It's Called Break-Up Cause It's Broken

we drew with aj yest.
kinda disappointed.
so was coach.
we owned them sia.
6 shorts corners.
they came inside our d like once...
shud have won.

now we'll need a draw or a win against sa to qualify.
if we had just won.
wouldnt be in this state of uncertainty...

not much to talk about nowadays.
hmm...


i dunnu if its true or not but i think i'm pampered.
not by parents or wat.
but my sis and my frens.

my sis, well, thats like obvious.
i think she spends on mi more than my parents.

my frens, well, they're just nice.
last sat, after ptm(parents teacher meeting)
vineeth, syafiq n i went to watch the movie
17 again n fast n furious 4.
back to back n completely impromtu.

the thing is, vineeth paid for both my ticket.
n since it was the weekend,
it cost 9.50.
2 movie= $19!!!

n yest, after our hoki match, naki treated me for dinner.
ani rud bought me kinder bueno at school on the same day.
i think leonard bought me choc to the day just before that.

and ever since i can rmb,
people have been treating mi n buying for mi so much things.
my sis even called mi a man-whore time to time
n now that i think of it,
she's not that wrong.

true that i never asked for any of it
and that it was offered to mi,
but i have never once, turned them down.

i'd like to think that i'm independent
and act like i dont need people around me to survive
but i guess im just trying to lie to myself.

i dunnu why im writing all this.
i'll maybe even gonna regret writing it
but i serisously dun think i can
survive alone.
and with that,
though most of my new friends dun even know this blog exist
or even that im not even living with my mom anymore,
thanks for just being there.

my thoughts at 6:26 PM

our hockey tournament finally got started last friday.
we won cj by a score of 1-0.
i played like shit though so dun really feel like talking bout that.

hmmm... went back to my house last wed n thurs
cause my mom's working at night and my sis was on holiday at malaysia somewhere.
so i had to take care of my two lil sis.

i know i said this before but
i really miss them a lot...

anyways, its not like i can do anything about it though.

last wed, got scolded by coach.
as in the whole team.

cant really rmb what happened on tues and monday.

last sunday had the normal training at ngee an.
after which we ate at the market n played hoki again until like 7 lol.

yest, actt had tto go school to do some mural thing
but i really couldnt wake up sia.
had to reach school at 8.
sheesh...
sori tough vijay if i kinda pangseid u.
(not the ex classmate but s20 vijay)

so in the evening went to novena to visit din's grandmother
who was recenlty admitted into tts hospital.
around 6, went with din to have his hair reborn somewhere nearby.
a very long process is all that i can say.
like 2 hour plus sia.

but i wonder how my hair would look like reborned.
hmmm.....

today had a choice of going training again at ngee an
or go swimming with alvin n gang
but instead i picked staying at home doing nothing.

just no mood go hoki after what coached told mi sia.
effing emo...

as for swimming?
just dun like.
be it pool or the sea.
just hate it.
not much of a water person i guess.
well, except for bathing that is.

thats it for now.

my thoughts at 1:34 PM

Midnight Highway

another week has passed.
i got back all of my results alr.
and yes i got a B for phy.
heng ar.
my onli saving grace for the cts.

but now got this stupid parents teacher meeting like a week or so from now
and i'm not ure what to do...
i could just lie and say that my mom is busy n ask mi sis to go
but that seems kinda wrong.
or i could just let my mom go n i stay as far away as her as possible.
but then if she tells my ct, how...
confirm my ct will ask mi go home...

ahhh!!!

after one thing, another comes up.

well at least the prob of food is solved.
i went to talk to the office lady whose in charge of FAS
and she was a great help.
first, she told me that the $750 bursary was alr given to a certain acc somewhere during feb.
i was like damn emo cause i tot that was my onli way to survive this year.
750 sia?!?!?!?!

i could do so much with that.
like buy a GC???
yup, im in j2 n dont even have a GC yet.
or maybe buy a new pants seeing as how i've been using the same pants
for the whole of this year and the previous year.
a bit disgusting but i do wash it in between a weeks.
well sometimes lol.

but then then i tot whose acc would it be mistakenly be put into...
could it be my dad's acc???
750 sia.
thats a lot of money.
if that suddenly appeared in your bank acc wouldnt u notice it.

well it seems not my mom.
cause earlier this year around feb n again in march
i kep asking her whether or not the 750 came
but she kept insisting no, no, no.

and when the FAS lady, mrs norien, gave mi the acc no that it was put into,
guess whose acc it was.
yes!
it was none other than my mom.
750.
haish...

when i found that out.
i was seriously emo...
i really couldnt believe it sia.

to think that i starved in school on so many occasions just to pay for my school notes
when money was given specifically so that i woudnt have to.
but i'm not saying she was wrong for spending the money.
my family has never been that well off
and the things she spent on are essentials
but i just cant beleive she spent ALL of it without the slightest thought
for my schooling needs.
just 100? maybe even 50 would have been enough....

but on the bright side,
at least now i dont have to worry about food animore.
the very next day i went to talk to mrsr norien again
and when i told her about my situation(except the running away part that is)
she said i was qualified for this food voucher thing which is IMBA!!

it allows me to buy any food in the school canteen for free.
yup. u read it correctly.
FREE.
F-R-E-E.
as in no need pay at all.

hehe.
but it doent apply for snacks and all those expensive stuff
but the noodles and rice all are free.
more that enough sia.

at least now i wont come home with an empty stomach.
that's one prob down.

hmmm...

about my life, yest went to cineleisure after school.
went to watch movie with like 10 other hoki guys.
damn gay lol.
before the moves was fun
but the movie itself not that fun.

really didnt know why we went so far.
in the end, the show we wanted to watch, fast n furious 4, was even fully booked
so we ended up watching knowing instead.

a word of advice to those reading this,
do not,
i repeat DO NOT watch knowing.
damn anit climatic.

the first part was damn nice.
actt like 3/4 of it was nice.
until nearing the end where aliens showed up.
freaking ALIENS lol.
we were all like wtf....

haish...

today was suppose to go sentosa with lmq
but i too tired.
woke up at 5pm again lol.

my thoughts at 6:03 PM

A Day Late

finally at home again after maybe 3 weeks away.
i honestly lost count.
not back to stay, just back cause my mom's away.
plus mi n my sibling going to jb tmr to have lunch n catch a movie
to celebrate my youngest's sister's bdae.

so.... my common tests are finally over.
it ended bout one week ago actt lol.
at my fren's house just no mood to update this blog.
just doesn't feel the same.

havent got back all my results but for those that i've gotten,
dismal.
i failed maths n chem.
expected but....
yes ther's a but.
for chem, onli like 7 ppl from my class pass!!!
it may sound like an excuse but it was an extremely hard paper....
my teacher even said that around 5 passes per class is the avg for those classes that took chem.

for maths, no excuses though.
a lot of ppl failed too but i seriously wasnt prepared for it.
even if it was an easy paper, i still think i would have gotten the same grade.

i pass my econs.
49.2 to be exact.
to think a pass in jc is 45 percent.

at least i have a pass.
most of my frens have all Us sia.

i really really really realy need to pass phy!!!
a B maybe?
maybe that's hoping a bit too much but hell.
i got 2 Us and 1 E. i need at least one good grade.

after the common test were over,
i was seriously thinking of running every alternate days but
after monday's hoki training, fell sick.

and speaking of that day's hoki training.
we fianlly beat jwss in a match lol!
3-1.
nth to be too happy about though.

TUES
back to the sick part.
woke up on tues at 6 like normal to go to school
but really felt like shit.
(it felt like a fever but my forehead n neck wasnt hot.
had sore throat, running/blocked nose n a pepetual headache.
dunnu how to describe it so just gonna describe it as feel like shit)

so i just cont going back to sleep.
woke up at 10 n wanted to go poly but
really couldnt bring myself to evven stand up.
so forced myself to eat half a slice of bread n took some panadol n boom!
went to sleep.

before i knew it, woke up at 5pm.
poly close alr.
sian.
so just stayed in bed.


WED
next day, still felt a bit sick but forced myself to go to school cause no mc
n it was a short day anyways which ends at 1.
but really coudn't take it.
after first period which was chem lect, i felt likecollapsing.
dun even have energy to go home so just satyed in the canteen alone n slept
while my classmates told my teachers that i have signed out.

felt a bit better after an hour of sleep so went to the next lesson which was econs lecture.
really tot i was going to be ok but the aircon just killed mi.
fuilds were running down my nose like tap water.
gross but the truth must be told.


THURS
really learnt my lesson so wen i still felt shitty on thursday, i didnt go to school again.
and yes no mc.
woke up around 3 and actt felt btter lol.
onli have the stupid runny nose left but even now its still running.

so watched tv n just used th com to read manga to while the time aaaway.

FRI

school like normal.
ended about 12.30 so just lepak with vineeth since my hoki frens end late.
used 2 lepak with daniel but now he got girl alr...
wwho am i....

wanted to go gym with gaurav too but still a bit unwell so
went to sactuary with him n harris instead and played some stupid games.
tubmle or wat n risk.
really tot it was a cool game but just a game of luck sia. boring.

hoki trainging was normal.
went to jp after that with some of them.
had dinner n went home.

Today
and fianlly we reach today lol.
went to queensway with syafiq, gab, ani n weihao.
expected more to come but all ps.
i not gonna names them but it was naki, rafa n eugene.
hmmmph.

syafiq n ani bought pants.
it was those balck bermudas.
those mat rep pants lar.
or ah bengs wear one.
u shud know which one.

then went to orchard just to walk2 around.
and weihao was looking a bag as well.
saw this girl who really looked familiar waiting out side the toilet at heeren.
mi n weihao tot it was daniel's girl but coudnt confirm.
so we went to converse which is just beside it and acted like we were interested
in shoes when we were in fact just looking at her lol.
not looking, looking,
just looking as in waiting if she was indeed waiting for daniel.
tunrs out it was indeed her.

what a small world lol.
studying huh?
ya, ya.

then weihao fianlly saw a bag he liked at flesh imp but decided to
buy it later and look around first.
a decision which we would soon regret.
cause w/o realising it, we went to wisma completely forgotten about the bag.
thatt is until we walk across the flesh imp outlet at wisma.
clever.
than we checked to see if they had the same bag but nope.
the sales girl said the blacks ones were out of stock at all outlets.

but weihao disticntively remembered that he saw one at heeren.
so we all hurried back to heeren.
to buy the bag or check or wat i dunnu.

but once we went back to heeren a few minutes n a lot of sweat later,
we saw that the bag n heeren was dark blue and not black.
the end.

other things happen too but i think this post is alr long as it is lol.
ok2.
until next time.
maybe soon, maybe not.
who knows.

and random info, if ure bored just seach 'flight of the concords' at youtube
damn funny lol.
well, thats it.
until next time then.

my thoughts at 10:48 PM