Wednesday, June 30, 2010
today i used the biggest pole i can on 10 steps. 12 foot but is label-less. so dont know is 120 or 110. still need to finish at the top. jiayou peigin!
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Thursday, June 24, 2010
don't know why, perhaps just very very tired today, i just feel very 烦. perhaps is acculmulative.
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010
i got this familiar feeling again. Is like just at that instant. is that happy kinda feeling. (: you know nice and kind people are really influential. they really leave a very good impression. people are always attracted by good looks, but again is the inner beauty that really shines. of course together with look it will definitely be even better haha. at least the kindness i see is real, that is more important! keep up the good job!
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Saturday, June 19, 2010
Glad that today's bbq is a success (: NICE weather too (: was a bit worried the food will not be enough but it was just nice! hope everyone enjoyed as much as i did!
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Friday, June 18, 2010
believe it or not, i got BAND 8!! wo0hooo!! much much better than i expected! (: thanks for all the good things that happen this month!
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010
yeah i got my driving license! thanks all and the super super nice tester, mr seek!
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Thursday, June 10, 2010
Tmr will be the BIG DAY! MY DRIVING TEST!!! PLEASE WISH ME ALL THE BEST!! GIVE ME ALL THE LUCK I NEED TMR FOR THE CIRCUIT AND ROAD!!!!!!
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Wednesday, June 02, 2010
today was NYP open. i got the 1st title based on count back at 2.5m but i dont think i deserved it at all. I dont want the title, I want to clear decent height, one that i can be proud of myself even if there's no medal. I've got to make things right. I'm just disappointed but I'm not gonna let it affect me. But at that moment, i felt uneasy but i couldn't let it show... i fake it well.. 哑巴吃黄连，有苦难言 ):
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i keep thinking, keep thinking. perhaps is just an illusion. stop being a perfectionist! nothing is perfect. I cant be perfect too!!! there is an obstacle right in between. should i confront it? should i leave it? i dont have the best solution now. i guess soon i will know.
8:32 PM
i thot or many will think my life shd be so wonderful now, with my study, my eng test, my driving all done with satisfactory results. somehow, it cant satisfy me. am i greedy or what? I want my life to be more fufilling than this. is getting boring. i really think i think too much. just enjoy the slackness i have now while trying to find something meaningful to do.
and i'm gonna chop my hair off i hope. perhaps yes chop it short for sure. long hair is getting boring.
you know i find it no point at all anymore when you cant even be honest and frank to me.
10:45 PM
9:02 PM
fine. finally i am so sure i made the right choice and heed the right advice. i am glad that i decided to take a step back, thanks to you. i totally totally understand that you deserve it.
10:14 PM
can i be a bit greedier! I want my 3 m too! will work hard for it! belief and hard work! the ingredients for success :D jiayou everyone!
9:22 PM
one more thing! my english proficiency test result! is this friday!! pray hard! give me a band 7!!!! only then i can settle my scotland accomodation flight and uni! PLEASE!
it is really testing my patience! especially now when i have nothing much to do. PLEASE BAND 7!
and polevault, shall cross my 3m soon! extend and row vertically!! jump straight! and things will go smoothly! jiayou peigin!
when it's hard to believe, I WILL BELIEVE REAL REAL HARD!
9:40 PM
today's practice was horrendous! TMR PLEASE BE PERFECT! PEIGIN PLEASE STAY COMPOSE, CALM, DRIVE CAREFULLY, RMB TO ADJUST MIRRORS, CHECK BLINDSPOTS, CHANGE BACK TO 1ST GEAR, RMB TO PLACE THE CAR PROPERLY DURING PARKING. RMB TO STEP ON CRUTCH TO STEER, RMB TO STOP AT STOP LINE!
I GONNA DO IT RIGHT! JIAYOU PEIGIN!!!
1:49 PM
these days, i was stressed i think, i think coz i am doing things i dont like or i feel that i dont have a control over things. the eng test is seriously ridiculous. I know i ought to study for it, yet i dont know what i am doing. Coz i dont really like it, but i just need to like it for now till next tues!
Driving is driving me crazy. It is one thing i have control yet i dont have control too at the same time. I want to do it right at one try. I think is a good skill to have, but i realise i dont like to drive at all. Will someone be kind to drive me ard in future? haha.
For now, i just have to hang in there. tell myself JIAYOU. I can do it! I will make everything right! Kind souls out there, please pray hard for me too!
Happy birthday to me in advance (: things will just get better!
10:33 PM