Saturday, March 12, 2011

no sé si por siempre...



Sé que tú no recordabas ese pequeño evento en la tsubame roja cargada de instrumentos aquella tarde afuera de rockstock. Yo, en cambio, lo atesoro en esos recuerdos de juventud que no estoy seguro si no me dejan o soy yo quien los retiene. Sabes, de cerca eras más guapa y abajo del escenario eras tan chiquita: me encantaste.

Arriba del auto, con aquel vestido rojo, muy corto y ese abriguito que dijiste era para taparte del frío y no enfermar. Cuidabas tu voz. Yo mientras fantaseaba, imaginaba tantas cosas que se esfumaron cuando aquel hombre -que no tengo idea quién era- te desapareció en un segundo. No importa, dejaste esa imagen ahí para siempre.

No sé, no creo que hayas sido grande ni que tu existencia fuera trascendental -casi la vida de ningún mexicano lo es- pero eras joven y hacías con cariño lo que te gustaba, te dedicabas, eras tú.

Ya te fuiste, muy temprano de la fiesta para mi gusto, pero te fuiste, así es el cáncer, sólo viene y se lleva lo que puede. Ni modo. No sé si te extrañaré o si tu nombre quedará ahí en mi mente y te recordaré cada día, no lo creo; pero esa tarde nublada a fuera de ese lugar, tu rostro, tu piel y tu voz, el sueño de un jovencito loco de ilusión a punto de hacer realidad una fantasía casi inconcebible, esa tarde a la que le quitaste lo fría, estará siempre ahí para mi y tú con ella.

Fue bello haberte conocido y es divertido saber que tú no me conociste...

Thursday, March 03, 2011

I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique

Wrong

There's something wrong with me chemically
Something wrong with me inherently
The wrong mix in the wrong genes
I reached the wrong ends by the wrong means
It was the wrong plan
In the wrong hands
The wrong theory for the wrong man
The wrong eyes on the wrong prize
The wrong questions with the wrong replies

Wrong

I was marching to the wrong drum
With the wrong scum
Pissing out the wrong energy
Using all the wrong lines
And the wrong signs
With the wrong intensity
I was on the wrong page of the wrong book
With the wrong rendition of the wrong look
With the wrong moon, every wrong night
With the wrong tune playing till it sounded right yeah

Wrong

I was born with the wrong sign
In the wrong house
With the wrong ascendancy
I took the wrong road
That led to the wrong tendencies
I was in the wrong place at the wrong time
For the wrong reason and the wrong rhyme
On the wrong day of the wrong week
I used the wrong method with the wrong technique
Walk across the garden
In the footsteps of my shadow
See the lights out
No one's home
In amongst the statues
Stare at nothing in
The garden moves
Can you help me?

Close my eyes
And hold so tightly
Scared of what the morning brings
Waiting for tomorrow
Never comes
Deep inside
The empty feeling
All the night time leaves me
Three imaginary boys

Slipping through the door
Hear my heart beats in the hallway
Echoes
Round and round
Inside my head
Drifting up the stairs
I see the steps behind me
Disappearing
Can you help me?

Close my eyes
And hold so tightly
Scared of what the morning brings
Waiting for tomorrow
Never comes
Deep inside
The empty feeling
All the night time leaves me
Three imaginary boys sing in my
Sleep sweet child
The moon will change your mind

See the cracked reflection
Standing still
Before the bedroom mirror
Over my shoulder
But no one's there
Whispers in the silence
Pressing close behind me
Pressing close behind
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
Can you help me?