maybe someday.

spent the last few days trying to speed up my laptop. What drives to do venture into such things? well... its this situation whereby when you've got the Media Player playing, youre doing your own stuffs, and suddenly your player repeats the few seconds of the song a number of times until it went back to so-called "okay". any operating software will go into a standstill. and you take a look at the ram/cpu usage indicator (the blinking light usually beside your caps lock indicator or battery or power etc.) , its not blinking meaning the processor isn't that busy. wtf. i cant do any of my stuffs cos i'm frustrated at it. i feel like SMASHING THIS THING and SWERVE IT OUR OF THE WINDOW!

only success is the startup time. manage to speed it up just a little. but heck, i'm getting this degrading love for this lappy. cb bingetttttt siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Math tutorial

Somehow I felt that mathematics is like art, its tools are formulas. Its creativity is the playing around of numbers and formulas. No matter what, I still prefer art, not math. Now that the lecturer wants us to show our tutorials during class, I think its about time I buck up!

Islam

We can talk alot on what's right and what's wrong and we are also able to tell the reasons behind all those stuffs. But if we were to observe properly about ourselves, there alot of things that we didn't follow. It's like knowing something important but you don't keep to it.

World Conspiracy

We all know that the US basically controls everything. Maybe it's the Wall Street that is in control. I'm not too sure. But anyway, we tend to forget that these people controls media, they control everything that we know or need to know. Things that kept us distracted. Things that could also make us worst. And we ended up following blindly.

TSTV

I don't know why must I always blog about this. We are very busy with our own individual stuffs. We should be busy with the band as well but now, we are not too free to look into it. Amir's going to the gates of NS and we are planning something(s).

Jacks -.-

I spotted a guy who isn't really a team player, not just in soccer but in the other things he does. And another, who's got issues with the other guys. We are selfish even to ourselves but somehow in some areas, we are not. A few are egoistic/very sensitive, so I cant really bother being straight forward. Can you imagine, people are hiding secrets from you just because you are egoistic/too sensitive. You like it? -.- Well I guess we've got nobody else to blame but ourselves. All names withheld because, of the reasons above. But its all okay I guess.

Paddlehappy

We are not that really into money making but I sad to see the blog untouched with rotting contents. tsktskkkkkkkkkk

just that i need to feel comfy and get in the right mood and energy level all the time (:
im off i guess. prolly gonna get busy.

i did inward heelflip thinking that i did varial heelflip. wtf. but everything's not constant yet so dont feel too happy ah ehhhhhh lan. landed only once -.- the reason why i mistake those names is because, im more concerned about the technical issues than the names. hell yeahhhhhh

olewiteeeeeeee count me back in for skateboarding brahhhh!

ah just forget it. it pretty much of an effing bore. maybe im just influenced. but i'ld like to think of it as a small step to something big, something difficult. im refering to it's tests and projects..

please dont dampen my spirit.

the pic above was taken when im only 16. -.-

So...... This week, Fauzi landed his first ever kickflip(s) and big spin smoothly. We even sujud shukur immediately on the concrete ground by the road side! Turns out we were really facing the Kaabah only thing is that we were in our shorts. I almost got my big spin and double heelflip but to no avail. :( Two days had passed and im still limping. CRAMP DEY!

Next day, during my prac,
instructor:kay this road, whats the speed limit?
me : 50. *confident*
instructor: 50 your head la! This one 70.
me : oh 70 ah? sorry la i never see. heh.
instructor: woahh never see ahh
me : haha! *cb he can talk like that one meh? -.-*

Other than prac, i was busy with some webbie designs. guys, really really sorry if the design is not exactly what you wanted. I just know basics, nothing advance :s i will release info here when its all done jyeh!

Other than that, everyday is just the same old websites, kept opening and closing media player, dreamweaver illustrator and photoshop just because i feel like clicking it when i actually still need to use it. Catching growing up :D before school starts. and, TRY to get enough sleep and correct my body clock.

First attempt on trying to design skateboard. CHEY step pro skater designer deck sia! This one is too simple. I shall look for inspiration again ehhhhhh =D

im sooooo loving my new desktop. LOL. the only reason why it have tstv on it is because i dont know what else to type. i'ld love to change the taskbar and all but i think my lappy is laggy enough. heh..

irritated by html faults and error. one browser shows a nice layout. the other, total trash. get into whatever account, discover that there really are settings which solve your problems. thing is, you discovered it only after you've solved it. also, looking at it in dreamweaver show one thing. shown online its different.

on another note, today made me think again, about the stuffs we are doing. they are good at one point, but at the same time, it could kill us, literally. so im still gonna be myself. i never trusted anyone 100%. its just full with mind games isnt it?

maybe alot of my trust have gone away in despair? or i guess thats just my nature?

Like finally, I got a chance to click on the photoshop icon. Not to collage the pics above, but just to edit the lighting and all only. The collage is simply from Facebook, when you view the pictures in thumbnails. I just cropped things up. =D taking all those pics above makes me wanna save up for a dslr. But i gotta lots of other things to save on. hmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmm.

Sometimes you read something and you gave yourself a thought, "is that sentence about me?" and then think again "hmm nahh I just a piece of junk / he or she have a lot to refer to so I'll just forget it". Shan't elaborate further.

Sometimes you think about the past when the smell of the air or temperature, the lighting, the arrangements of items, certain actions, the word being said around you is the same as of during the past, mesmerised event. I'd love to write a book on my experiences in case my memories deteriorate but hmmmmm..

Sometimes when you're just lazy or tired, you tend to resort to favouritism and might even let go of noticing everyone, sometimes the people who needs you or you needing the person.

Sometimes people wanted relationships but they forget that their religion forbids almost everything that almost all unmarried couples are doing be it in the past or the present. I know its true for Muslims.

Sometimes we could go and look for answers but we chose to wait. Sometimes we look for answers and got the wrong ones because we were meant to wait.

Sometimes people fail to see that the ones with power are the ones they should not trust. They forget that they are controlled, not necessarily in the people's favour.

Sometimes the people around you are just doing things with you just for their own pleasure. Whether you've enjoyed your time being spent with them is an enjoyable one will be the last thing on their head(s).

Sometimes people think that only bands or band related people are the ones praising satan. They forget that anyone could be doing it. It could include your pop singers, your leader, your television network or even the ones teaching you Atheism or "religious studies"!

Sometimes everyone simply forgets that they should be funding poverty instead of preparation of wars.


I guess I've let out everything that have been in my mind both concious and unconsciously. Thought that came by once in a while. Thoughts that sets me thinking for a while.

1) Art Collective layout
2) Clothing line layout
3) Recordings
4) Figure out ways to find more cash for prac

Thats what i'ld be expecting on the last few weeks of hols? some work to kill off time. Well actually i dont need to worry about killing time. Im more concerned about catching Growing Up, a Channel 5 drama every weekdays at 3 rather than to do work. HAHA sorry guys just being honest about my habits here!

We'ld be expecting videos and pictures from Chaos Circus's invitations only event. Hope recording's fine. Thanks to team chaos for allowing us to perform because its been too long since we touched our guitars/keys as a band. HAH!

a sweet girl asked me to update about her. this is an update and i noted her here in this post. CONSIDERED DONE! haha (: Im not sure on what to blog about but my brain(s) and finger(s) felt like typing. hmm okay so...

Monday wake up morning veh sian not enough sleep. Go bbdc do evaluation then go home bored until brain dead like that. Sleep, wake up call by fafiq at 5 go play ss. Then sleep early like 930pm around there. damm early lor!

Tuesday went east coast de skate park. Wah go there like dont dare to do anything one. scareded for a while cos the vert sibei tall and steep. but atlast skated all around the place and i had fun. Go home difficult to sleep cos legs cramp like kena up lorry liao. Picture above showed how black we become after skating under the hot sun!

Weds go bbdc again, dunno go there until sian. Wait around 1hr plus for pbl until brain dead again. then got one guy sit beside me and started talking to me, this is how he approached me

guy: wei, apply pdl where ah?
me : (blur2) huh? what?? what ah?
guy: this is the place ah?
me : *mumbles* you what number? (look at his queue number and realised that he's applying pdl)
me : oh.. kau err....
guy: oh you malay ah?! wah i though chinese
me : heh...
guy: kau pn pdl eh? tu kertas ape tu? mane eh amek?
me : oh ni kat blakang tu bwh mesen dia (still mumbling)
guy: oh kk

pdl = provisional driving license. bbdc = bukit batok driving centre. and the story goes on.. its only 10 plus in the morning and im talking as if i havent slept throughout the whole night. -.-

idk if this post is boring/lame or not but one thing's fo sho, IM NOT GONNA BLOG LIKE THIS EVER AGAIN! i blogged this way because i've been thinking about this way of blogging -.-