Thursday, April 30, 2009
The story of faith, the power of prayer
I've been wanting to write this entry for the longest time but i didn't have the chance to because I'm too busy and caught up with my final year project that finally ended yesterday! :)

Anyway, here's how the story goes...one fine day, i decided to shoot my tv commercial and i needed a break dancer. Initially i got my classmate to help me out but he told me that he knows how to break dance a bit only and that he could only be available on a Monday. Initially, I was fine with it but the more I think about it, I realise I do not have much time left and Monday was too late for me. I prayed to God and believed that he will provide because I truly believe that he has a great plan for me. Then, I started talking to Cheryl on msn. It was so random and I didn't know what exactly prompted me to ask her this question,"Do you happen to know of anyone who can break dance?" Apparently her reply was," Yes I know...but it's an indirect friend." And she manage to help me find a break dancer! (Thank you so much!)

The very next day I started msging the break dancer. Wow! He was actually very nice and was willing to help me out with my tv commercial!! At that instance, it just felt as though Jesus had shown himself to me in the form of this stranger. I never expected a stranger to help me out for free or ask anything back in return. On the day of the shoot, I've arranged to bring him to school. Unfortunately, it was a Sunday and the school's technicians weren't around to switch on the air con. The classroom was like a sauna room yet he still wore over his hoodie jacket and did all the break dancing moves for me. Although he said that he wasn't a professional break dancer but i do think he is very professional in his acting and dancing. With that, I secretly gave him a nickname called "Little Pro". On a side note, I was very lucky too because Little Pro has exactly the kind of look and built that I was looking for. With his specs on, he just looks average but the moment he took them off and dressed in that hoodie jacket outfit...I found out that he was actually damn good looking! Absolutely perfect for my tv commercial!! To further add on, I was thankful that Addi is able to lend me his video cam and he has also helped me out a great deal with the file conversion! Then, there's the voice over part too. Wow I never expected tm to do the recording perfectly in the tone of voice that I wanted! Everything just falls into place unknowingly. God has provided everything that I needed. I just can't thank him enough.

Yesterday being the day of assessment, I had to set up my work in an exhibition mode and do a presentation after that. Everything was set up so nicely until I experience some technical difficulties. My laptop just had to black out exactly at that time and day when I needed to display my work. Before I left the house and head for church, it was still working fine because I switched it on to retrieve Andrena's files. It's funny too because when I found out that the laptop wasn't working, I didn't really panic terribly or was even stressed out greatly by it. My mind just went like...O Lord, this can't be happening right??? I don't believe you've given me so much blessing just for this disaster to happen. Thankfully there was Travis who was willing to share his mac with me. (It's really funny because Travis somehow resembles Adam and it's always that particular kind of people who set up their work beside mine. I remembered last time when Adam set up his work beside mine, he shared his super long black cloth with me. I was thankful because when I whip out my black cloth, I realised it wasn't even long enough to cover the entire table.) The Lord just pours out his blessing over me. Anyway back to the story, so I loaded my stuff into Travis's laptop and I got a shock because the micro site files were not in there! Worst still, the night before I even deleted the files from my thumb drive, thinking I won't need them anymore. But luckily I was smart enough to upload the micro site to some free web host because I wanted to use it for testing. So I manage to retrieve it online and use it for display. Was pretty lucky after all.

Actually I'm thankful to God that the laptop black out. Through that incident, he broke my pride and taught me to be humble. I just had the mentality that I could go to him directly in prayer and I do not need anybody else to pray on my behalf. That's when I realise I was too proud of myself and I needed to rely on the prayer of others too. Thanks to the bunch of people who prayed for me. For the later part of the day when the presentation took place, my mind was just at peace. I said one hail mary before I walked into the room to present my work to a panel of 6 lecturers with confidence. Actually it can be quite intimidating but I didn't have such feeling at all because all I had in mind was...these lecturers are on my side too. They just need to know what exactly is my project about. I manage to cover everything that I had in mind with clarity. For that, I only need to answer 2 questions which wasn't tough at all. Deep within I just know I fared well for it.

At night, decided to drop by udders for ice cream with Joy. Finally for once, there's something that went into my mouth and it tasted so good. Earlier on in the day, lunch was terrible. I don't know why. Ordering my favourite longan freeze didn't help at all because it just tasted bad on that day. Dinner was just so-so. The ice cream was by far the best!! It makes me happy too! While we eat, we're still talking about the presentation. Joy was worried about it because she was very affected by some of the questions posed by the lecturers and she didn't know how she fared. I didn't know how to console her and all i did was to ask if she has done her best? She said yes and I told her...then let God do the rest. Thank God she's a christian who shares a common belief as I do and we have a common topic on God! Indeed, God did worked a miracle for her too! When I came home and check the school's portal, I found something positive in there for her.

Besides that, I'm thankful that God answered my prayer for Andrena too. She was sooo stressed up because she simply had too much to do and can't finish her work. This morning she even called and asked if she should go and see the lecturers because one of her digital files was messed up. Luckily the 2 lecturers that assessed her were our very own lecturers who were rather understanding.

The way God works is really amazing and one new discovery is that God actually answers all our prayers. He really does, for every single one of them! The only thing is...sometimes his answer is no or wait. O my Lord and my God, who is so full of love that in him, there's complete joy.

Lastly, thank you dear friends who have helped me in one way or another for my project. I'm so grateful and touched to have you people as my friends. May God shower his blessings upon you abundantly!

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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Glorious Resurrection
I'm so happy because my Lord God had risen from the dead. Thanks to him, we can now share this total union, reconnection with God our Father. The thought of the sacred mystery of the body and blood just blows me away! If we partake in him, we can have a share in him. Even though, how unworthy we are, to have crucified him with our sins, he still takes us back because he is so full of love!

Today simply feels like a day to marvel at his glory and my heart is like bursting out in Joy! I was also thinking what a great blessing our Lord has blessed Mary of Magdala! To be the first person to witness his resurrection! She earned it because of the great love she has for him. I just feel inspired by her! May the love for our Lord be increased in us so that our joy may be complete.

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Lord's gift
Was on our way to meet daisy and joy when I caught sight of this beautiful image of the clouds. Marion labeled it as God's glory but she seems to be more fascinated with her golden showers instead-the yellow flowers from the tree that kept raining down. O Lord God, how I marvel at your creation!!

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Shared the image with yy and she said it looks like ascension. Oh! how blessed am I to have seen all these wonderful things.

Anyway, today's reflection was interesting too! It mentions about names. Jesus' disciples called him Lord-a name that shows their reverence and affection. Unlike Judas who address our Lord as Rabbi-absolutely shows the lack of intimacy. Indeed a name really means a lot especially when we give special nicknames/names to people who are close to us. It's quite a coincidence too because lately I was just thinking about names and their meaning. I remember choosing my confirmation name as Jeanine because it means God is gracious. May i always be reminded of how merciful and compassionate our Lord is. On top of that, I found out that my name Jacqueline means noble in truth.(Thanks to the key chain given by Issac and Don)

Lastly, thank you all for the birthday wishes and gift. Special thanks to tm for the blog entry, Daisy-for organizing my birthday celebration today and the amplify people who came too. And Lord God too! For the beautiful gift of the sky! :)

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Monday, April 6, 2009
The God of wonder
My mini input and prayer session is finally over! I was so glad that Karen did the sharing on humility, faith and love in the earlier part of the day! Those information simply add on to my input and allowed me to have more knowledge to share with others too! I was so nervous before my session probably because the crowd is different. I think even my facil was puzzled about it-how come I'm so scared? It's not even a big crowd. Oh well, it's just me...but thankfully God was there to oversee everything! I think the holy spirit has guided every single word that I say because everything just came out so smoothly.

Anyway, just thought that I ought to write this somewhere so that I will not forget and know how to act when such situation arise. While Melvin was praying for me, he saw a vision of me running and I fell down, had cuts and bruises all over. Yet beside me was this river that kept flowing and he said that the message of the vision is to tell me that despite all the hurts and weariness, I should stop and drink from the water of life. In the midst of everything, stop and receive from God. Thank you Lord, for such comfort and encouragement!

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Thursday, April 2, 2009
Blessed be the name of the Lord
I'm feeling sleepy at the moment. Only manage to sleep for half an hour the day before. Was rushing my work for reprint because the printer shop printed my work with terrible faded colours. I didn't even realise how bad it was until i pinned them up on the wall and they look really terrible as compared to the rest of the others. So I came home trying to decide if I should reprint my work. Thanks to andrena and mm! Both of them suggested I should do so and i heeded their advice. (I remembered dedicating this entire project to glorify God and it wouldn't do him any justice if the work looks crappy!) On top of that, I'm thankful for Maht too because he shared with me a big secret that saved me big time! Of course, not to forget the main character among all these is God. It was him who blessed my day!

This morning, i planned to attend the morning mass before i head down to reprint my work but before leaving i decided to check my work again and sure enough, i find some flaws in them. In the end I had to miss mass and dropped by the adoration room to say Good morning to God instead! It was a pleasant morning and I asked for his blessing for the day and to have faith and trust in him that he will provide me with the best solutions. Sure enough he did! I was pleased with the new print out and manage to get my work pinned up on time. All looks good and I'm rather satisfied that God gets his glorification. 3 weeks to the final, I hope to make him even more proud by then!

Praise you Lord God for all the wonderful things you've done!

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