又是一个星期一
很快的 一年里的最后一个月就要来了
奇怪的是 我这才察觉
自己浪费了许多时间在毫无意义的事
当然 自己定义的‘毫无意义’是否是真的毫无意义
我自己也拿不定
无奈

今早一起来 感觉真的很不舒服
无法形容那样的感觉
总之 那样的不舒服真的足够把我瘫倒在地上
我想这疼痛的来源肯定是自己拿来的吧
想想
就因为前几天吃的比较好
后来那几天就随随便便应付各餐
喔 这不是自己拿来的吗

后来怎样呢
在这样不舒服的情况下
我逼自己给自己做了一份还算豪华的早午餐
总算把不舒服这件事告一段落
哦 真是庆幸啊

后来听室友们说
他们今天的presentation到很迟才下课
要感谢老天爷没让我晕倒在厨房吖
不然真的就大件事了
哈哈

吃了豪华的早午餐后
心情也比较好了
对着镜子 看看苍白的脸色也渐渐回复正常了
总算让自己好过一点
可恨脸上的青春豆开始出没
这也没办法啊
谁叫我最近睡觉的时间很不定
无奈

开了skype
不见爸妈在网上
有点小小失望
于是找了哥哥和singma聊聊
真高兴大家都过的还算不错
也为自己还没忙到像他们那样小高兴了一下
哈哈
有人聊真好

一个人整天待在房间里
有时会想
我会不会是个很孤僻的人吗
我只不过是不想麻烦其他人而已
也不想别人这样觉得我这个人只会添麻烦 很脆弱
难道这些都是借口吗
不知道

房间里贴了几张鼓励自己的纸条
是时候再多贴几张了

我，要快快振作起来

所以你也要

亲爱的你们，近来好吗？

在英国已经快要两个月了
请原谅我把这里给荒废了
并不是忘记了
只是有太多太多太多话想说
不知到要从哪里开始

不过我总不能因为不知道要从哪里说起
而永远就这样摆着吧
而且我也没有写日记的习惯
故事摆在心里久了
以我这个健忘的个性
也会被渐渐遗忘吧 哈哈

好了 不多说
我就很随性的开始我的故事吧

很喜欢这个古香古色的国家
这里的人们 都很友善
至少对我而言大部分的人都是
走在街上 看着路人们 我都觉得挺有趣的
猜猜他们从那个国家
猜猜他们在说着哪一国的语言
噢 就这样一直猜一边闲逛
有好几次还不小心撞到他人
哈哈
我想这也许也是因为我对他们来说很小只吧
呵呵
嗯

如果你想问我过的好吗？
那么我一定会这样说
‘ 我很好 ’
至少我也是这样对自己说
尽管周遭的事情没来的那么顺利
不过至少我还可以 还能应付
也还没疯掉

我 过的很好

朋友们 家人们
我想你们了
我也不知道这样写
竟能让自己流下眼泪
哈 我很诚实吧

我 还是我啊

对不起
如果我不小心让你们担心了
你们也知道我的
什么都自己来
最怕麻烦别人了
哈哈

别担心哦
我会更坚强的

Passed away on 16/8/11

She is kind..
She is playful..
She is brave..
She is loyal..

She can't be replaced in our heart..
I'll never forget her..
A good friend..

'' Dear Tigirl,
Rest in peace ya :)
May you'll be blessed and get a good family in next life..
and Thank You for everything that you've brought into my life..
Always love you.. ''

Woohooo~
Finally get my visa..
Well.. something happened back there but luckily it was nothing!
Kinda surprised when I see there are quite a lot of people at the center doing UK visa..
As I thought nowadays not that much people choose to go UK..
Haha.. Silly thoughts I had..
And I get to know two sweet girls when doing my visa..
Even though I guess there will be no chances for us to see each other in future..
Never mind.. still nice to meet them :D

Now left the stupid accommodation thingy..
Rushed the officer for dunno how many times dy..
And they did replied, saying that they will update my status within these days ..
But still I am now waiting..
Duh...
I am quite worry that there's no place for Jenns Court @@
Please..... quick reply :(

It took about two weeks time and finally !!!!
Nothing much to say here..

About the paintings..
Have to do it on time before those furnitures move back to their place..
It was dad's idea btw..
Even though I had said it long time ago.. but never do it LOL
Doesn't make sense for me to complete this task because I can't believe myself either..
Haha.. But I did it~
Guess I am unbelievable right?
Please don't think painting the wall is an easy job to do..
I will be honest here that it's really tiring @@
For someone who hate to move around like me..
This really makes me half dead..

Will be dealing with the overseas stuff after a short break..
Hopefully everything will be alright ^^

This is really sudden..
After my mom complained about the floor's tar..
And asked someone repaired for us..
Things that I thought should be over turns up another way..
The uncle who did the repairing said the floor would be nicer if we did a refining.
My dad who is already busy with his company business told me '' since the things has come to this way, why not try to complete it? ''
...
'' So we need to move the things away? including those furniture? ''
/ look at the living hall and study room, there's LOT of stuff! /
'' That's for sure. ''

Ahh..
This is really freaking me out..
Since I am the one who is SO free at home..
Without a doubt, I am in-charge with moving out, cleaning, placing the stuff..
.......

This picture was taken after the floor had cleaned and things were carried back.
I had made a little arrangement with my interior design's skill LOL
It's definitely looks better compared to the past. More tidy and nicer :D

' Buhbyes... ' was the last word that I barely spoke out when sending him away in airport..
Arghh.. is there any other things that I wanted to say to him?
Not really..
But this might be the farewell to the two of us for this moment till I graduate..
I will add 'if lucky' behind this sentences..
Since I won't be attending the graduation ceremony of him next year and coming back for CNY..

Well.. This can't be helped..
Still can skype though..
Even though I knew the two of us don't really bother to skype most of the time..
Haha.. [ Since you might follow my blog here LOL ]

Time flies faster than I expected..
While I am wasting my time doing anything but nothing = =
[ someone slap me please ]
There comes August in a blink of an eye..
Glad that Irene called me this morning to inform me that she had received the CAS letter from BCU..
Thus, now shall deal with the visa thingy, accommodation and then ticket..
Wish me luck =]

Before


After


To be honest
Not really intended to cut my hair yesterday morning..
Was then persuaded by my mom that there's a promotion by a hair salon nearby my house..
Actually, the promotions was just rebonding..
as I had rebond-ed my hair for the past two years..
Not really interested in rebonding again = =
oh well..
Would like to cut it soon or later though..
Since my long hair has been abandoned for nearly one year..
And never do a treatment after I dye-ed my hair to brownee color..
Pity my hair ehh..
XD

Changed a style which I always wanted to try while shorter my hair..
Was satisfied with it but it needs to set properly often to make it look nicer..
Duh.. kinda lazy here..
Will see for this moment and make the final decision whether if I wanted to hold this hairstyle to uk not.. XP

再过几天
哥哥就要飞往澳洲去继续深造了

而妹呢
则打算明年去台湾拼了
我想她可是铁了心
非台大不可
当然 她的话
应该不会有什么问题吧
我相信她的意志力和她的人
没达到目标是不会放弃的

然而
时间不知不觉地从我们之间流逝
下次大家能聚在一起辩论
一起看电影，动画片 一起听歌，唱歌
又是何时的事

难说 难说

我知道
现在这样想
或许有点太远了
但希望下次我们各寻着梦想的同时
再次见面时
仍然也能像现在一样
对着彼此间的缺点指指点点
鼓励对方 关心对方

虽然不知到前方的路会是怎样的
但请耐心等候
等候大家能再次相聚的那一刻

一直以为自己变了很多
原来是自己在骗自己

啊

真是败给了自己

Thanks to Pearly and the others for inviting me to this little trip..
Am really happy to be able spending time like old days with you guys again..
Even though the days we were been together considered short..
Still..
You guys always makes me feel warm and joys..

Oh well,
Kinda regret for not bringing my DSLR there..
Since it's a trip to museum..
I was thinking that we were prohibited to bring camera inside..
So I brought digital camera with me instead..
Guess I was thinking a little too much back there..haha..
They didn't stop us taking photo LOL.. [ Malaysia BOLEH ]
So I took some of those photos while killing my time inside with the others..
[ They were ASKED by lecturer to be here for the RM6 ticket XD]
The textures and shapes was what I observing there while taking photos..
Historical information huh?
Duhh.. don't expected me to read.. Haha..

Didn't took much photos here..
Since all of those historical art craft were placed inside mirror boxes..
And while you taking those picture..
You have to consider the light of mirror reflection..
Which turns out you could hardly take any photo because of the angle you're able to do so to make the perfect composition or else..













Hoping all of my dearly friends will be doing great and able to pass this so called Hell semester with flying colors..
Support !!!

最近很喜欢没事地想东想西
我想
一定是我太闲了
闲的自己的都乱了步调
说真的
我很讨厌这样懒散的自己

因为要出远门了
虽然日子看似很长很久
对未来要面临无数变化的日子
得做好一切的准备
因为我知道
比起他人
我是更容易让家人担心的那个
所以这时候
不能任性
不能再让自己矛盾
也更不能让自己没头没脑的后悔什么

既然都走到这了
就走下去吧

前段日子
说真的
我真的过得很愉快
虽然偶尔会这样想
为什么当初那么急着报名The One
为什么选Diploma
为什么不考虑其它大学等
但
若没有经过这段没有想很多就做决定的日子
今天的我
也不会是这样的我
嗯
不后悔
也不去后悔

虽然有时走累了
但停下来的时候
窗外的风景依旧是美丽的
不因为什么
只因为我还是我
那个追求进步的我

给那些还在奋斗的朋友们，
不要怀疑自己的过去
因为昨天的你，造就了今天的你
一个更勇敢的你

加油吧

Kyaa..
I am back..
I know it's been awhile..
Am so sorry for didn't update here..
My bad..
Wasn't really busy enough to forget this but I am sure I have a good excuse in this case..
A lot of things happen and I don't really want to recall it..
LOL..
Thanks for still following my blog anyway =]

Okay.. that's enough for the not very long greeting parts...
I doubt you must be wonder how is my life going on right now huh?
Here it is..
As I withdrawn from TOA about one month dy..
Doing nothing? Not really..
Am a driver since I have to fetch my sis and bro back from school everyday..
Am a chef since I have to prepare lunch and dinner for my family..
Well.. I can't escape it since my mom just recover from a big surgery and my dad has to work..
So.. as I am the most free-able person in this matter of time..
Doing housework is a must..
Sigh.. even though I tried to make myself useful but this is not the life that I wanted..
Cheers to all the full-time housewives for their hard-working!
Am really proud of them!

Thats great..
I miss so much of my dearly friends in TOA..
And I miss so much of my kakak who had back to her hometown..
Ish..
All the thing that I can barely not forget is to keep missing the person that I once cared..
Well.. I admit that I am a loser.. = =

Days without hanging out with friends..
Talking crap and 38-ing...
Even discussing assignments...
Was really bored..
I know I ought to get a part time job so that I can get rid of these boring emotions..
Well.. but I have to finish deal with the oversea stuff first before I got interview or something..

I wanna go for UK..
And I had the offer from Birmingham City University where PiPi is now studying at..
It is not that Curtin University in Aus isn't good..
Just a silly thought when I was young that if the three of us [ my big bro. my sis and me ] are studying in different place.. and our parents could choose the certain place to go for vocation..
and now my bro is in Aus..
So...ha.. don't laugh at me LOL
This is not the only reason though..

I have compared the cost in AUS and the cost in UK..
UK stands the cheaper..
[ I wonder if my calculation are wrong, but I've double checked ]
And I can get Honours in just 2 years of time studying in UK..
Well..
It's what I am afraid that the opportunity to get a job at there is difficult..
But, I will give my very best to accept the challenges..
In addition, I've a friend in BCU, so I have no worries whether if I couldn't get myself used to the environment and education style..

Going to UK will be at September..
So I have quite a plenty of time to prepare myself..
I havent accept the offer now and will make the final decision within next week..
Since I've applied another university in UK and my agent said that she will chase the offer for me..
It's my first choice since the university has a good reputation in Design course and the graduate prospects are higher..
Ahh..
Hope that I could deal over with this as soon as possible because I don't want to be trouble again and I could get myself ready earlier..

A real life fairy tale had been presented to the world..



For sure..
This celebration also kills a lot of girls who dream to be a princess..
Not going to denied that I am one of those girls too..
who think too much.. XD

It really did amaze me back there when I was watching it with my mom..
haha..
Seeing pretty hats and British kind of fashion dress wore by those VIP..
'wow' was the word that I could really describe here..

Ahh..anyway,
Prince William and Kate was definitely awesome..
They had proved that true love does exist in royal family..
And their long-run of love has finally reach an end..
Congratulations~

Wish that they could be together forever because most of the fairy tale has an happy ending =]




The church was so so beautiful..


Fairy-tale horse carriage rides..

Wonder when could I meet my prince? XP

We called him 'Nike'..
Named by me and agreed by others..
Since if I don't, my little bro might name him Grim Reaper or something else weird..
Oh well..
He was given by a neighbour who his dog just gave birth..
Mixed from Golden Retriever and Labrador Retriever..

Nike, welcome to our family~

While we are busying taking care this little fellow..
Tigirl [ another dog of my house ] wasn't feeling well these days..
We are a lil bit worry because of her age and she's not eating any food we feed her..
Ahh.. hope that she could go through with it and getting better !

Tada~
This is my first time and first try to cook a porridge..
Not a normal white porridge..
But mixed with lots of healthy food..
Such as: carrots, potatoes, anion and bla bla bla [ dunno the actual name of others ingredients I used XD ]
All those mixed with 4 colors of healthy rice together..
And for sure,
there were steps provided from a cooking book..
That's why I have the guts to cook for my family XP

For the beginning,
I wasn't really intend to cook it by myself..
But my dad and mom was in hurry to visit a friend's husband who hospitalized..
So.. well..
Why not trying something that I always want to do but not dare to do..
To be honest..
I do enjoying while cooking..

I know you must be wonder about the taste right?
My sis, my dad and my mom said it's good..
And my little bro who doesn't like to eat porridge also said it's nice..
Too bad the rice wasn't enough for all of us to take the 2nd round..

I did cook mee, vege, rice, egg, meat.... before
but not something like this..
I do really happy that they were satisfied for the outcome..

yummy =]

一般上
朋友们听到我说要出国
都会问为什么
要不
难过的表情都出来了

说真的
我很不舍得
很不舍得放弃这一切
姐妹 朋友 家人 学校
我都很舍不得
对 没错
那为什么选择在这时候出国呢
迟些出 不能吗
能
凭良心说我能
我可以等
但时间不等人啊

想快快完成学业
这样就可以分担爸爸的负担
想看看外面的世界
让自己有更多的学习空间
想独立
不依靠任何人做自己想做的事
想坦白的面对自己
不再对自己说谎言

我跟我妹这样说
对不起，请原谅我这么自私
这么自私的对待家人
把身为家庭一分子的烦恼推给他人
这么不负责任的我 的一个姐姐
怎么能说原谅呢

妹当然说这样哪叫自私
但在我看来
我的角色是很自私的

我是累了
所以才想这么自私的对自己
朋友们都说我很好人
是吗
这才是真正的我啊
一个栽下面具后的我
怎样?失望吧

把剩下来的时间
好好的和家人相处
好好的照顾妈
我想
这样应该能让自己的那份自私好过一点吧

听听我的心声
看看我的心事
然后就这么算了啊
别把它说出去
谢谢帮忙哦 =]

The Garden is a really amazing restaurant..
For my opinion, their decorations is much more nicer than Full House..
Love it lots..
Even though the food prices are a little bit expensive..
Well,
having lunch or dinner twice a year at there should be no problem =]
Haha..
YiWen said she's gonna book the small room inside the restaurant next year for her birthday which coming once in 4 year [ Feb 29 ] XD
Really hope that I could attend ohh..
If not I might suggesting them to bring laptop there and skype with me during the celebration..
AM NOT CRAZY but serious~

Bought a palaroid to Pearly as birthday present [ of course all kap together ]..
Glad to see her surprised lot and so happy when she received it..
Haha..
who doesn't happy when received a present like this..
Something that is function-able and play-able..
YENG liao larh! ONs!

Spending time together with them really makes me happy..
Funny things could happen and makes us laugh..
I really don't feel like 20 years old but 19..
I am so young as they do!

What a happy day =]

Oh well..
If you must have me to describe the trip to Malacca,
I will say it's fun but tired..
Seriously my stamina wasn't enough to walk for the whole journey..
Lucky for me others too...
So it doesn't look like I am the only one who was looking pale out there XD
Haha..
What did you expect..
TOA students spend most of their time staying at indoor facing computer or sketchbook..
It isn't a surprise..

For the first time joining them..
MK, Pearly, Shuang, Fui, VF and KH..
I was a little bit excited at first because it's been awhile for me who doesn't have chance to went for a trip except my hometown since I've been studying in TOA..
Woots..



Bought some clothes which were quite nice at Jonker Gallery's shop..
Nothing much to say here but I believe we were all enjoyed shopping except for boys ..

Ahh..
Forget to mention here we went to A'Famosa's safari too..
It's my first time..
Well.. it's just like Zoo Negara..
Quite sad too see those animals in the cage without freedom.. =[



Anyway..
Hope that we got chance to do something like this in future..
Loves you girls =]

Well..
I would say that we are lucky..
that we were assigned to do this project..
For my opinion..
It is much easier than calender and cookies packaging as our senior did before in this subject..
Yet, I am aware that the marks that Mr.Tay give us might be more strict due to the overall easiness..
That why.. I am a little bit worry..
[ Maybe I am giving a little bit too much of stress to myself @@ ]

well..
I am really not a kiasu type..
but a kiasi one..

Although I am quite satisfied with my design..
But still looking forward in it to improve..
that's why I keep print it out once I refine something..
Even it cost 1.5 bucks each colour printing.. = =
While I know the colour separater [ a print production after the final design ]
cost 80 bucks..
LOL

I need to save my purse..
which usually no income but outcome..
my dad used to say that a purse without money doesn't called a 'purse'..
haha..
bless my money..
I need it for the trip to Melaka~

Kinda regret for didn't brought my camera back to hometown..
Although I always bear it with my mind that I should always keep accompany with it..
still.. forget it @@
ahh.. am I old enough to forget things?

The quality of these picture doesn't look that good since I captured it with my hp..
I know..
Currently need to save money for graphic tablet first and then DSLR..
[ these are compulsory needed for the next semester ]
Change a better hp? wait after I clear all my bucket list ba..
Although I always wanted to change a hp with a better quality of camera =[
I don't want my dad burden with these stuff yet..
[ Planning to earn money by working as freelancer.. ]

These are all my little cousins..
and my little bro are in it with them too..
Everyone is saying that he doesn't look like 12 years old as he is now.. LOL
Warned him to eat more healthier food but he didn't want to listen..
ish.. speechless for him..

Anyway..
These are some random photos taken by me..
I know it doesn't match with the topic..
but it's because of the day that we went back to hometown..
and that makes all of these things happen XD

Totally forgotten today is April Fool..
Being fooled by Jeff and Alvin in the morning once I reach TOA..
Ahh..
what can I say..
They are really good in drama.. XD

As for the afternoon class..
There is an event organized by our senior to 'celebrate' this special day..
Stickers are provided to us for free [ Picture above ]
Ahaha..
And that makes people alert whenever someone walking beside you nor tapping your shoulder..
And that's fun!

Anyway..
Happy April Fool =]

Yaya..
It was my first time for having my lovely friends to stay over at my house..
I was a bit hesitate at first..
Wondering if they could suit themselves not..
and wondering this, wondering that..
Ahh.. I am thinking way too alot..
LOL..

It was about my parents not in..
and it was about the project that we had to rush on..
that's why,
why not let them stay over for a night?
It could be fun for sure XD

Things turned out to be quite enjoyable..
haha..
We spent bout 1 hour cooking as the clock pointing to 9.30pm..
LOL.. [late class and we went to Giant for buying dinner materials..]
Don't ask me how's the dinner that we cook tasted.. [ picture below ]
It was nice to eat because we put our effort in it XD
After that..
we took a bath before start our project..
It was bout 11.30pm..

I am glad that we still able to do much progress for the project..
although we were damn tired.. and sleepy..
[since we just slept about 2 , 3 hours?]
But we manage to get all things done before we head to TOA next day..
ahhh..
This is great..
Haha..
Everyone looks like a zombie~
[except Shuang jie, she's not in the same group we were and she slept bout 12am ]
Zombies under attack!!! XD









Credit to MK for the french toast,
credit to Pearly for the photos she took.

- 14.3.11

I know it was a bit ridiculous for being this late to post up these photos..
But since I had taken these photos..
It wouldn't be nice if I didn't share it out..
Well, I guess I will just post it here as for a memorable day..

And to someone, thanks for reminding me about this XD

I believe this is the first time for all of us to gather for something like this..
I mean as a group cousin's activity..
Normally 3 or 4 people among us will gather to watch a movie...
Nor having a lunch or dinner..
Anyway, it turns out everyone of us was quite enjoying and having fun..
And that's great!

First time hearing Hong singing.. and Kang Yi too..
Surprised.................
Chuo Xi doesn't sang much, but since this is her 1st time..
Forgive her ba..
Lets not force her to do something she's unwilling to do..
I believe she will get used to it some day.. haha.. like me XP
As for Ze.. no comment, he'll just get high and sang without following the lyrics..
Lolz..
[ For those who I am not mention here..
you guys know lar.. how great you are.. ahaha XD ]

And, thanks to my lovely dad for treating us...
He saved my purse~













Conclusion: Lets have the next round in this year again !!!