Note2Self-byPharaoh

Self,

I must start out by saying that things with KB are going very well, and I'm not complaining.  I've already stated that we went jet skiing, countless movies and dinners, went to see Jill Scott two weeks ago, going to see Janet Jackson next week, and plan to go to Atlanta for Thanksgiving to hang with his best friend, her girlfriend, and a few other of their mutual friends.  Prince Esquire is making a permanent return to Cali and there's been discussion about a couple local road trips that I've mention with KB.  So as I said, things are good.

THAT SAID!  When I came across this picture on someone else's blog, I couldn't help but think why can't I be dating someone like him?
I mean he is FINE, look at that body...I just hope the lower half is equally as impressive.  Nothing worse than looking at a man with a great upper body on top of some scrawny legs with no thighs, calves or ass!

There's a part of me that says there is hope for someone like that to come along in my life and be madly in love with me and I'd feel the same way about him.  There's also a part of me that thinks someone like that will NEVER be interested in me.

The irony is I think I know that the former thought comes from a place of greed, wanting what I don't of can't have and obviously lust.  The latter thought I'm sure just comes from my own insecurities and self-doubt that I'm sure many of us share to some degree or another.

No I'm not about to walk away from KB to go hunt for my hunk.....but I'd be lying if I said it didn't cross my mind.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Self,

Well today I am on the East Coast.  I'm going to see a friend/colleage and to meet with some of my clients.  YES, I heard about that Irene is heading this way....but I can't worry about that bitch....lol she ain't as bad as ME!  I know there's concern...but actually I think I'm good...they say this area of Pennsylvania may see some of the rain...but I won't melt and when I leave here I'll be heading West and away from Irene.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Self,

Recently, I had a tarot card reading done on my behalf.  Well it was a small group of us hanging out and drinking, laughing, and just hanging out.  I had watched others gone before me. Their readings seem to make sense and it gave me enough encouragement to have my done, so I did. 

I have to say it was......extremely interesting....even slightly fascinating.  I won't go over the entire reading but I will share some of it.

To start I was told to shuffle the deck while continually asking a single question in my head.  Once I was done shuffling and returned the cards to the reader I was instructed to choose one of three categories for the reader to frame the responses/interpretation of  the cards.  However, from watching the previous readings I knew that there was a fourth option of having just a "General" reading, which was my choice.

No surprise that the reading touched on my relationship with KB.  The Tarot Cards suggested that KB will be with me for as long as I want, I just have to become comfortable with the idea of him being attentive and supportive.  It also had some commentary on my friendship with Schehimazade in so much that he is very protective of his friends (and me specifically according to my reading.) Overall, it was all positive stuff.

The one thing that seemed most curious to me, was that before my reading actually started the person doing the reading asked me to pick a card from the deck because he had a question regarding me.  The question he had was rather I had the ability to read the Tarot Cards myself.  According to the card I pulled the response is yes and that I would be very good at it.  Go figure!   I'll admit there has always been a curiosity and fascination even with the mysticism, but I don't know if tarot reading is something i would want to pursue.....at the same time there are a couple of people for whom I would be intrigue to see the results of their readings from me.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Self,

The other day, while working the graveyard shift I saw this article on AOL. The article states that in Albuquerque a 6-year old was taken from her neighborhood and one of her neighbors jumped in his own pick-up truck and chased the suspect's van down several residential streets.  The suspect crashed his van into a pole and fled on foot.  The good Samaritan to the little girl back to her family.

Yes that was a really quick summary of the article, if you are interested you can read the full story here: Thwarted Kidnapping.

What strikes me about this story is ....I wonder what I would have done.  I mean would I have had the lighting fast instincts to give chase, or just call the police (as the man's wife did while he was chasing the kidnapper.)  Or would I have just been lost in my own world and wondering what had happen and why were they shouting down the street?

From one of the comments posted with the article, supposedly the hero of the story is reported to be an illegal immigrant which makes his actions even more incredible because he didn't even stop to think "what if" in regards to himself.  The article states that his only motivation for giving chase was that he has two daughters of his own and hoped that someone would have done the same if it were one of his girls.

We always discuss the negative things in our lives - bad dates/relationships, sucky jobs/careers, financial problems, family drama, etc etc, it's nice to here that are regular folks out there that do good things too.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

Self,

So the first week of this month I was away in Vegas for a conference for my part-time business.  Which meant KB and I was apart during that time. We texted but really didn't have a chance to talk.  The day I got back to LA was also Darktomahawk's (who also attended the conference with me)  last day on the West coast so he wanted to have dinner with some other friends and I had KB join us.  At the dinner table...KB was violating me.....ok well we were both messing with each other.  Just couldn't help it.

It turned out that day Schehimazade was also in town, I tried to get him to join us for dinner also but he was in a rehearsal, so after I took Darktomawk to the airport, KB and I met Schehimazade at Denny's for a brief visit.  KB initiate more under-table foolery. Just couldn't help it.

We left Denny's and was driving to take KB back to his car at my house, there was traffic on the freeway so I took an alternate route....and finanlly having a moment alone....KB started fooling around some more....eventually putting his HEAD in my lap while I drove.....it got a bit intense so I had to pull on to a dark side street.  Just couldn't help it.

Sincerely,
Pharoah

PS I go back on graveyard for two weeks....maybe we'll have to find some other dark side streets?

Self,

Last night was the Jill Scott concert here in LA....it was hot!  SHE WAS AWESOME as usual.  Along with Jill, Anthony Hamilton and Mint Condition performed.  Of course Jill and Anthony did their duet which I love.  Mint Condition also gave the audience a surprise by having Kelly Price come out on stage to do their duet...which KB loves so he was excited when that happened.  Doug E Fresh and DJ Jazzy Jeff entertained the audience between  performers so it was really like a non-stop party!  And we were even given a surprise by them because while Doug E Fresh was on stage before Jill Scott came on stage, MC Lyte came on stage with him and rocked the mic for a bit. 

I think my parents also really enjoyed the show.  I have to say I hardly looked in their direction during the show...particularly when Jill was on stage, but I think they had fun!

Before the show KB told me that Ledisi is suppose to be coming to LA in November.....He is also a big fan of hers, so maybe we'll go to that show as well.

OMG how ironic, while writing this post, I just recieved a text from KB thanking me for "one of the greatest nights yet." 

That's a huge compliment.  LOL maybe I'm doing something right!

Sincerely
Pharaoh