Tuesday, November 30
-9:28 pm
Went to do some CIP today. Felt that CIP should be like what I did. Something useful. But then without people to go around asking for donations, we wouldn't be able to do what I want to do. Ironies of life. Anyway, counted coupons that were used for some funfair organised by Children's Charities Association. It was held at Ngee Ann City on Sunday. Hmm, maybe some of you readers went there that day? I might have counted the money that you spent on those stalls. Haha. I can safetly tell you that the amount we counted are well into the five figures. ^.^
Received a depressing message today. Dialled a depressing number. Couldn't cheer the person up. Just had this sudden-but-yet-subtley-knew-it-all-along feeling that I'm not matured enough. At least not enough to carry the burdens of my little world. (I have no aspirations to do the World's. Not at all.) Once again realized that relationships are never guaranteed, especially at our age. Maybe what all moms and dads are advocating are really true. But I remembered an arguement I have with myself. (Yes, I do talk to myself. So sue me.) If both parties are willing to compromise, to change for the better, to better accomodate each other, then why not? If they can last it through, then I'll be damn envious of them lar. Who wouldn't? And looking at all the things that they had gone through to come to this stage, I don't see why I can't help them to press on? Since both had already done so much? Are you going to call quits because suddenly you see a clearer picture of your surroundings, the people around you? After the mist of love has gone by you? Feelings are not rational I know. However, the penalty of being irrational will cause so much sticky business that I hate handling them. Maybe that's why I don't want to enter into a relationship unless it is one that can guarantee stability and maturity and forever. It sounds so idealistic. I'm a postive person, so let me. Do a survey before letting go, before letting someone's world crashing down.
Because when glass shatters, everyone in its course is inevitably hurt, especially to those who are left behind to pick up the pieces.
Looking now at the person I am, if you were to tell me this is how I am going to turn old ten years ago, I'll cry and tell you that it's impossible because I won't believe I would have such assertion. Time passed, situations occured, decisions made, people changed. All for the better or worse. Growing up is such a pain the arse.
"Will you be mine?" - A phrase that contains so much more. Dreams, hopes, wishes, that may flourish into reality under the right conditions.
"I love you." - Three little words that are being abused by the insensitive world of today but nevertheless continues to bear the maltreatnemt and thrive (barely) with the existence of the discerning few.
"Will you marry me?" - A promise for everlasting love.
"Let's sit down and talk." - Sense of forbiddening is approaching. Anxiety and confusion and fear begin to unleash in you. Trepidation, to sum it all up.
"Let's give ourselves a break all right?" - Goodbye is all I have to say to you.
Thursday, November 25
-9:23 pm
Went to some NKF awards ceremony with Bel. Think the people there were utterly bewildered as to why were there 2 junior college students doing at a ceremony for PRIMARY SCHOOLS. -.-;
[Tomorrow's ceremony is for the secondary schools and junior colleges though. Oh well, thank goodness I need not go anymore. Was supposed to go down tomorrow too. One saving point: the refreshments were fantastic.]
All thanks to Hester. Need I say more?
Ok, perhaps it wasn't that bad. You get to see some touching videos depicting the sad lives of these patients and their struggles and how they are strong not to be bogged down by these troubles. I don't mean to sound cynical, but seriously, I was watching the entire, well almost, show with some undiluted indifference. I was like.. "Hmm, ok"; "Oh I see" -raises eyebrows- that kind of attitude you know? All the charity shows are getting a little bit too frivolous. People are getting numb, irritated when they see people lining up on Orchard Road trying to sell their little trinkets. All for Charity, they say. And, just about everyone knows that they are earning for that 20% commission for every ticket sold.
At least some were honest about it.
With the addition of CIP, the problem is so much more confounded and you will see throngs of people loitering around. You get cornered at every turn of the road by some enthusiatics, the shopping mood is going to be murdered right there and then. And darn it, I have got to be part of these little irritants this holidays.
-wails- Whatever did I do to suffer from this? Why can't I just go paint some people's houses or rooms or flats? That is like so much more meaningful and it doesn't require me to go around begging people just to buy some stupid pins.
Utter Rubbish.
Bridget Jones didn't get a good review. Saddened by the news. Nevertheless I'm still going to watch it, see if the director really made Bridget such an idiot. There's also something about the British accent that just set me on high. Let's not forget about Hugh Grant. He may be 44, but men are said to be in their prime when in their 40s, so let alone his mid-forties. ^.^ Get this right though, I'm not lusting after him. He's old enough to be my DAD, for pete's sake.. He just... good eye-candies. Heh. =D
Wednesday, November 24
-11:29 pm
Not that the week has been uneventful. Was pretty packed.. With my rotting at home that is. =P
Hmm, went for roller-blading lesson on saturday. Learnt the basics only, kinda boring when you had to have your hands on your knees always. Got to blade around some.. Haiz.. The price of not having a life or rather, childhood. Heh. Was rather resolved to start with my homework, but nope, I didn't. They are still in the "in" tray. Haha. Bought some stuff. Spent alot of money this hols, on movies, movies and more movies. Shucks. Got some new clothes too! Yeah.. Btw, I have a plan to work after A levels next year, then go on a huge shopping spree to change my wardrobe before the new school year starts in the university. And that is if I get into university..
-pause from blogging to watch Inuyasha. P.S Shippo wa kawaii!!!! ^_^-
Hmm, at least I have started on my 2 weeks committment to read the bible and think through. Just hope I've got the endurance to finish through.
I want to watch alot of movies... Here we've got:
- The Incredibles.
- Shouting Love from the Centre of the Earth (Angsty/Romatic Japanese show)
- Alexander The Great.
- Bridget Jones' Diary: The Edge of Reason [Next Monday!! =D]
- Phantom of the Opera. [Date with S62! after chalet. Heh - supposedly]
Any takers must tell me ok? Heh.
Wednesday, November 17
-10:41 pm
All right, while Bel raves about Black Cat (which is undeniably good - I recommended it to her. ^^;), but that's in the shounen aka "young boys" category [where there is alot of actions and fighting going on yeah?]. I'm gonna rave about Hot Gimmick. I mean.. You gotta like Ryoki/Lyoki. He's too MCP for you to stomach, but being the fangirl that I am, that's absolutely adorable! Haha. He's too cute for you to stand it. I mean, look, who ever on this earth, or for your information, the entire universe, uses maths equation to derive whether the girl likes you or not? Who?!!? And he's so much like Doumyoji [male lead - Hana Yori Dango/Meteor Garden] but the latter is so much better than Ryoki in the sense that D turned for the better. At least, he tried to understand from Makino's [female lead - HYD/MG] point of view. Ryoki, he just sees it his way. Hatsumi has like got no chance against him! And she likes him! What kind of twisted romance is this man?!
Nevertheless, it's gonna be interesting to see how the mangaka is gonna wrap this story. BTW, the art is good too. Three bishounens - Ryoki, Azusa(childhood friend who had hurt her alot previously) and her recently-found-out-adopted brother, Shinogu, fighting for one plain, simple girl. The eye candies are already so saccharine that you gonna get a sweet tooth for it. ^^; Heh.
I'm gonna get 3 books from Sharon!! Comics that is, when she returned from Taiwan. Whoohoo! Save me alot of money sia. Hehe. Yup yup, signing out now. Missed a whole hour of Amazing Race. Damn!
Monday, November 15
-9:58 pm
Is it weird for aunties to dote on their nieces and nephews but not on their own children? Not that I'm complaining, it's just that Mom was never this generous when I attained good grades. Just a "Well done" was all I get. From her that is. My dad just acknowledged that little fact and just hoped that I don't get retained. Come on... Well, thank goodness little cousins are getting good results and therefore I'm getting sumptuous treats from Jack's Place. Hahaha. That sounds so selfish right? Well, if you are in my family, good treats especially food, rarely comes about unless there's some sort of celebration going on. Hardly gets to just go out and eat good food for no apparent reason.
The end of the year is approaching. Thanksgiving is coming up. Maybe I should do some soul-searching..
Giving thanks to:
- JAE 04S62 of SAJC for colouring my life in SAJC.
- PAE 04S23 of NJC for colouring my life in NJC.
- Audrey, Melvis and Thomas for making PW all the more bearable with all the gossip sessions. ^.^
- Seniors who are out of the ordinary. Especially those who are gay-looking. Hahaha!!
- CO comrades who are so quirky that no one will believe that they are from CO.
- People who invented the World Wide Web..
- Church-mates who are so loving.
- ZHSS people who refused to be forgotten.
- TVPS people who too refused to be forgotten.
- Movies, music, books and tv programmes that are entertaining and thought-provoking.
- Fun, loving and humourous families.
- Teachers in SAJC/NJC that make school life all the more learning-worthy and entertaining.
I guess that's all about it. There are still more I am sure, but these are all I can come up with. At the moment that is.
Blogger has been eating up posts. Be careful people!
I'm going to start organising my room tomorrow and probably that stack of homework that is just begging to be review through. It's pretty irritating to the eye to see so many piles of stuff around my room. Why can't I just have a cupboard to throw everything into? -sighs-
Thursday, November 11
-3:51 pm
I'm bored....
Your like an angel. You pocess love and bring love
to any thing or person. You love being
yourself. Even though your cute or not. I think
your just awesome. Like you are peace:)
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A:
You take the Beaten
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leader, but that's fine becauseall good leaders must first be good followers. You
tend to follow the crowdsliving life the tried and true way, often letting
others make the decisions.Just don't forget you have a mind too. Never be
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they are. This beaten pathis your comfort zone, you want and deserve company
on your travels trough lifeas you are probably a very friendly and kind
individual, always putting theneeds of others before your own. That's an
excellent and all too rare quality.Never lose it. But being surrounded isn't always
the best. People tend to tryand take charge and advantage of the fact and if
you aren't careful, it'llbe your life that's been taken over. Venture away
from your well-traveled roadand find your own away. Head down that road
less-traveled and see what's therebecause though the path you're on may have been
done before, that doesn'tnecessarily make it the right one for you. Step out
of your comfort zone andtake some risks you wouldn't normally take, make
mistakes, and make some timefor just you. Indulge and be a little selfish.
You'll come out all the betterfor it.
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You're a Spring. You usually are very close-knit
with your friends and value everyone freidnship
you have. You're a real people person and
everyone loves how friendly you are. You're
good with encouraging people but usually don't
like to be the center of attention. You are a
social butterfly and probably are in several
circles of friends but it's just because you're
well liked and you make people comfortable.
You're both fun and wise but you are very
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Tuesday, November 9
-9:29 pm
Went to the chalet. Met up with a lot of people. Heh. ^_^ can't say I'm not happy to do so. But can't help to think that being in different schools and just basically different lives will erode away the binds of friendship, no matter how strongly it was tied at that time. Time is never kind.
Now facing a dilemma, no one wanna take up as committee member for YF. Don't know what to do liao. =P Is being in choir lotsa more easier, less stress, that's why they will have more preferance for that? I wonder if they have prayed about it? I wonder if they are serious about it? Hmm..
Mahjong. I love the game. Hahahahaha. But just don't ask me to play the chim chim kinds, I only know simple simple one. hehe. Let's go to the chalet and play that can??? Someone bring the tiles? Hahahahaha.!!!
Sunday, November 7
-10:16 pm
I am his friend.
He is my friend.
That is all to it.
Right?
I am afraid of love, relationship, committment. In a sense.
So is he. In a sense.
He is looking for The One.
I am not. Not yet.
Anxiety, confusion and fear come hand in hand in hand.
He is going.
I am staying.
These are the ways of the world.
We have a lot in common.
Yet so many differences that set us apart.
The stars are right.
But the time is not.
Or maybe, we are just not.
So near yet so far.
Indeed, God works in strange ways.
Tuesday, November 2
-9:47 pm
Oh yeah!! PW is OVER. You hear me? OVER!!! Muhahahaha!! This is so cool, I don't really care how screwed up it was, (my presentation was slightly screwed up..) as long my group gets a band 2/3 will be fine. Afterall, it's only the band 1s that is going to make difference between the different bands. *jingles* Now all that is left is the sorting of the PW file and I shall be completely free from the evil claws of the mindless project.
About the previous entry, I've already told several people. Felt like I'm some sort of blabbermouth. Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut. Maybe I should just act blur. Just hope the news don't spread too far and too fast. But that's the consequences of my actions. Am I willing to bear it? I guess so. Even this may lead to a great divide. What I wishes to do will DEFINITELY lead to a great divide, but I don't think I should. It harms harmony.
This is why I hate politics. It's evil.
