lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
And love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender
Shine a light in and
let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light and
let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king
Sunday, April 26
-9:24 pm
I'm so stressed now I can kill.
Again.Because I don't really know if I know anything at all and I don't have the luxury like I did for HP329 to reread everything again. I have wasted lots of time over the weekend, but strangely I can't muster enough guilt nor willpower to want and MUG for this coming paper.
Yes she did give everything but I'm so scared of surprises. I think through this semester's examinations, I found out I'm not a person who likes surprises nor can handle them well. Of course I'm happy and touched to be surprised but then again, this may only apply to examinations. I'm on the extreme ends of prediction. It's either I prefer not to know everything so I can fully and truly MUG AND MEMORISE everything or know EXACTLY what is coming out for the exams so I can don't bother with unnecessary stuff. Yet I can't really do it though because examiners never hold true to their words. they always like the 'oh so surprising question so that they can distinguish between the distinctions and the average' ROARS!
I don't think I'm making much coherence now.
I can't wait for the paper to come to an end tomorrow because it signals the beginning of all my POST EXAMINATIONS ACTIVITIES. And boy, do I have loads of it. Shall only blog them tomorrow as it's only then can I truly keep my mind sane for now. I need to destress. Someone talk to me!!!!
Bethia had to ask me to go shopping after church today. ROARS!寂しいよ。。。
Monday, April 20
-6:17 pm
I want to die from HP329 readings ALREADY. It's boring. I don't know which points to get and memorise to vomit out on thursday. It seems like everything is relevant and I have NO IDEA how she is going to question our knowledge on Psychology in the Asian context. HURHUR. I can't wait to study for HP348 because even that is so much more interesting that Asian context.
Goes to show no matter how interesting the module looks to be and how interested one is in the module don't weigh much against how good your professor is in imparting their knowledge. I want to read "My Favourite Wife" more than all the readings she has given us. Unlike what Rebecca Ang did for 314A, which was giving us the relevance of her readings, WC did not at all! I'm going mad trying to note what are the main points!
Please come quickly Thursday!! End the suffering of all my suffering. Sighs.
Wednesday, April 15
-10:34 pm
*picture credited to xanseviera from deviantart*Today has been a
WONDERFUL day for me. HOHOHOHO. I'm in such a good mood, not even
that can dampen it.
Why am I sooo happy? Because it rained today! Hahaha. I was praying for rain last night and the past few days because it had been so humid and sticky that it was unbearable. And today it rained!! Some more, the rain came right before I had to leave for school. So thank God that my paper was in the afternoon. Heh.
Then the paper. HOHO. We got an A for our 45% weightage project! Isn't that a wonderful news? The battle is half done. Now I've got hope of getting and A for the elective because I do know how to answer the questions and have almost all the points in my tiny brain. Pity it's not a 4AU elective or else my GPA would have gotten a deserving raise. And there's hope that my Psychology modules will fare well too. I'm praying and hoping for a B+ for all of them. But well, I'll just have to study for them now. 8 days to the next module and 3 more days afterwards to the next, I must make use of my time fully!
If someone is to tell me that my examination situations would be so happy 3 months ago, I would have smacked him silly. Okay maybe not physically but well, mentally. The situation wasn't bright enough because I had to go to school everyday and my exams don't end as early as some people. It's depressing. But now, I'm pretty glad that they are spaced out, so at least I can have the time to slave over them equally, unlike Wen Yao's schedule. Gosh. It's horrendous. Starting tomorrow, there is one one paper till tuesday. Yes he will end early but imagine the torture he has to go through now. The poor soul. Haha. Looking back, I think God has really been wonderful to me. I led my CCF bible study group without too much of a problem even though I had to rush dinner. I had wonderful and responsive members in my group and I think we are fun people! :D My studies aren't too taxing because they have been interesting and it kept me happy to learn, even though I have to go back to school everyday. I made it through the last 2 weeks of schooling without too much of a scrap. God has really been faithful to me. If this is what I will get for doing what is pleasing to him, then why not! Hahaha. And there have been development in
that, and it was a surprising turn of event which I didn't expect. But I'll keep my head and heart to focus on Him first. I made a promise, and I intend to keep it. I have broken too many and this is one I really hope to keep. I'm sure the other party will understand. :] I want to let God to just take the reins in this and be happy with His lead.
And I saw this
article on yahoo. It's so interesting. Start smiling people! :]]]]
As for the other
that, I really don't know what to say. I will pray about it and hope for the best. But if there's anymore aftermath that is untolerable, I will lash out. I really will. I pray to God that will never happen.
Saturday, April 11
-1:55 pm
It's just a few more days to examinations but I'm not mugging like crazy. Maybe because my exams are rather spaced out and there aren't crazily a lot of materials to be read through. But even so, I still have one more report yet to be submitted and written for the matter.
(Japanese 3 oral was horrendous. Rarh!)
Sunday's the Cantata song presentation. Hopefully everyone will have a good rest tonight and be able to do their best for the glory of the Lord. :]
I can't help but share "laksa 鱼片米粉". I'm still tickled by that. There were supposed to be two different orders but maybe 'cause it was said too quickly, I think the vendor was stunned by it. So do we want a 鱼片米粉 with laksa soup or what? LOL.
前２，３週楽しかったです。
Friday, April 10
-1:45 am
I was reading on Jason Ma, a charismatic pastor from the United States. His Campus Church Network seems to be reaching out to many youths out there in the US which is really an amazing feat. It's really God's work, seeing that so many young people are getting disillusioned at such a young age..
Anyway just want to share what he wrote about being a leader or their "campus church-planter". No matter what it is meant for, I think it's really applicable for all Christians who wants to be a real-life testimony for their friends..
Faithful: responsible, reliable, keeps promises and commitments, has a good attitude in serving and exhibits the fruits of the Holy Spirit (Matthew 25:21, Galatians 5).
Available: it isn't about your ability, but your availability, a person who is willing and available to do God's will no matter what the cost. Has a servants heart like Christ this person says, "not my will but God's will be done." (Isaiah 6:8, Matthew 26:39)
Integrity: holiness inside and out, transparent and not living in deceit or hidden sin, trustworthy, held accountable to others and is responsible with his/her finances, relationships and personal holiness. (Psalm 41:12, Titus 1)
Teachable: a disciple, one who is constantly learning, in studying the Word, in prayer, in receiving constructive criticism and is open to new ideas. (Matthew 28:18, Prov 1:7)
Holy Spirit Filled: a spirit-filled believer, full of the Holy Spirit and power. For it is not by strength, not by might, but by His Spirit. (Zechariah 4:6, Acts 1:8, 6)
*obtained
here
Sunday, April 5
-9:54 pm
I woke up at 7.15am today and here is a list of what I did up till the time when I reached home at 8.30pm.
- Bathed, drank milo, prepared and heading off to church.
- Taught Sunday school - they are getting horrible. Maybe it's a familiar story, so they couldn't be bothered I guess. I hate disciplining but it has to be done. sighs.
- Went for the children's worship too when I could have gone up. In the end the children went up late for the adult service too. Almost couldn't have communion. Haha.
- We had lunch in church today! Pork, vegetables - broccoli and cauliflowers and fish. Celebrated Ben's birthday with a Truffle cake too. Was a little careless with it because I plopped it on the table. HAHA. But well, at least nothing happened. The fridge wasn't switched on too so it was a little soft. Everyone still said it was delicious though. :]
- Then it was Cantata practice. Long hours... that's all I can say. Of the 11 songs in that booklet, we had to sing from the third song to the last without any break. God please give me strength. (sighs again).
- Then it was choir practice till about 5.30pm. I like Doxa's songs and the current one we are learning is really nice. I like how the different parts come together although it is a little hard to learn.
- Dinner with Bethia! HAHA. I've been spending a lot of time with her lately and whenever I'm with her, I will become her shoe-trier just because my foot is smaller. And she almost(or really) always buy something when I'm with her. Bought museli bars too on her recommendation. Now I don't have to eat bread every morning! I should go find other alternatives for my mom to buy just so she doesn't buy bread ONLY. As much as I may like to eat dough, it gets tiring after a while. We gossiped too~ Haha. But we stinked too because pepper lunch's air is really horrendous. Xp
- MSN just weirded out on me. Is that a sign of someone hacking into my account?
I'm seriously very tired. Exams are going to be here next week and I haven't started on anything yet.
I AM SO DEAD.
*picture credited to deviantart artist*
Wednesday, April 1
-10:18 pm
It's April Fool's Day!
