Tuesday, January 31, 2006
谁改变了我的世界没有方向 没有日夜我看着天 这一刻在想你是否会 对我一样思念你 曾说我们有一个梦等到那天 我们来实现我望着天 在心中默默念下一秒 你出现在眼前想念的心 装满的都是你我的钢琴 弹奏的都是你我的日记 写满的都是你的名才发现 又另一个黎明我的日记 写满的都是你的名才发现 又是一个黎明 这是我 对你爱的累积
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Monday, January 30, 2006
here wishing all a happy and prosperous chinese new year (:
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Thursday, January 26, 2006
i guessed the unpredictable has happened.. it happens without me noticing it.... i want to act ignorant but somehow i know i cant... there will be rainbow after the rain rite? only when there is some storms, we will grow stronger rite? yupp i really hope so...
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i am afraid, very afraid that the things i don't want to see and dont wish to know will happen right infront of me very soon... fear the unpredictable truth... what may seems alright may not be what is happening... learning to face it calmly...
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Monday, January 23, 2006
i am confused now... i cant differentiate what is real and what is not... i sink deeply into my dream that seems so real that i have forgotten what is reality... wake me up now, someone, before i plunged into a bottomless pit....
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
today went early to sch to run with the squasher haa.. feli, pq and sihui.. they are really good.. i was like half dead after the run..hmm muz build up stamina le!! then hav the sexuality talk in sch.. i think this is the 3rd time i guess.. saw the abortion video.. alot of mixed feelings.. abortion is definitely not the best choice.. we shd not end a life juz like that....
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
i keep listening, listening and listening... it's getting deeper, deeper and deeper... better, better and better... i cant stop thinking, thinking and thinking, humming, humming and humming... the songs are now ingrained, ingrained and ingrained in my mind... i am addicted to you... (((: omg!
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Monday, January 16, 2006
i think i am a happier soul recently :)) i am glad to be so and may all the happy moments go on...
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
yeah i have finally dropped econs after one year of struggle... i think it was a relief and released for me... no more torturous notes, essays, drq, casestudy!!! ((: i think it was a mistake that i hang on for so long.. but i am at least proud to say i tried before and there will be no regret for not continuing... i used to be stubborn and hung on to certain stuff and in the end i faced terrible consequences which i regretted until now.. so now i learn to let go... i hope this will be a good choice... even though when i attended miss quek's lesson once only, i can see that she is quite a good econs teacher.. but i had make up my mind.. so yupp... i let her signed the form...
a shooting star flew past at
Monday, January 09, 2006
<<第一个清晨>>
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Sunday, January 08, 2006
i know it hurts, i can feel it.. but i cant say it.. i dont like this feeling... it makes me feel really down and bad.. dont ask me why.. i dont want anyone to talk abt it so i wont say a single thing abt it too... can we juz be a little nicer? can i be a little nicer? the mouth is really a lethal weapon to hurt someone...
a shooting star flew past at
Saturday, January 07, 2006
orientation has finally come to an end.. *NOVITAS* ~ what a new beginning! (:
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
this is the really nice song that i want to recommend to all :)
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
ok i think the medicine really do help.. feel much better now.. so now i shall reflect on year 2005 and blog abt my new year resolution for 2006.
a shooting star flew past at
Haapy new year everyone!
a shooting star flew past at
我的日记写满的都是你的名才发现又是一个黎明
这是我对你爱的累积...
7:36 PM
so ytd was the 1st day of cny.. a typical new year... went ard collecting hong baos ((: send greetings etc... ate lotsa food! argh guess i will puke when i run my x-ctry. haha... early in the morning ( dont know why i wake up very early recently), wear my new clothes then headed to my ah ma hse.. ate vegetarian mee suan.. then some of my unckes and aunt came... greeted them.. then noon time headed to my mother side, to send our greetings... eat agn rot, played with my younger cousins, then headed to my mum's other relative hse... then after that i headed back to my ah ma hse.. more aunties and uncles came.. love my little nephew.. he's so cute!! ((: he wont cry when ppl carry him and he keeps smiling.. juz cant describe how cute he is (((: played mahjong with my cousins and sis and bro... somehow one of my elder cousin pw takes the inniative to talk to us this year... it's been some time that we didn really talk much.... actually i guess sometimes someone juz has to take the inniative to talk and it's not that they dont want to talk to you or anything... is juz donnoe how to start a conversation.. yupp so we hav fun bbqing the whole nite at the corridor, eating chicken wings, then later gather in circle sitting down at the corridor, drinking dessert.. talked.. yupp it is a nice feeling that the family is bonded ((: hope the relationship between my cousins and i will be as strong as my dad and his cousins...
later will be going to my da gu's hse.. it will becum a gambling den haha... then chu san will be going my biao gu hse to k songs! so pq i guess will invite u all to my hse on sat instead (: hope u dont mind haa..
yeah then sat is also ren ri! maybe the cousins can come over to ah ma hse in the evening to bao jiao zi together? and let's lao yusheng too!!
happy together (: cousins unite!
10:26 AM
i finally know why i love stars so much... stars symbolise 希望，永恒，守候... very meaningful... ever look up in the sky? is wonderful to star gaze... i love the moment before day break.. the cooling wind, the familiar path, the dark blue sky with stars twinkling... it juz make my day before going to school... walk and relax at the same time, sorting up some thots before i begin my day... is a nice feeling.... i love this every moment when i am alone... when it is night time, i will choose the same path home again... a completely different experience.. try it on your favourite path to sch or back home...
today went to help my mum carry those boxes of mandarin oranges.. finally can feel abit of the new year atmosphere... feel happy (: more shopping to be done tmr.. argh and my hse is still in one big mess..... tmr our class is having cny party.. so cool.. haha... may we enjoy ourselves!!
希望，永恒，守候...
10:56 PM
<<不要害怕>>
不要害怕不要害怕爱一个人其实并不复杂不要害怕不要害怕过去的眼泪用今天去擦午夜的两点半我去不进梦乡时间在逃亡悲伤还在原地方我将一床被单绞成混乱一片爱已经灭亡然而思念更坚强不要害怕不要害怕爱一个人其实并不复杂不要害怕不要害怕过去的眼泪用今天去擦我答应自己不要放弃我答应自己不要忘记闭上眼想一遍你转身的模样每一个角度都好像一种飞翔我因为看着你回忆你而悲伤是你在心里不断的想
时间在逃亡悲伤还在原地方...everything's going to be fine again...
3:21 PM
<<杀破狼>>
沉睡了千年的身体从腐枝枯叶里苏醒是夜莺凄凉的叹息解开咒语遗忘的剑被谁封印追随着箫声和马蹄找到你最光荣的牺牲是英雄的宿命挥剑的瞬间心却在哭泣生是为了证明爱存在的痕迹火燃烧后更伟大的生命杀是为了歌颂破灭前的壮丽夜是狼深邃眼睛孤独等待黎明看不见未来和过去分不清生死的差异不带走喜悦或遗憾离开这里破晓和月牙在交替我穿越过几个世纪只为你当花瓣在飘零这悲凉的风景长袖挥不去一生刀光剑影生是为了证明爱存在的痕迹火燃烧后更伟大的生命杀是为了歌颂破灭前的壮丽夜是狼深邃眼睛孤独等待黎明我是否已经注定这流离的宿命我残破的羽翼直到你是你让我找回自己生是为了证明爱存在的痕迹火燃烧后更伟大的生命杀是为了歌颂破灭前的壮丽夜是狼深邃眼睛孤独等待黎明
11:26 PM
so supposed to go ade hse.. luckily i made it b4 we set off to town.. haa my 1st time to her hse.. happy bdae yo u!! hope u like my "artistic" bdae card and the wallet me and gillian bought for u((: my legs are aching now... have been walking ard for the whole afternoon.. went orchard with jo and ade.. saw ade's mum.. haha ur mum looks friendly :P then meet my sis at amk central at 5 after tt.. it was raining.. and i was tired.. so sort of in bad temper.. arh sorry... in the end we bought nothing and headed back home... hav dinner with my relatives, played with michelle.. haa silly girl :P then watched tv till 11.. hmm the shows are quite nice :)
looking forward to chinese new year but i hope the time will juz stop for this very moment.. bcoz once cny is over, i think life will be terrible...
then ytd, wushu was ok.. then wenda tried to correct my gun.. i think he wants to vomit blood.. then he asked me if i want to win medal or juz for fun.. at the moment i donnoe wat to say and give a silly ans and said "sui bian"~ anything... then i think he sort of sian diao... arh!!!! after that thanks to calista.. we hav mac after wushu! then went for the movie nite.. felt quite bad to ps my og.. coz i thot they will stay for the movie but in the end they went j8 which i didnt go.. promise to go for the next!
i really hate phy pract.. hmmm juz cant get things rite....
then there is this someone who told me i looked like somebody whom a guy used to like.. then the someone was expecting some reaction from me i guess.. but i was like "orh, like tt lor"... wat for telling me this.. like i would want to do anything...
but overall, this week is really still considered enjoyable...
happy birthday to you adeline (:
11:41 PM
10:30 PM
then on sat, read some thot provoking article in iweekly.. is abt what is the difference between "gu1 du2" which i presume is alone and "ji4 mo4" which is lonely.. then it says that humans will only feel lonely and not alone which is true coz we are always surrounded by ppl and we are lonely becoz we have feelings with one another and we cant bear the emptiness we feel when we are not with them.. then it goes on... abt love etc and ended off with a verse in jacky cheung song,
<<我真的受伤了>>" 电话响起了你要说话了还以为你心里对我又想念了怎麽你声音变得冷淡了" perhaps this is the disappointment everyone will feel when we are too hopeful about somethings.. quite an interesting article.. do read it if you hav the iweekly.. is in the 2nd last page in that yanzi issue...
<<我真的受伤了>>
窗外阴天了音乐低声了我的心开始想你了灯光也暗了音乐低声了口中的棉花糖也融化了窗外阴天了人是无聊了我的心开始想你了电话响起了你要说话了还以为你心里对我又想念了怎麽你声音变得冷淡了是你变了是你变了灯光熄灭了音乐静止了滴下的眼泪已停不住了天下起雨了人是不快乐我的心真的受伤了
4:37 PM
actually i hav considered alot of factors before coming up with this conclusion.. 1st, i am not going to study anything related to econs in uni and my career in future will hav nothing much to do with econs so why waste the time and effort? 2nd, isit it better that i study hard for the 3 sub and get straight As for A's and get a decent grade for GP than i get average grades of Bs for 4 sub.. 3rd, studies is not everything, i can spend my time on other more meaningful activities.. 4th, i really hav no interest in econs anymore... and there are other more factors.....
hope this time there will be no regret and my life will be a more meaningful one from now onwards..
relief and released...
9:43 AM
光投进来把梦刷白舍不得你会醒过来不要现在昨夜走太快哦…说不上来隐隐藏在胸口一块吻你脸颊证明此刻真的存在是你让我相信爱对我慷慨 hey oh是爱我们是注定不是意外这是爱我们的爱还不确定却好实在把你贴在胸怀静静的代替表白才不愿放开这是爱给你的爱没名字却停不下来在忐忑里期待雀跃中想到未来是你我才明白这就是爱----但梦还在小心不让你醒过来也许现在就是永恒的未来第一个我们的清晨迷人和默契都是你的无限可能言语都显得太肤浅
是爱我们是注定不是意外... so sweet (:
<<大城小爱>>
乌黑的发围盘成一个圈缠绕所有对你的眷恋搁着半透明的脸嘴里说的语言完全没有欺骗屋顶灰色瓦片安静的画面灯火是你美丽那张脸终于找到所有流浪的终点你的微笑就输了疲倦千万不要说天长地久免的你觉的我不切实际想多么简单就多么简单是妈妈告诉我的哲理脑袋都是你心里都是你小小的爱在大城里好甜蜜念的都是你全部都是你小小的爱在大城里只为你倾心让我大声的对你说i'm thinking of you那回城的票根你留做纪念不必害怕面对离别剪掉一丝头发让我放在胸前走到那里都有你陪相随oh~~念的都是你全部都是你拉拉拉拉拉~~~~~拉拉拉拉拉那一种寸步不离的感觉我知道就叫做缘
小小的爱在大城里只为你倾心... (:
8:36 PM
it is hurting to hear words that hurt...
12:31 AM
i think this is indeed a memorable and enriching experience one could ever have.. and there is no need to go into the details... it cant be describe using words... there were sweat and agony but there was also lotsa fun and friendship forged... realised that being a ogl or leader is nv easy.. u are resposible for everyone's well being and at the same time u muz be the one taking the initiative to hype up the spirit of ur members at all times.. from the 1st day ogls being scolded for snowballing the time and causing confusion till the following 3 days of better comments.. it is definitely the effort of everyone in trying to make things right..
TRABAJOSO won the overall best elemental too!!
i want to thank all the ogls in TRABAJOSO for the helps and more, all the members of ACERO family for their cooperation and enthusiasm and willian and junhao for making the spirit of Acero high... you guys really rock my life ((:
and the most impt thing was we banished the reputation of AJC being a mugger school.. i think this was definitely the aim of the orientation and we make it! the response from the j1 was good and they think that the AJ is not that bad afterall..
i truthfully feel that the time spent is really worthwhile even though i may miss lots of lessons and hav to catch up with my hwk.
i love traba and acero!
traba traba (clap x5) (x4)
woo~~ TRABA!!
Row row ACERO, we will win the race!
merrily (x4)
ACERO all the way!! yeah! ((:
we will make it
1:00 PM
this is the link :) enjoy...
http://www.wangso.com/mp3/html/1467.htm
lee hom - kiss goodbye
Baby不要再哭泣 这一幕多么熟悉 紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离 每一次想开口但不如保持安静 给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美
幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉 挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量 付出的爱收不回 还欠你的我不能给 别把我心也带走 去跟随~
每一次和你分开 深深的被你打败 每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦 难以释怀 每一次和你分开 每一次kiss you Goodbye 爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白
幸福搭配悲伤 痛是在我心交叉 挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量 付出的爱收不回 但欠你的我不能给 我才明白爱最真实的滋味
但欠你的我不能给...
9:37 PM
i think 2005 has definitely make a very big difference in my life.. all the ups and downs.. 1stly was the posting result.. posted to aj.. didn expect much from a sch becoz i believe is how i want my life to be in aj and not how aj will make my life.. yupp so i am glad to meet wonderful frens be it in ex 20 or 20/05 now.. i think they hav really make my life in aj a memorable one.. i definitely love my class. although there may be some regrets that some left.. i think it is part of life that ppl come and go.. so it is better to take things easy.. then there are new ppl who come into the new 20 family and i am glad to say that u guys rock too!!
then went abt cca hopping.. then ended up in wushu and astro.. wushu ppl are nice i shd say.. they really a fun loving lots... as for astro, i guess more bonding is needed hardly noe anyone besides those from 20/05.
i think i didn spend much time with my family last year.. like wat my dad said, the hse is becoming to look like a hotel.. everyday u reach home juz bathe then do ur own thing then went to bed agn.. how true... hmmm.. there is a need to spend more time with them..
next, as for result wise.. i think i didn do well.. so i think i hav to study hard so as to not disappoint my parents and myself. dropping econs is definitely gonna be a yes.. juz want to do well in 3 sub and gp and that's enuff...
as for my sec 4 frens, ade, lq, jo and gillian, i think it is really great that our frenship didn juz end like that.. thou we didn meet up much but it is already comforting that we still feel comfortable with each other's company and know that you all are doing fine..
i think i hurt some ppl last year, hope you all will accept my sincere apology and stay happy. i dont mean to hurt anyone...
joined orientation to be an ogl.. hope that i am up to the mark and my og will be a fun loving lots of ppl. may the blur me dont mess up anything.. trabajoso and acero all the way :))
i think this will somehow conclude my 2005
as for 2006, this shall be my plans and wishes..
1. study hard and get good grades for As
2. spend more time with my family
3. spend less time on the com
4. excel in cca
5. be nice to everyone and cherish everyone
6. everyone will be happy and healthy
7. a new nice home
8. more independent and strong
9. slim down :P
10. may everyones' wishes all come true
oh haa maybe i will wish to see lee hom in real life too.
ok that shall be it. hope i can fufil most or all my plans and wishes. may 2006 will be another fruitful year with lotsa pleasant surprises... happy new year to all :)
7:52 PM
i am really sad that i bring the flu bug with me to the new year.. :(
my head is spinning and i feel really bad now..
hope i will recover by tmr :X
if i didn reply any of ya new year greetings.. sorry k.. coz i feel too sick to reply to any msg..
anyway still wish all of u a happy new year!
5:23 PM