lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Friday, September 30
-9:24 pm
Oh no!!!!!! -wails- I'm totally addicted to Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa!!! How!??!??! Ming Dao is so handsome and cute!! omg. Today's episode was so fan-girling worthy. I mean it's so fun to see him get jealous over the other male character! Oh man. Hahah. I'm so going to buy the vcd!
Next year. =] I will definitely. It's so fairytale that I don't think I'll be sick of it. Haha. I caught an episode at PS today! And it was when he had already recovered his memory and returned to the Shan familiy and Tian Yu was working at his company. Goodness! the drama! x]
Wednesday, September 28
-5:35 pm
Blogger's weird out. Ah never mind, not that it's any concern of mine. As long as I can write an entry it'll be fine. =) Deleted some paragraphs from the previous entry. Just felt uneasy about it. The more I think I about it the more it seemed weird to me. So what the hell, might as well scratch the whole thing out. It's just plain paranoia on my part I guess, what with the sueing of people who wrote about sensitive issues. Given that they were already being VERY insensitive and crude in how they wrote but still, I could have mislead anyone with what I wrote. And I can't argue with strangers to save my life, or at least not without having a day in advance to stew out all the attempting-to-be-witty remarks. Hurhur.
Anyways...
Got back the final results for most of papers. Somewhat okay with it but not very. Competitve nature is beginning to show its ugly face. Ughs. And speaking of that, I thnk I have to make one thing clear. I am a competitive person by nature. I just try my very best to play it down, so that I won't hurt anyone intentionally. I swear. But if I'm confident for the paper, naturally I would want to score good grades. So when things don't go my way, I'll be very upset about it and starts to grumble and moan and so forth. And in that moment of folly, I know I'm due for some evil eyes and daggers in the back. So here I am, humbly apolgizing for any hurt that I've caused. And when I say I won't do well for the paper, I definitely wouldn't score for it. I won't moan and groan forever about it. What's done is done. That's my philosophy. It'll be a blessing from God if it turns out well. At the very least I'm not those who moan and groan incessantly/exaggerates the damage for the paper but in the end become the highest in class. Maybe they are like me who got a lucky break or maybe, to add in a touch of cynicism, it's all just for show. -shrugs- I detest people like that. If you are confident about it then show it, at least you are honest about it.
Got more and more complains about this certain of friend of mine. By mutual friends some more. Kinda make me feel very confused about my opinions of him. Cuz he never really treated me the way he did to the others. Maybe I'm being too nice, and didn't recognise any difference. Don't be mistaken he has a girlfriend! Hahaha. And when I heard about what he did, it really angers me. Never thought he will be capable of those remarks and that attitude. Maybe it was there all along, just that being away now, the distance makes it more painfully obvious. Afterall the leopard never changes its spots. Saddened by the thought of friendships that can go sour so easily..
acks. the skin on my nose is peeling. yucks. short day tomorrow!
Tuesday, September 27
-3:25 pm
Yeah! I've updated! Almost made that announcement of going on to a hiatus real.. But well, nothing much to talk about except for results. Not as good as I've expected but of course definitely much better then BT2. Praise God for little blessings. Come to think of it, maybe it isn't this bad to get these results, give me the impetus to study harder. I am aiming for triple As or minimum ABB. It's achieveable I know and I don't want to disappoint myself, my parents, teachers [maybe] and God. But well, who knows these aren't supposed to be for me.. Not in the plans of God. Oh well, just study as much and as hard as I can.
A levels! I shan't be daunted by you!
Did a comprehension on gay marriages. Had a little discussion in class with the teachers. I supposed I can't write much lest I get sued for some weird reasons because I am responsible for my own words, written or said and yada yada, you get the drill.
*deleted paragraphs*
Haha. Yup so I've updated. So there. I just wanna watch finish all the Pride episodes and Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa.
*dang ou men tong zai yi qi..*
there's no mistake in the hanyu pinyin. it's a word pun on the character's name..
Saturday, September 17
-11:05 am
I'm feeling weird and tired. But I've slept for about 7 hours? Isn't that enough? Sighs. Sleep debt it must be. Finally! One more paper to go before a self-declared one week study break. Can't wait for lecture timetable to begin. Not that I hate tutorials, but well, there's really not much to do. All done's done. It will depend on one's determination to study. Not that I have much to begin with anyway. =\
Thought of a few things when I should really be studying over the past week. But forgive me, I can't remember much of it. Thought-provoking? Maybe somewhat. Just some general conclusion that I've come up with about things. Ah well, I'll write when I remember. Getting more and more senile by the years. Sad. =(
Wednesday, September 14
-1:46 pm
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Monday, September 12
-2:26 pm
Yesh! 4 more papers to go till the end of my misery! Seriously, this is the worst set of exams I have ever taken in my entire school life. Kept getting gastric pains and sleepless nights. Wth. Today was no different. Ultimate sian. Thing is I wasn't even stressed out over the bloody paper - chemistry paper 2. [It was quite manageable, surprisingly. =O ] Thought I could at least study in school some before meeting them for lunch but no, couldn't do so. Had to trudge all the way home. Thankfully the journey was pretty short, with all the buses coming like right after I reached the bus stop. Laid in bed, napped a little and viola, the pain's gone. I think I need to learn what kind of gastric I have and the different treatments to them. =
All right, funfair on saturday was okay, though I didn't think that there was a lot of people coming by, as compared to the one that was held 2 years ago. This year's was evidently on a smaller scale, the things that we sold, well sadly, aren't in much variety. Nothing much to shop and buy, though the food again was delicious! Man, the aunties in my church sure know how to cook. Heh. Hmm, again we [the youths] are in charge of the game stalls. Pretty glad to see the younger ones getting enthusiastic about it. They really called up their older counterparts ie us, to check on the preparation and see how they could help and going down to church often to do up their stalls. Haha, feels kinda old when I see them so enthu about stuff, like what we were just 2/3 years back. But well, now we've gotten jaded and cynical [because of stuff that we had to experience from CERTAIN people], really hope they wouldn't become like us, especially since the father of one of them is in that category of people. Bleh. Anyway, most of closed our stalls at about 3plus, citing reasons like tiredness and boredness. Imagine being unable to go walk around to see because even with 2 people manning the stall, we could be kept so busy.. It's really shitified. So we just put "out to lunch" and off we went. Haha. Don't care about them and their profits when we didn't even have the chance to spend our coupons ie their profits as well. Gotten quite a number of goods from the funfair, I would say my money was well spent. Heh. =D
Yesterday's prata lunch was.. interesting to say the least. Heated too. And with much much more disgruntle. Hope Patsy wouldn't be polluted by us. And what's with the obsession with Wei Xiong anyway huh? Hahah.
Why the hell do you need a bloody plasma TV for?!?!
Biology rocks. So do rain. =]
Monday, September 5
-12:25 am
Guilty pleasure of hogging the internet for the past 3 days. Did nothing much except downloading mangas. It's really the only thing that's drawing me to the computer now. Not even fanfictions can create that much effect. The drawback: some can talk forever to download, makes me waste my time in front of the screen with nothing else better to do. No, notes or TYS aren't very appealing at the moment.
And sorry guys I don't think I'm going to out to study with any of your, except maybe with YS and co, 'cause they live in AMK. Don't wanna spend time travelling down to Queensway and then back home. Sorry.. Shucks I should be messaging Wee about this anyway, not posting here. Haha.
Heard that the prom has less than 10 full tables paid! Wowers! I hope they cancel then, since it's rather useless to have only about 100 people attending the event. No kick. I mean like, proms are supposed to check out people decking out in their fineries - ie oogling at those with hot bods, guys and girls alike or pointing (discretely) at those who didn't make full use of professional help in make-overs. Of course it's a time of gathering and taking photos and such, but seriously, who is not guilty of doing that? If they do still carry on, hmm, I'm thinking of ponning, don't mind wasting that $63 though I WILL feel a little guilty afterall, it's my mom's $$. Ah well, see what they say first ba.
To end off with a low note, it never amazes me how much can change within a night. Flooding of entire counties, relationships, setting up of an event, you name it, life has it. Guess there's always much to be learnt, be it as a participant or observer. I hope I'll remember, not always but at least for as long as I'm still in contact with the people, what I have been told the night before.
All right I shall begin mugging from dawn to dusk starting tomorrow! All the way till friday afternoon. [Cause I'll need to go down to church to prepare for funfair stuff and my entire saturday is eaten up by it. Can't study. Boo. Oh well.] Hey J1s and J2s, come down to my church funfair if you can, stop mugging for just maybe 2/3 hours and have some fun! [I wouldn't be studying at all!] Do feel free to approach me for details! =]
