the same prayer.. =( break me Lord.. =( that's the only way I can go thru this..

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Break me for my sin
As the power of Your mercy
And forgiveness flows within

Break me for my pride
As I lay my life before You
Nothing else but to adore You

Break me Lord I cry
A broken spirit You will not despise
Break me once again
Till all that remains will glorify Your name

I need Your love
I need Your grace
I need to learn to need You every day
I need to soar
More than before
I need to need You more

(c) 2004 Joshua Yeoh


Yes Lord, break me Lord. =( I need to learn to need You...


WillZ

Have you ever like had a sudden thought that things in life aren't gonna work out? You tell yourself "don't entertain discouraging thoughts" but you know deep inside that the "encouraging thoughts of hope" you have are baseless? What you thought was doing alright isn't aligned with reality? It makes u feel scared and sad, but at the same time you know you cannot continue to live in a world where the looking glass is distorted?

Well, I just did.


WillZ

Oooo... really good devotional today from My Utmost For His Highest..

Go go... READ IT...

It'd have been easy if Jesus went to the cross just as the Son of God..


WillZ

O k O k... who is still got the yellow wrist band on their wrist?

I got, but Jay don't got. Jay one is dropped off already.

Are you got or don't got?


WillZ

...of the year! (in no particular order)

1) KAON KTF-200 Digital TV Receiver (AUD $120)
2) Ronson Oven Toaster (AUD $30)
3) Tiffany Slow Cooker *5litres!* (AUD $40)
4) IKEA BABORD Shoe Rack (AUD $10)
5) IKEA FIBBE Bin With Lid (AUD $22)
6) Canon A75 Digital Camera (RM1200)
7) PS2 Dual Shock Game Controller (RM80)
8) Philips SBC HP800 Headphones (RM8x)
9) Johnson J-Station (AUD $90)
10) Behringer FCB1010 Midi Foot Controller (AUD $100)
11) Midisport USB 1x1 + Midi Cables (AUD $85)

Wow.. that is quite a lot huh.. the little that adds up.. oh no.. gotta stop buying things. Please note that whatever I bought I really do use a lot. It's really worth the investment (ya.. I keep telling myself that).

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Awesome sermon at CCHB yesterday.
Building a place for miracles to happen.
Build a place for God in your life.
Text : 2 Kings 4:8-36.

v.8-10
The woman built a room inside the house, not an annexe or extension. This means the person had full access to the house thru the front door. We need to give God full access to our lives, the front door. Not an extension that compartmentalizes Him. (if there's such a word)

She put a bed there. A bed is a sense of dwelling. Imagine a father telling a daughter that is going away for her studies - "Dear, remember - whenever you wanna come back, there's always a table in our house for you." Doesn't make sense rite? Usually it's "Dear, there's always a bed for you in our place".
Put a bed for God to dwell in in our lives.

v.11-17
Miracles started to happen, God wants to give to our needs that we don't even know of. Things that we think we have grown to accept over the years yet He wants to bless. God will ask when we put Him in the right place, "What can I do for him/her?"


v.18-26
The son of the woman had some strange headaches and died. The woman placed her son on the bed of the godly man. This signifies we too have a place to lay our burdens when we build a place for God.

She then set out to look for the godly man. We too can set out to seek for our God when we go thru times of trouble. We can put our burdens at His feet, and tell Him "It is well with me, my Lord.. it is well." Her son is dead yet she can say "It is well". We do not understand why bad things happen to good people, but we know we have a place to surrender that thing to God and say "It is well".

v.35
Putting things at His dwelling place gives room for a miracle to happen. Leave the burden with God. Close the door on it. Let God handle it.

If you're looking for more of God, more miracles, more power.. Build a place for God to dwell in. Not an extension of your life, but give Him total access.

Really good stuff. Oh sweet Lord, thank You for ALL Your plans.. I am dumbfounded.


WillZ