
Dear Maddie,
Two years ago today, I hid behind a curtain begging God not to take my baby, I watched as so many Doctors and Nurses took such good care of you trying to find a way to keep you here on earth, trying to save you. My prayer began changing as the morning went on, I began asking God to please, if you would not be able to come home with us, to please bring you home to Heaven quickly, I did not want you to suffer. It would be my last way to parent your physical body to let you go quickly, and yes God answered my prayers he brought you home to Heaven quickly and you passed away so peacefully in my arms.
Today, 2 years later, my arms still ache to hold you, I glance at your picture at least 100 times a day. And in so many of my daily conversations I am able to say your name and talk about you. I wonder, what you would be like at 2, if you would be silly like Bridgette, Sweet like Samantha or a thinker like Teddy, or maybe you would be snuggly like Olivia or crazy like Alexis. Would you be short like Samantha or maybe a little taller like Bridgette??
So much has happened these past 2 years, I continue to share the story of your life with so many people. And me sharing you has allowed so many people to open up and to share thier Angel Baby stories, thier beautiful children that also left us too soon. I know I am being guided by God to share your story.
I know you were a gift from God, and he gave me the wonderful gift to enjoy you for 9 days before bringing you home to Heaven. I know September 14, 2008 was your day to have all the glory and be with our creator, and he gave me the gift of you and I will ALWAYS be thankful for being chosen to be your Mom. I sing praises to God every single day for the gift of all 6 of my children, and the fact that he sent Samantha, Bridgette and Teddy home so healthy after being born so small tells me that it was always his plan to bring you home to him, and to me the gift was given of 9 days, thank-you dear God.
Love always,
Mom