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Thursday, 30 December 2004

So far,so...dragging...

salaam...well,ive unpacked n packed my stuff....not fully tho'...u know how it is...me,when it comes to packing personal stuff...those unending decision-making process,the sighings,the whining,the pitying etc. watever u wanna call it lah!

couple of days ago,my mind musta been pretty bogged up with sumthin dat irritated me....i really wasnt sure wat...i was having dinner,fried rice actually,then i suddenly felt like having it with some ketchup..havent eaten any ketchup for some time...hehe...so i went 2 the fridge n pickd up the 1st ketchup bottle dat i saw-without thinking much of course,based on the condition of my mind at dat time.
usually we eat our meal with the sweet Habhal soy ketchup.but dat nite,i pickd maggi's thin soy ketchup.have u ever taste it?it was very salty.i think if u cooked ur food wit it u dont really haf2 put any salt into it.ive never so much tasted salty ketchup in my life til dat nite when i accidentally poured almost half a cup of d soy ketchup into the plate of fried rice.i was flabbergasted!!??wat to do?!
me n my silly,careless, mistake...i wudnt dare throwing away the whole plate of good,not-so-yummy-now fried rice... :( so i braced myself n ate it all d same...like ive told ya',ive never tasted such salty dish in my life!

oh,and ive just open a new bank account on bank Islam...its 4 d kpli account.i was impressed dat i kud receive d atm card rite on the spot apart from being on the line 4 so long!as it was,some of the staff were stil on hol..but i was dumbfounded at the beginning when told dat i have 2 insert a set of pin no. rite there on the spot 2 b configurated at the small calculator-like machine at the counter. but i managed of course ;p

-watched a remake of alfred hitchcock's Rear Window movie lastnite.starring christopher reeve,daryl hannah n robert forster...i think robert forster musta been the leading actor in the old movie??the old movie was a black n white one...this new one seems 2 give more focus on the consequence of the accident 2 d leading role.yea,u guessed rite!christopher reeve is the one sitting on the wheel chair at the rear window!

Monday, 27 December 2004

Back from a LONG....Breakaway...!

Salaam...yea..yea...i know,some of my frens have asked why havent i updated my blog n why havent i been online 4 such a long time...
im very sorry guys.i didnt even have d access 2 d Net,watsmore,i wasnt at home where all the easy access is available in the comfort of a home (pardon me, i wudnt call my home now as 'com4table',mind u..hey,we r just renting a house...).

and another not-so-good news...im having a fever ,again..yea,can u believe it?!it hasnt been a month since i last had a fever...*cough-cough*
oh, n at d moment,im chatting wit zila also thru yahoo "hi there zila!" *wave* alhamdulillah...ive just checkd KPM website.finally,I got d offer into KPLI,Ona got it also.coincidentally both of us will b in the same maktab,in Sg.Petani. kak Gie has also called dis morn,said kak que got KPLI in bdr Tun Razak,KL?!..woW...kak gie is so excited!for sure they can be 2gether again now dat kak que wil b in KL...im sure pak Usu shares the same excitement!kihkih....
waah, alhamdulillah..things turn out great 4 'em,as 4 me,i have 2 bear d fact dat,my parents choice wil always b rite (does dis include in terms of future spouse?haha~i wudnt dare 2 think abt it yet!) there's always hikmah behind it all...

hmm...lotsa stories 2 tell actually,sis am's weddin for instance...alhamdulillah,i managed 2 go 2 d weddin in the end.i went there with my parents late in the evenin.since my mom went 2 d same school as sis Am's mother so it seems appropriate that my parents come.my mom n I just got back from Bt.Pht around 3 pm n we straightaway get ready 4 d weddin in Kajang.by d time i arrived there,i felt dizzy...it was around 4+PM I guess...wats with the long journey from Kg. n then the drive to Kajang,sis Am's new home was so like 'at the end of the world'.
but the feeling easily evaporates once u see the house...FuhH!Subhanallah...i immediately thought of ISTAC. it's where her father works too..inside,definitely there's a painting of ISTAC's own building. assuringly, sis Am said they were inspired by it.well,when we arrived it was drizzling..some ppl were seen inside..the first person dat i saw Ernad,the groom himself.he sat slumped on a sofa next 2 Amin n then there's sis Nik. Ernad must be very tired..i gave him d present.he told me to go upstairs 2 meet sis Am,eHem..'his wife'! boy, im sure sis Am will b smiling ear to ear hearing dat!hehe..
so i met the bride upstairs in 'the bedroom',she was bz explaining something abt the decorations to her frens.later on i met kak gie at the stairs,she's just finished solat.it was the 1st time i met her since convo. we didnt get 2 talk much really..and dats why i decided 2 go 2 IIU the next day n spent 2 nites with her (shh,dont tell the guards at IIU)hehe...


anyway,it was overwhelming to be able 2 share stories etc. if only kak que,zila n kak ika were there also...kak que came but she went back earlier as she had 2 return 2 work in t'ganu.

i guess all those trips n journeys intensified my emotions of being away from frens for so long to the effect dat i get d fever again....haha~oh well...i haf2 stop now.dad's just called n wil b back 4 lunch.*TTFN

Sunday, 5 December 2004

Still in d Raya Mood?

Salaam...Hello all...finish going around d 'open houses'? well,my family & i (just 4 of us actually) just got back from 1...but it's not exactly open 'house',more like 'open ofis'...!kih...anyway,2moro evenin we r goin 2 KL,insyAllah.. my dad got a course 2 attend. i sure hope i'l b able 2 visit some of my frens there n go 2 sis Am & Ernad's weddin!

hmm...recently k.que askd me 2 join her 2 work in a kolej in T'ganu. since there is barely 1 month 2 wait 4 d KPLI result,my parents adviced me 2 pass it n wait 4 d result instead...moreover,it wud be too much of a hassle for me 2 move all my stuff back from a.star 2 t'ganu n then 2 God knows where if i'l ever receivd d kpli offer...?!but Thanks a lot kak Que,it was a nice offer, wats wit d fully furnished accommodation n d walking distance 2 d kolej etc... :)

hm,wat else?i guess i dont have much to share for now....till next time then..Ta! :)

Friday, 26 November 2004

what ELSE?....

Salam all...I'm quite well now,apart from the occasional cough,still....the unwell condition of me recently has led me to the clinic..had a fever and dad sent me 2 a clinic..well we went to 2 clinics actually, the first 1 was so full so we had 2 find another one at Simpang Kuala.

hey, come 2 think of it,we actually went to 3 clinics. 2 in Simpang Kuala but the 1st one,alas..was CLOSED.

hm, received an official survey form from UIA. sent by the ass.dean of students affairs dept. apparently UIA is planning on building a new kulliyyah-Kulliyyah of Language,Linguistics and Literature (KL3). not many questions were posed..only 4 Qs, i think n 7 Qs for the employers...n i was supposed 2 forward the extra form 2 my 'employer' wic, i had none now... kih...

anyway, as we know (well, maybe not all) we have 2 language programs (english lang. n literature & arabic lang. n literature) in UIA put under the Kulliyyah of Human Sciences. Under Human Sciences itself there are many other programs. so maybe the idea is just 2 have an independent kulliyyah of Languages. i'll spare my opinions and thoughts at the mo'...How about u?wat do u think?

Friday, 19 November 2004

eudaimonia; THE RETURN...!

sALAM ALL & HELLO..! Selamat Hari Raya & Happy Deepavali , still....maybe for those who are working have gone back 2 d usual routine...so keep it up guys..!u shud be in a better & high spirits!

for me, im not feeling well...have a flu n sore throat n bit of hi- temperature here...sis aida, x-benl who's teaching in a college in ampang called me dis morn..invited me 2 her house...i feel bad as she has invited me so many times since we 1st met in the kolej in sh.alam. now im in a.star i dunno when wil the opportunity comes...
well,the opportunity is there...it's only up 2 me actually...it'l be fun 2 meet back ur seniors n see their family...sis aida has 2 children alredy..! hehe..aint dat cute...!

hari raya is not complete witout ppl asking u abt how many 'duit raya' uve received...im not paying attention 2 d matter nowadays..but still i cant help it if some of u feel jealous..hehe...Yup,i still receives 'duit raya' fr my relatives of course...as im unemplyoed now,im not obliged 2 d tradition of giving out 'duit raya' yet..tho' ive worked for 6 months b4 dis... ;p

well, my younger sis cant 4get last yr's raya xprience...it was a sweet bitter xprience actually...hmm...i think twice it happened dat our relatives thot i was the youngest n they gave me the most amount of duit raya?! at a house even, my youngest sister didnt get any for they've mistaken her as the eldest...n the biggest...oops..!!sorry sis..cant help it!well...it was dark actually n they cant really differentiate our faces...n at the other house,the relative was too old 2 notice..!hehe..

alaa...oklah..i dont mean 2 b mean but ..dont worry laa..i'l give u duit raya when i work in the future..kihkih.. ;)

Tuesday, 2 November 2004

A bit Spices added..??!! ;p

Last nite i decided 2 call my fren cio_mel who lives in Klang. lastime i met her was during the KPLI interview in Institut Bahasa..even then we hadnt much time 2 exchange stories.so i thot i wanted 2 have a chat with her n tell her of lukluk's marriage. she said she did received the invitation card but hadnt d chance 2 go there.

The 'chat' actually went on more than an hour til past midnite. it was phun!i got excited even at the beginning listening 2 avril's rendition (cant remember the title but i've only heard d song on cd so far). i get 2 know dat cio_mel has also received MA offer from UIA...i didnt know dat she applied at d beginning.she decided to not join kpli n accept d MA offer n enrol dis Nov.,same as k. Gie. Pity i kudnt join them....cio_mel said she kud feel UIA "...is calling me".hehe...i almost feel d same. we talked of how much we missed being in UIA n how much we have left behind n we feel like wanting 2 redeem all those things dat we've missed doing...

i told dad dis morn after sahur not 2 b surprised when the fon's bill arrived. hehe...he has posted d MA deferment letter for me 2day...

this morning i was so surprised 2 have received a fon call from Prof. F.A.A. she was also surprised dat i recognised her. Boy...am i glad i still keep her fon no.?! she offered me a job under the human resource centre in an office wic wil be launched soon. the ofis is in Subang Jaya. i wonder wat d job is like.she said it's suitable 4 all rounders, provided u r well spoken in english among other skills of course. e.g ; we provide info if there r students who asked the info on studying abroad. i wonder...but she said 2 contact her 4 more info.

i told her of my waiting 4 kpli result...so she asked me to tell other frens who r available n she welcomed me to d offer also. so i sent sms 2 more than 20 p'sons. some replied n askd me some Qs. i told them 2 contact Mdm. F.AA. of course...
hmmm...a couple of thots crossed my mind...some of wic ive discussd with cio_mel lastnite. but it's a matter of time. Mdm. F said the vacancy is urgent. hmmm...i've deferred my MA study til Nov next yr. ..i've one yr of 'unemployment' if i didnt get kpli...so if dats d case,wat shud i fill next yr with? hmm..


Sunday, 31 October 2004

What a nice surprise...!? but not for long...

phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

Hasnt done anything much,as usual...but yest`day the 3 of us, me & my sisters HAD 2 go Raya shopping...!so we bought d necessary stuff within limits ;p

i got a surprise when we got back home. i received a letter from uia. it was the MA offer letter?!*gasp*
i thot my application had been moved 2 d june05 intake?! remember i told u b4 dat it was bcos they said my application form wasnt complete?dat they said i hadnt submit the processin fees when i was dead sure i had?
well,it seems that they have finally see d light...probably they have found my processin fees amidst all the other applications...?!haha~ i felt funny all of a sudden...

but i sure AM excited at d thot of going back 2 uia n becoming a student again....a postgrad at dat!

but alas...i must remember dat im also waiting 4 d kpli result.dat one is a no-no 2 reject If i ever made it.bcos we've all made agreements in receiving the training during the interviews.those who suddenly reject at d offer wil face difficulties in workin under gov. dept in d future.so better be safe than sorry...

the best solution is 4 me to accept n defer my MA studies :( the max duration of deferment is 2 semesters, meaning i'l be enrollin in nov05, insyaAllah... i got a bit jealous at kak gie who also will be enrollin back 2 uia 4 MA dis Nov. she didnt apply kpli tho' so i wish the best 2 u kak gie!!enjoy urself in the garden of virtue n knowledge okay! ;) 'Kembalikan zmn kegemilangan wanita solehah (walo tanpa kami)'! kihkih...

until next time? Ta!

Sunday, 24 October 2004

yet more 2 b shared among us...

phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

thanks so mu ch for giving the opportunity 4 me 2 republish dis in my blog...may there be more of the ummah who'l be able 2 read/digest this.(lukluk,again-im so happy for u..syukran 4 d link! :) )

fwd: Petua Menghafaz al Quran

Kawan ingat nak share jugak tips tips ni sebab kawan rasa Quran adalah satu mukjizat yang terulung yang kadang2 kita ter-abaikan. At least we should make an effort to memorize some soorahs or verses in the Holy Quran, if not the whole Quran itself. May ALlah ease our roads to reach His Blessings.

Memorizing the Qur'an
From Abdur-Rahman Abdul Khaaliq's "Al-Qawaaid
adh-Dhahabiyyah lil-Hifdh il-Quran il-Adheem"
English Translation by Amjad ibn Muhammad Rafiq
University of Essex Islamic Society

My Brother and Sister Muslim - there is no doubt that you know of excellence of memorising the Quran and the excellence of teaching it. The Messenger of Allaah (sas) said:
"The best amongst you is the one who learns the Qur'aan and teaches it."
[Reported by Bukhaaree]

Presented to you are some rules which will assist in memorising the Qur'aan, may Allah benefit us by them.


1. Ikhlaas - (Sincerity)
2. Pronunciation and Recitation
3. A Daily Limit for Memorisation
4. Not Surpassing your Limit.
5. Using the Same Copy of the Quran
6. Understanding is the Way to Memorising
7. Only move on when recitation flow's.
8. Reciting to Others
9. Constantly Returning to what one has Memorised
10. Being Aware of the Resembling Parts of the Quran
11. Taking Advantage of the Golden Years of Memorising
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Ikhlaas - (Sincerity)

The purification of ones intention and correcting ones desire is obligatory. It is likewise for making ones concern with and memorisation of the Quran for the sake of Allaah, the Sublime and Exalted, and for gaining success with His Paradise and obtaining His pleasure.

Also for obtaining those mighty rewards which are reserved for those who recited the Quran and memorised it. Allaah the Exalted said:

So worship Allaah, making the Deen sincerely for Him. Is it not to Allaah that sincere worship is due? [Zumar 39:2-3]
He also said:
Say: I have been commanded that I worship Allaah making the Deen sincerely for Him. [Zumar 39:11]
And the Messenger of Allaah (sas) said:
"Allaah the Exalted said: I am so self-sufficient that I am in no need of having an associate. Thus, he who does an action for someone elses sake as well as Mine will have that action renounced by Me to him whom he associated with Me."
[Bukhaaree and Muslim]

Therefore, there is no reward for the one who recited the Quran and memorised it to show off and to be heard of. There is also no doubt that the one who recited the Quran desiring by it the world and seeking some sort of worldy reward for it is sinful.

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Correction of ones Pronunciation and Recitation

The first step in memorising the Quran after that of Ikhlaas is the obligation of correcting the pronunciation of the Quran. This does not occur except by listening to a good reciter or a precise memoriser of the Quran. The Quran is not learned except by acquiring it (from another). Thus, the Messenger (sas) who
is the most eloquent of the arabs in speech, took it from Jibreel (as) orally.
The Messenger (sas) himself used to recited the Quran to Jibreel once in every year and in the year that he died he recited it to him twice. [Reported by Bukhaaree]

Likewise, the Messenger taught it to the Companions (ra) orally and those who came after them heard it from the Companions and so on for each generation after them.

Taking the Quran from a good reciter is obligatory. Likewise, correcting ones recitation firstly and not depending on oneself in its recitation even if one is knowledgeable of the Arabic language and of its principles, is also obligatory.
This is because in the Quran there are many verses which occur in a way that is opposed to what is well known in the rules of the Arabic language.

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Specifying a Daily Limit for Memorisation

It is necessary for the one desiring to memorise the Quran that he sets himself a daily limit for memorising. a number of verses for example, perhaps a page or two pages or even an eighth of a juz (one thirtieth of the Quran). So he begins, after he has corrected his recitation and set his daily limit, to learn by frequent repetition. It is also necessary that this repetition is done melodiously and this is so that a person follows the Sunnah firstly and that it
the memorisation is made firm and strong secondly.

Melodious recitation is pleasing to ones hearing and also assists in memorisation. Furthermore, the tongue will always return to a specific tone (of voice) and as a result of this it will become familiar with any mistake whenever the balance in ones recitation
and familiar tone becomes disordered or imbalanced. The reciter will know therefore, that his tongue will not comply with him when he makes a mistake and that if the tone is wrong or out of tune, his memorisation will return to him.

All of this is because reciting the Quran and beautifying it with ones voice is a matter which has been commanded. It is not permissible to oppose this command due to the saying of the Messenger (sas):

"Whoever does not beautify the Quran (recite it melodiously) he is not of us." [Bukhaaree]

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Not Surpassing One's Daily Limit until You Have Perfected its Memorisation

It is not permissible for the memoriser to move to a new portion of the Quran until after he has perfected the memorisation of his previous limit. This is so that whatever he has memorised is firmly established in his mind. There is no doubt that amongst those things which aid the memoriser is his occupation with what he has memorised through the hours of the day and night. This occurs by reciting it in the silent prayers, and if he is the imaam then in the loud prayers.
Also in the superogatory prayers (nawaafil) and in the times when one is waiting for the obligatory prayers. By this method the memorisation will become a lot easier. In this way it is possible for a person to practise it even if he is occupied with other matters and this is because he does not simply sit at a specific time for memorising the Quran. Thus the night will not arrive
except with those verses memorised and firmly established in the mind.
And if there is something which has occuppied the memoriser during this day, he should not move onto his next portion of the Quran, rather he should continue on the second day with what he had started with the day before until the memorisation becomes perfected.

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Memorise Using the Same Copy (Mushaf) of the Quran

Among the things which aid the memorisation is that the memoriser should keep for himself a specific mushaf (copy of the Quran) which he should never change. This is because a person memorises using the sight just as he memorises using the hearing. The script and form of the verses and their places in the mushaf leave an imprint in the mind when they are recited and looked at frequently.

If the memoriser was to change his mushaf from which he memorises or if he was to memorise from a number of different copies the places of the verses would be in different places and also the script may also be different. This makes the
memorisation difficult for him. Therefore it is obligatory for the one memorisng the Quran that he does so from a single script and mushaf and he should never replace it.

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Understanding is the Way to Memorising

Among the things which greatly aid the process of memorisation is understanding the verses that one has memorised and knowing their relationship and link, one to another. This is why it is necessary for the memoriser to read the tafseer
(explanation) of those verses which he desires to memorise and that he knows their connection, one with another. Also, that he brings this to mind when he is reciting. This makes it easier for him to memorise the verses.

Having said this, it is also necessary that he does not depend on knowing the meaning of the verses alone in memorising them. Rather the repetition of these verses should be the foundation. This should be done until the tongue can recite the verses even
if the mind is occupied with other than the meaning of these verses. This is sign that the verses are firmly established in the mind.

As for the one who relies upon the meaning alone then he will forget often and his recitation will be disjointed due to his mind being scattered and occupied with other things.
This occurs frequently, especially when the recitation is long.

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Do not move on from a Complete Surah until you have connected the first part of it to the last

After one surah from among the surahs of the Quran has been completed it is desirable for the memoriser that he does not move onto another surah except after having perfected its memorisation and connecting its first part to its last so that his tongue can flow in reciting it, from its beginning to its end.

He should be able to recite it without having to think or go through trouble in remembering the verses. Rather it is a must that the memorisation (and recitation) of these verses is like (flowing) water and that the memoriser recites these verses with out hesitation, even if his mind is occupied with more than one thing, away from the meaning of these verses. It should be as a person
recites Surah Faatihah without any difficulty or having to think about it. This occurs by repeating thes e verses frequently and reciting them often.
However the memorisation of every surah of the Quran will not be like that of Surah Faatihah except rarely but the intent and desire should be to try to make it as such. Therefore, it is necessary that when a surah is completed it is firmly established in the mind, with its beginning connected to its end and that the memoriser does not move onto another surah until he has memorised it with precision.

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Reciting to Others

It is necessary for the memoriser not to depend on himself for his memorisation. Rather he should test his memorisation by reciting the verses or surah in question to somebody else, or he should recite them by following the mushaf. And how excellent this would be if a person had with him a precise memoriser (who
would test his memorisation). This is so that the memoriser becomes aware of the possibility of his being forgetful or confused in his recitation (without knowing it). Many individuals amongst us who memorise a surah make mistakes and a person may not realise that until he looks into the mushaf.

Furhtermore, the one who desires to memorise may not realise by himself at which place he makes an error in his recitation despite the fact that he may be reciting from a mushaf. For this reason making others listen to his recitation of what he has memorised from the Quran is a means of perceiving and knowing these errors and being constantly aware of them.

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Constantly Returning to what one has Memorised

The Quran is different from any other material that is memorised such as poetry and prose. And this is because the Quran is quickly lost from ones mind. In fact the Messenger of Allaah (sas) said: "By Him in whose Hand is my soul, it is faster in escaping than a tied camel." Reported by Bukhaaree and Muslim.

No sooner does the memoriser of the Quran leave it for a while until the Quran slips away from him and so he forgets it quickly. This is why it is necessary to constantly follow up what one has memorised and to be vigilant over it.
Regarding this we have the saying of the Messenger (sas):

"Verily, the example of the owner of the Quran is like the example of the owner of the tied camel. If he keeps it tied (commits himself to it) he will hold it back and if he lets it loose it will escape from him."
And he also said:
"Commit yourselves to the Quran, for by Him in Whose Hand is my soul, it is faster in slipping away than a tied camel." [Reported by Bukhaaree and Muslim]

This means that it is obligatory upon the memoriser of the Quran to continuously recite what he has memorised from the Quran. With this constant attention and returning to what has been memorised will the Quran remain in his mind and without it, it will escape.

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Being Aware of the Resembling Parts of the Quran

The various parts of the Quran resemble each other with respect to the meaning, wording and (repetition of) verses. The Exalted said:

Allaah has sent down the most beautiful of speech, a Book, (parts of it) resembling (others) oft-repeated. The skins of those who fear their Lord shiver from it. Then their skins and their hearts soften to the remembrance

Pesan Rasulullah s.a.w; "Sampaikanlah walau satu ayat"...

phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

i havent been able 2 think out wat 2 tell.but ive been reading other's blog d whole noon. n i found some wic r really eye opening.i feel so small in reading these articles.thus i wish 4 some space 2 allow me 2 share dis with u all.i thank also the blog's owner 4 the same reason the articles were put there;sharing them as a reminder 4 all esp. my own self.

Imam al-Ghazali ada mencatatkan lima cara untuk mengikis sikap takbur dalam diri
iaitu:

1. Apabila bersua dengan kanak-kanak, anggaplah dia lebih bersih dan mulia daripada kita kerana belum mempunyai dosa berbanding diri kita

2. Apabila bersua dengan orang tua, anggaplah dia lebih mulia daripada kita kerana dia lebih lama beramal ibadah kepada ALlah

3. Apabila bersua dengan orang alim, anggaplah beliau lebih mulia daripada kita kerana banyak ilmu yang beliau ketahui tetapi kita belum mengetahuinya

4. Apabila bersua dengan orang jahil, anggaplah dia lebih mulia daripada kita kerana dia melakukan dosa disebabkan kejahilannya, sedangkan kita berdosa tetapi memiliki ilmu

5. Apabila bersua dengan orang kafir, katakan dalam hati bahawa suatu hari mungkin dia akan insaf dan memeluk Islam. Maka semua dosa yang dilakukan sebelum Islam akan diampunkan oleh ALlah s.w.t. Sedangkan kita yang telah Islam sejak lahir terus-menerus melakukan dosa. Banyak mana dosa dan pahala tidak mampu kita
pastikan

Thursday, 21 October 2004

Recently ABOUT ME (ive put dis for long didnt i?very sorry)

okay,still,for those who r wondering; ive just finished my 6 months working tenure in a private college last month. teaching english in a private college for a fresh grad like me is 'challenging'. wats wit teaching those of the same age n those who are older than u,theres also the system n office politics wic i guess im not ready to take part in n some r matters dat i really dont want 2 take part in. ( i see im gettin in2 the sensitive matter...lets move on shall we?)

so i sent in tender stating my Honest Regret of not being able 2 pursue a new contract.

SAD I AM...to haf2 leave the students. but wat 2 do? i need 2 get on wit sumthin more real to me. besides, the inner me is yearning for those good ol' student days. (hard 2 believe dat i miss being a student again?!)actually, i really miss being in the Garden of Knowledge n Virtue campus. if u know wat i mean ;)

there was a Turning Point tho',abt my MA application; a letter fr the campus stated dat there was a mistake in it. they say i had left out the processing fees (wit dis, i gaped in disbelief). 1st thing dat i did after getting the form was 2 go 2 d post office to buy d postal order for the processin fees?!so how kud dis happened?

oh well,there must be a hikmah behind it rite?since not so long after,i was called in 4 d kpli intrvw.so now im Waiting 4 d result.the intrvw?...it was quite Hard. i told an uncle abt it n he said "aiii....is there anything as 'easy' to achieve success?!" True. :) i guess dats why the intrviewee told me 2 Pray Hard as i am competing vs thousands of others. they were interested wit my port folios tho'..

here's a lyric of 1 of Ahmad Bukhatir's nasheed. im not sure who he is actually but the lyrics are beautiful.i got it of Domain Islam's web n it seems like most ppl like his nasheeds.i chose dis one particularly cos it's more plausible to any human being as a student.
we dont haf2 b in school 2 b called as students rite?we r 'students of a lifetime'. we learn fr everything dat occurs in our surrounding. the lyrics also touches on the vocation of being a teacher.
(Great...i hope to digest dat point!for d sake of my future...'u must pray hard aNNdiNN...')

The student (Talib al-ilm)

By Knowledge, rather by morals
You achieve the highest ranks
Live scholars lives
And read varieties of books

Be always humble
Don’t boast of your ancestry
It’s enough to come out the realm of mankind with noble descent

Yes, yes but I am without a mother or a father
I aspire to sublimity
And I do not have money to satisfy my needs

Who will ever embrace me and grant me
I wish I have the position of the star
And to be a scholar
As knowledge is the heritage of the prophet

Oh! Brothers I entrusted you
You are the rest of Arabs
Support a student who are asking

Provide him with what he needs
Yes, is there anything better than
Teaching a boy

IM fwd: "hanyalah insan hina disisiNya.... dan sesungguhnya kebenaran ini adalah nyata... apa yg ada dilangit dan bumi adalah cinta... kerana kasihNya disertai bukti... dan dirasai.... segala keindahan dilukiskan dgn nikmat kehidupan tiada terbatas pemberian yg Kau berikan tanda keagungan kasih syg yg Engkau curahkan namun masih ada yg tidak sedar kasih padaNya..."
finally!late in the afternoon i got the chance to blog in!everybody asks what/where am i at/doing at the mo'...i gave them all almost the same answer.'been nowhere,just sit around at home...but BZ'.haha~..cheeky?u bet!
again im in dat 'complicated' phase dat i felt after i finished my degree studies.only dis time,it's happening at a time after ive finished my working tenure at a private college sumwhere in 'selangor'.i dont haf2 mention the district/place etc. do i?for those of u whose knows,*shhh...* ;)
but dis time around,im getting the hang of it..spending time reading (/flipping thru ;)) books n stuff,among other things n dis blog to update.it's better if i get 2 update daily nowadays b4 it became like my other weblogs?!
i 4got the p.words,can u believe it?!so u can imagine how long i let the poor old blog 'undercovered' :D
oh yea,i better state here dat im now typing offline,i'l publish dis later when i get the chance 2 get online.rite now,am unable 2.
erm, 2 b continued... 14:41 20th oct '04

Wednesday, 20 October 2004

Just 4 PhuN... :p

phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

I am a hybrid of:
Academic Girl
Girl Next Door

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Tuesday, 19 October 2004

The beginning is the end is the beginning....

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hello there :) okay,guess now im ready to get serious. *screwing face* hmm,dat doesnt sounds com4ting isnt it? as if im making a joke outta all dis. but some ppl say dat 'making jokes is 1 way of being serious'. i think with dat, it makes it seems 'nicer'. anyway, im gonna share with u some msgs dat i got fr me frens off my IM.

1) fwd: Aminkanlah Doa ini.. Please don't break this..keep on fowarding to ur friend How about we make a doa' for our suffering Muslims ummah in Palestine, Afghanistan, Iraq,Chechnya, Kashmir and anywhere else around the globe? If each of us make a doa' and send this friendly reminder to other muslims, just imagine how much good deeds we will receive (without realising so). "Ya Allah, Tuhan Sekalian Alam, Selamatkanlah umat Islam yg sedang sengsara di Palestin, Afghanistan, Iraq, Chechnya dan serata pelusuk dunia akibat dari angkara mungkar dan kekejaman musuh-musuh Mu. Peliharakanlah mereka, lindungilah mereka,kasihanilah mereka dan berikanlah rahmatMu ke atas mereka.

2) Ilmu menjelaskan kepada kita bahawa nafsu adalah musuh kita yang sebenar. Berdasarkan kepada firman Allah s.w.t. dalam surah an-Naaziat (40-41) yang bermaksud: Adapun orang yang takut dan berdiri di depan Tuhannya dan menahan nafsu daripada memenuhi kehendaknya. Maka orang itu akan mendapat syurga sebagai tempat tinggal. Jadi janganlah kita terlalu memanjakan nafsu dan menurutinya.

3) it's not a mistake when Allah put us there...it's just our mistake of not understanding the message He sent!!!

thank you all my frens for sharing these with us.

Monday, 18 October 2004

"What kind of dark person are you?"

Contrast
Dark shadow. Something has drawn you into darkness
in the past, and you're now trying to get out
of it. The darkness is already inside you, and
getting it out will be hard, but if you try,
maybe one day you can be who you want to be
again. Don't give in!!!

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i dont exactly know what 2 write here...i started another blog (my 3rd...) yesterday evenin after chatting wit 1 of my hi-skool seniors,whom i actually dunno much abt.i know ive been tellin dat ive nothing 2 do at home..not much so comes the idea of pursuing creating my own blog. i dare not say dat this will last but i do hope it gives me sumthin 2 hold on to.
actually, i prefer 2 write on paper...so i could have easy access 2 my so called journey journal...days ago on my attempt 2 restart writing my journal,i spent time reading the book from page 1...i cant stop reading it so i guessed i might as well read it till the last page...haha~ i then finally got a lil' motivation to write sumthin inside there.
what abt here?hmm...seems like i started this with sum musings....i mite share my poems n articles in the future...rite now,guess i just didnt have d mood yet.

Sunday, 17 October 2004

"Which Season are You?"

Season = Autumn
You're Most Like The Season Autumn ...

You're warm, and the most approachable. You have
that gentle prescence about you. People can
relate to you, and find you easy company.
However it's likely you've been hurt in the
past and it has left you scarred so things can
become rather chilly with you at times. Being
the third Season in, you're mature, trustworthy
and loyal to your friends but prone to
depression and negative thinking.

Well done... You're the shy and sensitive season :)


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