Ova-EZ

So yesterday was kind of hard. I went in to see Dr. B for what was supposed to have been my first visit as a pregnant woman. I was supposed to have gone in with my husband so we could watch as the ultrasound tech showed us the first pictures of our brand new bundle of joy. Instead, I sat alone in a waiting room filled with expectant mothers, some with little children running around their feet already, feeling really sad and not a little uneasy.

Fortunately, the staff at my doctor's office is pretty darn amazing. Dr. B's nurse came out into the waiting room, walked right over to me, took me by the hand and asked if I was ready. I was so glad and thankful that she hadn't called my name out in that waiting room. Nobody there knew me but it felt like I was such an oddity - the only woman without a belly - so it was nice not to have it broadcast for everyone.

I talked with Dr. B for a bit and she reiterated what everyone has been telling me - the good thing is that you know you can get pregnant. It did make me feel a little better. I know how common miscarriage is - one in every four pregnancies will end this way. Even Dr. B's nurse, who is about to pop out a little one any day now, told me she had two miscarriages prior to this pregnancy, both at 4 months. So, as unfortunate as it all is, it's comforting to know I'm not alone in this.

Dr. B and I discussed the next course of action. I had some blood taken to find out if my levels are dropping so I'll have to wait for those results to come in but it looks like I'm going to wait for at least one cycle to pass and then I'll start on the Clomid as originally planned.

So that's that.

I want to thank you all again for the kind words and prayers. They've meant a lot to me.

Talk soon.

First of all, let me thank those of you who took the time to send your well wishes.

I almost didn't post anything yesterday because I figured I should wait until I was "out of the woods". But I truly believe that the more people who care about you, who know what's going on, the more of them who are praying for you. So I posted.

Ironically enough, about an hour after I posted, I began having terrible cramps. I went to the bathroom and discovered the worst. Needless to say, I left work and headed straight for Dr. B's office where they confirmed what I already knew - I had miscarried.

I'm still waiting to hear back from the doctor's office on the results of the blood work they did yesterday so I will post more information as I receive it.

I wasn't going to post at all but posting has been very therapeutic for me in the past so my hope is that it will help me through this difficult time as well.

Thanks again for the support.

Talk soon.

I'm baaaack!

I know, I know. It's been an incredibly long time since I've posted. Three months or so, I think. I've spent a lot of that time recovering from my surgery and really trying to focus on preparing myself, mentally & physically, for motherhood. During my time away from the blogosphere, I met with the fabulous Dr. B. several times to make sure I was healing properly and also to discuss my baby-making plans. We decided the best course of action would be to spend some time not thinking about laying eggs and the like. No pressure. If hubby & I were able to conceive on our own, great. If not, then the plan was to start on a cycle of Clomid in April.

I have to tell you I really was amped to get started on the Clomid because I felt like I was finally going to be able to control something after not being in control for so long - 'roidville, UGH. So, needless to say, I was ready for AF to make her April visit.

Let's just cut to the chase, people. Clomid? Who needs Clomid? AF's expected arrival came & went, I was sick for several days (thought I was working out too hard ala Biggest Loser) and then my teeth started to hurt. That was enough for me to pick up a HPT. I took the test when I got home just to assure myself that I wasn't KU and figured that AF would show up not long after now that the stress of wondering where she was at was over. Imagine my surprise when I saw that one wonderful word staring back at me from the little viewscreen on the test - 'PREGNANT'. Gorgeous!!

Hubby is so happy. This weird little smile was plastered on his face for a good hour after I told him. hee hee! He's going to be such an amazing Daddy.

As for me, I've had some of the usual pregnancy symptoms - bloat (gross), sore boobs (ouch), some cramping from my uterus growing. I have to pee ALL the time and burping has become just something I do. I can't complain about any of it, though because all of it means that I have a blessing inside.

My first OB appt is next week and I'm hopeful that everything is going to be just fine but I welcome all the prayers and well wishes anyone cares to offer.

Thanks to all of you who have continued to check back on me even while I've been away.

Talk soon!