JIAE

Hello
Its the last day of the year and I feel like I need to post something here. I am currently at work waiting for 2pm to come so I can head down to down to get my nails done.

So…….2014. It has been a ride.

The first part of 2014 I was pretty much feeling just normal nothing new so boringggggg. I was at UOB and handled the Chinese New Year crowd for the first time. During that period (mother F-ing notes exchange and red packets wtf so stressful!) i told myself “NEVER AGAIN. I WILL NEVER DO THIS AGAIN NX YEAR. ”
Handling that much money really almost made me go mad. And depressed cos I have no $$ hahahha

Thereafter I made a choice to leave the banking industry in the middle of the year. It was make or break. I joined an executive search company and this Mother F folded within 2weeks of my employment. HAHA I can laugh about it now (my friends are still laughing at me abt it knn) but then, I was really worried and I actually regretted the decision I made. But it was amazing how life turned out right after that. I got offered this role at my current company.

But that period was one of the best part of my 2014 to be honest – I met and fell in love with this boy.

Nobody has ever made me feel the way I feel about Isaiah. I have never felt so worried about someone falling sick. I have never felt so lonely when he is overseas. I have never missed someone soo badly that I can hardly do anything else other than missing him. Its crazy. Isaiah is the sweetest guy. He is constantly checking if I am ok. Even when I secretly curl up like a cooked prawn (fuck you menses cramps) in the middle of the night, he notices and will want to make me feel better. He knows when I get angry and is ever so patient.

Just how did I get so lucky?

Of course there are some things and moments that I cannot stand about him. But this is love. You accept and learn to love everything. Even the flaws. I am happy to have met someone whom I feel comfortable about sharing and voicing out my opinons on even the most sensitive topics (religion).

Thank you 2014. For making me so happy and blessed to be around to enjoy all the moments , be it good or bad. Thank you for making everyone around me healthy and happy. Thank you for all the second chances I was able to take.

Thank you 2014. It has been good, overall.

I am welcoming 2015 with open arms! May my weighing scale figure go down, Bank balance go up up UP!

Thanks you few pairs of eyes for dropping by!

Much love,
Msdonutt.

Hi deirdre,

It is the time of the year. I am another year older on planet earth…

My favourite uncle brought me to Turi Beach for a short getaway!

This boy saw how cheap the IndoMie was at Batam’s supermarket and lugged an entire box home.

Carpet. HAHA

Goodbye for now guys. So glad I get to spend another amazing year with everyone in my life 🙂

My free spirit and free-loving nature have gotten me hurt more times than I can count. When I love, I love wholly. I don’t hold back—what’s the point? Of course it’s scary, but so are rapids—all you have to do is keep moving forward. Sometimes you fall out of the boat, and that’s okay. The thrills and beauty of the ride make facing the fear worth it.

I expect you to be afraid, for love is no small matter.

I also expect you to be brave enough to face that fear and discover the amazing expanse that lies just beyond fear.

That’s where the real fun begins.

Hello all 5 of you;)
Hows life?
Just thought I update this space a bit since I have some time to spare. Randomly uploaded some of the recent photos found in my phone…

Isaiah stays right at the other end of singapore. But he always make it a point (whenever he can) to travel all the way to the east to send me home. Just so we can spend more time together and to make sure I am safe. I really appreciate it very much! See pic below..

Went to the National museum last week with Isaiah. They provided a audio guide and this guy promptly hung it on his neck. As below…

Had dinner with the OC peeps after 10 thousand years. Still full of nonsense these guys…

HT right before he put his fist into his mouth. His new found talent…

Group pic!

This was taken last night when we were just talking before going to bed…

And my bf looks unstable. LOL

byebye!

So many things happened just within this few weeks. I really dont know where to start.

Long story short…. I am out of a job. But life is not too bad. I met an amazing guy.

Life is not THAT bitter at the moment.

Till I have more time and mood for details. xoxo

I guess the first time we all started to sing the National Anthem was in Primary 1? Every morning during the morning assembly we have to stand at attention and sing the National Anthem, school song and say the pledge. Every morning without fail, alllll the way till end of JC. Teachers were literally supposed to catch students who are not singing out loud. Especially in Secondary school (where you are automatically a loser when you sing out loud haha),my teachers will walk down and put their fricking ears so close to you to make sure they can hear you sing. My secondary school’s school song was SUPER LONG like literally a pop song with chorus, bridge and all. WTF right? Damn act hahaha. My Secondary school was just trying too hard lah… just look at our uniform -.-

Anyways actually my whole point of this post was to share that, in Primary school, we started singing the National Anthem in our own way. Because the lyrics were in malay, so most of us just made up our own lyrics. Mine was something like ” Marikita ya ya singapura sa samamamma….”

Then I had a music teacher in P2. She made it a point to stop whatever she intended to teach during music class that day to do through the lyrics one word at a time for us. And she made us sing one by one infront of the whole class -.-

That was when I learnt the words in our National Anthem fully. I think that was real good education. I mean, what kinda Singaporeans dont know the lyrics to their own anthem right? Cannot lao kui.

I wonder if schools these days are still like that? Cos I dont think my brother knows the lyrics hahaha. Oh maybe also because there are not that many singaporeans in our schools already la HAHAHAHA

School days in our times are THE BEST.

This post is also about how I really love my country. No matter how much I complain about everything and anything under the sun- Home is Home. You will ALWAYS end up coming Home.

Happy Birthday!

It is always sadder to think of the What Could Have Beens– any events that could have occurred but never did.

I do not want to think back five or ten years down the road about the things I didn’t have the guts to let go and the other things I should have chased after. I have been under pressure – like the bills I have to pay, how much savings I need to have by now, how will people think of me… and even how will I think of MYSELF. Today was my first day at my new workplace and it suddenly dawned upon me that I have really sacrificed and let go of many things I have had before.

This is going to be a brand new environment, brand new “product”, brand new experience I will be going through. And to be dead honest, I have no idea whether I will make it out “alive” or not but I would at least like to think that this is a battle I am willing to put in my 250% in and fight with every strength I have in my tiny body. Mainly, I am just searching for and working on a long lasting career in happiness.

So LJY, accept everything about yourself, every single decisions that you have made.  No apologies, no regrets.

I just want this post to be a reminder to why I decided to make this choice. A gentle reminder to myself and what I believe in. My creed…

gn.

I just failed a test and I am feeling really lousy right now. I feel exactly how I felt when I failed my first driving practical test.

The feeling of WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED. Because I was super confident before.

This lousy feeling also has a little bit of scared because I also failed my second driving test.

FML

And keeping this dormant place alive.

From the most recent event:

BANGKOK with my monsties (minus KY who is in kiwi land). We’ve known each other for so long but this is the first time we’re travelling together! LOVED IT AND I WANT MORE…

Bare faces

Cant start anyday without coffee.

 Whats BKK without Chatukchak.

Whats Chatukchak without coconut.

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I also just left the bank. Onward to another phase/chapter of my life. Looking forward, as usual. But this time more scared than ever. This is so far the biggest leap I’ve ever taken. Thanks everyone for your great support, especially my dad…for being so supportive and encouraging.  It is definitely not a decision I made overnight. Leaving somewhere stable with better staff welfare and benefits is definitely not something easy HAHA. But I guess sometimes we just gotta do whats best for us in terms of career progression.

I AM SO MISSING THE DAYS at work with my ex colleagues from UOB. It has been such a wonderful experience and I have seen and learnt SO MUCH in this one year+. Thanks for giving me the chance to get to know every single one of you. Thank you for giving me so many stories to share. Branch work is super exciting (imagine a rat in your work place) and soooooooo satisfying. I have seriously felt like a zombie on more occasions than I’d care to remember, but this made me discover my ability to feel numb and continue to work.

The best manager.

My buddies in crime/ work. 

Many things happened when I was working there. Many situations tested my ability to react and improvise. Long story short, somehow or another managed to accumulate the stuff below:

I gave out the rest of the paper panties to each of my ex colleagues ahahhaha. They might thank me someday.

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This June I was in Bali with the old friend DUC. 

We got a villa and I guess cannot blame the hotel staff to think that we are a couple. We’re not.

Ooppssssss. Not ready.

This is like only THE BEST RIBS I’ve had in my entire life? Naughty Nuri. Must go if you’re in Bali!!!!

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Okay I am done

You just know it…. When there is someone else.

Fuck you. Fuck you very very much.