It has been a week... a real week... You know what I mean?
And at the end of this week, I would just like to say one thing.
We are all doing our best.
You are doing your best.
I am doing mine.
The people we love, they are doing their best.
Parts of my best are better than yours. And wouldn't you know, parts of your best are better than mine. Still, that does not,
will not change the fact that we are all doing our best.
Right now in your mind, you may have pictured someone you know/love who you think is not doing their best (maybe it's me), but guess what- that is none of your business, because you don't know, how ever well you know them, that all the "awful" things they are doing right now are not their best... that maybe sad to you, but it is also very true.
Life is hard. It's why we are here. It is supposed to be hard. People get sick, we get in accidents, we die, we loose jobs, we have mental illness and chronic pain... and those are all things that just happen. They are how we learn how strong we really are. It's life... and then we add to that life
humanity.
When I say humanity I am not talking about it in terms of our goodness... our charitable acts. I am talking about how very human we are. How our opinions, actions and feelings hurt people sometimes. How we make mistakes. It is inevitable.
I will hurt people, and people will hurt me. The point is- it is rarely on purpose. The only people who wake up in the morning planning on hurting people (especially people they love) are disturbed...
The rest of us, we might wake up thinking about something that is bothering us, or something we want to say, and we might say something stupid or thoughtless or harsh, but I do not think we wake up planning to hurt or harm.
Our mistakes and our good intentions, they are hallmarks of
our humanity.
I grow tired of those who live their lives so ready for someone to hurt them, anticipating the 'evil' that other's wish to inflict upon them.
I grow tired of those who wait with cutting words to strike back at their unknowing offenders.
I grow tired of those who seem un able to comprehend the good, although sometimes misguided or poorly expressed, intentions of others.
I grow tired of the lack of faith in each other.
I grow tired of the lack of forgiveness...
I grow tired of the lack of compassion...
I grow tired of people's 'righteous' hatred and disgust. (Let's be clear-there is no such thing.)
Mostly though, I grow tired of being forced to withdraw trust from people I love when they prove themselves to be unable to reciprocate my acceptance of their humanity.
Because while we can (and should) extend forgiveness, compassion, and maintain love without expecting change- Trust is a sacred gift that is earned.
This week I have found peace in forgiving. I have found peace in compassion for the humanity of others. I have found peace in remembering the best parts of someone I love in the midst of hurt. I have found peace in remembering- we are all just trying to do our best.