Tuesday, March 29, 2005
.different.
everybody is different. they have different priorities, different standards, and different in every single way. different people treat different things differently. there can be many opinions on a particular matter, so why bother so much when people think differently from you? you don't need to care, because everybody is free to think whatever they want. no point arguing and hurting the relationship/ friendship whatsoever. so stubborn people, stop being stubborn. stop being opinionated. erm, yes. i am reprimanding myself.
i loathe the way i look at things at times. i am stubborn, opinionated. but there are worse people around me. some even have a tingeof arrogance in them. omg. who are they to act like that with that limited success achieved so far? i am not referring to you. chill.
the recent biathlon that i just completed on sunday, i am ranked 133 / 956 in the Men's Open category. i am not really satisfied. do i deserve a headshot? ha. tell me, but i am really glad i am placed top 40 in the swimming component. i am proud of that. this shows my swimming training has indeed paid off. :)
2006 biathlon. i will participate again, unless i became an unfit ass. :P
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11:21 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005
.a fulfilling yesterday.
i completed my ever first Singapore Biathlon yesterday, and I did pretty well. I swam well at least. That adrenaline rush, and satisfaction are just too great to mention. The appaulse, the support from the massive crowd.. wow. ha. was actually worried I wouldn't be able to complete the biathlon, but fortunately, i did. i am so full of pride right now :)
it has been long since my heart beats so fast. yes. i met that somebody. but still, i am too wimp to get a girl. ha.
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1:28 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
.yesterday.
yesterday, i received the worst summon i ever got for the past 1+ years of driving.
My offence is Travelling on Bus Lane during prohibited hours., and guess what? the fine is $130 + 4 demerit points. WTH?! and guess where it happened? - The road just outside my house, a route i have been utilising everyday. I am appalled. I pity Singapore drivers. Imagine being fined so heavily for a minor offence like this!
i guess i have to be really careful on the roads from now on.
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1:49 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
.my views about friendships.
some friendships are short-lived. some last forever.
in my life, i have experienced many short-lived friendships. for the few weeks, these companies have been fun, and sometimes memorable. for instance, the friends i made during course times, during attachments and in camp are mostly short-lived. from friends --> acquaintances after all the courses and attachments are over. not many stayed in contact after these. Everyone will return back to their own trust-worthy long-time friends whom they feel most comfortable with, and the friendships made for the past few weeks will soon be forgotten soon after. sad to hear, but true. i bet the majorities wanted all these friendships to last, or at least continue for a longer period, but its almost impossible. Thats why you have your so-called true friends, who have been and ARE still with you till now. These friends are definitely worth cherishing. I am fortunate enough to have friends like these around me, and i do cherish these people.
I agree my approachable and friendly personalities have brought me many acquaintances. I make friends easily. People seem to remember me for a longer time, not for the good reasons sometimes. Some of my army mates say I just have the 'thing' for people to remember me. However, for me, its NO big deal really. I don't crave for such unwanted attention. Somehow, these attention are not always favourable. I believe staying low-key is somehow better.
I have some really bad experiences. I believe in making great friendships. However, sometimes I tend to get disappointed because some friendships just don't work out. Perhaps I am not really "proficient" in judging people. Thus, I often get made use of. Some get close to me due to certain benefits. Some befriend me so that they will find opportunities to burst the BIG ego in me which they assume I HAD. I never fail to be a victim of such cases. Sometimes, its due to my personlity which lead to people doubting my ability in being a true friend compared to those low profile people who have a handful number of friends and can afford to give more attention. AND the result is... - I get many superficial friends.
So right now, i try not to be so blinded. I used to be really naive. I tend to be more cautious now. I try not to think so much. Short-lived friendships are not meant to brood over. Its the true friends around you who are more important. Friendships, just like our hands, need at least to work out. It wont work if only one makes the effort.
Of course, I cant help but feel sad/disappointed by some really great yet short-lived friendships I had in the past, but I believe there are better things in my life that deserve my attention. My family, my close friends and most importantly, MYSELF. :)
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11:19 AM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
.html.
html codes are too sensitive. no additions. no loopholes. everything must be in place, and correct codes must be used at the right place. figuring html codes is really tough and challenging. some people are just like html codes. too sensitive and never allow anything more or less. for instance, an addition of a " / " somewhere will affect the whole html settings. fortunately, these html people have already gotten out of my life.
a busy week. no more swimming attachments. time to clear leave. time for self improvement. time for scuba diving. time for a short trip somewhere.
went for SMU open house yesterday at Raffles City. i kinda made my decision. i am glad I open up my choice. really.
have been losing a lot in MAJONG. still a rookie. yesterday's game was lousy. I didnt have much luck. seriously. but still, i am quite satisfied with the improvement i made so far.
swimming finals have ended. no medals. no trophies. but i gain lots of experience. how to take humiliation. how to bother less. how to feel contented with your achievements. i am glad i broke my own personal timings. i miss swimming attachments.
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11:20 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
.a fine day.
luck is on me these few days. indeed, i am lucky. and i am not taking it for granted.
my hamster gave birth again. 8 this time. not as elated as the first time. life is boring. i need some fun to spice my life up. scuba diving trips. more wakeboarding. and more time for my wonderful peers.
last but not least, HAPPY 21st Birthday Carrie Chen Xiaoying :)
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10:15 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
.laze around.
i appreciate the carefree life i am leading now. really. i know i have been repeating this for the past few entries, but yes, i simply love it.
yesterday, i nearly died from a heart attack teaching my pri 4 tuition kid. he just can't be bothered. he told me getting good grades is none of his business. wonder whether my kids will turn out like this next time, because if he/she does, i foresee i will have sleepless nights everyday. being somebody's parent is really not easy i guess.
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4:00 PM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
.shiok.
i admit i am not an easily-contented person. however, i do feel contented today for clocking a 28.6s for my 50M free, and leading such a wonderful army life compared to the rest of my peers. My life is good so far. I love it. Just hope that it will continue to stay this way, or even better. hopefully.
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6:05 PM
Monday, March 07, 2005
.disappointed.
its not rare that i get disappointed over myself, friends or even my family. its not that i have high expectations really.
however, today, the disappointment is rather intense. i don't feel good. i need a good sleep. a good rest to forget all the disappointment i have. i am not a child anymore. nobody is gonna coax me to make me feel better. i know that. ha. somehow, i am not as happy-go-lucky as what people think i am. i am not.
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10:22 PM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
.guilty.
i don't fail to hurt people around me. sometimes, i feel i am a little too insensitive. yet, i feel i am overly-sensitive at times. to the people whom i have hurt before, i apologise. :)
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12:40 AM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
.dilemma.
making decisions ain't easy. unfortunately, everything in our life evolves around making decisions, and its up to you whether you make a wise or foolish one at that point of time. Make a foolish decision, and end up swearing, feeling guilty and lament all you want. Too late. You either amend it and learn from your mistakes, or just f*ck it , and you soon find yourself committing the same mistake again. Some decisions made can be salvaged, and even beneficial. Some ain't. Once made, it is irrevisible. Those are the toughest decisions to make. Make a wrong one, and regret for LIFE. Cruel but true.
Driving makes me wiser. Make a wrong move, and end up with an accident if you are lucky, or if you are really down on your luck, that might just be your last day on earth. =p Thus, I seldom speed nowadays. I don't need a traffic fine and demerit points to make me learn from my mistakes, neither do I want to be an unfilial son who leaves this world before my parents failing to fulfil my promise to return my debt towards them when I grow up. I have far too many "expensive" lessons. I always have the tendency to "cheat" when I display parking coupons, and usually i will get away the first few times, but still end up getting a $10/$30 summon soon after, then i realise.... whats the point? "You save $5. and end up getting a $10 summon + trauma + heartache + regrets ." I am already considered fortunate i guess, having only 4 summons for the past 1+ year driving. Imagine those drivers getting speeding fines every alternate week or so. My gosh. I pity them. One will be appalled to learn that some people just DON'T learn from mistakes. I am not one such person fortunately.
I always learn from my mistakes. In every phase of your life, you tend to make silly decisions which you regret later on. Definitely. Even wise men make mistakes, let alone commoners like me . Thus, learn from it. At least make the "best" out of your foolishness.
Currently, I am in a dilemma which university to go to. I hate making such tough decisions, because I know the ultimate decision I make will only have 2 outcomes.
1) Regret and Live with It
2) Glad I have made the correct choice.
F*cked up.
I don't wish to learn that the choice I make turns out to be a similar experience to the choice I made on Monday at Toa Payoh Sports Complex- " to try save 50cents by cheating 30 minutes of my coupon timings and end up stuck with a $10 fine + regrets. "
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6:47 PM