my blog speaks louder than me...: November 2013

Thursday, November 28, 2013

My backdated birthday celebration which happened 3 months back.

20th August 2013
It was a day off that day. Great not to be working on my special day, hur.. Have i mentioned how nice it is to laze at home, doing absolutely nothing at all? hehe

I had a birthday date in the evening though :)
It was a surprise as nothing was divulged beforehand. I just went with whatever that was planned by him.

Dinner reservation was made at Dozo @ Valley point.
i would call it somewhat a modernised fine-dining restaurant.
Honestly, i've never stepped into such an atas place for a meal before.

Some yuzu(?)-tasting drink to whet your appetite. Refreshing though :)

We just kept talking when we got seated down. I was still wondering why there isn't a need to start ordering already.
Turned out that the menu only got a 7-course set dinner, and you choose your appetizer, main, dessert etc. from a list.

The waiter came to our table after we appeared that we wanted to start our dinner. He was so eloquent in elaborating each dish in the menu, before making his recommendation for both of us. I was actually quite impressed with their superb service.

Our appetizer. The waiter specifically asked us to eat in this order, from the left to the right.

It's the first time i'm actually eating foie gras (that piece on the extreme right, haha...)
OMG. IT WAS SO GOOD.
what have i been missing out all these years of my life man?

Yes, it's the first time i'm having some fine dining experience. haha..
I couldn't stop myself from exclaiming at every little thing zzz.
And Sam was amused just looking at how sua ku i am.

His sashimi platter.

My lobster salad.

Crab Bisque Cappuccino with a flavourful seafood taste.

Mushroom Soup with Truffle. i'm supposed to bite on the truffle on its own and afterwhich, drink the soup. Awwww.. and it was thick and creamy. slurp~

My first time eating escargot as well! I didn't know a snail can taste this good! The butter and the garlic.... woohoo~

Our mains..
My beef steak. Supposedly what Dozo is famous for. However, i think their appetizers / soup / sides are much better as compared to this main course.

Sam's Kurobuta Pork Cheek, which was tasty! Yeap, i stole a little from his plate :)

We both had the same dessert!
which was the warm lava cake with vanilla ice-cream ;)

A pot of fruit and rose tea... by then we were so full!

And then, he took out a Chanel paperbag from his briefcase. omg...
i seriously didn't believe my eyes, haha.

It was his birthday present for me. A pair of earrings with swarovski crystals.

The waiter came shortly, with a cake and a lit candle. Another surprise omg.. He placed it infront of me. It has my name on it!

The waiter added, "This wouldn't be made possible without a special some one. That someone sitting right across the table, infront of you."
Sam just smiled across the table and i never felt so touched in my life before. i seriously wanted to cry already! And when the birthday song was sung, my gaze never left him. i'm like in a trance state, lol.

The waiter got Sam to sit over and helped us to snap 2 photos

It's undoubtedly the best birthday in my life.
Thank you so, so much sweetheart.

Fate.

is it something you believe in?
And everytime when you hear people saying 我跟他很有缘.
There is no scientific reason behind that occurrence. But why do some of us meet a certain someone in more occasions than another person? and without fail?

with all venues and all timings available, what are the odds? that your paths cross on a particular day, at a specific place, and at that instance.

i've told someone, "we will walk towards a direction. If we really 有缘, we will meet. If we don't, we will go on our separate ways home."

And we always meet. without fail. And it always leaves me feeling very, very touched.

:)

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

It has been 48 hours since my factional laser. And 48 hours is the time i should look my worst post-treatment.

hmm...

I've been taking very good care of my skin. Avoiding sunlight at all cost, and drinking lots and lots of fluids. That shouldn't be much of a problem for me since i already have the habit of drinking ALOT of plain water.

I also try to sleep more.

I didn't scratch my skin, though sometimes it feels alil itchy at the forehead. Face still looks puffy. It doesn't feel swollen or painful but it looks like it is. Either that, or i've put on more weight. :(

I'm starting to turn toasty in colour. Tiny dot-like scabs are forming on my skin, making it look blotchy.

Not exactly a pretty sight :(

I think i look like Lan Xin Mei now! (the very tanned version D:)

My post-treatment regime..

Fruit acid after washing my face, followed by lots of sunblock and then a thick layer of Hada labo to drench my skin with moisture.

pitted scars on my cheeks are still there.

Hopefully, the outer skin will peel off soon, i dont wan to stay this brown :(
It's the 3rd day and i'm bored at home already :(

i think i can start blogging more often now, haha

Monday, November 25, 2013

I'm finally clearing my 2 weeks of compliance leave :)

Happiness

And this block leave, i didn't plan to go overseas. So i made a decision to go for fractional laser treatment at the clinic.

This Fraxel (fractional laser) was the one i didn't go for the other time, as it would need almost a week of downtime. Meaning, i won't be able to step out of the house for a few days because the skin would be red and raw.

After 4 sessions of Medlite laser, the red scars were gone but the pitted scars are still there. The doctor said the effect of one Fraxel is akin to 5 medlite laser treatments.

When i called in to book for an appointment, i asked the nurse how i could leave the clinic after the laser cos she mentioned my face would be swollen and purple in colour. She said i could wear a face mask in order not to attract stares.

I was really apprehensive about it. Last night, i lay in bed reading through reviews of Fraxel and there were too many horror stories i almost wanted to chicken out.

However, i told myself.. i'm gonna risk it... and i lived yesterday like my last, wahaha... cos if i really became disfigured, at least i wouldn't regret. Hur hur...

This afternoon, i went for my appointment.

When i reached the clinic, the nurse helped me cleanse my face, and took "Before" photos of my face as usual. Then Dr Chan came and assessed my skin. He said i would need roughly 5 sessions of Fraxel to really smoothen out my pitted scars...

FIVE?!!!!

I can conclude my skin is sibei jialat now hahaha...

Lets see if i can survive my first one first..

i dont have so many leave to clear lor. One year can only clear one block leave can....

This whole post will be my face without make up zzzz

豁出去了la!

This photo is me with numbing cream applied onto my face. The numbing cream needs 45 minutes to an hour to take effect. The nurse told me that the numbness will wear off maybe around 1-2 hours, so if i'm having dinner after that, try to be careful not to scald my lips cos i may not be able to feel the heat of the food.... Oh..... haha

I was damn scared the whole time and i kept wanting to go toilet. zzz

After an hour of waiting, i was brought to another room for the fractional laser. I was frantically trying to find some assurance cos i was seriously freaking out. I asked the doctor if the procedure would take long. He said it depends... cos,
if i'm good, it would be over quite fast.
But if i'm screaming and all, it would be much longer.
GULP! zzzzzz
I know he meant it as a joke, but it really wasn't helping, haha..

Nurse was assuring though. She lay her hand on my shoulder :) She was the one who accompanied me for my first session of Medlite treatment too. Thankful for her.

The doctor asked me to close my eyes and he slowly moved the laser beam across the left side of my face, and then the right. After which, my forehead and then down to my nose and above my lip.
The numbing cream works fantastically cos when the laser was moved near to the side of my face (where no numbing cream was applied on), i could feel quite intense heat.
It wasn't as painful as Medlite, probably due to the numbing cream.
The first round wasn't as bad, except the part where the laser was moved across my skin above the lips. That hurts.

Then, came second round. I dont know if the doctor increased the intensity or my skin was already burned and raw.. but i started to feel pain. It was bearable though i would rate the pain factor 7 out of 10.
First round was 4/10.
I could feel tears in my eyes and i was wishing the procedure end as soon as possible. Ouch.

And before i knew it, it was over.
PHEW.

I could feel my face was swollen and the blood pumping throughout.
i couldnt open my eyes until the nurse helped wipe the tears(?) away, haha.. dunno what it was la, but something was stinging my eyes.
She said my tolerance level for pain is quite high. haha

She then gave me a mirror and i refused to hold it. i didn't dare to look at my face. She asked me not to be silly cos it wasn't as scary as i thought.
And she was right! I was quite surprised my skin wasn't red at all! Who told me i would look like barney with purple skin??!
In fact, my skin looked abit pale and VERY SWOLLEN. Like my pores were enlarged 3 times ZZZ
The nurse said its normal cos of the intense heat from the laser, thus pores all open.
I just looked damn puffy.
I took a photo but i look super swollen, so i dont dare post it up, haha...

i only dare post this. You can see my forehead swollen. But it wasnt red at all, just very puffy. And i was wearing a face mask.

A sweetheart came and fetched me home right from the clinic, and bought me porridge for dinner. Thank you. What would i do without you?

The doctor prescribed a fruit acid and a sunblock for me. He said i could continue using my AHA cleanser from TDF.
He also said i need to hydrate intensively or i might turn brown. o_o!
I've gotten a moisturiser from Hada Labo earlier. A friend recommended this, saying it's holy grail for him. I just need to apply a thick layer over my entire face and go to bed with it.

I'm expecting my skin to turn very red and raw the next few days and then eventually brown, and hopefully return back to my normal colour.

Skin feels very rough now. Like pig skin.

Fingers crossed.

Tuesday, November 05, 2013

I restocked my monthly contact lenses today, hehe..

There was this promotion for '4 boxes of Freshlook lenses retailing at 88 bucks'.
Yesterday when i was at Thomson Plaza, i wanted to buy from one of the optical shops...but alas! I've forgotten my myopia degree for both eyes and didn't want to risk buying the wrong ones.

I remembered i blogged about my myopia degree sometime back.. so i tried searching through the archives until i found one in 2012... Left eye 175 and right, 275.
However, i remembered it being higher than these lehh.. something like 300 something?... the exact, i can't recall.

After work today, i walked past the optical shop in NEX which i made my pair of spectacles, i saw that they too have the 4 boxes @ 88 promo, hehe.. Was so glad they could retrieve my records and tell me what's my exact degree.

:)

i was actually thinking whether i should try the grey ones. i am a fan of grey but the optician said the colour might be too light for me, making it obvious. If i wanted to look more natural, i can go for Amethyst.

Woo.. amethyst?

As you can see the Amethyst has some brown tones blended into it. hmm.. i can't wait to try them on tomorrow. Hopefully, it's nice. Reviews tomorrow, hehe ^^

i'm feeling sooooooo sleepy.. i wonder why.
Maybe it's the rainy weather. I need my bed. like now.

Sunday, November 03, 2013

It's a very lazy sunday.
Love rest days where i can sleep and sleep and sleep for hours.
It's me-time. Pure bliss :)

i'm staring at my laptop, i'm sitting here for hours. Why am i contemplating to blog? Why do i have second thoughts about sharing my life now?

I used to love blogging so much, ranting and updating my life events so frequently. Friends and strangers who tell me they enjoy reading it encourages me to blog up till this day.

Why am i feeling all emo.. maybe the song on my blog is too sad, haha

Perhaps it's the sick thought of baring myself to the public.
My relationships...
my failed relationships to be exact.
It makes me feel vulnerable.

Resetting is always hard.
Though it gives me new hope. It gives me new found joy. And i'm so not giving up.
Let me try one last time.

This time, i tell myself.. i will let nature takes its course.
What will be, will be.

of cos, i want and will put in my best effort to make it last.
My last, literally.

I'm opening up my heart to love someone new.
i never believed in fate.
But somehow, i do now.

Someone who has reappeared in my life.
i'm glad we met again, after 6 years.
Thank you for being such a sweetheart. For being so meticulous. Thank you for wanting to make us last.
Thank you for your love.

p.s. No.
no photos yet. soon :)