lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Sunday, September 26
-9:36 pm
General Paper up and about in less than 12 hours time. Shucks, this sucks. Even though with Kenneth's help, I don't know if it will help alot. Each has his own method of studying. Will his work for me? Ah well, no use worrying now. Just try to follow his instructions and see what will come out from this.
It's just purely amazing to see how people change. Especially their feelings. Hmm, to say that we can't control outselves, can't control our feelings, is that really true? Or is that just an excuse to play off the unconscious coldly calculated actions that we explicitly carried out in our daily lives? Humans are deemed to be selfish, eversince Cain killed Abel. Reflect upon yourself, do you do things that are not to your advantage? Or to gain nothing from it? Experience you may say but on the other hand, if there's nothing more to gain other than "Experience", would you even bother? The greatest example is CIP. The hours to gain from the activity will be much much more attractive than the "Experience", with the latter being deemed more valuable by most. I wouldn't say there aren't any altruistic people walking around on this face of the earth. But how many do you see them around? I myself belong in the "selfish" category. If anyone is to take a trip down to see how my brain functions, they would never believe it belongs to the same person who smiled, laughed, joked and lamed with everyday. Seriously, I am not joking. Sometimes I'm even appalled by the thoughts that I can come up with.
So, if you don't act out when you have thought of, does that mean you are a good person? Perhaps. To a certain extent. It would mean that you have some sort of self control. A high level of self-control I would say. So many of us have this level of control, since we don't walk around with a M-16 in school and killing all that are breathing and moving. (I wonder where is this going to lead to..) How do one define good? Giving monetary aid to charities? Carrying their responsibilities like they are the burdens of the world? Or to be submissive and carry out every word a person in authority gave?
Yes I would say. However, if these are not done with love, then I would think that it would be in vain. Perhaps it is because of love that allows us to change. Love encompasses all; our flaws, our weakness, our ugliness.
1 Corinthians 13
Love
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Indeed the greatest of all is love. And it brings about changes that amaze everyone, even to yourself. Changes that you thought you will never make. Spread the love around. Pass it on. You will never know what kind of changes you will bring to your loved ones.
Wanted this to be a mini practice for the GP tomorrow. Turned out to be some sort of encouragement stuff. Hmm, oh well, if it can set people thinking, heh, why not? But if not, just treat it as some ramblings of a utterly tensed person who thought blogging can help and have loads to get off her chest. Feelings ain't fun when they are in the mode of confusion and denial. Self-hypnosis is getting less handy by the minute. Just hope time flies and perhaps so will confusion and denial.
Wednesday, September 22
-5:44 pm
13 out of 22 girls having DMS. What are the odds?
Go figure.
Monday, September 6
-11:13 pm
The next time someone says............
"I thought you were supposed to be a Christian,"
keep this in mind:
When I say "I am a Christian" ...
I'm not shouting "I'm clean living!"
I'm whispering, "I was lost; now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say "I am a Christian" ...
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble, and need CHRIST to be my guide.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I'm not tryingto be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak, and need HIS strength to carry on.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed, and need God to clean my mess.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I'm not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible;
but God believes I am worth it.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I still feel the sting of pain, I have my share of heartaches,
and so I call upon His name.
When I say "I am a Christian"...
I'm not holier than thou. I'm just a simple sinner,
who received God's good Grace, somehow.
Humblefied..
Sunday, September 5
-1:05 am
How do one practise love?
Any ideas?
Thursday, September 2
-10:42 pm
Promos in less than a month time.. What am I doing here? Hmm.. No idea. Anyway been having the same old resolution again and again for the past few weeks.. Shall no more dwell on it. The events for September will be pure mugging. I'm so going to mug this September. Maybe I'll crash AMK library everyday, then maybe I can catch you there.. Haha. So wu liao. But first, must drag ah Paul down too, just hope he doesn't want to go Mac's and study. $$ is very important to me now - but then since when it doesn't? -shrugs-
Went out with Keni today. Haha, just for only like an hour or so, but still it's quite fun. :) Shopped for her friend's present. Noticed some differences in me and her, especially me. Became more frank, to the point, and tactless while she became more ti tie, more compassionate, just basically better than me. Not that I want to "devalue" myself, but I just feel that I've actually grown worse over the years. The environment? Shouldn't be. Less restraint? Perhaps. Trying to find an identity for myself? I guess. More mature? Hmm, that's a thought. But whatever it is, I still think I'm quite naive in a sense. I trust people quite easily. Get influenced easily too, especially when you are telling his/her bad points. Sometimes gullible to the point of stupidity. But this is me, what can I do? Innocence is sometimes a good thing, isn't it?
Got to know some rankings the guys had. Pretty interesting results. Shan't say more. Just... interesting results.
Does it mean that when guys and gals talk, over messages, phones or msn or whatever it is, they are close? If it is so, then I have a lot of close guy friends. So do many of you. Some will say it's flirtatious. But did anyone search up the exactly meaning of "flirting"? I definitely do not have sexual interest in almost all the guys I talked to. Heck, I can't even talk about having a sexual interest with any of them. ( ok, maybe just fantasizing on one or two of them, but definitely not on the sexual level, I don't have the right nor the exact information on it to fantasize about. -.-" ) Gah.. Guys, I feel, are sometimes better conversationalists than gurls. There is so many hidden agendas or meanings behind the words spoken by a girl. For guys, even there is, there's a hardly any malice, for if there's any, it will be vocalised straight away. That's how I feel. Ok, this is blatent bias-ness. But it's ok, I'm not exactly a feminist. I don't mind having lesser rights than a guy, but at least my human rights must be there. Besides being a girl isn't that bad, sometimes. Well, it's good to have friends from both sexes, it balance things out.
A word of advice to those who only hang out with only with same sex friends: you better watch out. Have a care for your dear mother who's damn worried about your sexual preference. Unless among your friends you have displayed interest in pictures or oogling at the opposite sex, then please don't hide yourself from them. They are not going to bite you or eat you up. They are just human beings.
I'm talking bullshit. This is so psychological stuff, so "mother-y" stuff. Gah.. Got to quit this habit man. Bah.. Off to do PW liao. So sian..
Wednesday, September 1
-7:03 pm
Went back to Zhonghua yesterday.. :] Sho happy to see all the people, even though never talked to all of them.. But to those whom I had chatted with, ^_______^ Saw some teachers, talked for a while... Saw some drastic changes in some people, in terms of appearance as well as their character. People are still in their cliques.. Some things never change.. But I'm damn happy and excited to have a normal conversation with you. ^^ Don't think that ever had happened before, a real, sit-down, brain-less chat about everyday stuff. Just hope I don't think too deeply into things and spoil this long friendship between us, because that is the last thing I will ever want to happen, especially with you.
Went to Swenson later.. In J8.. Haha.. No other places to go le, so sian lo.. Haiz.. Ate topless 5 with Ying Shing, but kept looking over at Yukina they all's Earthquake.. Lol, so bad of me. -__- Rot for awhile in J8 with Ying Shing and Cindy, with them grumbling away about a certain someone who couldn't be with us. Oh well.. Each has their own programmes ma. Then I went back home to rot some more. Slept at 9 something. Good right!? Haha, had a 10 hour sleep before waking up in the morning..
Went to Ikea to get Cindy's present. 3 Aliens named Zhuo Xiao Lan, Ling Giam Neck, and Lim Xiao Qing. Lol~ You can immediately guess who they are named after. Hmm, going to meet Shiling later to give her alien to write her message. Lol.. Well, got to go.. Tata~
P.S:
Yunli: Well, he doesn't need to have them all, just some will do. ^^
Sharon: ^^ We seriously need to come out and have a long talk.. Lol!
