spent most of my time on the roads today. and guess what? i nearly nearly nearlykilled a cyclist today. it was really close..
(car)/-----\|(cyclist) <---- so close. my friend and i let out this uncontrollable scream and my leg just went numb after that. YES, if my reflexes were a little slower.. just a little, and i didn't turn my steering wheel away from him, yes, he is GONE, and i might have gone to jail for that, EVEN THOUGH my friend and I BOTH agreed he dashed out from NO WHERE, and its completely his mistake since the traffic lights show red man AND he is NOT supposed to cross at all. BUT YES, i was thinking, IF i really knocked him down, WHAT would have happened?! I was so stunned that my whole seat was DAMP when i came off from the car.
AND the weird thing is, I made a U turn after that very close shave, and went back to the scene, that cyclist WAS still there. He was at the same traffic light looking blankly into the sky, and he gave that very "aloof" look when we drove past him. he looks like he is in the 30s and i recalled how calm he was even after hearing my intimidating draggy horn. argh. it was SO CLOSE. and i suspect he was just finding a victim to claim insurance or something, and backed out in the end. then regretted and thus went back to the same traffic light for another victim.
no matter what it is, it is the most "memorable" event that happened to be on the roads so far. and yes, that guy is psycho.
YES. i am still in a state of shock.
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7:02 PM
Monday, May 24, 2004 .just for the sake.
seriously, i am posting this entry just because i do not wanna disappoint those who frequent my blog. lol. at least this is a new entry. something fresh. but yea, life has been very relaxed, very carefree and very smooth-sailing for me. so nothing interesting at all :)
addicted to usher-burn. very nice song indeed. it makes my day better.
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1:27 AM
Monday, May 17, 2004 .bad blue monday.
had the worst monday ever. early in the morning, i got scr*wed by a major CO for reckless driving. he said he is gonna ban me from driving to camp when i am NOT even reckless, NOT even dangerous. In fact, i was driving so slowly because i was worried my mazda will scrap the big humps the camp has. I think he got impatient, and picked on ME instead. argh what the hell. everyone says he is a loser anyway. hopefully i won't really get banned.
and YES, throughout the whole day, i wasn't in peace. my friends made fun of this crap, and they made it worse by tricking me in believing them my name and car plate number was on the Routine Orders. ha. when i was about to leave, i was SO damn paranoid because my car was full of pirated CDs. i hid them in my spare tires compartments yet was scared they might find it and accused me for hiding. and guess what? the RP didn't even bother to do a search on my car. argh.
bad monday. very very bad, right from the morning. The major is a LOSER. real LOSER. and YES, others felt the same way too. he made my day extremely bad. :(
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10:23 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2004 .so many thoughts.
today, i brought my tuition kid to compass point as promised. A 9 year old kid actually has the ability to make me ponder upon how f**ked up some people around me are and how the innocence soon diminish as we grow older. His innocent actions like sharing his chicken with me, feeding me fries, saying things like : " if u don't eat, i also don't wanna eat" and holding my hands wherever we go ... just touched me. i never had an opportunity to act as a big brother before. this feeling is so .. great. i can't believe somebody like me who can't even bear to spend much on myself actually don't mind splurging money to make this innocent kid who is not at all connected to me in any way happy, and the wonderful thing is, this sensible kid of mine actually reject all the offers and treats even though i can tell he really WANTS it. He told me this when we were at KFC : " I love my parents. I want to work hard so i can employ 2 nurses to take care of my parents when they are old. I will NEVER send them to the old folk's home. If my wife cannot live with them, i will divorce my wife. " OMG. can u believe these words come out from a 9 year old? i am totally stunned. this strikes my mind. is it true that kids that comes from not so well-off families are more sensible than those who comes from rich families? his dad drives a lorry. they live in a 3 room flat. there is a total of 6 person in the family. i wonder how 6 of them will be able to squeeze themselves in 2 rooms. (parents, 2 brothers, 1 granny and 1 maid )perhaps thats why i am very nice to this kid of mine. he is so sensible. so innocent. so lovely. he may be very very naughty at times, but i just CAN'T hate him.
returning to my home, i can't help but feel gratitude towards my parents. my dad works so hard just for this family. since primary 1, my mum has been fetching me to school WITHOUT fail till sec4. In J1-J2, ashamed to say, i started taking public transport and then the start of my independence. Very soon, after getting my license, i started driving my mum's car whenever no one is using it. In fact, there were many occasions when my mum sacrifices the car for me. And 4 months ago, after knowing i got an 8-5 job at my camp, my father started scouting for a suitable car for his dear son to drive to camp, WITH condition of course. I became the first among my friends to be a proud owner of a first-hand car which i myself didn't at all expect to have. Then recently, i quarrelled with my mum because she kept asking me to consult this doctor as she suspects i might have kidney problem because of some symptoms of mine. and i refused and instead said some hurtful words which seriously disappoint her. she wrote a one page long letter to me and ignored me for 2 WHOLE days. She even cried when i approached her yesterday to apologise. i feel bad. i am sorry . but don't worry, now we are fine. :) and yes, without my parents, i wouldn't be living in this comfortable spacious house. i wouldn't be saving so much time from waiting for public transport and walking ALL the way to my camp. i am entirely grateful. sometimes, they might not realise, but seriously, nothing beats having them as my parents.
With these wonderful people, i have learned to keep a distance from immature people who just doesn't have the ability to think sensibly. come on, even a 9 year old kid can think better than these people. to those people who pisses me off in any way or another, i just cannot be bothered by them . life is too short. i wanna meet all the wonderful people around. those people reading this long blog entry of mine, cherish all the moments and things u have now. everybody is fortunate in one way or another. don't let a 9 year old kid shame you.
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10:06 PM
Monday, May 10, 2004 .what a day.
i fell into a hole today. my whole leg is bruised. another new scar . damn.
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6:50 PM
Sunday, May 09, 2004 .yesterday.
i have not enjoyed myself so much for ages. forgetting all the troubles. all the boring, mudane stuff. all the burdens. i just kept dancing yesterday. shaking whatsoever. i love that feeling. at that instance, i dread facing the real world. i prefer darkness. everyone looks perfect. everything looks wonderful.
to my mum, happy mother's day. i love you :)
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5:34 PM
.what a thought.
i saw one guy running for the bus just now while i was driving. i realise it is something i have not been doing for a long time. all of a sudden, i feel.....
so fortunate.
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5:29 PM
Saturday, May 08, 2004 .long day.
today, my longest day ever. woke up at 6am, and still wide awake at 4:27am! went out with 2 friends at seperate times who are supposedly down . he is sad because his relationship with his girlfriend soured. she is sad because she feels unimportant, and i guess she needs more attention, though she doesn't show that she actually needs it. but then again, who doesn't need attention? who doesn't love people remembering their birthdays? who doesn't love presents, no mattar how small the present might be. everyone needs love. and yes. including me.
weather today suxs. hot and humid. so miserable staying in the boat sweating all over. but then again, i simply love lifeguard duties. :>
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4:34 AM
Sunday, May 02, 2004 .warmth.
on thursday, my vehicle's tyre punctured at STmarine tuas. i was shocked, but fortunately, helpful people there came over to help. i am touched. this is the first time i feel how helpful some people can get. you can never get such treatment in camp. it was late, so i decided to go back camp first and come back tomorrow to fix the tyres. waited 3+ hours for the god damn land rover to fetch me back to camp. totally pissed. very long since i last feel like going home sooo badly. reached home at about 10 and just fainted on my bed after a nice bath.
on friday, went back to tuas to retrieve my vehicle. received lots of help from the foremen and the workers there. never thought i will ever worked with bangla workers. my first time. actually we chinese are so bad as to ostracize them. they are just some pitiful souls who gives you their maximum help you wanna get. i swear to god i will never be such a racist again. yes, they do stink but i was not any better that day. realised for the first time how help from others can actually aid you so much when u r in trouble.
on friday night, i went zouk. crowded. many pretty girls. but crowded. very squeezy especially after 12am. no mood to dance. no mood to hit any girls. yawning the whole night. only thought of going home most of the time. $25 wasted.
saturday. spent on teaching. went to buy friends' presents after that. good buy and i hope they do like it. nearly got knocked down by an oncoming taxi while crossing the road. luckily my reaction was fast and escaped death. i will never cross the road before looking at both sides again. i have learned my lesson.
