8 months have passed and I just can't seem to move on from where I last left. Sometimes I would recall back the past and that nostalgic feeling would start to knock on my door again. I miss being in that ex-agency. Miss the accounts that I handled. Beer and car are my favourite! But I miss the people in there even more...especially my seniors. Love looking at the works they have done and feel that gush of inspiration rushing through. I wish they were there longer so that i could learn more from them. Guess they were the ones that I really look up to and no one else could match up to that yet. Then there are times when I miss whining or joking with my ex-traffic although towards the end she was hanging out too much with the meanies but still, the good old days was rather fun.

Not that the current company is bad or what but the past memories in that ex-agency were more vivid. I just can't forget that happy but horrible place. I seriously swear if my seniors are still there I would still stay on despite the unbearable working conditions! It really does felt a little like a home in there. Sometimes I even like that mini competition between my classmate and the boss wife. It feels damn great to beat them whenever the client chose my work over theirs instead. It's like I'm the junior that made my seniors proud. The seniors have really taught me well and I'm grateful for the encounter.

Reality hits and that was my past. I think the months and years would go by and there will still be times like these where I'll start to miss the people again. Recently just saw the chinese new year packaging of the beer account I was handling back then. Super rip off from my senior's design. I must say it was extremely badly done that I had a shock. How could they do that to my senior's design. Sigh!

Labels: people, thoughts

I guess I'm destined to be in my current company but sometimes I still wish I was in a bigger agency with the right title. It's just my little dream that I wish it could be fulfilled someday.

Then again, I think the sun rays are hitting the workplace already. I could almost feel the sunshine suddenly. I remembered enduring through the depressing 5 months and it often triggered that "I want to quit" thought at the back of my head. For the past 5 months I was complaining every single day. Lately it's beginning to be otherwise. I'm beginning to see some light in this situation. Though my mentor wasn't exceptionally as inspiring as my 3 other seniors in the past. But he's been very patience with me. He's been giving me opportunities to learn. Many times I've made alot of mistakes along the way...some of which are so bad that it could cost the company to lose loads of money. But the mentor covered that up for me. Although at times I would get lectured but after the lecture, the mentor would somehow sit down and explain things to me. Though I'm a junior but he always said that in front of everyone else he would never address me as a junior. Guess the mentor is not so bad after all. Just that sometimes I fail to see the goodness from it.

Oh and the mentor gave everyone of us an ipad except the newbies! Woo hoo with our names engraved on it too! *super shocked still! On top of that...the boss presented me with a letter too. That was even more unexpected because on it states that I'll be getting a pay raise. Suddenly I just felt that I didn't deserve the pay raise man. Though I've been complaining about my low-paying salary but because of the amount of mistakes I made, i guess i deserve the low salary. Now that there's a reasonable pay, guess I better work hard and do well in what I got to do.

Dear Lord, thank you for blessing me with such a mentor and I thank you even more for the trials I've been through so that now I could look back and smile because I've grown out of it already.

Labels: God, mentor, work

Made my way down to the media company and to my surprise, I saw one familiar face. It's one of the ex-colleague from the bigger agency. Although I've only worked with her once or twice but apparently we just knew we had seen each other somewhere before.

Oh man! Thank God I was alone. The last thing I ever wanted is to be questioned that I worked in a bigger agency before??

Like yeah anyway I like field trips! On top of that I was really hoping that the renovation could slow down because I really like my cozy corner and away from the scary people and the mentor. Somehow I like the sitting arrangement of someone working beside me. Then I could just randomly strike a conversation with that person.

Labels: work

For a moment I thought sunshine has entered into my workplace. I was pretty happy with where I am, comfortable and having fun with the people in there. But on a second thought, I guess I was wrong.

I love field trips...going to places and not staying inside the office. Somehow I ended up going to places on my own without the mentor. By right the mentor was suppose to be there to guide me along but I just went on my own to figure things out alone because the mentor wasn't free. Ever since the day I decided that it's no use depending on the mentor, I think that thought was absolutely right. It's much better this way too. Then I realised I was much happier these days because I was no longer in the sight of the mentor. The office was under renovation and I complained that my area was dusty and requested to sit inside the meeting room together with the freelancer and newbies. The temperature was just nice unlike the cold winter place outside. It was more like a cosy corner for me plus the funny bunch of people in there. That sunshine kinda ended a little yesterday. When I had to stay back to do my work and everyone from my mini clique left and I was left with the mentor's clique. It's quite a nightmare because I could sense myself experiencing a sort of fear and awkwardness being around them. Somehow when the new office renovation is done I would have to move back to the cold outdoor and be in the sight of the mentor again. By then, I'll end up being the quiet me again. Sigh!

Labels: work

When you start with one, you have to continue with another. I'm still hiding the fact that i used to work in a bigger agency from my current collegue. I'm not sure how long can this secret be kept. Sigh! It all started with the new recruit that was also previously from the bigger agency. Thank God i've never worked with her before. Else my secret would have been exposed and it's not nice to know that my current job is my back up plan. Speechless. Till then i'll figure a way to answer it. Anyway, it seems like that nostalgic feeling is coming back again. Somehow i can't just get over it. Tmr gotta follow the mentor to DI house but it reminded me of that super fun field trip i had back in the ex-agency. Along with it started the trail of how i love wednesday. Gosh miss the good old days! Miss my intern friend and my ex-traffic. :( It's times like this i started hoping that things was back to how it was! Dream dream dream...