Patsy - Blog

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It has been a while since I last contacted my high school friends. I thought about them for a while before I went to bed last night. So many details came into my mind - our timetable, our seats in class, what we normally eat during recess and the like.

“How’s everyone doing”, I asked myself. Do I know? Do I even bother? Of course I do bother, but to what extend?

What’s Angelin doing in Penang? Will she be going to AIMST, or UCSI? Is she still upset about her part-time job at the pharmacy? What about Joyce? Is she happy in UTAR? Has she found good friends? How’s Xin Ling doing in Intec? Is she still feeling homesick? Is she coping well with her studies? Is Michelle doing fine is Australia? Does she like the food, the people and the environment? How’s Yi Lyn in KDU? Is she still eating as much as before? When will I see her again? What about Audelia? How is her relationship with her college friends? Is she still that blur?

I couldn’t answer any of the questions. I realized, all this while I didn’t even put in any effort to keep in touch with them. Why? Was I too caught up with school work? No, I don’t have that much of school work to begin with. Was I afraid that I might be bothering them with casual phone calls? Maybe. When will be the best time to talk to them? I don’t know, either.

All these eventually come down to one conclusion: We think about one another, but we never tell. So long as I know they will always be there when I need them, and I know I will always be there for them all the same, I guess nothing else matters.

Has anything happened to all the honest people in the world, really?

I've always loved talking and listening to others. Somehow, it's easier to know people that way - their personality, their principles, and their perspectives on life. It's intriguing; and it never ceases to surprise me.

In the midst of random thoughts, I realized the 09-10 transition has brought about many changes. Despite the unhappy memories garnered along the way, I felt contented. I've made new friends, and lost one. I've learned to look at things in so many different ways, and learned to think more of others. I've learned how to control my emotions; I've learned how to trust and be patient.

Listened to the whole of Tchaikovsky's ballet suite (thanks, YiPin!). 51 tracks in total! *pats self*

Yes, my blog is so much brighter now. Am very lazy to tweak the layouts. I still believe that the most beautiful things in life are intangible. Love, Tchaikovsky's ballet suites, and sleep. :)) Mom has been very annoyed with my sleeping habits lately. Breakfast, sleep, lunch, sleep, afternoon snack, sleep, dinner, tv, sleep. I somehow think that I'm much more disciplined back in Uniten.

I don't know why I chose to forgive someone despite knowing that I would go through the same thing that has happened before. I have a hunch that I'll get nothing but disappointment from it. Is it my fault then, that I chose to let go of everything, to give that person another chance to prove the things said?

When it comes to personal benefits, in this case, I'm referring to academics, I guess everyone is selfish.

Looking back at my recent posts (The ones in mandarin), I noticed how bad I am in forgetting. I hold on to good memories and happy moments for as long as I can; and I can remember better the things (and people) which (who) hurt my feelings.

为什么有些人根本不会体会到别人的感受？为什么我解释了那么多次，还是被误会？难道是我想要表达的东西对他来说是不重要，可以忽略吗？ 为什么他总是要把我当成一个小孩子，可以照着他的心情得这样玩弄我？我真的对他很失望。为什么我在乎的人要这样对我？我真的很累。

这是我第一次用中文 publish blog post. 很好玩。 Cindy 也在用中文写 blog post. 那是应为她说的那个人不会读中文。

I didn't expect to greet 2010 in such a reluctant way. Uni applications have had me on the brink of insanity. My sleeping pattern has gone haywire. I have an Economics test coming my way and I still can't absorb whatever I have studied. Guess my brain was too saturated with apps.