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Sunday, December 28, 2008

new?

new year's resolution (not that it would make any difference and that its a big rule for me)

resist all the temptation which would lead to the failure in my modules.
avoid slacking during and after school to prevent getting lost in studies.
study at will.
not to try but to do.
not to aim but to achieve.
not to believe but to prove.

sounds motivational to an extend but an important thing is to keep my goals in mind and be sure to set the time limit. im a person who might slack too much when there's no due.there are more cheem things behind the scene so yeah, this is definitely ISNT it.
TOGETHER WE WILL SUCCEED MY BEST AND MORE HEYHO, LETS GO!

OKAYY lets talk about what happened hours ago. soccer and i was 2++hrs late, went bugis with amir to send a roll of film for developing, ask the guy from camera hospital about huda's jammed slr, ate tong seng, met dzal and amen and........ watch peepshow! which is the highlight of the night! its was spectacular, enjoyable and funny. the showmanship, humour, musicianship and all! it was great! macbook, plus this wierd synthesiser, effect pedal and the vocal's hat that im REALLY REALLY interested in! they are good in term of technical too from what i can see.i wished TSTV were there so that the members would get influenced. im motivated to start jamming again to be honest. if only we were that good, solid, creative and technologically knowledgable. sadly the line up wont be the same next year cos two of the members are going overseas for further studies. just imagine the bassist, came on stage with a grease on his face and his coverall pants still on just because he came from work which is repairing the singapore flyer (we'll thats what the vox said -.-) and is continuing studies overseas. OMG cool sia! and yeah got home ended up playing with my niece who is about what? 1 or 2 year plus i forgot liao. and realise that it kindda hard to wait for the child to sleep cos she'll eventually walk around still laughing away. its nice to see someone smiling all the time and laughing so cutely. kindda sweet.

about chalet, its was great!!!!!! too long type over my weary brain. ask personally i guess. :)
okk perhaps some point form. bbq, hang out, partey, midnight horror radio show thingy, night walk (in which the next night, the radio show talked about a kid getting lost and found there), waterbomb(and we work like somekind of cheap labour while filling up), soccer, i stayed up all night the longest, ghost pranks which didnt work out perfectly, and the incredible part was that i won anep's record by bringing $0 to the chalet (anep brought $5). well i had to survive on only hotdogs for the second day -.- its my first time drinking honey drink. it was... NICE!

Friday, December 19, 2008

heavenly

okay...
PBL math
PPT SLIDE & TOPIC oc
ASSIGNMENT & QUIZ web p
CIP cd
CHOOSE FILM fa
REVISION everything!

and im only halfway through web p's assignment. the others: 0%progress. and next week i'll be having chalet monday to weds. minus band's time, lepak, skate, relax etc, im gonna say that i WILL be having a hard time next week and so on. okayy now im gonna admit that im plain lazy. agfknetsbhaeofjshdhiojdsohjdfonjdhjzgohjfdgjfDboj

Monday, December 15, 2008

enclosure of trust

by futuramafauzi

fuck. its seems that my doubt is getting clearer as days passed.im just afraid that i can no longer trust the people that i should be trusting. wtf everything's cocked up. when i was younger, i often got my things being borrowed without having me being notified. and when that something is broken or faulty, nobody admits. later on, came the monetary problem. my money got stolen no matter where it is kept. sumed up to more than $50. and now, my phone is missing. not that im the only one actually. my dad and sis lost thiers few weeks ago. i dont know whether it is done by someone or whether genies or devil can really steal handphones for someone. i've only heard of money stolen by supernaturals but not phones. and yes, it all happens in home sweet home.

i wish i can elaborate but its such a shame for me to say so. but anyway, this house is being treated like a void deck by someone. im not gonna say who. why void deck?? cause its where people would be victims of opportunities and where people only come by to rest for a while and move on somewhere. tstv's lyric of our latest song "Control" describes my thought for this person

Control
actions speaks louder than words
but words hurts more than action
and as we all are lost for words
stared long with no reaction
now look after yourself
dont change for the worst
yesterday was a good day
but i am still troubled
to see you moving astray
and to myself i mumbled
now look after youself
youre wild all the while
wild all the while
wild all the while

now, i feel like wanting to start life all over again. avoiding the mistakes and sins that i did and cause. strive on in the things that i am involved in. hope that things were never this way. and now im just tired. felt like sleeping all the way. so that i wont do anything wrong, never to get involved and hope nature takes it course, leaving eveything to god.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

360 boneless

sorry if you have been longing for a post here. been busy with my hobbies/activities yabbleblabblefabble... oh yes! despite the hols, i've got lots of work chasing up my arse. PBL, CIP, tutorials ect ect. and expect me to change to a new pair of specs sooner or later. its broken :/ i was just thinking of wearing it till end of poly. meanwhile, im rather excited to skate whenever i got the energy (: and hey check this out!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

what i'ld like to get my hands on!!

here are some of the gadgets/instruments that turned me on! oh yeahhh!!!!

French connection keyboard/ Ondes Martenot

Theremin

Ebow

Korg Kaossilator, Korg KP3

Glassharmonica

Cristal Baschet

Nitendo DS!!

KORG R3 Synthesizer / Vocoder

cheers

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

remember, smile (:

amir

this week pracs, next week written, next two weeks hols i think. am i right?? hmm.. ok... what moved to me blog tonight was amir's post: "I don't know about my performance individually, I wish people know the importance of giving honest opinions. Not some vague (or fake) shit I'm supposed to decipher.". oh yes. harsh or hard or whatever it is, i do agree with him. personally what i'ld think is that people often said great band and im love them ectect. well what i want to know is that what makes you love them? or are you just merely doing things for the sake of being friendly? i do feel the pressure of interpreting what people liked and what people dont. its part of my job to come up with something that the majority can accept and i'ld like to know what exactly. okk
im sorry that i might sound hard on you readers and i do know that its nobody's fault and nobody's to blame. its nice to have people supporting you (and yes we do feel that we owe you peeps alot. damm lot) and the fact that i still do get quite a number of honest comments. ok i'll figure things out someday.but we are having a break at the moment and next performance might be months away. depends ah.

PENNILESS SKATES CREW! for the fun of it anyway! we arent professionals yet by the way. in store for you are skateboards, skatescooters, bikes and inlines. heh heh all in one ah. back into the skates scene until i'll get tired again one day. who? currently syafiq azrin fauzi faris hakim fadzly farhan shafie hazlan me. we'ld love to try on other equipments thats why i didnt categorize ourselves. and why Penniless? its suit us/our lifestyle. (:

its funny that i cant seem to concentrate during lessons, revisions and test. its like i've lost my attention span down to 3 seconds only. i'll need to read the question again and again. its as if i had abused drugs and my brain became slower because of it. well.... god knows.

i'll end here with a sweet 'lullaby' by the Maccabess, Toothpaste Kisses. do listen. its kindda sweet but i feel that the original music video is directing your attention to the video more than the song. this is the live. listen well and good bye. until next time.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

painstakingly

futuramafauzi

oh the picture's just random. well i guess i should stop talking about the spinning thoughts going on in my head and music and say something else. well basically, im doing some side projects that could cause potential inconvinience. cant tell ya!! haha. school; im gonna be dead if i dont stress myself by tis weekend. still dont know a single thing from this sem!!! OMG! maybe probate myself at home and open up the books. think positive heh! nahh that'll just be lying to myself. LOL.

everything at home is in a mess due to renovating the kitchen and toilets. my room's tv is being used. and come inside my house with your shoes on! haha just like those non-asians do at their homes. and im having the excitement of making posters. design>print>frame>hang. tadah! but wait, i dont have the money. the singapore's trap of making you think about money all the time. pfft! i was told that there's this lady who's a workaholic. she's planning to work and save until she retires in which she wants to enjoy spending family time. but! before she even managed to retired, she got into an accident and died. what? no family time being spent. i just love christopher gill's lessons! its boringless!

and doesnt mean that im not writing with strong emotions doesnt mean that im not thinking on high RAM right now. too much thing is happening and i didnt seemed to exist last week because of the flu which kept me ignorant of what's happening in school. today, ive just listed out everything i think. school things that is at the very back of my head. and its damn important.

alright thats all! update ya soon

Sunday, November 16, 2008

a fall from grace

by futuramafauzi

people come and people go. thats what we are. temporary existence in one's life. making me wonder if its even worth speaking to strangers. obtain its advantages and disadvantages for a short period of time that we might not even remember. i looked at myself in the mirror one evening. i see a young man. no longer considered a child. ive grown, changed and learned alot. negative, positive and those in between. now i wonder what is about to happen in the future. where will i lead myself. things used to be simple back then. sometimes i thought to myself that i shouldnt have started all this. being involved, meeting strangers, trying out something new. yes it is good that ive got experiences. but it just tires me out. and i wonder if its worth it. it not that im growing hatred overtime but i kept thinking. hopes that would only let us down. efforts that is unseemly fruitful. activities that kept us busy that we werent aware of other important people and stuffs.

TSTV odiocrib 15nov

cock ups first while i can still remember. somebody broke the keyboard's adapter. its our keyboardist's debut and he cant play due to the adapter. high-hat making a nuisance. gadget making rusty sounds. songs less attractive and incomplete due to the lack of keyboard. we've practiced perfectly yet our songs ended up imperfect. damned aircon is useless. only our mates are watching, no one else. and they said they had a monitor in which they dont even take out for use.

a good side was lesson learned on the negative side of gigs. people were happy enough with the songs. and meet new people blah blah. i dont really feel the night being spent. i dont care if i would change how you think but really honestly i dont think 5 bucks spent on this kindda gig is worth it. in an environment like that, i think even animals deserves a better place. 5 bucks to you may mean nothing. to others, it may mean alot. not everyone is well off. and theres no outsiders. we're spreading the music to the same people all the time. theres no exposure. and its like calling in people to watch us do a normal jamming session. i think we should be moving on with other things. or perhaps take a break or something. and from lesson learned, for upcoming gigs, im gonna look at the place, organiser and invitations closely. sorry but you'll understand more when youre in this kindda thing.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

i'm strongly inspired by "Control"

JOHN COOPER CLARKE EVIDENTLYCHICKEN TOWN

the bloody cops are bloody keen
to bloody keep it bloody clean
the bloody chief's a bloody swine
who bloody draws a bloody line
at bloody fun and bloody games
the bloody kids he bloody blames
are nowehere to be bloody found
anywhere in chicken town

the bloody scene is bloody sad
the bloody news is bloody bad
the bloody weed is bloody turf
the bloody speed is bloody surf
the bloody folks are bloody daft
don't make me bloody laugh
it bloody hurts to look around
everywhere in chicken town

the bloody train is bloody late
you bloody wait you bloody wait
you're bloody lost and bloody found
stuck in fucking chicken town

the bloody view is bloody vile
for bloody miles and bloody miles
the bloody babies bloody cry
the bloody flowers bloody die
the bloody food is bloody muck
the bloody drains are bloody fucked
the colour scheme is bloody brown
everywhere in chicken town

the bloody pubs are bloody dull
the bloody clubs are bloody full
of bloody girls and bloody guys
with bloody murder in their eyes
a bloody bloke is bloody stabbed
waiting for a bloody cab
you bloody stay at bloody home
the bloody neighbors bloody moan
keep the bloody racket down
this is bloody chicken town

the bloody pies are bloody old
the bloody chips are bloody cold
the bloody beer is bloody flat
the bloody flats have bloody rats
the bloody clocks are bloody wrong
the bloody days are bloody long
it bloody gets you bloody down
evidently chicken town

the bloody train is bloody late
you bloody wait you bloody wait
you're bloody lost and bloody found
stuck in fucking chicken town

final yet?

atlast! JRFC's blog is up and running. except for some infos that are yet to be filled.
JACK ROVERS FC
im not sure if the logo is finalised yet but it looks fine to me already. do check us out yeh ^^v
and,

Upcoming Shows ( view all )
15 Nov 2008 18:00 Odiocrib
23 Nov 2008 13:15 Tampenis Mall, Open Plaza
TSTVmyspace

i guess that's all what my life is about for now. music and design. not skate, im kindda lazy for that at the moment. well not just skate, perhaps on photography too. what a slack ey. and i really need to focus on studies. wth. maybe one day i'll push aside everything. nothing interesting lately so thanks for visiting!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

its no longer thoughts of enjoyment. i gave my attention to so much more but yet little to the vital part of my life. try to do what i should do and not to want all the time. im confusing myself in distiguishing on whether a move would be right for that point of time. im troubled by numerous thoughts, thoughts that took a long time, but happens in split second, which might eventually cast several more. actions do speak louder than words, but words hurts more than action. a contradictive urge but i do not want fights or regrets. im constantly picturing mysef being in paranoia but i know i dont want to be overly agressive. deep inside im looking around in indecisiveness, lost and failing. weakening, trying and hoping. im a pair of socks worn by a person, we're covered by a small cloud, that is bound to rain anytime. im worn out but i need to move on. settle events one after another. it will never stop occuring. change a person into someone better. but we still need to focus on ourselves. i wouldnt want to tell what i'ld do to myself. it just wouldnt be me.

Friday, October 31, 2008

no nothing

destop background
i did this during html lesson last week

ok heres the thing, an empty head, leaking ears, heavy brain, and this feeling of bursting into a sudden movement that damages. its been a tiresome week and i wonder why. majority of my classmates and even on my msn list says that they're tired. and im packed with stuffs, well atleast i didnt get bored.

fauzi, syafiq, fadzly, hazlan, farhan, hakim, azrin, sahlan. back into the skate scene! inline, skate scooter and skateboard. too bad we dont have any bikers in our clique.anybody got extra/un-used trucks for skateboards please do contact us ^^v

and and!!! i realised that i could just ignore people without even helping it. serious! you might be talking to me for a long period of time but i may not be listen to everything. i'll just listen to alittle "keypoints", make assumptions and there goes your message, registered to my mind, either temporary or long term.

im still channeled towards stuff un-related to my course. whateverrrr ah eh...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

post

photographer: nuqman

Two weeks of school. things learned: not much. i've been slacking too much. and im still rather effortless on pushing up my GPA. okay due to the overly long previous post, im gonna make this one short(er).

-3 upcoming gigs but the infos are yet to be confirmed. i'll notify soon once things are settled. im damn troubled about the band's thingys. just too much that im fustrated over nothing.
-jack rover logo and blog yet to be completed. dammit. im busy.
-assignments and tutorials, im still clueless about it.

i dont know, maybe its that im just tired or is it really too much things left unattended. sometimes i felt like smashing things up, break someone's skull/bones, simply beat anybody up or anything related to physical strength and injury/loss and then starts to fantasies about weed. its wierd that i wouldnt think about alchoholic drinks or pills. but i know i wouldnt do such things. trust me. if i dared or dont think about it throughly, i would have been a totally different person to you. like what almost everyone said, some things are better left unsaid be it something positive or negative.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

2.22am

yet another night of staying up late. i think this is gonna be a rather sentimental post. err okay whatever. i may be typing straight out and so, you can expect some typos ect. and yes it might be a long post.

first and foremost, thanks guy for commenting on the vid. heez.. i MIGHT be doing somemore if im free(with a different style of course). aaaiiitttee, im lazy to do some paragraphing so here we go.

after giving alittle thought about how i feel on the lifestyle of some of my cousin, with some relations and some difference, i realise that so far, i've been rather dull. i dont know. perhaps in terms of activities or lifestyle. i've got to admit that i do feel lazy myself most of the time and the fact that i dont want to occupy myself with activities too much. i've got alot of commitment already and perhaps adding on somemore.sometimes i feel like going back. but at the same time, i wanna move on. today's dzal and hakim's bdae. just realised that he's turning 19, a number, to me personally, that shows that the person is already a man. like wth? one more year and a nice 20. and 10 years later on he'ld prolly be married. fast isnt it? lets see, 10 years ago i was only 7, and had my first crush (yeah again WTFFF) and i still can remember the person's name and face very well only that i dont contact her anymore. im lazy to put in effort i guess. the journey's long, but when we look back, it seemed so..so... short.

looking back at the old days(kindergarden till primary 6),i dont have what every child at my age fancies at that time which i forgot what but i do remember stuffs like power rangers after my religious class, digimon, collecting stickers, PS1, pokemon cards, boybands like westlife, backstreet boys, the first nitendo big bulky handheld console which i remembered playing batman and tis other game only because thats the only two games i've got, overnight at my auntie's house, going out with my neighbour, and wearing unly underwear after i bathed while having breakfast before putting on school u(i did that only on morning session). to be honest, i've got only like what? arnd 5 friends since primary 1 to 3? the time where i will need to find a very good excuse to use the desktop. and kept watching high5 or noddy in toyland and my personal fav: catdog(i always watch this before school, eating lunch at home, most of the time i was eating sambal telor with soya sauce and rice yeahhhh) just because it on tv on that particular time. ya dont forget teletubbies!!

series of events.
i recalled being lost in malaysia once. and that was it! i dont dare to let my parents out of my sight since that incident. we were taking the escalator up in this shoping centre in malaysia when a i decided to look down (the latch or whatever its called is made of glass) and then assumed that my parents took the upriding escalator. went up. nothing. went back down. nothing. i was crying to myself halfway. i was too young, i dont even know where's the carpark (so that i could wait by the car or something) and also its malaysia! i cant survive at the age of ___ at that time. idk. maybe kindergarden or younger around there? decided to walk straight and luckily saw my mother. i was really2 relieved and yeah at the same time my mother was scolding me and pulling my ears ect ect. wow this was really2 long2 ago. its like a dream recalling it back.

another incident was during primary school. i forgot when was it. that year i was studying in the morning session. my neighbour and i decided to stay back in school to play together. we stayed until it was around 3 plus, just before the afternoon session's recess. and then.... my mom came to school with my neighbour's mom! and yes the usuals goes on at that time. scoldings, nagging, ect. mother's love. i understand. she's just worried. thanks mom. ily too! and oh ya, pioneer primary school has been upgraded. no more sweet memories because almost eventhing has been demolised and rebuilt. and also most teachers are prolly gone somewhere else and i dont quite remember who they are.

and and there's this "ngaji" or in english its something like quran recital class. and i was bullied there. i was very weak in arabic characters. even when i do "jawi"(malay in arabic characters), i'ld end up saying/writing some alien language. i know because it should be in basic malay! and my friend or would i say "friend" drew something on my book holder or stand whatever it's named, and i got sclding from my parents. well they took it away from me. not that i let them do it with open arms! its thrown away, and i dont meet any of those guys anymore today. and during religious class, i was being called "baby boy!" wtf! just because im timid, small and quiet! and theres also a "baby girl"! if you are the person, do contact me ey! i kept wondering who. dont blame me! i dont look at girls when i was young okay!

i only made more friends during primary 4 to 6, in which the majority are the jacks! but i was still timid quiet and a loner. started playing soccer at void decks only at primary 6!!! at that time, wrestling decks were the hot thing. and not forgeting tamiya!!! and beyblade? woow! and then to sec 1, i was under the influnce of my cussen and went on to graffiti designs. and sec 2, learned about punks those subcult things and got my first handphone if im not wrong. and sec 3 relaxed, parkour alittle, make numerous friends on that year including with those that were my enemies during previous years.

sec 4 started to be active, open ect2 you say it! and also build an indepth interest towards music. and songs would bring back memories one of them: The Killer's first album. and yah!!! i remembered wiping the gravvy of the food on Amen's shirts during sec __. again Amen, sorry ah bro! and dozing off right infront of Mr Singh(poa teacher) but still trying hard to stay awake, AND... THE BIGEST DEAL... my poa teacher was the HOD and i would have poa most of the time everyweek and guess what, i was the only boy in school with the longest hair for the longest period of time. and the best thing is that, i myself was the classchair/vicechairman!! well i've got lots of badges now. ranging from class rank, to ncc, to napfa. oh and ncc, hang out at ncc room almost all the time. the teacher incharge always looking for me because i was the admin head and also, I HAD NO MICROSOFT OFFICE. ahahaaha! i was the most stylish because i was my number4 (camo)shirt real small and tight. hah. and i never understood why splicing(ropework) at that time was so diffucult. HAHA.

i do miss the good old days, but then its what that turned me into what i am today. and i think i should be moulding today and prepare for tomorow. i hope you've know more about my past, even thought i dont know why you'll need to know it. and now here i am. well i guess i've given you enough to interprete about myself today.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

later

I felt the itch to make a clip,
I recorded a video from the back of a van during a raya outing,
Throw in some background sounds that i made sometime ago,
And the crap you read from my previous post,
Reading for yourself and realise that you are the vocalist instead,
I wanted to upload a hi(er)-def version but im lazy to wait.
^^

Monday, October 13, 2008

reopen

school's opening tomorow. oh well since its 3.25am now, sch's starting at 1pm for me later on. its funny and at the same time irritably wierd that when im free, i'ld be damn very free. and when im busy, terribly busy. i mean, i had never been in between. im having troubled thoughts right now so sorry if the way i act or would act in the future might be rather dissappointing. well im not gonna post anny of it here anyway. my lappy itself is avoiding school. during the holidays, it has NEVER gave any problem. not until recently. and upcoming side projects. okay its never meant for people to know. again, im not gonna give a single clue about it. for "safety reasons". learned that the singapore's government is playing a very big serious game. and it makes me feel sucky to live a life lead by those people. yeap politics, we're ignorant about it, since we're busy enjoying life. i wanna make an artwork in which includes a powerful statement, something literal and artsy. raya had been fun overall. but i missed out on most relative's houses i think. the usual usuals. heh.

some crap i wrote and also parts of my thoughts

i laid down on the playgound floor
i gazed into the distance, a cloudless sky
my filthy body on the dirty floor
i stared long and longing for somemore
as my body began to spin the sky began to leak
in such motion that we cant wait to see
the cresent ends, they start to get a curl
it grows like a massive flowery world
my empty head it is it feels
thought through to move my weakened limbs
im closing my eyes to figure if it's real
hallucinating im not, only fantatising
and now i feel my body floating

and every corner that i turn
awaits something that might be my fear
just like what future hold despite we're troubled
its much scary than what you would turn and denial
is something that you might be overtime
the thruth the lies you cant confide

and all the lies
the thoughts
the problems
the fantasies
the dreams
your unconciousness

left out in the world of thier own
indecision as always defeats
i struggled but still
i couldnt find what's the problem
im left alonei think thats what i wanted
and feel capturedby emotions and needs
what i see is what i learned
and surmise what i feel
i've done almost everything
that i had always wanted
im easily bore and tired
achievement is just a small feeling
i want somethingbut i dont feel the need
at the same time im blank
of what i should actually be doing

Thursday, October 9, 2008

raya jacks 2008

nuqman's
http://www.flickr.com/photos/namqun/

YOU KNOW THE JACKS! selamat hari raya!! (doesnt mean im getting any richer). and yeah click for biggger resolution ;p

Saturday, October 4, 2008

brb

dated:??

event:freshmen orientation party, SP
taken by: ??

raya month.and also last week to enjoy my hols. alright im off to do nothing at the moment! brb yaw!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

pressure

kodak bw400cn
smena

ok here's the plan. a notebook, a drawing book, some pen pencils erasers and a fresh creative mind. but first things things first, i'll have to clear my mind alittle. too much target to think about at moment. yes, the same things again. me band. -.- i feel like writing but at the moment, i just cant think of some other topic. i shall start here after the full-stop.

clean up recordings. finish up all current song. design a diy demo and cd label. get cds. get cardboards. design a tshirt diy. maybe make a gig. find buttons service. make them. lastly sell 'em merchandise. non-profit of course. because i think if i would charge extra for profit, people might just turn away. and yeah no need to burn extra demos. people would just spread it all. im not being a stereotype but hey thats a truth we gotta face. and all of this leads to one thing that will start the ball rolling, money. i agree very well to The Verve in Bittersweet Symphony - "Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life. Trying to make ends meet. You're a slave to money then you die".maybe after adding up, i may be using (hopefully less than) my total raya money (: but then again, im not expecting it.

talk about today, played guitar arnd 7am till 11plus, then watch some stupid ghost movie (yeah. why on earth would ghosts kill people for?? c'mon! get a life) an hour or so later, slept till 6 plus i think. its because that i slept for 1hour the night before, not that im a hardcore slacker. night, we got alittle bored and played pingpong while sitting on the table itself.

learned a classical song today. from rock, to pop, to surf, to jazz, and now classical. i wonder what other genre(s) i'll learn about in the future...

imagine me standing face to face to you
theres no one else around us
i get close to you
my lips merely touching your ears
and i whisper
goodbye
i turn around and
skips off like a little girl on her way to school
and then dissappears just like fade outs in dramas

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

yet another

ektachrome
smena symbol + coloursplash flash(blue)

sunday-a birthday party held for this sweet little child on the monday. err.. im her uncle i think. well, im not really sure of the relationship between us. atleast we're related. heee. ate and ate, her family's staying over at my house, which means im sleeping without the fan despite the warm weather. ok atleast its like training myself to sleep in uncomfortable situation. i dont mind much anyway.

ok nothing much actually. recording's up over at TSTV. kindda exhausted and also bored by repeating the same tracks over and over again. and the worst thing, i had to listen to it numerous times, spoting for errors and at the same time do the adjusting. well its worth it i guess.

lappy's repaired but for XP, i cant use explorer and live messenger. XP for school, Vista for recording. i think i took around 4 or 5 buses to and fro the acer center. i dont know which to worry more at that time, the transportation money or time.

raya coming near and im excited! ouhhhh yeahh! havent went for shoping yet. except for a pair of jeans because im running out of money. atleast ive tidy up my room alittle, which i dont think would last for more than two weeks.

and i've done a little sound clip with some software i found just to kill a slight boredom. not exacly the best you can get within one hour or so but i've done it. i have a problem uploading it now. maybe on my next post i think.

gotten back to skating at school last fri. its was merriment! met new people, had a game which lasted 45 minutes. lucky me that they started the game. or else i'ld be bored.

well...
currently listening to what katie did, an empty mug which is supposed to be filled with tea, an empty stomach, a sentimental mood, a subconcious mind enjoying the cool breeze, a clock that shows 3.44am and nothing else. until next time!

Monday, September 15, 2008

band bebeh

that square tv

well its only monday. i didnt keep up with the date and day. the mood for today is like saturday! haha. just because of the fact that some of us went for a little shopping today. erm... latest updates would be the uploaded songs on myspace. multitrack recording with a much better clarity compared to the relatively "cost free" live recording. made some buttons for ourselves and we dont know what to do if there were extras. maybe, just maybe, give it free with the purchase of our demo, or, sell it with free demo. (: well depends on the rest of the members. we dont quite know who would buy them. who are we anyway. haha.

lappy is having problems again.. i'll have to use my warranty and then go to school and get the school's image again.. which would take up hours. i was rather pissed off whilebacking up my data to another pc as i dont have an external harddisk or anything like that. 16/- gig worth of data. and it took the whole day. -_-" well hoped i get to settle this thing. acer sucks they say. oh well i've bought it and what? throw it away? not!

craze with the way "White Shoes And The Couples Company" composed thier songs. jazzy rifffs and pop rhythm. cool aye. i wanna learn the dance for that type of songs for fun someday. err... ok maybe

i dont know what else to talk about. hmm ok byebye

Sunday, September 7, 2008

all tied up

marikitalomo@7sept08

-by sabi

its already the end of the week. time really pass by so fast.i didnt realise that the next day was fri on the thursday. it felt like only the start of the week. this week was more of diy recording, vector art and ping pong. except for today which was helping out in painting the house alittle and going out with MKL. well ok first things first.

two days spent on sharing photoshop skill/techniques. farhan, haikool, fauzi, islam, me. getting down to the void deck as early as 8am on friday proved to be worth the time spent. yes i know its damm early. and so, we're treating it as school. we finished up our individual vectors and yeah i was not thinking straight again because of the usual sleepless nights and came down forgeting that i have not bathe yet(just because i didnt sleep from 5am to 8am and was still occupied) and also wore the cardigan inside out. whoohoo! i didnt smell anyway okay -.- well as usual, i did my personal favourite type of editing. its just that once youre used to doing a type of photoshop work, it makes you more engrossed in doing it. here.

diy recording on the rest of the weekdays. didnt manage to finish it because we're experiencing difficulties and spending too much time. planning to get a better program and recording device or somesort like that. slept late (prolly because im used to it) fixing the problems and errors. vocals sounded like those voice overs on tv and so i didnt add in. and keyboardist was busy the whole week and none of us remembered the keyboards for this one. atleast i've learned some "cheats" and methods to get the job done with alittle ease. well just a little. recorded at the void decks again because none of our homes are open for use. (the same place the other group did vector). total time spent on this thing: 9 hours/+ i think. haha. wth anyway. borrowed some equipments here and there. thanks guys for the things. and sorry if we may want to borrow it again. we just dont have the equipments yet.. its lo-fi, its incomplete, its sloppy, its fdagbdgbdga. so lower down your volume before playing the play button. (:

well... sunday. helped out in painting the house a little about 6am to 11am before i leave to join MKL for our "shoot each other outing". and i had to paint again tomorow to cover up my mistakes just now. MKL, there were fauzi amir madi sabi hafiz hakim. it wasnt suppose to be an all malay outing. whatever happened to the rest.. well as usual, we used film cameras so it'll take a while for the pictures to be ready. the picture above is by sabi. click the link to get to her. she uses a dslr. thats y. haha. well it was hot, dehydrating but we all survived until the end of the day. all left early and that makes fauzi amir and i to break our fast at the end of the day together. we rested at the nearby mosque before moving on to bugis to eat.huda and sheila should have joined but ended up they were having their own businesses. we should be with the jacks eating together but then they canceled the plan on the day itself. oh well..some other day i guess.

to DICT/1A/04! really really sorry that i cant join you all for the class outing. it has been a very busy week and i have yet to get my rest. hope i can make up for it someday! really2 hope to see you guys soon. and do the usuals, crap and shoot. (: keep me updated ya!

lower your volume before listening. and yeah without vocals. if youre not the instrumental type, sorry!

Monday, September 1, 2008

touch

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smena

I felt the urge to blog but then, my lazyness always overcome my activities. haahaha.
first and foremost, sorry guys if youre bored. haha. faiz's tag opened my squinted eyes a little. ok where do i start...

well... i've been into several sports lately. basketball at school, and table tennis/pingpong at void decks. hahaha. im new at it and still dont recognise the rules completely. gimme time.

i've "revived" my flickr account because... i find it troublesome to wait for people to come online and pass their pic one by one. if they want a larger resolution, ask me yeah (: flickr

baybeats was ok. realised that i cant really stand looking at people who really dress up to impress. make me feel like going shoping and altering. haha. oh well... when the money comes in i guess.

thinking of getting myself a new image when the new term starts. but then, the image i might potray may not match with the activities and influences that i've got at the moment. i'll think about that. dont expect anything yet ok.

new things learned today? well... when people are enjoying themselves, they get overly self-centered and tends to forget the meaning of fairness. and those people are those who you would talk with openly that kindda stuffs. im not gonna say out exactly what happened to avoid any misunderstanding. there are already a couple of things that im not too satisfied about but for the sake of keeping peace, im gonna keep it to myself.

the plan to go for Camera Obscura.. i've decided not to go. students tix are over the quota and even the online booking dont work for student category. i think that its just too much money spent over a short period of time for someone who doesnt have his/her own income.

hello fasting month, (hopefully) goodbye bad habits

and also im sticking to this simple yet relatively pathetic myspace profile of mine. hoho! myspace

Can you feel the heat,
Can you feel the pressure building,
Can you see my eyes,
Can you feel me stare,
I see you look away,
Pretending you're uncomfortable,
Lets be realistic,
We're all human,
We've all got our human instincts,
Don't pretend like you're not willing,
To practice,
What the catholics are calling sin,
And the kids call getting lucky,
Its your lucky day,
'Cause thats exactly what you're getting

Innocent flirtation never hurt nobody,
Attractions purely physical,
Lets share some body heat

Come and dance beside me,
Come and put the moves in my direction,
Don't be shy,
Come on and touch me,
Let me feel your hips against my back,
Come and kiss your lips upon me,
I know you want me,
Touch me,
Touch me

You've started giving me those sex eyes,
And its all getting a bit explicit,
Lets play like we're exhibitionists,
And explore each other,
I feel another,
Suggestive little touch,
Yet you're claiming innocence,
By the way you're dancing with resistance,
It only makes me want you more

Innocent flirtation never hurt nobody,
Attractions purely physical,
Lets share some body heat

Come and dance beside me,
Come and put the moves in my direction,
Don't be shy,
Come on and touch me,
Let me feel your hips against my back,
Come and kiss your lips upon me,
I know you want me,
Touch me,
Touch me

Let the humidity rise,
Let our bodies engage,
Take hold of me,
Can't you see I'm craving some affection,
Come and give me what i need,
Its all in your touch

Innocent flirtation never hurt nobody,
Attractions purely physical,
Lets share some body heat

Come and dance beside me,
Come and put the moves in my direction,
Don't be shy,
Come on and touch me,
Let me feel your hips against my back,
Come and kiss your lips upon me,
I know you want me,
Touch me,
Touch me

Come and dance beside me,
Come and put the moves in my direction,
Don't be shy,
Come on and touch me,
Let me feel your hips against my back,
Come and kiss your lips upon me,
I know you want me,
Touch me,
Touch me

Monday, August 25, 2008

sleep lah!

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kodak bw400cn

thoughts came in and out in times of unexpected. so does my sleepyness and weariness. *sighs* ...... no mood for this and that. at the same time, bored and clueless. exams finishing soon. last paper later on. its 4 36am now. i should be sleeping but i cant. then the thought of the fact that some people cant sleep because they've got this thingy (which i forgot and dont bother to check it out now). tried to be imaginative while laying on my bed, but to no avail. i cant even write properly. and yes, opening up my notes proved to be a waste of time since i'ld just close it back without even reading because i would just wonder off at that very moment.

special thanks to the study group, allan andy joey hongfa jianhui shujia leeling rouzhen and also those that i didnt mention because i cant think properly right now. really stressed up by the papers. and yeahh sorry if the spelling is wrong. i dont memorise other's exact name sometimes. the study group is really benificial. without you guys, i'ld be rotting infront of my notes(inclusive the notes itself).

after today's paper(friday; math), soccer meeting and then to baybeats. going for the sake of going. since everyone else is there. after that, im gonna try to stay at home and force myself to cover up the sleep time. -.-

fasting month is coming up. not so sure of what should i aim by the end of it. too many things at one time. to entertain my needs or my wants. maybe im not disciplined enough. alright, my arm muscles are rather weak right now so im gonna stop here. about "how's the paper" question, im gonna give a "no comments" answer. we cant predict too much. from the experience i gained during sec sch, sometimes, when we think the paper is easy, we ended up getting lower marks. and vice versa.

and oh ya, the picture above, imagine if those bikes were humans. wouldnt it be sweet.. clinging on to each other, staying in place. all settled... ok thats for out of random. its already 5 am and ive finished editing and correcting. mom just came in and ive just remembered that my siblings wakes up about 5 30 for school. wondered how should i get to sleep if the lights would be switched on plus all the noise. ok byebye.

~good morning!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

the boy with the sleepless night comeback

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KODAK400CN

First and foremost, i'ld like to opologise for the temporary closedown of my blog if it had caused any inconvinience to anyone eventhough i have the feeling that not much people would mind due the fact that i dont always post stuffs over here and that it is (personally) getting boring and so im trying to put in effort to change things the way they are now. Something just happened. Oh well.

Well.. Its already 5a.m. and still i cant get to sleep. Having to wake up early in the morning, played soccer for hours and still cant sleep. Funny, my head is begining to "float" a little. tsk.. Should have eaten more during dinner. The later the morning gets, the more hungry i am. (ok that sentence doesnt sound like proper english. wth anyway)

Not forgeting the fact that i've got to study for two subjects that im very very weak at. Anybody, please, IF YOURE HAVING A STUDY GROUP ON MATH AND JAVA PROGRAMMING, I WANNA BE PART OF IT! And also soccer later on at 8am. Jamming after soccer at about 4pm. Study time? Night or (the most undesireable answer,) the next day.

Almost got myself into writing lyrics but the motivation dissappears once i opened up my lappy. Realised that BIRDS are already making noise as early as 4 am and theres some wierd high pitch sound. whatever. I dont quite know if i DID sleep during 2am to 4am because i kept waking up at random intervals.

Its difficult, deciding on whether youre just day-dreaming while laying on the bed to an extent that it seemed as if youve lost conciousness or is it that you are really actually sleeping. yep prolly you dont get what i mean.

ok im doned with fantatizing my sleepless night. really bored with the net already. Try to get some sleep. god.. please allow me to sleep.. my post may be wierd simply because im in such a mood. im not gonna change any errors thanks.

~*now im currently interested in making jazz music :D