phaNtasmagoria: Nuances of Life

'B U S Y ' never shy away from us here... but we are coping.

Yesterday evenin, while talking & doing our work, Ashley said something in a way that made me laugh; :D


"Why do i have to work so hard? Tell me again..."


Poor Ashley, after a rigorous interview day, coming back to office late, hadnt really eaten anything in a day & later have to work at night... Hang in there Ash...

anyway, most of us will be goin home for d 4 days hol dis weekend, Happy 51st Merdeka Day Malaysians!!

& Ramadhan Mubarak to all Muslims!! Mohon maaf atas salah & silap...


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Kay has been tagged again, thus she tagged me... i think dis one is more tricky laa

5 TABIAT BURUK TIME SEKOLAH

Alamak...susahnye nak dipikir/diingatkan....!

1) Melatah

started when i was in standard 1. Peer influence la konon...there's dis 1 girl who always melatah & i juz terikut-ikut! hm, during hi-skool ade ke saye melatah?

2) Sleeping in class

hm, as far as i can remember, i've never ever sleep in class all my life but did once / twice during form 5, but when d teacher wasnt there la of course.. All because i was staying in d hostel at dat time. i think Kay also wud agree wit me, sejak dok asrama, kite jadik krg disiplin. betoi dak Kay? ;P erk, sy x kate sume yg dok asrama ek, saye maksudkan--> myself :) saye ade gak try tdo mase prep...hmm, x dpt nak lelap rasenye...
& i think Izma pun agree. Izma dulu dok asrama sekejap during form 5 but then kuar balik, kan Izma? it was very difficult nak tahan kantuk in class time tuh, terhoyong hayang kepala sambil duduk...! Buku nota pun penuh dgn 'cacing kerawit'! kihkih..

3) 'smuggled' song lyrics

haa...mesti ade yg terkejut! ni kire confession la ni...this thing started during form 3 if im not mistaken...it only involved 2 persons. Who was d other person? Rahsia...guess la ;) i think d 1st song lyrics exchanged was Paint My Love by Michael Learns To Rock. Sumtimes it's not a matter of exchanging lyrics. it's a matter of doing wat 1 like for another. A symbol of our frenship at dat time. When any of us like a song so much, i'd b d 1 supplying d lyrics coz i had access 2 internet alredy at home time tuh. we didnt do it often pun. Juz a few songs.
ade gak la perasaan 'bersalah' memandangkan 'situasi pendidikan' di situ mase tu. it didnt happened anymore during form 5 but i sometimes gave/wrote song lyrics to d person thru letters/emails :)
zaman hi-skool kite dulu, memiliki/menyimpan lirik lagu 'kontemporari' dianggap 'bersalah'. i still remember d spot checks done at skool, lirik lagu yg tak berkenaan adlh antr senarai brg buruan para pengawas. Bile dikenangkan skrg, i think in dis era, those stuff/'taboos' x dpt diterima akal..hmm...

4)...

5)...

tsk, i cant think of anything else laa... any1 can help 2 fill in?

3 FAVOURITE SUBJEK ANDA... KENAPA??

1) Alam & Manusia (primary skool)

same mcm Kay, hehe...memang minat subjek nih & all dat r related. Maybe there's influence from my father whose work was very much linked to Environment/Nature. dats why la among my fav tv progs r National Geog, Discovery Channel & Animal Planet!

2) Balaghah

same mcm Kay gak. Watsmore during Ustazah Wan Saadah ajar. Rase mcm best & fairly easy to score d xm paper! Things dat r related to language & culture mmg saye minat.

3) English

Hm, if i didnt mention this subject, it'd be weird la kan? Among d reasons is of course d same as above. Because it's abt language :) Tp it also depends on d lecturer. Mcm subjek Arab tu, i was interested wit d subject also but d ustaz's presence made it a nervewrecking experience for me evrytime during lesson. i could do d xm ppr becoz 'he' made me to nvr disregard/underestimate his lessons...! Syukran ya ustaz. rasenye nobody could ever 4get Ustaz Adeeb Mahfouz Jazouly.

hm, tu la...3 je ke? i also like Mantiq, Qawaid, Khat, Hadis (especially during kelas Peralihan), Sirah..i also like home science & art class during primary skool once upon a time.

3 SUBJEK ANDA TAK SUKA... KENAPA??

1) Nahu Arab (form 2 only)

Sebab ustaznye always made me confuse. whenever we students asked him questions, his answer wud be "Sebab die dh mmg mcm tu". & if i was sitting quietly & not looking at him while he's teaching, he wud call out my name & thus made other students think dat i was not paying attention. Most of the time, wat happened was becoz i was thinking over my confusion of wat was taught. i knew i kudnt ask more becoz his answers wud be "Sebab die dh mmg mcm tu". Ampun ya ustaz. Sekadar membuat kenyataan pengalaman :)

2) Adab wa Nusus

Bahasa & lahjah puisi in dis subject were difficult to get accustomed to. & d verses were sooo long! but i like d ustaz. he's very 'graceful' in explaining d meanings behind those verses. sudahnye, i only liked 2 listen 2 his translation n not reading d original verses :P

3) Matematik

err..hehe..saya tidak membenci. cuma krg gemar :) i always feel uncom4table wit numbers. tu je la reason nye. But i like Numb3rs d tv prog ;P

MENARIK PADA KAMU...?

u mean what interest me? hmm...terlampau byk laa...maybe Something dat can b seen/understood/interpreted from many different perspectives, viewpoints or aspects by people. Hmm, come to think of it, i think it's Human's ability to think.
Otherwise, i dunno, u b d judge.

KAMU PALING SUKA...?

Reading a good novel in a peaceful environment

ANDA TIDAK BOLEH HIDUP TANPA...???

Oxygen? & Family!

SETIAP MALAM SEBELUM TIDUR SIAPA YANG ANDA HUBUNGI..?

#Intrapersonal communication

MANGSA TAG KAMU
1. Weda
2. LadyGee
3. Nazz


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An MMS to my sis--


Tiah: Dont tell me dats BLOOD??!

aNNdiNN: It's REAL. Wat d'u think it is?

Tiah: I'd say Coklat!....B4 I faint!

aNNdiNN: Fainted? ...*Tada* U say it Right! haha..


It's from Atil's Choc bday cake, & i know Tia cant stand d sight of Blood...! ;P
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p/s: At this mo', i SO do not want to mark those piles (still) of Report Writings!


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-Tagged by Kay-

i think i'm pretty much normal nowadays. cant really think of anythng weird abt meself since 2006/2007??
There's dis quiz i took sum time ago... Anyway, Change is constant.

so i asked around my ofismates. only got 1 so far by kak Yan; i quote
1- "U have 2get into a character 1st b4 U drive"
hm, oh yea...because i dont like driving...hehe. sometimes i take driving as sweeping the porch/backyard & while sweeping, i wud wave to the little kids who pass by (reality check;they are in the back seats, parents-front seats;either - or is driving). i wonder what goes on in their minds seeing this lone driver smiling & waving at them. & yea, i do talk 2 my imaginary passengers, usually abt the songs played on the radio/ cassette player-got D.Bedingfield&M.Buble at the mo'. If not, i'd complain on the fact that none of em help me to open my drinking tumbler when i wanted to drink. OMG,... i AM weird?!

another 1 dat i thot of meself (real hard), dat i think is difrent fr others is;
2- "i put milk cereal in my jemput-jemput batter"
yea... wit onions,chilies,anchovies,potato cubes,cilantro leaves among others & no salt. Safe to say dat others eat & others know. & they eat ;) Besides some of my ofismates, u cn ask kak Ika :)

Hm, apart from those small facts, im stumped. So, i msg my 3 roomates when in univ, who've gotten 2 know me well thruout our almost 4 yrs there. the 1st one is from kak Gie aka MasterGie *giggle*. i quote
"7 weird things abt u;
1- Highly Secretive - how cud u keep all inside ur very own heart?
2- Explosive sometimes - erk, is dis my Nin?
3- Compliant - dun u feel d urge 2 break at least a rule?
4- Garbage Collector - wat those boxes, tins, cans were for?
5- Extremely Patient - how cud u do d grup paper alone?
6- ur geometrical bj kurung - didnt u like floral pattern instead?
7- a Nerd? - slept late at nite 2 study, tak letih ke?
8- a Midnite Singer - takut gak gue dgr suara merdu di malam hari...hehe..."

i realised later she actly put 8 weird things abt me. hm, u may discard d final 1 :p . i hadnt d chance 2 answer her questns so mayb i'l do it now...here goes...

1- well, i do believe...err...lets juz say dat trust 2 me was & is very fragile; extra care needed. I juz try 2 act accordingly, then & now. inshaAllah.

2- Agree. many dont realize dis. i believe my 3 roomies were at shock sometimes. even kak Que once admittd it took her 3 yrs 2 really know my acts,ways, etc. ?unpredictable? Patience is needed when getting 2 know a person, rite? :)

3- d urge? of course! who dont? im no angel ;p

4- i admit. im a horder. haha! but u haf2 admit kak Gie, those boxes, tins, cans were unique ones..at least during those time/ at least to my eyes. i believe i did take a picture of my collections. if i cn, i'l put it here later ;) oh, & i did throw em away when leaving d univ.

5- wic grup paper? no lah, i dont recall doin grup ppr alone. maybe u mean unjustified distribution of work. dat is normal. Hm, pair work maybe, once, but my partner did contribute something;typing some parts. Anyway, wat matters was d lecturer know the content was my own. We had a discussion, all 3 of us. & i know why my partner didnt do anythng til final hour. i understand but i didnt agree of courz. & she relented in the end. hence... i believe u remember?
Anyway, Good things come to those who are patient, rite? :)

6- hehe...i know dis had bugged u 3. well, it kinda made me feel com4table&safe.period. u do realize ive long transformed from it rite? :)

7- u may want 2 add Boring& Paranoid. hehe.. aww..dont tell me u hate me? *batting eyelashes* Actually, was that me? are u sure? i remember sleeping late 2 do asgmnts & maybe 2 study 4 exams. hm, isnt dat wat u all did too?

8- i believe there were moments when i go into singing certain hymns certain time of the month. i know u know dis ;) i was worried at 1st but later on after hearing Yusof Islam sings Morning Has Broken again in his then, new album, i took it with relief. i mean, i dont mean any harm. i still do it now & then out of conscious :P But me? singing in the mid of nite? R u sure it was me u heard those times, singing in the middle of the nite??? *goosebumps*
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dis 1 fr kak Que;
1- u r white, all blankets and katil white...

they were fr my boarding skool year la kak. we all were required to use only white colour. i'd told u last time. they were still ok so i 'recycled' em for my univ yrs plus another set of bedsheet& pillow cover -striped wit minimal floral pattern, hehe

2- awak layan linkin park,wlau nampak anggun n sopan, hehe. itu akak tak lupa til now

err...hehe,well, u cn discard dat memory. i dont listen 2 em anymore. not dat i dont want to. but my player has others songs, esp by garage bands ;p
and you somehow thinks im androphobic. huh? No lah...

dis 1 fr Zila aka CT;
1- ...cud simply sing coldplay, knew who d heck is BSB n was updated wit new hits on d block...hehe...

yea, who wud've thot. Blame it on my past, hehe...aiyaa..no more lah. but i still like coldplay ;p

*sigh* Those were the days...but like i said, Change is constant.

i cant really create my own list bcoz for me, i wud think some of em were/are normal stuff/ ive grown out of some.
Better ask fr those who know me/ think they know me =p
Any1 got anythng else 2 add? Which 1 do u think is the weirdest fact thre?

oops, i almost 4got, there r those dat i wanted 2 tag to c them update their blog also (in my life chronological order);

1- Weda
2- LadyGee
3- Nazz

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I really like mooncakes. I remember when we went to klcc (especially wit kak Que) during the particular festival (some 4 yrs ago), I wud look for mooncakes. The 1^st time I grabbed a hold of 1 I was so excited dat I 4got to check whether it’s halal/not. I only realized once we had reached the counter to pay. To our dismay it didn’t bear dat logo.

A Chinese lady was nearby (queuing behind us) & overheard me & kak Que talking abt it. She said sumthin, took d mooncake from my hand-apparently reading the packaging, went to the mooncakes aisle (wic was conveniently nearby but not the section dat I went to before), took a pack & brought it to me & said “this one halal”. I think I had a hard time closing my mouth b4 dat & was trying to figure whether she’s one of the customers / the shop attendant?... She’s a customer alrite, was queing behind us with her grocery trolley! I thanked her of course, wit such wonderment. & indeed the 1 I was holding then has d halal logo. Kak Que & me looked at each other & giggled. Kak Que explained that the lady must have liked seeing a malay girl’s interest in mooncakes.

If ure wondering abt d flavours, I bought d 2 in 1 pack; pandan flavour & lotus seed wit yolk. Most ppl don’t like d 1 wit yolk, at least I heard dat from my frens. I don’t really mind, but prefer d ones without :p

Well, a day ago I had d chance to buy a couple of mooncakes when following my mum into a bakery-The Baker’s Cottage. Didn’t plan to buy any mooncakes but seeing the array of wonderful new flavours, I felt like I need 2 give it a try. Ive heard of coffee & blueberry mooncakes but the ones there were totally tantalizing! They even have sugarless mooncakes?!

There were more than 15 new flavours/ 'inventions' as the staff there called it. Hm, I finally settled for …

Raspberry Cheese and Chocolate Strawberry Fondue

BTW, theyre currently on offer's price; a lil' less than RM12. A pleasant surprise when the staff put the mooncakes that i bought in a pretty oriental gift box plus a matching paper bag.

There’s no need for me to describe so much! Go & grab one yourself!

Oh, before u devour the sweet-savory invention, do enjoy d art on top.

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I felt even more guilty since u called me yesterday, Kala. I haven’t update my blog with dis post till then. So here goes… continued fr me last composition cum blog-letter 2 u :)

I have since made blondies 6 times i tink & as I had told u during ur last call, if u were still there in KMM, u’l b, err..’fighting’ for them with Adek Redza, kihkih… poor him, only managed to get a taste during my 5th project.

Oh, did u know dat now Ashley sit in ur place? Hehe…Ive always been ‘kacau-ing’ her when she was sitting next 2 Cozaine but now dat she’s among d 4 there, I pull her leg ever so often! Lat said her stash of snacks is even more / of variety than u?! eh, I didn’t know u had ur own stash back then. Did u? I wud’ve ‘kacau’ u too if I hd known so. Hehe.. I rmmbr d choc wafer & sum ‘kerepek’ etc. tho’ :) We r in constant need of comfort food there! Im sure kak Yan wud agree 2 dat ;)

It was nice 2 hear fr u yesterday. Sorry 2 learn dat ure not so well at the mo’. Make sure u manage ur time well so u cn have enuff rest after work. Hopefully whatever dat ure goin thru now is only for the time being since ure new there. Give it 6 months or so, alrite? :)

Hm, nothing much happen at d kolej apart fr a lot of our colleagues are getting married dis august. & of course, a lot more works came & coming & going & coming….!

Oh ya, I better give d Apple sauce recipe here. Brenda said she’d like 2 try making it. Good! i’d like 2 rest from making any 4 a while, hehe..

Ø 8 good, sweet, crunchy rose apples (royal gala will do fine)
Ø 1 cinnamon stick
Ø 1 table spoon of sugar (optional)
1. Cut the apples into 8/10 lengthways & then halve them
2. Put cinnamon stick into a pressure cooker (because the recipe doesn’t require adding water, so use any pot dat can help trap moisture/ add 3 table spoons of water just 2 b safe, so it doesn’t get burnt).
3. Pour all the cut apples into the pot. Sprinkle some sugar on top (I usually don’t put any) & close the lid. Cook on low heat

Makes 2 to 3 medium sized jam jars & great with cream crackers ;)

U don’t really need 2 cut the apples into small pieces as they will get mushy after abt 10 min so they’l turn into somewhat smooth paste (like d baby food apple mash) as u stir them once in a while.
If u use a really good moisture-trapping pot, u wont need 2 stir it at all. Just wait after 10-15 min & it’s done! Some ppl pull away d apples’ skins afterwards. i’d say don’t, they have fibres, rite?!

I guess it’s done now,what ive promised u… until next time Kala. now u cn share d joy wit others & ur family there :) All da best, dear!

“…Why weird?”, you asked…
“Somehow I see you all over the place, where you’d been the last time”, was what I wanted to say…
But I didn’t .
It’s quite freaky.



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