phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

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i pledge to post several blog drafts that have been sitting snugly in me Acer... Ooh, & there'l be a new label, something related to etymology, & its goin 2help me in finishing a book i bought last November :p
Meanwhile...;


Anyone is goin to take me on that? ;P

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i was hoping dat the lock could still be used after we took out the metal thingy..alas...
i called perodua service centre abt changing the lock;
a) 1 whole set RM568 + labour charge RM80 = RM648
b) 1 door (if im willing to use 2 different keys for my car :p) RM167 + labour RM20 = RM187

The reason for wanting to change it was bcoz i usually alternate btwn using auto/manual lock. that's how i discovered theres sumthing stuck inside the lock.
Im still deciding..any1 know of a better offer?

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LadyGee, Ms.Sugar&Spice & I went to visit Kompleks Falak Al-Khawarizmi previosly known as Balai Cerap Al-Khawarizmi. Ive been meaning to go there since the 1st year I arrived in Masjid Tnh. More so after the officiation of Kampung Balik Batu, Tanjung Bidara as Perkampungan Hadhari. So it took me almost 3 yrs & fortunately enuff, thanks to the adventurous souls of the 2 ladies here, I was able to ride along ;p

The Kompleks opens everyday except Monday. U juz haf2 pay RM1 each for entrance (without the movie shows). But if u wud like to see the shows, u haf2 add another ringgit for the Planetarium show (Dark Star Adventure) or another RM2 for the 3D show (SOS Planet). Apart from the exhibitions & trying out certain apparatus, there r also interactive kiosks or puzzles u may want to try.
Ok, let the fotos do the talking. For more info. check out the website ; -"To Explore The Universe & The Creator's Power.

I finally finished reading this novel! Twas a medical thriller very much intricated with malpractice law. It wouldn’t be a book that I’d pick 1^st from any shelf…a 2^nd or a 3^rd, yes, most probably. 1 of my mentees lent it me last semester (abt. 2 ½ months ago) coz he was hoping that I’d be able to explain the ending to him, wic seemed to be bothering him at the time.

Told him I cant juz explain the ending by reading the final page & if he really wants to know he has 2 let me read thru the whole novel. & to have me read thru the whole novel wud require me months amidst the report writings dat I had 2 mark during dat month. He agreed & told me it actually belongs 2 his fren. Now dat worries me, coz I don’t like holding onto other’s property. He said he wouldn’t mind how long twud take 4 me to finish the novel.

Well, coming thru the final page of the story, I understand why the ending was difficult to fathom. I believe the writer wants the ending to be open to readers’ interpretation. & Yes, it still is vital to read the whole book thru. For dat is how u get necessary contextual clues. Anyhow, if ure curious abt ‘concierge medicine’, read the novel. The writer’s extensive professional-personal (uhuh…) opinion is included at the end.

Now, I juz hope he’l accept my interpretation of the ending. Simply, accept it. *sigh*

2-5 December 2008

I got d same feeling taunting me as when I attended d BPHPP 2008 in Ayer Keroh. Some ppl who didn’t attend dat Bengkel (workshop) asked me d same question dat was asked by some during d Bengkel. Well, d same answer was heard of course.

One of d judges seem 2 recognize me during d seminar. There’s no wonder there, he’s d 1 who evaluated my presentation during d Bengkel in Kuantan last yr. But I kudnt bring myself 2 talk/greet him whatsoever. I kud only smile at him. I mean, …who am I? I only participated for d 1^st time last yr & in d seminar dis yr, I was only d ‘exhibition person’!? Yep, I learned later during d closing ceremony dat d xhibition was truly done for cutting the cost compared 2 d previous yrs.

There were some behind-the-scene tales regarding our preparation/tasks. But all there is to it is dat, it’s now in d past, so juz leave it be. Wat’s d point of talking abt things dat we have no power in changing… ? But those who were involved; d perps, u guys really shocked & let me down. U let a lotta ppl down actly…

Another unfortunate news is dat, KMM didn’t win anything dis yr. From wat I heard, every yr KMM wud at least get d consolation prize. But not dis yr unluckily…

Something during the Prize-giving ceremony reminded me of d poem The Race (sorry, cant remember the writer's name). B4 dat, during the Pleno session, amidst d discussion, 1 participant cum presenter stood up 2 inform dat he noticed his research ppr was not in the list. I remember him. His presentation during d workshop in Ayer Keroh was impressive. He’s d only male Sc. Lectrr who I noticed presented in English. Not juz dat, his content was quite clearly understood by most of us even tho’ he presented on a Sc. Subject.

Well, back 2 d Pleno, he stood up d 2^nd time later asking for explanation/reason as 2 why it happened becoz d chairperson didn’t provide explanation d 1^st time. It was admitted as a weakness on the committee’s part due to latenite work. My fren & I noticed dat dat’s not d only ppr dat wasn’t mentioned in the Pleno. Some ppl mite think how kiasu dis guy is…but I tink he has strong belief in his research dat made him persistent abt it.

Thus, during d prize-giving ceremony, as successful papers & the presenters were announced & invited to take their prizes, to our surprise, the 2^nd prize belonged to that persistent Sc. Lecturer fr KMNS…?! U shud hear the applause then. It’s as loud as that of a 1^st prize winner being applauded if not louder :D That was a nice moment. Especially for the winner of course :)

Oh well, farewell Seminar P&P 2008. Wat’s in it for me in 2009? I cant even begin to wonder…?! Brrr

In reply 2 ur comment in the previous post ; *whoa...!?

tis wat happened 2day's mornin;


Anyway, afterwards i met Naz in d ladies & she gave me d same suggestn. She said u guys hav alredy bookd d tickets 4 2nite. SO...kihkih...boy am i glad u asked! *phew*
My reply wud be YES!


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I stumbled upon this when I was rummaging thru old newspaper articles that I had collected from 2006;

I kudnt get access to a scanner, wats written on the program pamphlet was this;

12 Dayung Petani,
Dats wat we’l watch in a mo’
Gemalai musik irama Melayu
I haven’t listen to such things for a long time.
Puas ku mengingat, ku fikir-fikir
Wat kind of memory wud revive such feelings?
Akhirnya ku sedar, ku akui
I have long gone miss dis!

U know they always play related background music to entertain us while waiting… Dat sorta trigger sumthin most of the time…

Well, I don’t go to watch theater that much.

I think during IIUM I went to 3 shows by The Shakespearean Theater Club (I tink dats wat they call themselves), a Mona Fandey mock trial (if im not mistaken I went 2 watch it twice!), a poignant dialogues by my coursemates right before the National Laureate, A. Samad Said made appearance (kud it b during 1 of IIUM Open Day/Night events?) & an Islamic musical theater abt death by outside performers (the main singer was Sheqal). These were the ones opened to the public as well as IIUans.

Other mini performances/ plays were of course by my coursemates albeit for lesson’s purpose. Nonetheless, they were quite entertaining.

That 12 Dayung Petani was a bangsawan theater, the works of & directed by Morad B. Ibrahim, performed on 29 January 2005 in Tmn Budaya Neg. Kedah. I went there wit a grp of KPLI stdnts.

Our Kelab Budaya lecturer (who’s also our class drama lecturer) thought dat we need some exposure to bangsawan theater as we need to perform one for our year-end assessment. We did Puteri Gunung Ledang (duh..). The training sessions; gosh, twas sumthing dat I wudnt want 2 relive. I kudnt count how many trainings we had & I remember once I didn’t have a single drop of water down my throat from early morn til 5 pm..!? I almost kudnt walk. Wat am I trying 2 say here? …

Well, anyway, of course something good came out of it. The scriptwriting, editing, characterization, props, crazy hour of trainings, money, conflicts, etc. argh… the experience was worth it & i really appreciate the support & cooperation given. THANK YOU my KPLI 2005 BI Buddies! THANK YOU Ms. Haiyon! :)

In 2006; watched Teater Randai in Tmn Budaya Neg. Sembilan as among chaperons of Kelab Budaya KMM (if i rajin i'l post d video here later :p).

In 2007; watched Teater Anak Bulan di Kampung Wak Hassan in Melaka (I kudnt remember d exact place. Definitely not in M. Tnh. It was on a sepak takraw court amidst kampong houses). Written by Alfian Sa’at, performed by Gene Sha Rudyn. Went wit my colleagues, juz for phun & giving supports of course.

In 2008; most likely…, living it! :p

I tink I juz watched Traditional dance sequence in Taman Mini Malaysia, Melaka wit my frens, wic was quite a long time ago.

p/s: coincidentally Ms. AMZ told me juz now dat there’l b Tarian Mak Yong in Tmn Budaya Melaka (i dont even know where dat is) soon.

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What can i say? i couldnt say what i had wanted to say i have a lot to say actually i had tried to program my mind on what to say but it didnt work out that way i felt like kicking myself on my way back that day realizing i didnt say what i had wanted to say & arrived home feeling beaten and called it a day What can i say?

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Alhamdulillah...i had d opportunity 2 finally meet Nurul & her 2 lil' daughters b4 she fly back 2 London last nite. Her mother, Ummi is coming along 2 stay wit her there for 2 months inshaAllah. For the past 2 months also Nurul had spent time in her hometown in Kuantan & i hadnt the chance to visit her. i think the last time we met was abt 6 or 7 yrs ago at KLIA also when she was goin 2 further her study in Egypt. Luckily my other SMAI friends asked me 2 join along 2 meet her there.

My parents came along 2 KLIA too. Back then, I used to ask my dad to pick me up after skool fr Nurul's house. She had the shock when she 1st saw my dad then, thinking "What's this Chinese tow key doing in front of the house?" kihkih.. & Nurul's mom, Ummi, was the 1 who represented my parents at skool when i was in form 5 to sign up my performance report card as my family was living in KL at dat time.

Boy, u did have extra baggages there Nurul!? hehe... Understandably, it's so hard to choose & arrange on wat 2 bring back n not knowing when is the next time u'l b here in M'sia. I wonder myself how r u goin 2 carry all those bags in hands wit ur 2 lil' daughters along?? Ummi isnt dat strong to carry much...i do hope thngs went well all the way. i somehow miss holding Maryam in my arms ;) when she was sleeping oh so peacefully... Wish i had d chance to hold Khadija next :)

Well, do keep in touch & tell us how the kids r & also how's Ummi being there for d 1st time...! ;)

Furthermore readers, the one whom i wrote letters to during skool holidays, & the one whom i exchanged songs' lyrics with at skool is none other than Puan Nurul herself. There, i hope u wont mind me telling dis Nurul ;P They have no idea how cheeky we were!? Do u remember that horn beetle in the matchbox trick? I had U good didnt i??! :p

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I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
and each road leads you where you want to go,
and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
and if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window,
if it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
but more than anything, more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
all the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
and you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.

But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
and while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
this is my wish
i hope you know somebody loves you
may all your dreams stay big
(Repeat)
(Chorus)

http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/My-Wish-lyrics-Rascal-Flatts/B4D9EC29360544CE48257143000A54CD



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p/s: thanks kak Yan 4 sharing d song wit me :)

Was helping dad arranging some old books dat he recovered fr the store. Half of the content of a box were my textbooks fr hi-skool & several others were lecture notes during in IIU. Some of the textbooks had no cover as they were torn due to a spill/ rain (?). you haf2 be able to read the content to identify wat it is abt.
I had made it clear to dad dat i kudnt throw away any of them. Seeing how i was caressing the books & translating/explaining some of the content to him, he readily agreed. i dont think we can easily find such books nowadays.

But the tricky part now is; reading the books. i didnt fully write the translations upon the arabic writing in those books, esp. the ones toward the end of my skooling there. & honestly, regretfully also, i dont really understand arabic as much as i did during hi skool/ IIU days. hmm...perhaps we kud arrange those books on the shelves later to be parallel with my old dictionaries. i believe there were at least 3 of them. Now, if only i kud find those dictionaries.... :P

Later on dat nite, dad brought out a familiar dark green Swan messenger bag dat i had used thru out my hi skool yrs. i asked him to juz leave it at the stairs & i wud arrange the books inside there later. i remember i had put some other textbooks in it before we moved hse.
Wat a surprise i get the next mornin when i found out that the bag didnt contain textbooks, but my old personal diaries?! there were abt 6 of them...! i could see the progress of my writings there. Towards the univ yrs, they became more like journals actually as most of them were reflections that i mite consider sharing with someone else...hold on, i said "consider".

There were obviously incidents written there dat i stil remmber now. there were also things dat i didnt even remember of them happening back then. Reading them made certain thngs more clear now. Interesthings...

There were also small notes dat my frens & i passed to each other in class. there's only 1 fren who fondly does this back then. NHKZ, u know who u r, hehe..




*gasp* i had been drowned in reading them diaries for almost 2 hrs til i realized that i almost miss breakfast...!? haiyaa...i haf other books dat need reading laa!


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i was a bit disappointed finding out that not all of the R&D committee will be goin 2 d BPHPP in Hotel Seri Warisan, Ayer Keroh this time around. Oh well, it's plain & clear nothing supersede the directives given. Was worried at how it mite turn out considering our college was d host & if i could compare wit d condition during last yr BPHPP in Kuantan, wit all the representatives & their members, 'twud b chaos wit only 7 committee handling em all. BTW, last yr program, i was a participant, thus i hv my POV fr bein one 2 evaluate btwn the two. However, now me bein one of d committee, it turned out quite differently...

Only later i found out that the program was divided into 3 zones; North (Perlis), South (Melaka) & West (Labuan). This was due to the overwhelming number of papers being presented. last yr twas 78 papers, 68 were chosen for the final. this year, twas more than 100+. No wonder the distribution. Thus, wit previous practice as having the R&D supervisor of each college to be in charge of a room each, 7 fr the host part, is a 'bearable' number. Albeit several committee had 2 go to & fro the college now n then esp in dealing wit d technical/appliances issue.

Anyway, wats amusing was dat thruout the sessions, familiar faces came 2 me n wish me "good luck", "all d best" etc. Hehe.. my gratifyin answer was "Oh, i didnt do any paper dis yr *sheepishly smiling*" . & my answers to their "Oh, but Why?" were either "No more lah"/"I need a break for a while"/ "im on a 3 yr hiatus"/"im still traumatised by it all" depending on the level of familiarity. kihkih...

Somehow, i admit, at some moments during the sessions, i actually wished dat i was 1 of the presenters..*sigh* i even came 2 d notion dat my 3 yr hiatus (now 1 yr alredy) mite b shorten to 2 yrs :p But then again, dat is, if the force is wit me..n the now-grp members of course ;) *winking at RI, RS, STA & SHAM*

i only managed to go 2 a couple of English paper sessions. d ones fr d college whose presenters r WKS & FF, good job to em! :) Unfortunately, i didnt manage 2 go to Ms. Phoon's session as i was on duty dat time. i was quite intrigued by Liyana's presentation. Why? because she had actually done a research on metacognitive in teaching n used the title 'Thinking about Thinking' (partly, me thinks). dat was d title suggested by a facilitator during one of d R & D courses. Probably the one in Cititel Xpress Hotel..I totally agree wit the points during d presentation. Most Students dont really think/reflect nowadays...they r too comfortable wit copying/merely accepting wats in front of them. So, the technique used was a practical n good start.

oh, abt d accommodation.. hm, nothin much 2 say.. quite ok by me.. few switches x work at all, only 1 functionin tv channel, unadjustable air conditioner in sum rooms, may b some didnt like to look at d windows n see only tall trees surrounding them.. but i'd say its quite peaceful there. watsmore they were only attending 2 us under BMKPM at dat time. n i saw sum toolguys/technicians wer repairing/fixing things aroun, so, some improvements wud hav taken place in d future.

Now, the so called Contextual Visit- we went 2 the Sc. of Aliens exhibition at MITC, Melaka. it's not really an extraordinary experience but it's different n interesting. They emphasised on the 'scientific, educational & interactive' experience of it all. i'd say it's compacted. The stuff were brought fr London.

Afterwards, we went 2 Melaka Mall n some went 2 JJ, actually some requested to go to JJ as they had gone to MM the night before :P i bought a book (when 2 read it??*argh*). Finally we hungout at McD n headed back 2 the bus by 6.30pm. The looks on ppl's faces that were looking at us boarding the kolej bus were quizzical. haha...KMM bus brought ppl to tour at MM n JJ??! there??! hehe...of course it may hadnt cross their minds that the bus were bringing visitors fr outside... :p


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Look out
Look out
Look out

(Will.i.am)
Where it’s at (where it’s at)
I know karma’s coming to pay me back (pay me back)
I’m with the sweetest thang that’s on the map (on the map)
I broke her heart in 30 seconds flat
In 30 seconds flat

Now how did I (how did I)
Just how did I become that kind of guy (kind of guy)
To look at girl and lie right in the eye (in the eye)
My momma told me willy that aint right
Boy now that aint right

I’m s s s sorry
I’m s s s sorry
I didn’t mean to break your heart
(I didn’t mean to break your heart)
I’m s s s sorry
I’m s s s sorry
I didn’t mean to break ya
B b b b break it baby
Look baby
I’m a heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
A h h h h I’m a heart
A h h h I’m a

(Will.i.am)
Where she go (where she go)
I got some things I gotta let her know (let her know)
To fix the love now its impossible (its imposible)
But baby baby if we take it slow
If we take it slow
We can make it work (make it work)
We just cant throw the love down in the dirt (in the dirt)
You probly think that im a f**kin jerk
cause the way I let you down it made you hurt
I didn’t mean to make you hurt

I’m s s s sorry
I’m s s s sorry
I didn’t mean to break your heart
(I didn’t mean to break your heart)
I’m s s s sorry
I’m s s s sorry
I didn’t mean to break ya
B b b b break it baby
Look baby
(Will.i.am)
I’m a heartbreaker
(Sheryl)
You’re my heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
You’re my heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
You’re my heartbreaker
You’re my heart
(Will.i.am)
A h h h h im a heart
A h h h ima

(Sheryl & will.i.am)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)
Break it down
(Lets break it down)

(Sheryl)
You’re my heartbreaker
You’re my heartbreaker
You’re my heartbreaker
You’re my heartbreaker
(Will.i.am)
I’m a heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
I’m a heartbreaker
A h h h h I’m a heart
A h h h h I’m a

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LadyGee's 3 Tagging

1. 3 bad habits

i) Procrastinates (i sometimes am tired of being on time :P)
ii) Watch TV as escapisme (i could watch even d silliest,boringest, utter useless programs!u name it...)
iii) hmm....?

2. 3 dislikes

i) people smoking in public
ii) people littering everywhere (esp. out the car windows!?)
iii) anonymous callers

3. 3 fav songs

difficult to choose la, mine changes every now & then due to humans' evolving creaTVT & experience :P but at d mo' they r...

i) I'm Yours by Jason Mraz (i like almost all songs by him. try listen to his duet with Colby Callait, Lucky)
ii) Not too Late by Piper (Fun song by a garage band)
iii) Gotta Get through This by Daniel Bedingfield ( it helps...)

4. 3 nicknames

i) Along (all my life...)
ii) Angel (by my KPLI buddies, some even forget my real name)
iii) NAP (by UBI,KMM :P)

5. 3 favourite phrases?

i) To do or Not to do (everytime i procrastinate :P)
ii) "Tuhan Maha Kaya/ Maha Adil" (influenced by my immediate boss. i love it when she said that)
iii) superhappyoptimisticjoyfulandprodigious!

6. 3 words describing the person who tagged you

i) Sensible, no nonsense LLB
ii) Great management
iii) Banjarese celup :P

7. 3 things you plan to do after you’re done with this tagging…

i) mark listening quiz papersss
ii) mark report writing projectss
iii) same as above (it takes time, believe me)

see? i procrastinate more nowadays....! :P

hm, i'd like to tag others but im afraid they mite be bored of tags :P even tho' i barely tag them. if i tag Kay/ Izma / kak Yanti ke...ok tak? ni name2 yg i notice rajin update blog depa, kihkih...

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'B U S Y ' never shy away from us here... but we are coping.

Yesterday evenin, while talking & doing our work, Ashley said something in a way that made me laugh; :D


"Why do i have to work so hard? Tell me again..."


Poor Ashley, after a rigorous interview day, coming back to office late, hadnt really eaten anything in a day & later have to work at night... Hang in there Ash...

anyway, most of us will be goin home for d 4 days hol dis weekend, Happy 51st Merdeka Day Malaysians!!

& Ramadhan Mubarak to all Muslims!! Mohon maaf atas salah & silap...


images courtesy of adiWidget

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