MeMoRiEs

this describe my situation now. im like the guy in the photo. standing at the junction. it's misty everywhere. I've to decide what to do, where to go. But it's so misty that i cant make my decision properly. As much as i want to say "I'm fine" deep inside im not. Family, friends, relatives have all potray me as someone smart, good in studies. How am i suppose to break the news and say "hey im repeating" and they goes "oh why? how come? too hard?" i rather say "yup fine, everything ok" -the end- whatever it is, dont ask if im ok. i will simply answer "yes ok" unless you're someone im willing to share details with.

nothing but disappointment. people who care and people who dont. just realise in times of trouble, i dont really talk to anyone, unless i need their help. the fault lies in me, no point sulking. get over it, get up and move on. -+- sometimes, some random people just simply brighten up your days.

people come people go who will be there to accompany you through life? when i was small, i was told family would be there for me whenever, but now..parents wont be there as long as i will... who knows when ill lose them. and dumb sis is growing up and no longer following me anymore. it's almost 100days since you left. have you really left? or are u still lingering around? it still dont feels like you're gone. it's like you're still at uncle's place and i will still get to see you if i go down... should i avoid visiting you on the 100th day? we should to share the same food. you used to pass me biscuits whenever im there. u used to pluck rambutan, mango, soursop. limkim and jackfruits from the tree for me.. now even the house is deserted...does the fruits still grow? =\

In the month of august i shall not -take taxi (alrdy spend 60bucks on cab) -spend more than 30bucks on any single day(so if the outing gna be more than 30, there's a high chance i wont go) -skip my daily routine -sleep later than 1am on weekdays -spend more than 8hrs on comp and more to come as time goes by.

Hello world! im still surviving! think it's the want-to-revive-blog feeling agn. i always end up doing the template, blog abit and then abandon it. maybe there should be a easier way to blog. not just from computers. lols. im lazy :D anwyay, im a happy girl :D what's happier than getting things fixed and having loved ones by your side? :D nothing! -+- simple meal with an awesome person. without him, there wont be me. walk the whole area with him. been long since he last brought me out.