Today went over to Desiree's house for new year celebration.
Something unhappy happened. Oh well, wasn't really happy the whole day.
I felt that it's my fault again. It's seems like I'm always doing wrong things at the wrong time. Oh well....
Reached Desiree's house at around 7om, her mother is very friendly and nice.
Her family ordered buffet and we were asked to eat once we reached there!
Received an ang pow from her mum.
After eating, we went over to Desiree's room and started to play monopoly deal with two of desiree's friend, her cousin and diana and huimin.
Her cousin, jamie is very adorable. She looks like diana. They can become twinnie.
At first, she was a little afraid of Huimin, because we told her that huimin is a pervert. Haha! And i guessed she actually believe it.
After that played 'hide and seek' with Jamie, hahaha, but there's no place to really hide.
And they all started to play poker cards. Well , I don't know how to play.
I feel that I'm like living in a cave.
The outing with you was just like a week ago. And I don't know why, it seems to be like three months ago. I don't know why and I couldn't really remember anything that happens during that outing. I only remembered that it is the worst and most failure one that I have ever organised. I felt really bad to leave you behind at that time.
There's no point crying anymore, because nothing can be repeated.
Time can never be rewind.
People do changed.

Yesterday went to home visiting at grandma's house. Although it has been two years of new year celebration without but my dad's sibling still gather together at the same place every year. I was stoning the whole day yesterday because i don't know them at all , even though we got to meet one another every year. I guess it's because of the age gap problem ba. Most of them are already married with children, I have nothing to talk to them at all. Their children are all so young, I also got nothing to talk to them and I don't know how to play with children. Haha! My cousin told my brother that :"cya, in yjc". I can imagine what if my cousin teach my brother maths, and if his wife teach my brother economics then it would be very weird!
Collected quite a few angbaos, even though not supposed to bai nian .
So sian , today rotting at home..
I realized you have changed a lot. In the past, if you have any problems , you will tell me.
But now, you keep all your problems to yourself.
I find that it is very difficult to understand you.
Maybe you no longer feel comfortable to tell me your problems.
I really miss the old days when we still talk to each other.
Recently, I kept asking myself this question.
Do I really like you or do I just treat you as a good friend.
I really don't know. Maybe it's time for me to take a break from everything about you.
And time can let me know the answer...
But I just simply hope and wish that we could be friends again. But I think this is impossible and it is not going to happen anymore.

Hmmm , today went out with eptians. supposed to meet at one pm , end at diana and desiree late ;( And I was there with ch. We went to century cineplex to get the movie tickets first. Well, it was kinda weird. Because we don't have anything to talk about. Sigh, it became very awkward. In the end, we decided to watch the 4pm show. And he bought food at popeyes to eat. Then desiree came. But she and him didn't talk about anything also. And it is awkward silence again. Then diana and zx came. haha, then we proceed to food court to have our lunch. Well , I really felt very bad to have letting him to sit alone at one table. And we didn't talk to him at all during lunch. And Desiree didn't know I'm left handed! After lunch, we walked around the mall, into vcds shop, korean food shop. Then we went into the arcade. Finally, there's at least some interactions with him.Zi Xuan and Chor Hiang was like having a 'mini competition'. After arcade, we went over to the cinema to watch 'we not naughty'. The show is quite funny, but I ended up crying. Haha! Weirdo me. Went to the toilet during the showtime, and missed quite a lot of the movie. After movie, they went over to the arcade again. Lol!
Hmmm, then after that he went home and Zx, Desiree and Diana and me went to Pizza Hut for dinner. Ate basil crayfish pasta, hmmm it's not bad. But it's a little spicy for me. And I was like daydreaming, I actually said 'Swensen's fish & chips not bad, and not realising that we are at pizza hut'.
Well , quite happy that at least half of the people went for the outing. Well , but I actually felt very bad to him. We didn't really talk to him during the outing. And during lunch time, he ended up sitting alone at one table. And none of us actually talk to him. I really feel very sorry for not talking to him. I think he must be feeling very awkward just now. Hais, I was thinking what the hell I am doing. I hate to be left out and I know how it feels like to be left out, but why am I doing that to him? Somehow, I really feel like apologizing personally to him. People should enjoy when they go out and I really hate myself for letting people to feel uncomfortable when going out.
Somehow, I still unsure if I'm treating you as a friend or more than just being a friend. I'm really confused. I really do not know how to answer this question.Well, I realize you have became more mature and no longer like how you used to be in the past.And I guess, probably this would be the last time that we would meet up as I won't be organising anymore outing and I guess even if i were to organise an outing you won't be coming anymore.

我超喜歡你　是我放在我心裡好久的秘密
我不敢告訴你　甚至沒有勇氣說服我自己
我問一問上帝　要怎麼突破我們之間的距離
站在原地是友誼往前一步又怕嚇到你
我號稱黃金右腳橫衝直撞
天下無敵自由來去
怎麼踏進這個禁區馬上敗在你手裡

I find this picture very nice and simple.
It can simply describe what I'm feeling now.

Saw this picture in facebook yesterday, and I find it rather meaningful .




Well, I feel that best friend is just like another person who belongs to our family.
In fact, for some people, our best friend actually know us better than our family members. They know what you like, what you don't. They know what to do when you do not feel happy and stuffs like that. They are someone who is very important in our life.
Yesterday went to open house to help out. In the morning, kaien and I went to take away breakfast for them. The tea that we bought spill in the bus. It's not one cup, but six cups of tea. Lucky, there's only a few passengers in the bus, so no one was being poured with hot tea. I can imagine if this were to happen...
Actually TP's openhouse is not very crowded. I feel that there's more helpers than those students coming to the booths.
After the OH, went to eat dinner at Just Acia and then we went to Pasir Ris Beach to look at the stars. Well, we talked about a lot of our things and our future. Really loving yesterday night.Unfortunately, it starts to drizzle at nine plus. So we have to left there and make our way home. Thought about a lot of things ytd night.

It's the first friday of year 2012. Hmmm , this week wasn't that bad. With loads of things going on, TP open house and stuff.
Went out with Wan Jie and Joy on 2nd Jan before school starts.




Here are some of the photos taken in Japanese Garden.
Well , these few days I was busy going out and with school stuffs.
Shall tweet again when I'm more free. Currently, don't have much things to tweet about. Well, tomorrow going for open house.
The OH shirt is damn big...