不喜欢今天

是它让我觉得很累
是它让我的心伤痕累累
是它让我的脑细胞缺氧
是它 是它 就是它

不要让我再遇上今天了

我不想我的眼泪就因为这样而浪费

我  真的很累了

If I beg you..
Will you be willing to listen to me?

I am lacking of energy to do anything..
I feel helpless..
I can't even make things better..
Everyone do have their own problems..
And I know this is totally unfair..
But please try.. Try to listen to what others trying to say bout you..
I wanna help you..

Please don't say that there's no one care bout you..
Because I know that you care bout yourself..
That's make you have this kind of reaction when you're tired of something..
However, if you don't want to help yourself.. There's no one can help you..

To be honest..I'm tired..
I'm quite confidence to convince you at the first time..
But your reply.. let me regret to have the first thought..
I've no idea..
I don't want anyone to get hurt..
I tell myself that I have to try my best to convince you no matter what..
I have to..

Please.. for your own good..
Why are you thinking to end your life just because of someone?
Why cant you continue your journey by yourself?
There's so much thing you haven't get to experience out there..
Why are you so easy to give up..?
That will only makes you look stupid..

Don't compare yourself to others...
That will only make things worse..
Yea, it's not wrong to compare something else..
But it wouldn't make you happy either..
So why don't you just make your life simple and easier..

This is life..
Life that have many choices for you..
That's why, we have to treasure our life..

I believe.. Our destiny decided by ourself~

Did you notice it?
TouTou, PiPi and I were wearing the same shirt to class today..
Haha.. It does really weird whenever we walked together..
Everyone seems to attract with us..
Lolz.. It's been awhile we doesn't have our dress code day..
Time flies..
Also, I'm wearing the new shoes my mom brought for me..
It's all white..
I love it so much..
My mom told me that there's no more shoes for me this year..
That wouldn't be a problem for me since I'm not used to wear this kind of shoes to class everyday..
Anyway... today was fun  ^ ~ ^

I wont be online too often now..
Gonna rush my final assignments and study for my exam which coming really soon..
Thanks for spending time for reading this and my previous post ya..
I'll just briefly tell you whats happened today..

Went to Zoo Negara and Art Museum with my classmates...
We called it as a field trip..
I suppose it gonna be the most interesting thing in semester 2..
Well, it is..

It must be weird and funny when you heard I'm going to Zoo Negara right?
I can see from my friends reaction..
They was like " Are you kidding?.. Is this for real? ... What for? ''
Haha.. I dunno who suggested this idea.
I just only know that I had been a long long time never take a visit there..
So, why not going there without a reason? XP

Art and design class.. what did you expected they wanted to go there for?
Lolz.. I could see them busying spamming photo all the day..
I don't think they were get tired of doing something like that even we walked so much..
They seems enjoying..

[ Sigh, talking about photo.. How could I forgotten to bring my camera T-T ]

There's some snap shot taken by my classmates which I really likes it..
You're welcomed to look at my photo at facebook there.. ^ ~ ^

As for the Art Museum..
There was not much visitors.. maybe it's not weekend..
So we just running up and down, out and in the gallery to search the hint given by our lecturer..
It was a tired and interesting day..
You could see different artworks from Asian's artist..
This is no doubt a nice reference to our study...

But some how I couldn't manage to look through all the paintings there..
My legs are really pain and exhausted after walking and running all the day..
All I know that is I need to get a rest..

Hmm.. That's all for today..
I need to rush my assignments again..
And I really need a good sleep ..

Have a nice day~

第一次
单独和男生出去

我们的关系很简单
纯粹就是老朋友见面而已

我跟他说
我才不怕你吃掉我呢

不过你为什么突然要找我啊？

他说是有关系到我的未来
也叫我不要想不三不四

我在这里不方便说他和我聊了些什么
我知道即使我说了
也很难让人明白

而我也不敢说我真的清楚他说什么

他说他要乐观
我点头的看着他
你一直都是啊   我心想
不过那或许是外表
你的内心是吗？
我不懂

你很像我的另一面镜子
这是我认识他七年来的一个结论
怪不得
在班上合作时 
我跟你原来都有同样的默契

嗯   你是我过去觉得最值得交的朋友

你说 “为什么我会要想找你    大概是因为你是我初中同学最要好的那位吧”
哈哈 你知道我那时听了很感动吗？
我中学时期确实叫了几位不错的朋友
不过这样跟我说的 你还是头一个
啊  我逊掉了

谢谢你
虽然  我并不了解你真实的状况
但我还是会永远的挺你~
加油..

I dunno what am I capable of..
I ain't confidence with myself..
I know it's just a matter of time to prove am I qualified or not..
But I still afraid of letting some one upset because of me..
Yea.. it's my image I care about..
And I don't denied it..

It's been awhile I didn't be a leader..
If I am not wrong, the last time I stood in front leading others was in primary school...
I had been vice president of my society in high school last year..
But it doesn't really counted in since I received lots of help from teacher and friends..
Hmm, I'm supportive type person I guess..

Well.. I was surprised when CCY asked me to be a leader in history final project's group..
She said she and Alvin had experienced to be a leader for the last semester..
Lolz.. I'm quite unsure looking at her when she asked me..
But it wouldn't be a wrong if you take a try right?..
Therefore, I couldn't help myself not to disagree for taking this challenge.

Here comes the stress now..
.. Not only for this project.. as for others assignment too..
As I said.. I'm afraid of letting others disappointing on me.. I wanna score high..
Also.. there's way more better people than me in this group..
Will I be doing great? I dunno..
Lets hope everything will be better..

This is what I done for the whole night yesterday.. I did it until I slept...
[ Kinda forget the time I went to bed, but I'm pretty sure it was quite late ]
Really.. crazy huh? I think this is what I call I loves to design Advertisement..
Also, this is no doubt a designer life.. XD
Well.. this isn't the final yet.. The body copy still haven't confirmed..
Since my English wasn't that good..
I'll let my buddy check for me tomorrow.. =]

Anyway, sorry TouTou to let you wait for me to finish this advert yesterday..
I knew you was sick and I've to complete it as soon as possible..
Sigh, sometimes I tend to be clumsy and careless..
That's why there's lots of mistake I've to refine it today after ChongSern [ my LCS lecturer ] doing his critics..
Hmm.. lucky for me that he did saw our effort..  He even did praise us for doing a good job for the progress..
Our hard work did get what it pay for... Satisfying..

Ha.. I do really enjoyed when somebody praise me..
Like yesterday.. Although I didn't felt good with my coloring skills..
But I did get praised from friends and lecturer.. [ Thanks PiPi and Lisa ]
For the past few days I though this month is gonna be grey..
Yet, I can see the other colors now..

Praise.. is definitely a hidden power to encourage people moving on..

...
Here's my assignments that been given these days..
[1] Malaysian's folk tales movie poster project
[2] Today tomorrow maximalism project
[3] Stop motion for letterform design
[4] Advertisement presentation
[5] Form and Structure studies
[6] Coloring of Hue and Saturation
[7] Costume  Design based on mixed art style

There's others coming... I dunno whether I can handle not.. But I'll try my best to do it ~

She is a witch.
Ya, I should knew that for long time ago..
Somehow I couldn't help myself not to fall and fall again in her spells..
I'm hopeless..

I was sleeping..
Yet, I heard that she said she wanna curse me..
I knew I did something wrong.
Something that will makes her unhappy..
But does it necessary to curse me as a punishment?
I'm someone related to her..

You can blame me nor scold me..
Just tell me what did I did wrong..
I need answer, not just a curse on me..
To tell the truth, it doesn't work on me..
Didn't anyone tell you? I'm special..

My heart was broken..
Not only for this time.. and also with the past incidents..
You really don't have to come closer to me just to use me..
Just tell me straight who am I to you...
I might considering lend you my hand with no regrets..

Tears are dropping..
It should be tasted salty but it's bitter for me...
Why? why things turned up like this..
I know I'm responsible for all this stuff..
But can you please kindly hear my reason?
It might be an excuse for you..
And I always knew.. Yet, I still wanna let you hear the deep voice in my heart..
It will be a dream.. I guess..
Since you never try to listen from others..
You're just a heartless witch with a stone heart.

After a sleep..
Everything is gonna back to normal..
And you're gonna forget that you hurt me before..
Never mind, I'm used to it..
Thanks to let me stronger anyway~

Had a wonderful dinner and supper yesterday with my lovely primary school classmates..
It's been a long long time ever since we met..
I think some of us didn't met since we graduated from primary school~
And thinking back now, it's been 6-7 years ady..
Wow.. Time flies!

Unfortunately, I forgot to bring my camera there..
If not, I shall upload some photo here..

Well, never mind.. I believed Candy will upload it at facebook there soon or later..

Hmm.. I shall not say we change a lot..  from the side of appearance..
Haha... pretty, handsome and tall that's for sure..
But the face are still recognizable ~

Ohya.. I was the shortest among those who attending the gathering yesterday..
Lame huh ^^'' I really should get myself a pair of high-heel shoes!

It's kinda funny when we met at the first sight at Sunway Pyramid's Starbucks there yesterday..
''Oh, I remembered you~  ..But what is your name ahh? "
This expression was showed by everyone yesterday I believed..
And so do I.. with a little bit of embarrassing and shy when I met with them.. Lolx..
How could I forget them.. I was their monitor like for 2-3 years ~
Yet, It's a great gathering with old friends..

Although there's only 13 people attend this event.. But I still felt satisfied with it..
Really.. Thanks to facebook for letting me meet back my old friends~
And also Candy, Beez and HaoYu for planning this event..
I shall organize another gathering next month..
Lets hope it will be..

There's endless topic to share to each other when we recall back our primary school life and talking bout recent life.. Therefore, we had our dinner and supper from Sunway Pyramid [Forget the restaurant name] to Bandar Puteri OldTown.. And the time was bout 6.30p.m till 12.30a.m [ the next day ].

It's been awhile since I reach home at this late..
Ya, my mom called me and said "If you wanna stay until that late with your friends, I'm gonna fetch you back.'' = ='' So I left earlier..  reach home bout 1a.m ..

Also.. my primary classmate said that my skin has gone whiter than before..
Haha.. They don't dare to ask me at first..
And I was desperate and curious to know what were they talking about me..XD
Then they asked me if I use Shokubutsu or what..
Imao.. is that related to why I become whiter? Funny..


Anyway, we all had fun yesterday..
Even it's tired.. but I think everyone is enjoying the gathering..

Will miss it..

[ 要做自己生活中的女主角 ]
这是我今天领悟的道理
要怎么说起呢
这个话题就从 PiPi 谈起吧
因为是她这么先说我的

不知道昨天怎么糊涂了
竟把Pendrive留在电脑室
这已经是第二次了
上次就是这样弄丟自己第一次买给自己的一份小奖励
虽然找不回了
不过算了  这不是重点
因为啊 那个差点弄丢的  也就是我第二个Pendrive没有不见
是 Operator Department 打电话跟我说的
叫我隔天去那儿领回
谢谢噢  不然又要让爸妈唠叨了

哈哈 话说回来
当我今天跟PiPi 和 TouTou 说起这件事的时候
PiPi 就说我像故事里的女主角
说真的  我到现在还不是很明白她的意思
"... PiPi, are you going to tell me what did you mean? " XD
不知道，于是我回到家和妹妹闲聊了一下
照我妹的意思  她说女主角是带点 特别 的意思吧
是吗? PiPi, 你是这个意思哦?

" 这是好事吗? "  我这样问我妹
她说是好事
哈哈  我很无奈噢
真的搞不清楚
不过想想  人总不能永远做配角吧

嗯  就是这样
不需要在乎别人怎样看我
就这样做我自己吧

听一听
那微妙的声音
是你发出来的吗
还是隔壁家邻居发出来的
没关系  我都会用心聆听

说一说
你的精彩故事
不管结局有多好多坏
我都会支持你

朋友嘛
就是酱咯
不需要乱听别人说是非
因为真正的是非 是要靠自己去辨别的

近来开始写部落格
才发现原来我中学朋友们也蛮多有部落格的  哈哈
别说我迟钝
只是过去的我  不晓得自己有过精彩的生活
把  心  封闭起来

嗯  不要紧
过去就让它过去吧
没什么大不了
我  要一直一直往前走
不会再站在原地踏步了

掰掰  过去

Having a great chat with my brother just now..
Really glad to know that he's having a great trip now..
Melbourne - Canberra .. A place where I desperate to go~
Never mind, I will sure go there one day =]

Also, congratulations to him!
For having a good result..
2 High Distinction and 2 Distinction...
If I have this kind of result.. I'll happy till I jump..LOL..
Although that you said you expected the 2 Distinction subject should be better..
Really.. I'm proud with you my bro ! keep it up~

Well.. I should give more effort for this semester..
I must score better so that I will not disappointing my family..
I have to show them art and design is my strength..

Work harder.. harder...
You sure can let them be proud of it..
Gambathe, AA !!!

It's a lovely day today..
The sky was so blue and you can barely see the clouds with different shapes..
It makes a perfect day for me..
And I believe TouTou and PiPi feel so too..

We gathered at PiPi's house bout 10.30am..
Kaofu joined us too since he's a member in our group..
We did our paper craft project by using a short time..
Since there's not much thingy left to do..
Well.. You can see the result here: Deng deng deng deng . .. . .



Not bad right? The paper makes well with the lightning.. I'm loving it..

After that, we soon realize our stomach was hungry..
Haha.. PiPi volunteered to cook maggie mee for us..
Ohh.. I'm so touch with it..



Since she was a little bit clumsy.. we did help her as well.. XP

The maggie mee was really yummy~ It has everyone effort in it ! Specially PiPi..



We cooperate washing and cleaning the dishes while Kaofu busying took photo for us..

And then.. we decided to do our letterform assignment at playground which located nearby PiPi's apartment..
[ Since Tou's letterform design got related to that ]
Lolz.. funny.. we all turned to 7-8 years old after we reach there..
Playing sea-saw and swings~ we all have gone crazy..
... Then Tou, Pi and I found out that we should skip our class and have a break today..
We soon agree with that and Kaofu decided not to join us..

Haha.. Don't be surprise for what I've decided..
This is my 1st time skip class with purposely..
I shall not regret for that.. [ shh.. don't tell my parents x-x ]
Sometimes, we ought to try something new and different..
It could make your life more interesting~

Hmm.. we did some photo shooting besides the pool while enjoying the winds blew through our face..
It's relaxing and some more a good way to release our stress..
Here's some snap shot we took :

 



After that, we returned to Pi Pi's house for a  rest..
When I was wondering whether wanna do my figure sketching anot..
We end up found another fresh things to do...
Art Nail.. .
Haha.. it was fun enough to look at PiPi to do her colouring at TouTou and my finger nails.. LOL..
Tou and I unexpectedly become PiPi's white mouse!



Here's my outcome of PiPi's artworks~

Anyway, thanks to PiPi alot alot today.. Not only for the art nails and the short pants she borrowed..
Also to her family too.. XD

Looking forward to the coming tuesday~ It gonna be called swimming day!!!

I wonder why..
Feeling tired and sleepy recently..
Aren't this week should be more relax?
Hmm.. I dunno.. maybe I'm tired from stress..
Yea.. stress.. A hidden killer..
Killed people by unconsciously..
Makes people emotional..
Makes us, the future designer become freak.. LOL..

Well.. nothing much to say for today..
I did some letterform design for tomorrow class critic session..
To tell the truth.. I've no idea what the lecturer want us to do..
It isn't meaningless.. Just that I didn't get the point our lecturer wants..
Maybe we have communication problems.. And signals problems too..ha..
Since he's from Switzerland .. They have their thought which slightly different with us..
Hmm.. I shall just do my best ba..

Going to bed after finish this post..
It's late.. And I have to wake up early in the morning later..
Have to follow my dad to KL and then go to PiPi house to finish the paper craft thingy..
Thus, tomorrow got football match to catch up..
Ahh.. It gonna be excited...XD

Jya, sweet dream~