Wahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. That's it! I still left with Social studies, DnT, Chinese and Science MCQ! All these paper are important, however i can relax abit! For the past 2 weeks was really stressful, having lots of negative thoughts.
I really really love this song, Mr. Bill. Hmm.. i'll update more after my O's! Cheers!
8:26 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Graduation; 4e2 of 2008
I'm gonna miss the whole lots of them! I still remember the times in sec 1, always thought of: "faster sec 4 leh, graduate can liao." Sec 2, " Man, just can't wait.." Sec 3, " Yay! i'm going to graduate next year and gonna be the senior of all!" Sec 4, ".. How i wish it don't come so fast, because i'm still not prepare for O's!" Of cause not just that reason, also really wish to be with them longer. During sec 3, 4e2 wasn't united, all have their own cliques. Right now? We're all for one, one for all. Coming to an end, everyone slowly become united, put away the grudges and move together. How touching can that scene be? People always says, " You must enjoy your secondary school life and i believe it's gonna be the most memorable one."Awwww.. i have to agree with this. Right now, i can tell people that already! People who created my secondary school life with sweet memories and touching scenes(not in order(: Eileen: It has been a long time that i wanna say, I LOVE YOU! Even though this 4 years we have ups and downs, we've never fail to be friends again. Righhhhhht? From pri to sec, will it be sec till poly? Whole lifetime?
Tiaoli: Hahaha still remember we have conflicts with each other in our lower sec, right now we've become baobeis. Still remember the shopping we had, during my birthday, all those thingy! I'm really gonna bring it along with me to my poly life:) Btw, i'm at your house! Hahahhaa all the rantings yesterday you gave.. heh.
Amanda: Yes yes yes! Thanks for your whole lotsa encouragement for my singing career life! You're always there to support me when i sing, willingly to listen to this radio! Hahahaha gonna miss you like one angel ascending to heaven-.-
Seokhui: Uh-huh! My english lesson partner:) Though you're always so cool, but really gonna miss your dao-ness!
Mingli: Bearbear! Hope you gonna see this:) Really thanks you for all the things that you always give in. We're always there to share the little little things(shhhhh), like you know you know? Hahahaha miss you!!
Yewfai: Though you're always shunning me, i'm okay! We've been classmates for more than 8 years! Sometimes you're weird, i know. But i'm still alright with it! Anyway, all the best to you bestest swimmer!
Paulin: Pau! Gonna miss you like hell alright? Miss you for carrying bag for me, miss you for allowing me to punch your muscles! So cool! Missed.
Zhiwei: Thought you're going to bring me home? Hahaha thanks for all the crazy-ness yeah.
Ernest: Man, speechless. Hmmmm.. You're funny:D
Muhammad: Muh! Been partner with you for 1 1/2 years already.
Benson: Thanks for your janeeeeeeeeeelle leh. Hahahha! All the best!
Sheena and people: Hey guys, you'll are the best! If not of you people, the class can't be as happening as it is! Cheers!
All the people that i didn't mention: Thanks you peepos! This class can't be 4e2 if without you'll! Last of all, Mr. Bala. If is not of his encouragement, i might have given up already. He'll always be my "Oh, so hot" teacher :DDDDDDDD
12:58 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Absolutely right.
Hooray! Tomorrow i'll be graduating from my secondary school and move on to my tertiary level! I'm super excited :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I've been longing to be in tertiary level. As in like you feel that you can do almost anything, everything(though i am doing). Righhhhhhhhht, have to admit that i can't get into clubs yet, can't watch M18 movie yet, but it's alright :) At least i feel that i'm more of a adult. 4 days time to science practical. 7 days time to my first paper. 1 months time to finish my last paper! :D looking forward*blink blink*
9:21 PM
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Uh-huh, thanks.
Cool down.
What a great week for me! I'm serious. Though that "cool down" sounded kinda uncool but yah, i'm still fine.
That's it! I've just had my MCQ science paper today. Well, i'm sure that 10-13 marks for my chemistry is in my pocket. *blink blink* Yesterday got some hint from my chemistry teacher. This morning wanted to wake up at 3.30am but failed to do it. Nevermind, just try to do as many as possible. Even till the very last minute i have to put away my bag, i'm still doing. Well, my hard work time pays off. Just within 1 hour, the questions that i've approached, most of it came out. Haaha God's grace:)
-Thanks for betraying me. If you're aware of the consequence after this move, by all means you did it beautifully and defeated me, like totally. The trust.
Last weekend, I've receive a magazine from my church, "Harvest time". A MUST READ MAGAZINE! Why? Firstly, the content is really meaningful. Secondly, i love the kinda words they uses. "Excruciatingly, exploitation, etc", learn it and apply it to my expository. Thirdly, i've learned new things though Pastor have already preached before, but more into details. I've came across one of the article, titled "Choosing your right partner". This heading really interest me and of cause, i've read it. So far there's 3 articles in a role already, looking forward for the next issue. Okay, i know i doesn't have to think about it now. "After all i'm still very young, spend 16 years on earth only." It's the foundation you see. I have to start to build my foundation first ain't? Mmhmm. One of the point that convicted me is difference in conviction. As in different religion. Somehow i felt that this section hits me real hard that whatever it is, don't ever choose someone that's not of your religion. I'm christian, definitely i'll prefer a christian bf. Why? I don't wish in the future, i've backslide because of him, quarrels after quarrels, arguements after arguements with him. This is not enjoying what God has bless you initially, a happy marriage. Also, i've just realise that God didn't choose a partner for us, He just guide us and direct us. Eventually, it is our choice. God wouldn't wants to force us. Hmmm still remember .proximately 1 year ago, i've written a post on having a christian bf. Right, i'm now convicted, have my stand and drawing a clear line. I'm happy!
11:28 PM
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Moral to learn.
Taken from Daphne's blog. In the kingdom of God, we saw something we really like and think that it's the best for us while in the mind of God, He has something better. So when God lead us away from the "not so good" gift to the great gift He has in mind to give us.We throw our temper, "dun friend" God, refuse to hear His word despite He told us the great promise which He had even wrote in the bible. And as an patient Father, God never just say," alright, since you dun appreciate it, no present for you then." He still know that when the time comes, we'll come into light. By then we'll truly appreciate and thankful to God that He dun give up on giving the best to us. Moral of the story: Sometimes we can lost the best for the things that we think it's the best. ----------- This is very true. I know this moral, but sometimes i'll totally forgotten bout this. Ain't God the greatest father we've ever had? No one like Him can grant any wish. No one like Him can be there for us 24/7. No one like Him can sacrifice His only son to make friends with us. But most importantly, no god's like Him can talk to you like His's just right besides you! Isn't God amazing? Right, i wanna bring this up. The previous post "My true love", was just a story from guitar4christ website. I'm impacted by this and post it right here. But.. I heard people telling me this: "Serious uh? Have sucha person/man meh?" - Yah, how i wish too. But too bad, after all mens are still human, no one can have such patience. "I thought you have a boyfriend in australia. But when i've finish reading it, chey! Is not-.-" - Hahahaha! This is so ridiculous! How i wish i have a ang-moh boyfriend. Somehow or other, no. A silly thought that i thought of was.. having a abc baby is cool! As in i just want a abc baby but not the daddy himself. Eventually, i'll still prefer yellow-skinned asians. Ang-mohs are just my eye candy^^ Weird. Pupils from Northview secondary school, sec 4E/5N, have to write our very own testimonial! It just sound hmm.. funny. When i tell my churchmates, schoolmates, ex-teacher, blah blah blah.. their reply will be: "Ain't the teachers suppose to write for you all?" Haha i hope so too. I'm really lazy to type out my testimonial though it determines where i'll be in the future. My vocabulary words are very limited, grammar is just average, sentence structure sometimes couldn't make it. Uh-huh.
4:03 PM
Monday, September 29, 2008
Seriously, i feel it too.
I really know how Waiteng felt. "How's your O's preparation?", "Well prepare anot?", "20 plus days left only leh..", etc etc. I seriously hate it when people say these to me, yes, really annoys me. How i wish sometimes i can just take cotton wools to stuck it right in my ear, maybe not enough. Perhaps have to get cushion to do it-.- Okay, i'm sidetracking now. Yes, i did ask people these question. When right now, people throwing it back to me.. I'M SUPER IRRITATED! Like.. i know what i'm doing, i know what i want. YES YES YES! I know the word that i love the most other than God, Jesus, Holy Spirit, the next coming word will be "procrastinate"."Maybe this, maybe that.", "Nono, do it tomorrow." Everyone has it flaws, agree? So pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee my dearest lovable friends, don't hit me with such questions anymore, anymore. Prolly you can think of creative ones to give me a fresh feeling? Uh.... I'll definitely answer your question with a big wide smile, veggies in between my teeths :DD Right, people who sms me frequently, do cut-down on those. I know you'll are concern, somehow or other. Yah, you peeps know that i won't reply, that's good. But i really don't want you'll to waste such "no-reply" messages. Save it if you're sending me those cliche messages, it just irks me.
6:43 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
My true love
I know it may looks wordy, but please please do read this. Have you ever had one of those encounters or experiences that you knew you would remember for as long as you live? Imagine yourself in desolution and suddenly, your knight in shinning armour just stood in front of you and you simply melted? He held out his hands, ready to hold you as you run into his embrace....no matter how hurt you are or how much pain you are going through....he has a way of easing them? Too good to be true? Think again...
I met my knight in Australia. I knew him all along but we didn't really have a very close relationship because I was busy...busy chasing after things that were never meant to be. He's my best friend...someone who really stood by me no matter how (most of the time) I refuse to answer his calls. He listened patiently to all my complains as I go through my days. He waited quietly for me to talk to him even if it's only 10 minutes. He was the first one to offer me a warm and cozy embrace when I so needed one. He was always there for me when I needed a friend. He laughed when I laugh and cried when I cry. He took the blame for all my wrong doings without asking for anything in return. When I say, "I'm sorry", he'd say, "It's ok, I love you."
I knew that he fell in love with me the first time he saw me. It was love at first sight. Although I didn't reciprocate, he carried on watching over me and comforted me like any good friend would. He is yearning for the day I would be less busy. Whenever he tried to talk, I gave him a time frame..."I have only 5 minutes for you...make it quick", I said. He watched on as I turned my back to walk away, back into my busy schedule. Yet, he never gave up on me. He waited and waited and waited...
That day was my most miserable day. I was crying because it hurt so much. The pain of giving up something I treasured so much. I knew I shouldn't but I was rebellious. I chose to carry on even when no one was on my side. I sat by my bed and cried my heart out while he sat beside me....watching...saying nothing. I told him I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to go home. He said it's not the time yet. I felt so lonely deep inside me. I had no one. I felt so rejected, so unwanted. All of a sudden, my world just collapsed. I was numbed from all the crying. At that instant, I heard his gentle voice say, "I want you. I promised you that I will never leave you, I will never forsake you. You have read my love letters so many times. I don't break my promises." It was then that I realised what I've been missing out. He took me as I am, not for what I can offer. He saw my brokenness and quietly picked up the pieces.
In his gentleness, he took my hands and walked me down memory lane. He said, "Remember the time you dreamed of me?" I nodded. Of course I remembered that dream. It was lovely...although I couldn't remember a single word that was said in that dream, I remembered the feeling. It was so calm, so lovely, so peaceful, so warm. He said that I don't have to remember what was mentioned in that dream, I only need to remeber the feeling. I did and I smiled for the first time after so many nights of crying. The feeling of loneliness and rejection left.
I took out my keyboard and started singing him a love song. A song specially dedicated to him. I sang until I was totally lost in his love...so immersed in his presence. I never want to get out. It was hard initially, but I kept trying and I made it. He loved it. From then on, music became my life. Whenever I'm down, he would come to me with a song.
I remember a phrase that say "Wherever you go, God is already there". How true? Although that was just a short encounter with Jesus, it changed my life forever. I was never the same anymore. I yearn for more of his love that came so unconditionally. Then I heard him say, "Freely you have received, freely give." -------- I just happen to remember this article that i've read years ago. I was preparing my bible study notes and came across this article, as in i've recalled. This is a very meaningful encounter with the Lord. Yah, i really wish i'll be able to have sucha encounter with God, a divine one that changes my whole entire life. P/S: Peggy, if you came across my blog, this is the one that i wanted to share with you:)
1:46 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
3 Cs
I came up with this "3 Cs" thing. Chosen Choice Consider How i came about this? Well, i was laming with Michael and i thought of this. That is use to choose your own ms./mr. right :D Haven't been going to school recently, because my sickness comes one after another. Initially was sick, and now i have gastric. Horrendous. Think i really have to chu-ga-liao for study this week already. If not.. yah, cgm that's it. Being a daughter of Christ is never easy, i know. I'm not slave, servant and worker of Christ. Sometimes people come and go. After getting fed for a year plus or 2 and left. Is this going to be the parable of the son? I really hope so. -edited-I've just catched "Mama mia" recently. Is really really awesome alright? Haha Michael expected himself to be sleeping throughout the show, but he didn't. Whenever the song is coming up, he will be like :" Eh eh, see.. song coming up already..(am chio)" -.- Yeah, that's what he did. I didn't really expect much from this either, but it really turns out good. Is very musical, very me:) But the ending kinda dots. Yah, watch it yourself and you'll know. Righhhhhht. Speechless.
10:12 PM
Finished.
Sigh. Right now i can't go for cgm already. BUT..I'LL BE BACK,soon.
7:01 PM
about me
Left-handed, using my creative right brain.
Dreaming to be a singer, a dancer, a make-up artiste, an actress, a prayer warrior.
Lil determination, am easily distracted.
Power-pact laughter i have, eventually i am a very very very very very very cheerful girl.
Making myself look good is an essential.
Kinship is the one that i needed, the most.
Having people like waiteng, shuhui, n336 they are always there to help me:)
Girlfriends, you're not forgotten as well.
Never knowing how much i could do for God, but knowing what i am suppose to do right now.
Making everything to be possible, and never say "impossible".
wish-list
Eternity
Fairytale love
Leap year tale
Necessaries
O school's reggae dance AandB(Nov) AandB(Dec) AandB(Jan) AandB(Feb) AandB(Mar) AandB(Apr)
Master the skill on baking cookies(:
Beauties
L'oreal Limited Edition two way foundation Maybeline new intenseXXL mascara
Za dark circle eye mask
Anna Sui moisturiser treatment gel
Wears
dresses, dresses and more dresses!
red leggings
blue leggings
green leggings bangles, bangles and more bangles!
more of Charles and Keith high heels!
