Life Expectancy: 65 Years
Claud An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart. She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art. For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up, in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tagged!
) the person who tagged me:Xinyi
2) your relationship with him/her: Sms-partner and my darling =)
3) your five impressions of him/her: too kind for her own good...easy to hangout with...responsible....sensible....short (hey! they said 5 impressions mah..HAHAHAHA)
4) the most memorable thing that he/she had done for you: too many to count...heehee
5) the most memorable thing that he/she said to me: "then you go and tell her what you told me! She'll want to hear it" - made the world of a difference!
6) if he/she becomes your lover, you will: take over the housework - you are not touching that vacuum cleaner sister!
7)if he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be: have longer hair...hahahaha, so we can go perm sessions together!
8)if he/she becomes your enemy, you will: send her to the moon HAHA.
9)if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be: she suddenly became a mosquito
10)the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: go to europe together!
11)your overall impression of him/her: what's there not to appreciate?
12) How do you think people around you will feel about you: Hahaha....this is so like Johari's window. Ok, erm...efficient? Can be pushy? A person who always get the job done...whee~
13)the characteristics you love of yourself are: adaptability - put me anywhere, anytime and i'll still survive.
14)on the contrary, the characteristics you hate of yourself are: too pushy, too perfectionistic, too goal-oriented
15)the most ideal person you want to be is: Da Vinci - crazy, bisexual, a genius: what's there not to love about the man?
16)for people who care for and like you, say something to them: refer to my synopsis =)
17)Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know howthey feel about you:
I ran out of people to apss it to. so I'll just list ok?
1) vonk
2) XY
3) Nat
4) Kris
5) Van
6) Jia Yun
7) Shangyi
8) Terrena
9) Cathleen
10) Jayne
(all girls for the heck of it.WAHAHA)
18) who is no.6 having relationship with?
A guy who goes bible-study with her every thurs..how sweet!
19) is no 9 a male or female?
Hee...a crab - cancer mah
20) if no. 7 and 10 are tgt, will it be a good thing?
Virgo-Cancer...y not? hahahaha...they dunno each other leh
21) what is no.2 studying about?
(XY: it's geology!) Biochemical Sciences at NTU and Malay
22) when is the last time you had a chat with no.3?
This morning: regarding abt her wearing specs and having pimples at the same time. HAHAHAHA...tat-glam! (okok! dont beat me!)
23) what kind of music band does no.8 likes?
Rock...yeah...i think
24) does no.1 have any siblings?
Me lor...her sis
25) will you woo no.3?
Hahaha....y not, if she wants me to woo her.
26) how about no.7?
SHe's in london! long-distance relationship arh...
27) is no.4 single?
With lionel...HEEHEE
28) what is the surname of no.5?
Tan...
29) what is the hobby for no.4?
I think it's PSP for now.
30)does no. 5 and no.9 get along well?
they dunno each other. =(
31) where is no.2 studying at?
Pulau NTU...
32) say something casual about no.1:
Stressed over a bday song until next mon...hahaha - loves linguistics =D
33) have you tried developing feelings for no.8?
*pui* friendly feelings lor....hahaha
34) where does no.9 live at?
Serangoon
35) what colour does no.3 likes?
BLUE
36) are no.5 and 1 best friends?
HAHAHA.....choir mates...they are so different!
37) does no.1 have any pets?
hair? Heehee, that time i vacuumed her floor....WOAH! sorry arh vonk...tell ppl abt ur secret...hee
38) is no.7 the sexiest person on the world?
Shangyi? She's the only person who can make orange a sexy colour...HAHAHA
39) what is no. 10 doing now?
doing GE1101E practical (thats also killing the rest of us)...haha, so qiao, she doing the same question as me...heehee
40)end of the quiz.
18:57
Anti-jects
I'm no longer pro-jects. I'm Anti-jects. sick of them...GRRR
and and and...i don't want to come across as rude or anything - but sometimes, assuming that whatever i'm saying is clear and coherent, people can understand instructions and stop being so dense. Like after an outline has been provided, all that is left to do is write. GOSH, how difficult is that? Then again, maybe they are filled with their own ideas that they don't see where the project is really heading. And some people want to argue for the sake of arguing. I know group projects suppose to increase synergy (1+1= more than 2). But with lazy, stubborn, slack groupmates, sometimes i feel it's 1+1 = less that 0.1. =.=
Although that's sometimes the case, i'm happy to say that at least most of my mates are all right and efficient. YES.....where are those people? migrated or something?
i'm at mac at now blogging this. Nat couldn't meet me to study together because she has tuition at 3pm - so met up with wai deck at AMK drive thru mac. Hahahahahaha.....i feel quite bad cuz most of the time i kept snapping at him. heehee....
anyway, got a pleasant surprised when i reached, because guess who?
Jeremy was there...so long never see him le =) seriously, today was the first time i actually saw Jeremy and books together. Usually, when it's not school, Jeremy and soccer would be together. Hahahaha...i guess A's help. In any case, it was nice to see them all studying.
Them? Why them? not just wai deck and jeremy meh?
Yah, apparently, i was quite touched to see Mr. Darius Oh at mac (fanning himself with a red fan) teaching the J2s chem. I mean, it's way beyond his call of duty but i guess he cares a lot as well.
AWWW~
So jeremy and waideck were here waiting to consult him. In fact, he's been here since i came....say, 5 hours now? That's serious committment man. Anyway, he's outside because he can't teach inside - like duh right. I think Mr. Oh and heat don't go together very well...hmm....shall encourage him to buy an electronic fan next time...hahahaha, but the red fan was just so wayang and needless to say, cute on him.
I'm taking a break now from intensive reading session. Yeah, my laptop battery is going to be flat soon. I think at the end of this is post, it'll be 30%. Anyway, it was quite productive. Finished 3 chapters of readings and i have say, 10 more to go? HAHAHAHAHA....
Nat had a panic attack yesterday - poor girl....i dunno what to say to comfort her =) Press on girl! Van you too!
(p.s. you shouldn't be reading this post until A's are over!>.<)HEEHEE
meanwhile, did i metion that the mocchiacino at mccafe is damn nice? heehee....don't worry, its decaf, so i'll sleep tonight. =)
OH YAH....speaking about sleeping. Yesterday night, i was quite pissed at the bugs/mosquitoes/whatever that was biting me to the extent that i stomped right into my parents' air-con room and demanded my dad to let me sleep his place. SERIOUSLY...try itching your night through 3-days in a row. Tonight, i swear, i'll be sleeping on the floor man. Heehee....my dear papa so nice - let me kick him out...=P feel so bad now.
ok! my break is over. Gotta go back studying about Napoleon and maybe World War I.
Ah...oh that topic of WWI, i realised whatever i've learnt in secondary school about that topic doesn't not even come close in quality with what i'm learning now. It's no way CLOSE. seriously...i never thought that WWI was that fascinating yet so tragic at the same time.
I love History - European History.
18:36
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Economical Relationships and Equity
today i heard a story from a friend and it made me think about some issues. the issue of Relationships...pardon the stupid title, my boring brain couldn't come up with a better one.
i'm never comfortable abt the notion of speaking about this topic because i'm afraid that i'll offend some readers here. But take this post as a favour to me because i want to write this down before i forget -and sometime later in the future, i want this to be a reminder.
Unlike some people i know, i cannot weigh all relationships equally. In my (deadly) organised mind where prioritizing is a second-nature, some people are more important to me than others. But it makes me reflect that sometimes, despite the level of care we put into others, we cannot expect others to reciprocate as much as we care for them. We also cannot assume that once a group of people treat us badly, the rest of us will do the same. It makes things grossly unfair don't you think?
Don't people have a chance to prove themselves somewhere along the way?
I know it hurts to invest so much in a friend/relationship but to not have it requited. I also know i've also done this to other people. These days, i try not to do that....i try not to invest so much and i try not to devoid people of the chance as well. Is this right? I don't have the answers to every question.
Then again, when you are so close with someone, other people start to feel distanced by your limited sphere of embrace. I confess, sometimes I'm a little jealous of certain friends because they always seem closer to others than to me. Then i look around at other people and they also feel that same too. Maybe it really is true - 1 more to a couple is just 1 too much more.
The ideal is that we live for ourselves and we answer to no one. Reality never is quite that simple. 1 slow msn conversation, 1 unreplied sms, 1 unreturned call actually translate more than the actual conversation itself.
the other person may feel that you're just not interested - a feeling i get a lot of times frankly speaking. Or someone else you're talking to demands more of your attention and that you're, well, just not interested. Of course, they are other legitimate reasons which another msn, sms or call can cover. I'm stressing on "another" being the operative word.
It may seem that all these "demands" on a relationship may seem "too much". However, you never really can explain how it feels to be ignored by 2 people who are living in their world and moving off without you. Can you blame them? Can you actually blame them? No. You can't because it's their friendship and perhaps you're just not fitted to be in their sphere of embrace. That, however, doesn't mean you're less of a friend to them. Maybe you're just a different friend.
Whatever the hell "different" means.
To put this in an economic perspective:
We all want to satisfy different wants. Yet, we are limited in person as to what we can do. So we look to other people to satisfy those wants. Emotionally sad, we look for certain people we know we can count on. When you want to have a good time, you look for those who can play. In times of trouble, we know immediately who to call and who not to. Money? Just look at your parents. This variety allows us to better live our lives. Crudely speaking, relationships are goods and services which satisfy those wants. Some are consumer goods - goods that fulfil your needs immediately - some are capital goods - goods that build your character and aren't necessarily pleasant.
OF COURSE, i'm not saying that relationships are all reduced to a set of wares. Life's more than that - this is just a simplified explanation to point out 1, perhaps overtly emphasized, portion of relationships.
I am not claiming to dictate the way you foster relationships. I'm just saying that in my views, we need to be a little better to those around us who care about us, although they may not meet our immediate "wants". They are the backbone of your economy - the ordinary work-people who are taken for granted.
It's a comforting fact that I'm fortunate to have people who sometimes care more about me than myself. Unless something happens - because I believe nothing in this world is definite - I'll never let them go.
Oh yes, about the note about nothing is definite? That is a debate saved for another day =)
22:26
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Me, a china worker
I don't want to sound discriminatory okay and so i'm going to say this outfront: I don't like being mistaken for someone else, some other identity, age or occupation. Never did dealt with it properly, i reckon i never will.
2 weeks ago, i was walking home from the bus stop and there was this guy on a bike and he stopped in front of me abruptly. to be honest, i was kinda scared that he was going to attack me. but he later asked, "你从工厂来的是吗？" in a beijing accent. i quickly said no and walked away quickly.
wa lao....i know i am a hai nam moui (hainanese "sister"), but seriously man, i don't look china-ish at all lah.
then again, can't blame him also lah, i was walking from the direction of the factories also, it's only fair for him to assume.
STILL...i don't like to be mistaken or wronged. oh well....accidents occur too >.<"
19:42
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
interesting sights....
it was a rather interesting day today....besides the side fact that i'm totally drained.
i was doing my socio notes and was planning to read up on history and geog...then cathleen gave me a more interesting proposition - book hunting!
yay! So at that note, i finished up my socio, abandoned history and read geog while i'm travelling...heehee...the book hunting and shopping trip was fun! mostly because i bought a new pair of shoes. Finally a pair of butter golden shoes which sparkling sequins! hahahahaha
so, while i was travelling down to orchard to meet cathleen, a woman was reading sanskrit beside me. it was strips of paper stapled together at the center. The thing that fascinated me was that she was reading very fast. Likereallyreallyreallyfastkindoffast. get the idea?
When i exited the train, i was asking myself - why am i studying to drive man.
*looks at BTT book*
*tosses it aside....*
(after remembering that it belongs to nat...)
*dusts book and keeps into bag*
Then Cathleen and i went to kinokuniya to get Eclipse - the 3rd sequel to Twilight. Anyway, i was passing by this dedicated section for Obama and Macain books. It amused me - how US elections affect the rest of the world unlike any other countries. I mean, you don't see PAP going to USA to advertise their elections right? The fact the the presidential elections of US is so globalised is implicitly tells us how powerful US still is in influencing many of parts of the world.
And then, some author decided to ride on Thomas Friedman's "The World is Flat" and come up with a book called "The World is Curved". I didn't stop to read what the book was about, but my guess is to counteract Friedman's arguments on Globalisation?
Then again, why am i talking so much about Globalisation? Hahahaha...It's because that is the basis of my Geog in NUS, the other is that I personally find globalisation fascinating. I'm currently reading this book called The Lexus and the Olive Tree also by Friedman. Love the read so far....hahahahaha, maybe i can share it with my students =)
Actually, there's more i want to write about this, but i tot maybe you, dear reader, may become bored and i'll probably not do the book justice anyway.
Sometimes, i cry in my heart when people say, "my god, you read these kind of books. Not boring meh?" I think it's really a pity because there are so much information packed in a good current affairs book. Although i'm not saying that we must read it 365 24/7, but occassionally, at least once a few years, we should have a grasp on what direction we're heading towards and be somehow prepared for it. I cannot stress enough the importance of planning for the worse a head and hoping for the best that can come from planning.
i dunno..taking things easy means planning for the future so that you can rest easy now and thoroughly enjoy life little things in peace. Heehee....then again, some people may feel i take things too seriously too. Perhaps my mum drilled into me a long time ago about planning ahead and being serious about your future, so it's impossible for me to sit back and "relax".
Go ahead, grab a story book. Read the story of our World and you'll have to take my word for it that it is more interesting than any drama some authors can come up with.
Life is stranger than fiction.
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Cathleen! I really had fun! Heehee....let's do this again sometime!
21:41
Sunday, October 19, 2008
A reason to smile
Claudia looks at the new version of Macbook and sighs.
Claudia looks at her schedule and sighs.
Claudia looks at the deadline of her assignments and sighs.
Claudia looks at the tons of readings she hasn't do and sighs.
Claudia looks at the fast-approaching exams and sighs.
Claudia looks at the outing on the 27th and smiles....
Maybe, in the midst of her busy schedule, it wasn't such a bad thing after all.
16:22
Friday, October 17, 2008
Sick
I always thought that Ill sounded mild. So now, i'm officially sick.
Sore throat, flu and cough kinda sick. You know - Irritating.
Haiz....press on claud! press on!
I'm fine....I always fall down, always feel down but I'm always facing towards the light. I know what I'm doing. =) Don't worry
12:26
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
A tribute to Honda
Okay, if you're impatient or dont feel like reading today, just scroll down.
Meanwhile here are my rants.
i realised i'm in no position to complain. HAHAHA....my other classmate has MUCH more work to do. So the award goes to her hands down man..
on my way home from school that day, i was in the train with my music on to almost full volume. Even that, cannot extinguish the cries of 1 cranky baby and the banter of 3 Indian housewives and 4 Indonesian Tai-tais.
Gosh...三个女人，一个巴刹. 一个宝宝, 七个女人，无法能忍.
that day in Sociology, prof tan was telling us about "race". He believes that there is only 1 race, which is the human race. He substantiates by using a simple biological phenomenon. If human beings weren't one species, then why is is that when an african-american mated with a caucasian, they are able to have fertile off springs? Now compare that to scientists' attempts to produce a new breed of "Ligers" - Lion+ Tiger, their off springs cannot produce cubs of their own. This proves that human beings are of the same race.
I was quite amused by that.In fact it seemed that he did have a valid point. then again, who really knows?
then today, i was looking at satelite pictures of the earth....fascinated by it. it just augmented my love for Geology. Nevermind the complicated lab sessions where we have to process (gosh, even saying that word is understated) images using a software, but the appreciation that goes into satellite imaging is often neglected. We just see, hey, it's a pretty picture! There's my school.
You have no idea what goes behind that "pretty picture". So next time you take a look at Google Earth (which is used by the Quickbird satellite), remember that it's a mosaic of many individual scenes out together.
There's another point of fascination - which is this Honda Ad we first saw at Mdm Aisha's Globalisation lecture. This has no special effects, it was filmed entirely as you see it. Of course as expected, it took them A LONG time and many re-takes....=)
Enjoy! (P.S if you know car parts, you'll appreciate a lot of the little details)
And i couldn't resist showing this as well....for all choir (and perhaps band) people =) Notice that they filmed this in a carpark?
16:26
Monday, October 13, 2008
ILL
I am sick! damn....xy also sick
i'm afraid is i pass to her one leh...sorry darl!
anyway, i have reasonably less work now. Since the dreaded history essay and geog project is OUTTA the way...i can concentrate on more things. Like my remote sensing lab (it's the last one!) and project, socio assignment as well as atmo practicals. Not forgetting my diploma studies practicals as well.
OK, so it seems that i have loads more to go. but it feels much lighter....never mind - tackle one at a time.
i feel distanced from someone these days. maybe distance matters in a relationship but then again, i've always refused to believe that. I think as long as both parties still want to hang on, then it shall.
hahaha....someone is going to boink my head and tell me that i think too much. Hey, i rather than that be proven right. Sometimes, i hate my guts and instincts.
Distance: Sometimes technology doesn't make a positive difference.
23:51
Monday, October 06, 2008
guilty
I feel really bad...like it's no excuse that i probably can't make it for the class gathering because i should have planned my time better.
the project deadlines are all due next week and i have socio and physical geog projects coming up due the end of this month. My remote sensing have project and lab that is due every other week. My atmo module is killing me with practicals every week....on top of that and tuition assignments
I even sleep later now...like 12midnight just to finish the work....and yes, why do i have time to blog then? I'm eating my dinner (look at the time) and blogging that's why.
HAIZ....Claudia is taking a break from her vacation to work. In the meantime, see you in i-don't-know-how-long time. =(
22:09
Sunday, October 05, 2008
i tell you, there is a conspiracy going on. All the universities somehow grouped together to say that university is easier and better than JC so they can earn more school fees. Rubbish. The better is probably true, but the easier? Not really. Different rigour mostly.
I'm thankful at least i didn't drag my imperial stuff, if not i wouldn't have the time to do them. Thank goodness that is out of the way at least for now. Meanwhile, my history professors just dumped us an essay to hand up next thurs. I have no idea what to write and i'm just trying my awful best to keep up with the Jacobins, Liberalists and Necker for now. next wed socio test - =( Not. ready.
ARGH....my geog project is driving me nuts too because i exceeded the words. and it's almost 2k now, i dunno how to cut down...haiz, maybe should ask my gp mates to help me.
AND...my cousin is not studying well for her exams this year. She seems to be resisting studying. Frankly? I blame her grandma (not my mum's ma) because she pushes her to study too hard and her class competition is just too great. I mean, if kids laugh at other kids for answering wrongly AND you have to go for tuition just to learn pri 5 stuff when you're pri 4, there's GOT to be something wrong here man.
the world is going to the dogs for now.
at least Ritty's bday party was a nice breather....great to meet up with 222....hahahaha....my bucket of joy =D we took a "family potrait" leh...not bad hor...HAHAHA....kris can't seem to stop laughing when we were taking the serious photo.LOL...and someone's imaginary hand keep pushing my head towards ritty...HMM VANN?
fun! i need fun...i want fun...let this semester be over and done with already? I want to study math and chem and physics again....i want to get back to physical geog.....hurr~
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oh yeah, the saturday history tutorial wasn't exactly useless. I kinda learnt more about diplomacy and and how the EU works. hahaha....the ambassador was telling us how ASEAN claims to have 750 meetings a year while he has 750 meetings a DAY. However, the intriguing fact was how EU actually makes an effort to have member states agree on most things. Which was different in the last century where europe diplomacy was pretty much skeptical. There's definitely more coordination and cooperation today. Meanwhile, it took them a few weeks to agree what is defined as "Chocolate". funny right? but i believe it has huge implications because chocolate is a huge export of europe and not defining right can mean that your Snickers, Mars bars are all considered chocolate alongside with your truffles. Cute but important.
that's all for now.....maybe who knows? I may even want to engage in diplomacy
*slaps myself* Who am i kidding man?
12:18
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Grave concerns
okay....i like words with double meaning...grave = dead, grave = serious. HAHAHAHA...anyway
i don't know if giving someone hope is always a good thing. Will it still be a good thing if whatever hope you've given is not realised?
I feel bad and defensive all of a sudden. it's like gave hope to someone because u want them to achieve their dreams too. Then again, would it be better if they accepted their 'fate' and moved on in life?
There is no answer. my personal answer is to press on, fight to the death and never give up. That is under the assumption that i can afford to. If the price is too high, then it is not worth fighting for anymore isn't?
I know the feeling of watching your dreams slip away from you in an instant and realise you will never ever have the life u want. Fortunately, i also experienced a feeling of a renewing hope and that persistence maketh one's luck.
it sucks when people don't concern about you - don't give a damn and don't bother to listen to what u have to say. They don't even bother to understand what your dreams are about. It hurts even more when they are your family. Their concerns are graved - dead. My dad is still like that. I don't blame him, i am just disappointed in him.
Cat: In retrospect, I wished i hadn't told shangyi about the Lee foundation if i knew what was the end result. =\ basing on how we both share the same views about this, i want to be a support to you and we can then lean on each other for strength....=]stay strong and positive!
12:22
the concrete fact
you know, after Alonso had won (when was the last time he won a race?), with all the guests checking out of Swissotel and the debris being cleared from the roads. 1 fact remains in my mind
the barriers.....when a sports car zooms past at 300km/h, they have to put up barriers to stop any inpending crashes right? The last time i was at the Marina Bay area, those barriers were solid concrete with metal fences stuck to them. The whole stretch was fashioned this way...makes me wonder how they clear them.....it's just mind-boggling. It just shows how Singaporeans are really efficient in these matters man.
in any case, I think the crew, those people who put up these fences, those ushers ought to be thanked publicly and the organisers too. maybe too much attention has been put onto the race. tsk tsk....cannot forget these people k?
anyway, some large carparks like esplanade's was cordoned off during and prior the F1, that time i was telling my gpmates that i can finally roll on the floor and not be hit by any cars. (okay...background fact: has anyone realised that the carpark in the esplanade is like FREAKIN clean and smooth? it's like it can be substituited for a skating rink lor....)
11:48
The People/Websites that make me Smile
Friends
Kris
Yong Quan
Xinyi
Vanessa
ShangYi
Chengying
Tracey
Tarrant - poetry
Websites of interest
bits and pieces
Compilations of digital art and art photography
Food blog/photography
XKCD - for a bit of off-beat intellectual humour and sarcasm
Because public spaces can be friendly
For the trivia junkie
F My Life...
Post Secret
6 Billion Secrets
Tales of Romantic Dead Ends
Graphic books, graphic knowledge
The Older Dreamer
Retrospective
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