Life Expectancy: 65 Years
Claud An avid collector of your hopes and worries, a romantic at heart. She thanks her fairies, for blessing her with people who know compassion down to an art. For accepting her for who she is, who never fails to turn up, in times of need as well as happiness, or just there for a loving hug.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
In Memory
I hope people can remember Michael Jackson for his contributions to music and dance: The Moonwalk, The Robot, the White Gloves, his signature vocal 'hiccups', the seamless falsetto, the rare and high clear tone of his tenor and the unforgettable beats in his music that is still, and will be, copied in music generations to come.
I hope that people can remember the billions of dollars that he donated to charities and foundations that benefit people form all walks of life from the profits he earned in his career.
I hope that despite the scandals and alleged molestations, he never once said an ugly thing to those who accused him.
I hope people can remember to Heal the World where he was not able to.
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The idiot came (guess which one) and my maid told me he walked into my room and started to go through the things in my room. That nugget.
Luckily my dad and i have already foreseen this and kept all the things that are not of his business out of sight. He was going through my drawers and stuff, i feel so violated.
Lucky i encrpyted my data on my laptop with multiple layers of passwords and entry points. I wonder what that idiot will do next. This is so exciting....the more desperate he becomes, the more careless he gets...once he crosses the line and makes careless mistakes, that's when it ends.
13:06
Monday, June 29, 2009
the darnest things
i told chris that i'll write about this today. HAHAHA....and so i did.
Chris and i decided to do something spontaneous and go Chinatown for a change. We didn't see Mr. Ong. HAHA...ok so anyway, we were buying some ham chin peng and such when this oversized AH SAO AUNTIE cut our queue and started shouting orders to the guy. And the guy who didn't see us when we came first served them. And the auntie was shouting so loudly lah! bloody hell....buy already still want to add this add that. I arrowed a scathing look at she and her friend. Lucky the friend apologised...if not i'll kick up a big fuss lor. I won't apologise for my behaviour. Ridiculous. Then the guy went to serve the auntie BEHIND us. What the hell! We were first can? Then i finally raised my voice and told him. "i want 2 cups of soya bean milk" then he realised. shit him lah...i purposely gave him a 50dollar note to change. Don't care. Still tell me, "Miss, 4 dollar enough." I was like, "i. don't. have. small. change. Want to change or not?"
After getting a real steal for a nice crop jacket at 20bucks (only!) and toothbrushes at 80cents each and sanitary pantiliners for 90cents for 16 pieces (retail is 2bucks), we headed down to buy a drink. Then chris said, "This 酸柑 is called plum right? Or no...prune. eh?" At that point of time i was like, "it's LIME!" haha...then we laughed at how the colour wasn't even like close lah. so funny...his rare tat-glam moments in front.
(p.s. he always laughs at my tat-glam moments de lor!)
hahaha....then we went sakura to have dinner. there was a table beside us with a baby that was showering chris with all the adolescent attention when his dad said, "boy! don't disturb the uncle!"
We could hear chris's heart break. HAHAHA....UNCLE leh! so funny...but quite sad to be called uncle. so hilarious. Chris was like, "我是uncle meh?!"
Then headed to TTSH for chris to say goodbye to his grandma, in more ways than 1, and took the bus home. Little did we know what we overshot the bus stop and had to walk a long way back. Then chris decided for us that we can walk back to my house. i was appalled...HAHAHA...walk from sembawang to my house. i timed it...we reached in 40mins.
It was a good post-buffet workout. But it wasn't so good on my feet when you're wearing heels.
Happy Birthday Shangyi! Happy Birthday Sok Ying! 又大一岁了！
01:02
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Seeing 'Red'
I'm happy that my menses is here....it's a sign that things are finally winding down enough that my stress hormones are not inhibiting my estrogens from doing their job.
=D
23:27
Friday, June 26, 2009
Bad week
It's been a bad week so far....
I just found out that i'm short of a bit of money to make it to Imperial. But that problem is relatively small as compared to the rest of the problems. At least that could be fixed.
The crankpot chinese doctor has decided to give my mum porridge water to reduce her phelgm - which is the most ridiculous thing i ever heard. That problem remains to be fixed.
You know what scares me about a tiffle or a fight amongst friends? Be it being a party involved or a 3rd party. It's the making-up after...This uncertainty that your friend will treat you less like a friend because of that incident. I'm not saying that could happen, i'm saying that it's the fear of the possibility of that happening.
I just got off the phone/msn with Chris and Kris. Chris told me he's going to start talking to him again. I don't know if i have the mind to do that again after since what he did to chris. But since the info i have now is very premature, i can't only base my conclusions on incomplete info. I think he deserves better. Again, at this point of time of deductions.
Sometimes i wonder if i'm like Greg House. Or becoming someone like him. A life only interested in looking for answers and proving his ego right than to bother the people around him. However, i guess being afraid that i'm becoming like that proves my point that i'm NOT becoming like that character.
Still love Hugh Laurie though - effortlessly charming.
Grey is the new Black.
Communication is the new Apology.
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I hope you won't think of me as less of a person despite this incident and lean on me when you still need to. I'll still be here to listen whenever you need someone to talk to.
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I don't go into my mum's room as often anymore because i can't face her. I cannot bring myself to tell her that i can't stop these bastards from torturing her. I'm not that capable as others want or see me to be. I'm just not.
00:47
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
~.~
Ever since i came back from chalet, i've been sleeping non-stop.
The epitome of a pig.
10:12
Friday, June 19, 2009
Whee!
Ok...i haven't looked forward to anything in a long time since last year's "The disappointment"
Meanwhile, I'm off to jog later with Cat and later pack my bags and OFF to Aranda for 3 days.
No more irritating bastards.
No more annoying conversations to be forced to listen.
No more terrifying dreams and more importantly...
AIRCON!
HAHAHA
OK!
Just a random fact...My stupid teabag is not behaving itself properly...the tag thingy keeps getting into my drink and i hate it when it gets wet and mucky...
[p.s Sorry chris darling, i can't attend your concert =(
(The above named guy is not my BF, and i'm as single as he is. OK, maybe a little more desperate than him but hey! u get the idea....) ]
I'm SO EXCITED!
HAHAHAHA...Lays, Twisties, Ruffles here i come!
Sometimes i wonder if people will still be my friend after seeing the wild side of me.
08:26
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
bangs, curls, waves and layers
Should I perm waves into my hair? Or should i cut bangs again?
Or maybe I should JUST trim...
ARGH! Claudia is not ready for another extreme hair makeover but still feels like going to a salon. =(
07:35
Monday, June 15, 2009
Fate
I tell you, sometimes when things start popping out like signs, it probably is.
I was at serangoon gardens 2 weeks ago after a swim with cat that day and i realise the road leading to that is called Kensington Road.
Then just last week, i saw this at bishan.
IT'S THERE AGAIN! hahaha....for the clueless, Imperial is at Kensington. South to be exact. BUT U KNOW WHAT I MEAN RIGHT?!
Then this morning, i dragged my lazy body out to serangoon again with Cat for a badminton game with her friend Sarah. Hahaha...while waiting for the time before we can play, we ate at macs and Cat ordered this really cute milk!
See the cow? CUTE RIGHT?
yah...so while we were chatting, there was a bird who flew into Mac when someone left the door open and it got stuck in the fast food restaurant for a while before flying out...HAHA, i was entranced by the sight. heehee...i think both of us haven't wake up yet...then talk alot of rubbish. LOL
Got cramps all over my shoulder and arms....love it!
19:05
Friday, June 12, 2009
Tempted
No amount of exercise can eliminate my present diet of fried fish, fried chicken and rice. =( But! Claud is still happy! She feels that her legs are more toned now, aka, can walk longer distances for shopping strips. I mean, trips. Typo typo...
(actually u do strip during shopping mah...trying on clothes? SEE?!)
Ok, moving on, i so cannot be a seamstress. Hahaha...i was hand sewing nic's presen yestd (whom i owe for 2 years) and the seams look horrible as they were coming off. Then i need to...wait. She might be reading this.
ARH...shucks, i was about to post the end result but i guess i'll have to wait until sunday to do it.
It's my proud-but-not-so-proud handiwork.
Seems like the virgos are doing alot of sewing this month. XY ARH!u copy me ARH!HAHA...vann's bday...********e's present also sewed one.
Unlike XY, my pretty fingers are not bleeding...although they are a bit blueblack from wrestling the needle through some impossibly hard cloth. LOL
I know i didn't use the correct cloth. As long as it works, it works right?
In any case, this is the first and last time i'm making someone like nic's present. At least not in the near future.
Sometimes i ask myself, if i'm taking birthday's too seriously. Like that day i was telling Xmas about vann's gift. It was tough, but a labour of love. Then he just told me, "if so difficult, then don't give lor." then before meeting them that day, i showed my grandma to see if she can spot any large "mistakes" then she said, "so nice, u still want to give your friend meh?keep and use for yuorself lah!"
Often times, i feel that my birthday has been shortchanged because i put in so much effort for everybody else's. Then i wonder then maybe i shouldn't put in so much effort in the first place. However, i've come to realise (after emoing awhile) that their affection may come in many ways which they feel is more meaningful TO them. Like nat told me she would want to just sit at with a cup of coffee to read a book with a friend/partner. The company that matters. So i guess while i show my affection through gifts and birthdays, others may not neccesarily show the same.
=) AND yes...yvonne kuan, i'm still transcribing ur jazz birthday piano piece, have not forgotten it.
Ok...gtg practice piano, if not ms lam will have my head for supper after lesson tomorrow.
Shi Hui! Do ur work! I'm coming in less than 2 hours!
(in case u're reading this NOW that is...HAHA)
13:47
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Stopped in my tracks
I realise ever since i have my iphone, i've been taking more pictures...HAHA, or is it that singapore has finally become more interesting for (an easily bored) me.
Meanwhile, just some background. Mondrian was a cubist (i think) in art. Means that his pieces tend to be structured and dimensioned. In any case, that information has little to do with whatever i'm about to show. A picture speaks a thousand words.
This is a Mondrian.
This wallet was found in a shop display in Charles and Keith. Damn if it doesn't look similar? Even the shade and solidity of the colours match!
I wasn't that peeved (given how i hate rip offs like *ahem Hack high puke school cough musical snot*)...in a sense, i'm glad that Singaporean fashion is incorporating some of Modernism's designs...
Gosh...i so belong in an art school. Then again, i can belong anywhere if i want to. =)
In any case, i'm feeling much better today and i'm going to shut out the bit about my irritating aunt until later. Meanwhile, i'm prepared to draw blood.
Sometimes, i think god send me relatives just to spite my otherwise peaceful life.
I should stop walking to my student's house at Bishan. The bungalows and private houses are making me impatient to own one. I can so imagine my father and my mum living there comfortably....with a private nurse and a maid to care for them...First, I need to earn a berjillion amounts of money which is (im)possible man.
I need to find ways to earn money. Stat.
10:27
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
There are some things that even vulgarities cannot express
I'm feeling more than *($@£$&£*^%£$ today....
Firstly, there's a new iphone that's gonna be launched next month. It has video functions. Nevermind, that one i can still take it because i don't need video anyway.
Secondly, after my rather pleasant and productive day at the gym, i have to come to more nonsense. Alas, my aunt ask the private nurse to leave in the afternoon and according to my maid (whom i'm totally thankful for her hardworking-ness and tenderness towards my mum), my aunt terminated the service totally. Meaning that there's no more nurse at my house NOW. Fuck. Even that 4-words doesn't justify my feelings. Then what's the fucking agreement for?
SHIT. I'm totally pissed.
Steal my dad's phone still not enough, have to go and make my life more miserable. My maid has no idea how to suction, no idea how to administer medications in times of emergency. Shit, she doesn't even know how to recognise the signs of bloating or dehydration! LIKE I DO?!
FUCK. FUCK.
This is gonna end bad. No one steps into my home anymore. I won't have anymore of this.
This ends HERE. (like i've said so many times before, but if the really terminate the service of the nurse, things will finally be going OUR way)
NUGGET! FUCKING GIANT NUGGETS!
17:03
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
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My aunt's husband's sister is dying of cancer...=\
Chris's grandma is the same...
Death, we better get used to it.
20:32
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Big GRIN
I finally saved enough to pay for my iphone..HAHA!
I'm so HAPPY!
In any case it's really a piece of mean machine...it's my mac in a palm! HAHA
ok...gonna explore now...heehee
19:21
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Half a thousand
This, my friends, is the 500th post. HAHA...ok lah, nothing spectacular..i just like the significance of the number of it.
Meantime, shi hui, if you're reading this, i won't even bother to tell you to turn it off. Just remember who's taking the all-important PSLE this year.
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Kris! Sorry!HAHA...got your address wrong...see? reliance on technology to retrieve ur blog address too often....
Going swimming later with cat...hope the weather holds up for me...if not i'll be swimming in the rain. Not that i don't like it, but thunder and lightning usually lurks behind the corner during rain.
My maid was telling me how bored she is working for my home. Which brings back to my point on how we don't need a maid. Haiz...in any case, i'm givng her more things to do bah, since she's "bored".
ok...got to change soon!
Meanwhile, i had this thought:
Should the kingdom belong to the knights and people who fight for its sovereignty and rights, or the King who believes he is the rightful ruler of the land?
Should the economy belong to the invisible shareholders whom the worker never sees in his life but yet, spends half of his lifetime working for, or the everyday people who trod the office floors from 9-5?
Revolution: when things go wrong and the time is right.
08:35
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
37.7
Yesterday my mum had a sudden bout of fever...her phelgm also went up so bad that the nurse had no choice but to suction it out for her. Haiz...chinese meds lah...chinese meds....
In any case, my mum's fever disappeared a panadol later...hahaha, strong stuff.
ok...moving on to other stuff.
i ran 20mins on a treadmill yesterday and didn't feel my muscle hurt this morning!HURRAY! progress people....
Never in my life have i been ON the treadmilll for that long. The reason i don't like running for extended periods of time is because the soles of my feet gets heated up after a while. Makes it a wee bit uncomfortable to run eh?
In any case...i managed to brisk walk, jog, skip for 20mins on the treadmill. MUAHAHA take that fat goddess!
So yeah..going swimming with cat at serangoon swimming pool this wednesday...if that doesn't give me that muscle ache, i don't know what will man...HAHA
09:39
Monday, June 01, 2009
Passwords and Memories
Just this morning, i thought of a password...hahaha,sorta learnt it from kris in a way. Like her blog name, kkkkkkris...it's 6 k's. So i thought maybe i can so something liddat for a change of passwords.=D
ANYWAY...i read about how vann's mum gave her an early bday present and she starts to wonder when was the time her mum actually gave her a present. at first glance, i thought that i was just like her. Because my family hardly celebrates events like these (of which i'm gonna change once i have my family), but i realised that my mum has always given my presents. Like the piano, my handphone...etc etc. When i start whining about what i do not have, i'll have to stop and restart and look at what i have.
I should be so lucky.
Claud is changing....
I can feel myself changing...tiny subtle changes....=)
09:36
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