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Happy birthday JOCELYN : ) wish you all the best and hope you enjoyed the dinner just now. Wish you soar high in your career :)
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Its a disgrace to feel fed up about my own life. Ever since 11 august sch started, ive not felt real happy at all, except those times that im having fun. But imagine how little my fun time was cut down to. So in conclusion, im not happy and have not smiled/laughed from the bottom of my heart since school started.

Have you ever felt that you are partially hanging there? Can have fun but its partial. Did tutorial but its partial. Listened to lect recording but its partial. Went to sch but its partial. Everything else is, nothing but partial.

Time. Less time with my family, less time with my friends. My life seems to lost its balance ever since. I felt the guilt that ive so little with my family and friends nowadays. And even when im having fun and trying to enjoy myself, my sub mind is thinking about sch again. It doesnt matter if i score well. But sad case, i did so badly for my tests.

Changes. Ive to change the way i study, change my fucking partial attitude. Things are no longer the same as the past, its not as if i memorise i will get full marks. Its about understanding the concept now and applying it to all sorts of other ailens questions. I know how i lousy im.

I was chatting online with Geraldine from NUH last night. She updated me the progress of the renovation plan and many cool stuffs. I wish i was there as well. I realised. I seem to miss NUH, the people in NUH. The closeness, chattings, laughings, coffees, shoppings, buffets, lunches, toilet breaks, sneakings, gossips, enduring, war time etc etc.

I was texting with Sze Yung today. And she left me a string of words that her lect left her last week 'the real test in life is far harder than that in school.'

And in Sze Yung own words, she told me take care of your health too. She is a special lady that ive known in NUH. Though we are buildings separated, we are good friends.I think she really understood the life of a student. For my farewell, she gave me a chest box with a few sachets of coffee inside and said i'll need it and i really did. She is a special lady, a strong lady that i look up to. I wish her all the best in her masters and hope she can spread me some 'clever' cells. She is one strong lady who believes in continuous improvement, constant upgrading herself while working.

I can never forget the tough 4months there in which shape me. I will never forget the values that i have learnt in NUH.

I will change, frm now on. No more partial fucking attitude.

PS: I really enjoyed my weekends with Pyin, Py's Lu Yting Lyan Xying. The late night mustafa shoppings, the RELAC of east coast park, the texas poker!

Meeting up with Vivian in the morning at toapayoh to study together, goodness its the word study again but luckily with friend :)

Happy 20th birthday XIAOHUI :).

Blessed. But do not know how to carry on with it.

Starbuckings with Pyin now :).

Today is a longgggggggggg day...

Morning went for Mac breakfast alone :), relaxing and enjoyable. I realised if i didnt go to school, my day is really long, perhaps because the to and fro journey itself a 2hours plus already....

SC came to Woodlands to find me. Im really surprised that instinct can led a person to another :)

Slack together for half a day... Den met up with Pyin. Yting joined for a short while... Have fun chit chatting together...

Chatted about lots of things...

In conclusion, its a great day today :).

I hope it goes well this time round. LOL.