I am someone who has been molded and shaped through the many paths and places I have walked...I have seen little and much...I believe but struggle to have faith...I desire to know God but still at times run from him...I desire life but at times lack the bravery to chase after it...I am me but all that that entails is still a mystery.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Flat Ironed Hair and Tears
On the way back from visiting my grandparents, I knew Kevin and I needed some time together. I called a friend to schedule babysitting and when I arrived home, talked with Kevin about what day would be good. We finally had a date and time nailed down and babysitting...the anticipation of an actual date with my husband began to build...
As the day arrived, I woke up and mentally scheduled how the day would go...leaving time to actually do my hair and pick out a cute outfit. I spent quite a bit of the day catching up on some cleaning and mentally thinking through what I would wear. As Jack settled down for a nap, I was able to take a shower and begin to get ready. It was nice to be able to take my time putting on my makeup and I even plugged in the flat iron to do my hair.
Unfortunately, the day was very warm and with our air conditioner on I could not hear the fire alarm go off. It was about an hour before we were supposed to leave and I began to wonder if Kevin was going to come home and get ready soon. Instead of a car pulling in the driveway, my cell phone rings...it's Kevin. He tells me to call the babysitter and let them know things are on hold because he is on a fire call. He didn't know how long he would be there or when he would be able to get back.
I unfortunately did not respond well and we ended up hanging up both tense. I was devastated. All the time preparing and anticipation quickly crashed in a cloud of dust. I did the only thing I knew to do...call my mom. Through tears I told her what was happening and ended with..."and I even flat ironed my hair!" My wonderful mom reminded me that I am pregnant and emotional and that my husband was doing a very noble thing, out there saving lives.
As I wiped my tears, hoping that I didn't ruin my makeup too much, I knew she was right. I had selfishly been thinking only of my agenda and going to the worst scenario. I felt guilty for how I reacted to Kevin when he called and realized that I needed to apologize.
In the end, he was able to be home only an hour after we were suppose to leave. After apologies, we headed out for a wonderful date...Red Lobster and car browsing. It was definitely a humbling experience and I am thankful for a Godly mom and a husband and heavenly father who are patient with me.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
It's a Girl!

Friday, July 24, 2009
Where did this month go??
Then it turned into a blur...
Actually...it turned into a week trip down to my grandparents because my grandma was in a coma. We weren't sure what was going to happen but she came out of it and is now in a nursing home. It was a very emotional time yet, I am grateful for the time I had with family and even getting to see my cousin's baby soon after she was born! When we arrived back at camp, we also were able to catch up with friends who are missionaries in Africa...it was such a blessing!
Getting home, it was time to catch up on laundry, church stuff, cleaning house, and getting Jack back into a routine. Grandma Sue came to visit and we went blueberry picking...so fun. And now...we look forward to an ultrasound on Tuesday to know if Jack is having a brother or sister...
Friday, July 03, 2009
Jack...my source of laughs and tears...

Lately, he has really been full of it. Here are some of his adventures and funny habits...
- He has started to greet both people and any object he sees with "hey"... "hey mommy", "hey cup", and even yelling out the window, "hey doggie" and "hey rum rum (car)".
- He identifies the Pizza Hut sign and honestly, we have gone there once...thank you tv advertising.
- He knows all the Handy Manny and Mickey Mouse characters and says "hey" to them too.
- He knows how to take out a dvd that he doesn't want and put in one he does want.
- The other day, he woke up and started his normal morning routine of saying, "mommy, daddy". I was very tired and really struggling to get up so I didn't come soon enough and he decided to change his tactic and started calling, "Amy, Kevin"...I'm not kidding!
- He tries to sing Jesus loves me....and it ends up...Jesus, me, this know, for, bible, so...
- He also loves this little light of mine.
- After wanting us to pray multiple times during a meal, I told him it was his turn...and he repeated after me...Jesus, thank you, food, amen...yep...there were some tears.
- He crawls up beside me on the couch, grabs me around the necks, says "ahh" and gives me a hug and then a sloppy kiss...priceless.
- The other day after I finished giving him a bath, he ran away from me and went to the kitchen to say hello to daddy. Then he proceeded to give daddy a huge grin as he peed on the fridge...
- He loves picking daisies right by our steps and giving them to mommy...they even brought me some at the hospital.
- He has gotten the no, no, no down when he doesn't want something...I counter with yes, yes, yes...
Suffice it to say...He continues to steal my heart, test my patience, and get me teary eyed all in the matter of minutes...
