Friday, June 15, 2012

I wish that I had hurt myself instead of you.  To see you pull away makes me want to rip my heart out of my chest.

I love you.

Praying that we always work things out.


Friday, May 18, 2012

Finally.  I am home on the couch, watching Center Stage (oh the high school memories), and finishing up some ice cream.  Finally!

This day has been ridiculous.  I mean--it could have been worse, and I have a lot to be thankful for--but I'm almost wiped out.

...musings lately:
-been doing a lot of reflecting...teaching makes me feel old sometimes
-listening to the Bible is different than reading it--but I like how it forces me to move on ahead to the next words--I think it's helping me to see the "big picture" right now
-taking your time can be good and bad...


...okay i'm getting off this darn computer and going outside.

Saturday, April 28, 2012

I just finished making a simple chart of my life.

There are 11 sections, starting from birth up until now.  I grouped it by major events; some completely internal, some very much about other people and circumstances.


It's interesting to me how much I have changed but stayed the same, too.



Life goes by so quickly, and a lot of it feels like a blur.


Thursday, February 2, 2012

Discipline.

I'm not talking about self-discipline.  I'm talking about disciplining teenagers, which is something I didn't think a lot about until I had to do it.  Dealing with defiant adolescents was not something that I wished for when I blew out the candles on my 24th birthday cake.

I feel like I kind of suck at it sometimes.  I was typically compliant, so sometimes--a lot of the time--I have no idea what the heck I'm supposed to do, because I have no clue why they act out.  If I could only get inside their brains and figure out the why--and what they think they're going to get out of being disruptive.

I love teaching.  I want to be a good teacher!!!  But I seriously need some way to process and grow through discipline issues.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Someone once told me that as we grow, God reveals sin in a way like peeling off layers of an onion.

Or maybe a better way of saying it is that we see our sin, layer by layer...like that of an onion.

Okay, I'm done trying to articulate that.  You know what I mean. 


That's how I feel lately.  Thank God I'm not despairing.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

There are much greater tragedies than not getting married by 30 or not getting married at all.

And there are much greater tragedies than stress from work or going through a tough breakup.

"Our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." -2 Corinthians 4:17-18