Lunch with the newbies and freelancer at tanjong pagar hawker center. Yummy teriyaki chicken and peanut ice kachang. Travelling out of the office area eating a good meal plus the right kind of company makes me happy.

Prayer. It's what God has called me to do. To use prayer to transform lives and to show compassion through praying.

It's been awhile since i attended my sub-ministry's meeting. Went on hiatus for a couple of months to catch up on sleep and social life. Finally I've decided to drag myself out from bed and made my way down to CSC. Along the way, Matt called and I'm glad he's doing well spiritually in a far away country. At some point, he even reminded me about my vocation. Maybe it was some kind of postcard that God was sending through a friend. I'm glad that I was at the meeting to know more about being an intercessor. I've learnt that love forms the basis of everything and without it everything becomes meaningless. I was surprised that you actually need to develope a heart to pray for others. I've always thought that as long as you say a generic prayer for the person in need, it's good enough. But if it's a prayer that stems from the heart and not from the mind, the prayer worth more.

Karen shared a story about a woman who has done all sorts of evil deeds that broke all ten commandments. Then one day she got struck by lightning and during that instance, she received a vision from God. Showing her all the terrible things she had done in the past and after which she fell into a pit of darkness. The woman felt scared and was worried that she was going to hell. But in that darkness she saw candles lighted up and these candles actually represents people who had prayed for her. Then, there was one particular one which shone so brightly that she couldn't even look at it and God asked her if she knew who was the one praying for her. She thought it was her mother but apparently it turned out to be some stranger who was poor man. It so happened that he was wrapping some stuff with newspaper and had chanced upon the article about her being stuck by lightning. His heart was so moved with compassionate that he prayed to God that he'll dedicate many amount of novena and prayers just so that God could grant her a second chance to live again.

Prayer indeed is a wonderful thing and it releases power. Maybe all along when I was complaining about my work and how terrible it was, I was sinking further into seeing the negative side of life. I've failed to see the goodness that God has planted in my life. The many amount of times when I run to him to save me out from situations, I took them all for granted. Maybe I've failed miserably to understand the mysteries of this life. Maybe it was God's way of refining me. That's why time and time again the situations I go through are the same no matter where I go. Maybe it was all along his plan and I just have to pick up my cross and walk through it. Maybe I should stop complaining that life sucks.

Oh and I found a particular joy in painting and drawing. Yesterday after the meeting, I decided to stay back to help out with the prayer project and the task was to paint the board blue. Painting just felt so therapeutic. Whereas drawing was fun. Sometimes drawing my own scams in the office makes me happier than to face the computer to do work. Maybe I should add in drawing and painting to my joy list.

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Sigh...it's another long day at work... The workload totally sucks to the max! It's just so damn yucky. Gd collegue, gd boss, but sucky jobs or lousy collegue, lousy boss but interesting job? Tough one...boring jobs has the potential to kill my passion. I don't think i'm enjoying what i'm doing. Wished i was still handling that beer or car account...it's so much fun doing those...at least i can hide in the library occassionally and look through those damn cool books that aspire me to be a better art director. Now... The library is not even a library. The collection of books sucks. Work sucks and there's no reason for u to go look at books. It's always neither here nor there...life is like that. No such thing as best of both world. I'm just living my life day by day. Totally hate this phase of life. Why are we working for $$? there's just no meaning in it. There's no freedom to go where u wanna go or what you wanna do. Work really sucks to the max!

Labels: work

The coolest thing has finally arrived and i'm loving every moment of it. Why is it so cool? Because i can blog on my boring bus/train ride home. Can surf the net..listen to my favourite music too. With those cool applications, i'm loving my iphone 4 big time. It's one of the best phone i ever had! Can't believe they even have ibooks and there's a copy on the life of st therese too. Technology really rocks big time. Everything else encapsulated in one small device. What a cool world!